.::something about today again?::.

~*sorry*~

haiz... i dont know lah...see how my mood fluctuate? haas... oh no... oops...

this morning...i am feeling down...i made that entry... after that i got quite hyped... then now i am feeling down... or am i tired?

i think i am just tired... i need coke!!! C=

haiz.. i dont know la... i only know that i went out when i should be resting at home...

i went out... they spent five minutes in the car after picking me up to decide where to go... aiyo... that is so not like them...

we went IMM... then went with her to go see tv..cause she want to buy...then saw those programmes on the tvs one... feel like performing..then i suddenly feel so stupid again... haiz...

i am there for all the practice and there on the actual day...and i am not performing...what is this??? rarr...

i missed kopi o once AGAIN...rarr

then i think i am tired la... going out to study alone tonight feel stupid also...

then come to think of tomorrow.. i suddenly feel like dressing up and going out to shop or just walk around...what will my mama say if i do that?

or should i join them for laser quest? haiz.. see how la...

or should i go nanhua?

or should i go cresent?

haiz... why i suddenly feel like dressing up huh? siao liao la...lol...

~*nevermind*~
~*thats all*~
~* C= *~

dont think i can online tonight le..r.arr

OH YA.. I GOT 2 HAMSTERS!!! C=

.::what a morning::.

~*my fault*~

rarr... i should not have played till so late yesterday but i didnot expect myself to be sick la...

so sadly...i am here...alone in front of my computer...give me food... rarr...

i hate this feeling... i hate missing you cause i think i cant and should not do that... haiz... but what can i do? siao liao la... i mean me...

early morning...someone asked me about performance... reply... go back sleep... then mama come in nag...then i jiu think...might as well wake up la... then sms le... realise i still want to sleep...jiu go back sleep lor... rarr...

shit...i am having this wrong feeling inside again... oh no... smiles...

haiz... have to try to study... not done with them yet.. should i go out? oh no.. sick and thinking of going out... see how lah...

tomorrow.. go where? wednesday? going cresent... i think.. dont know... rarr...

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

i hate this

nevermind...that dont help.. only make me feel more like a stupid...

haiz.. i am stupid la... HAPPY? rarr

oops..i sounded angry... i am not k... haas... C=

~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*it is easier to smile than to frown*~
~* C= *~

.::today?::.

~*today is a special sunday*~
~*cause it is the first sunday that i am not sad*~
~*hmm...haas*~

i think i was quite quiet today thats why...hello!!! i am quiet ok...haas...

anyway... wake up by nagging...nagging and more nagging...

nevermind... rarr...went out with her to market...got food...

went PA...keelui ate one... thinking of giving someone...but no chance to ask...nevermind...

haas

warm up... quite high during warm up..then the new dance.. really hor... not i want to say... haiz... really hor...haiz...

then come the dance... handled music...and then nothing..weather not good...

then went mac...then took 985 home.. random...

i thought you will call back but you didnt...came online and see you online... nevermind...

i lost the smiles token!!! rarr guilty... sad...

today is a bad day but a happy one...lol...

busy week...oh no...where to go?

tomorrow will be a better day...

.::ya?::.

~*dont know*~

my leg...the sole.. really hurts...

when something goes wrong, nothing goes right... that is my life now...

nag nag and more nag... rarr...

maybe i should talk more about today...since i really got nothing to do...

when to the ndp thing when i am not supposed to...early morning jiu scolded by mama...

went there...yongxuan late...went for breakfast alone...

met him then took cab there... get ready to be baked...

then went into stadium... found weihong and keelui there... went out to look for laoshi and the flag bearers...

helped out... then shifted to the nearby field... help out... get scolded by laoshi... i didnt understand so my fault...

then went back to get bag from grandstand...

went on bus,tried to sleep but yongxuan keep disturbing... rarr...

reach nanhua... went to canteen... dancers got pumped... then went west coast for food...

had peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL

then took 188... went lot 1...then i walked home...

wait.. i mean i walked around.. i walked from lot 1 to home, then i went to lrt, then i walked down that stretch of road from one lrt station to another...then i walked to the market from the lrt station using the longest route...then i walked from the market to the route that i walked when i came from lot1, which is also the usual jogging route... then i walked there and i went down that route, pass south view primary...then down the route to lrt again and went around the multi storey carpark... then went to block 118 along the way and then home...

online... then sleep then dinner then i sat infront of the computer until now... hmm...

pain la...my legs... poor thing...

.::tired::.

~*maybe a short one?*~
~*cause i am tired*~

i pity my feet... my legs... i made them walked a very very long distance today...cause i just feel like walking around today...

i pity my handphone...cause i am starting to not care about it le...

i had a happy morning...all the playing around, thanks to yongxuan... THANK YOU!!!... until i see that message and it makes me wait again...

but as i walked around, and as time pass, i realise i got the answer...the answer is obvious...

i walked around... and i bet this is really the longest walk ever...

not much things done and not much conclusion made... so things are still like that...

the whole stupid thing about me is... i cant accept changes... so i need time... and a hell lot of time...

when was the last time i walked in the rain? i bet it is a long time ago..cause i totally forget how nice it is to walk in the rain...

a nice phrase that i heard from somewhere...

`the rain gave me a reason to cry `cause it makes me miss the sun

~*thats all*~

.::when you feel nothing at all::.

~*when you feel nothing at all*~
~*that is when everything will start anew*~

i went to Choa Chu Kang Community Centre MacDonald to study ALONE... i tried to study and i think i did managed to study... but through out the whole time there, i think the only thing that i know was cold and nothing else...

my flow of thoughts was constantly being cut off by something or somehow by someone that just walk pass... hmmm...

No, it is not the handphone's fault, it is mine fault... Although the phone have vibration every now and then to notify me of incoming messages, it is always not what i want to see...

now to the topic...

is it better to be with someone that you love/like or with someone that love/like you? hmm...i think i talked about this topic before le... hmmm...

complicated? NO!! it is not...not complicated at all.. just that it is difficult to come to a decision and even if a decision is made, it is just difficult to put what you decide into action...you will come to realise that it is unfair to one party...

come to think of it... maybe it is my mp3 fault.. all the songs.. not a single one is happy...

ok..since when are things fair? that is the reason why i dont mind and dont care whether it is fair or not...

so when the other party dont mind, then maybe it is ok to be with someone who love/like you. trust me. you will be happy... cause there will be someone there who dotes on you...but even me, cant bear to make such a decision. you will just feel so bad towards that other party, who is the innocent party who just stupidly fall for you...

so that is the reason why this topic or rather this question is something so difficult to decide...

so maybe when you are in this situation, it will be wise to run away?but if only it really seem so easy...

so maybe it is ok for you to just turn to her... but nevermind.. you will never know i am refering to you cause you are always living in your own world...

things in our life are just so...hmm...how you say? oh. ya...thats the phrase... easier said then done...

i realised something..i am turning evil.. oh no..haas... nevermind..

hmm...do i still have the right to hope? haas... whatever la...

.::Weird People::.

~*or should i say*~
~*PEOPLE ARE WEIRD*~

ok fine... whatever...

hmm...i dont know why people like to lie to themselves... i mean... i know you inside out... just that i didnt want to voice out my understanding... i think you will be so shocked if i do...

but anyway... however nice you made it sound, i know you are still lying to yourself.. things can never be the way you want them to be... no matter what happen, she is still in your life... she is just so important to you...

no matter how happy and nice you make yourself sound and seem, you still cannot deny that tingy little feeling within you... maybe because you are just used to the kind of life with her around...

that is the reason why i say people are weird creature... you did something that you jolly well know that you should not and in the end you still dont regret when you are left in a struggle... how long have this struggle last le?

another reason why people are weird creatures.. they like to lie to themselves... obviously the thing in front of you is a plum and yet you choose to tell yourself it is just an apple... haiz... stupid people...

another stupid thing that make humans weird creature is the fact that they say one thing and do another... i understand the fact that somethings are easier said than done...but haiz... people are still weird.. and that is my conclusion...

who was the one who tell me that he never believe in...nevermind.. i should not continue.. haiz...it is ok... cause i expected the answer from you.. i know what you will say if i ask it infront of you.. i mean.. i understand you..haas.. it is just my choice to show or not show my understanding...

i think i need to talk a long walk again.. maybe tonight.. haas...maybe coke? haas... random...

nevermind.. i think i should not continue on this topic anymore since i am also not very clever... and since the person who should be reading this will never know it is him.. haiz... pointless right?
see... stupid me...

haiz... i seriously dont know what i am thinkng this afternoon... i only know i feel stupid.. haas.. stupid...

am i feeling better? or do i feel lost now? maybe more of lost? nevermind.. i think i choose to be a weird creature and treat as though nothing have happened... since i really dont know what to do las... haas... nevermind... happy jiu hao.. haas... but hor...it is difficult to call... i still prefer sms... d= haas...whatever...

shit...i hate this feeling.. i am missing you.. ya.. but somehow, somthing tell me i should not.. hmm.. rarrr.. haiz..

nevermind... i feel like picking up my phone...but are you busy? hmm... nevermind...

okok...maybe i should move on to what happened yesterday... went marina bay.. i forgot le lah... i dont remember events and dates but i think i remember those small details of small little things... until now i still dont know what i know lor.. rarr... see? another evidence of me being stupid... d=

took some spastic photos at the arcade...

post later if i manage to get them from kaiwen? haas...

ok..there is this stupid thing... there is this group of ah beng... thekids playing parapara mah...then they want to play... ask the kids to let them have their go first.. OBVIOUSLY is want to show off see how pro they are la...

so this funnyah beng went to try... then fine lor...want to show off, we see lor... seriously i tried to hold back my laughter le hor...

then he dance la... then there are just parts that he will 为了要炫耀, some parts he go and use his leg or do other stunts...but for all those, he miss... aiyo...MALU...lol

then after that... i really buai tahan.. me and yunian go to the back to laugh.. the ah bengs there still trying to prove their friends are great by clapping for him...

HELLO hannbin is pro-er

haas

i think those guys think that we are laughing at their pro-ness or greatness... but WRONG... we are laughing at their sillyness...haas...

i think the sec1 wushu better than them lor... rarrs...haas

okok... next...today morning.. haas...

i am blogging now cause i dont know whether ican use the computer tonight...haas...

my mama called me this morning but i accidentally reject her call.. i think this is the first time that i reject her call in the morning.. but cant blame me...she has been scolding me thru the phone for so many times these few days.. and i am really scare... phobia? so i just reject the call without knowing...haas...

then after i reject that call, half awake, some clever people called and wake me up... first is sms in the morning la..next is call... you stupid jiu hao... wake up so early go school when school dont start so early... still hai me to wake up so early also...

nevermind.. then talk lor... how to go back and sleep la... rarr... nevermind... talk awhile after that jiu dont entertain me le.. rarr... nevermind... weather so good.. should have sleep in longer... nevermind!!! i go bathe then i went to the bank despite the heavy rain... despite the cats and dogs.. haas...

then mama call and scold again... say what rain also go out... rarr rarr.. nevermind.. i went to get peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL!!! haas.. happy whole day le lor...haas...

stupid... come home.. i think i sleep again... oops.. is i really sleep again... have to study le... rarr....

next week...weihong was saying... he think chungcheng people miss him... sorry..i think they miss me too.. i will rush down after my chemistry test that day...since the test is at 9...haas.. by the time i end.. hmm... 11 at most... cab down... before 12? haas.. still can play...haas...

~*weird people*~
~*so many weird people around me LOR*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*GOOD LUCKS*~

.::short::.

i am feeling alot better... lighter? haas... at least i know what you are thinking... C= that is a good thing... at least i dont feel that stupid now...

but i am feeling abit bad...seems like 我建立我的快乐在你的痛苦上... d=

if seeing me happy is something good, then that is just what you will see... C=

sorry for all that trouble... seems like we are bring quite alot of problems into
each others life... d=

but still...the stupid thing is... i think i have decided to leave things the way they used to be if you dont mind... cause i think i am somehow used to it le.. d=

haas... let time tell the answer...

coke overdose... i feel like puking now... d=

haas...went marina bay...my mama super duper bu shuang... this will be a super short entry cause she will be coming out to throw the computer away anytime...

oh ya...something quite random happened today... yongxuan smsed me and asked a stupid question... fine... and thanks for reading my blog...haas... i know when you read and when you dont...haas...

hmm...hyper now...

got to go... haas... i never like marina and those places that are near to the sea.. it never make me feel good or happy... d= i feel down whenever i go to those places...

.::haiz...i hate...::.

~*i hate my senses*~

it make me think too much, and know too much.. and also to know too much things that actually dont exist or are not true...

silly and stupid right? that is ME... that is the ME when i do not get assurance... haiz... even i hate myself... everything in my life... unsure and uncertainty...

他缓缓走向湖心，
水有一点冰冷。

他想要去弄清楚，
一些无法确定的事情，
他不晓得他心中那些不确定的感觉，
是真的不确定，
还是因为他自己的不确定，
所以才变得如此的不确定。

如果是因为他自己的不确定，
才会搞的一团糟，
他该如何确定那些不确定？
如果是因为别人的不确定，
他又该如何和那些不确定取得确定？

水真的很冷，
他一直发抖，
他快要无法呼吸了。

他只能确定一件事，
他要慢慢走回岸边。。。

爱情犹如空中飞人耍特技，
必须胆大心细、旗鼓相当、互相配合、信赖对方、放手一搏，才可能有完美的演出。。。

但爱情的半空并没有固定的安全网，
常常一失手，就会粉身碎骨。

i got these from 吉米 book... 你们我们她们... the english title is Something about love...

hmm... i will be normal tomorrow... i am learning to not trust myself...

i cant trust myself... if i trust myself, i will hope...

can there be miracle? my results...

so many things in my brain...

.::random::.

i dont know what happened last night.. but my thinkings are getting more and more towards the wrong way...

my left eye is twitching... allow something good to happen

if this is the game and i dont have a say, i think one day, i will choose to end the game...if i can... i am a leo... like it or not...i am the way i am... i already lose the control of having a say... haiz... maybe that is the sad thing... so i cant even choose to end the game...

anyway... i am both a cancer and a leo... a failure of both... not sensitive enough to be a cancer and not able to lead the life that i want as a leo...

i am in no position to say anything now... not in any position to demand anything...

i am in no position to be angry... and maybe even in no position to be sad...

we are all in no position to own anything now... except to finish the race...

it is acting time... time to act happy... C=

that is me... i have not being acting for quite some time...

haiz... ok... i have been acting all along... it is part of my life... i never let my family know what i am feeling...

cause they cant help...

i am not restricting myself with all the horoscope and stuff.. but i just believe that they are real to some extent... who dare to say that it is totally not true?

scold me please...wake me up... tell me everything in my life is ok and going the right way.. tell me that i am thinking too much... tell me that i am just paranoid.. tell me that things are really ok...

~*communication problem*~
~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*all of us*~
~* C= *~

.::i hate myself::.

~*ya*~
~*nothing done*~
~*no achievement*~

i am crying now... everytime i cry and i want to talk to someone... i realise i got no one to turn to... i dont like this... i hate this... wrong time...

that is my life... that is what she said... ya...nothing done... sitting in front of the computer is a waste of time...

ya...maybe i really should not have come online today...

if i did not come online, i would not be thinking of stupid things and i will not get scolded...

i hate this... i really should not have come online...

maybe today is really a bad day...

i bite myself... this time is to hold back the tears... i dont want her to see me cry...

i really should not have come online today... tomorrow also.. forever...

i should just blame myself for whatever that has happened... this is the only thing that i am in control now... my studies... whatever...

i hope my finger will be ok... i bite it... teeth marks...

how does it feels when the whole family is against you? when your sisters just keep saying bad things... and yet next moment they are being nice to you cause they want chocolates?

how to be nice to this kind of sisters? i am tired of treating them good.. and the next thing i get is their bad temper... especially her...

i think chuenyong is speechless now... thanks for trying to make me feel better...

i will be ok tomorrow... i hope... crying will make me feel better...

two days le... crying two days in a row and when i need someone to talk to, i cannot find anyone to turn to...

i am in no position to do anything now... in no position to feel anything...

why are things the way they are now? if only i can turn back time... if only there is backspace in life... there will be so many things that i will not do and so many things that i will do...

~*thats all*~
~*conclusion*~
~*cry myself to bed?*~
~*dont know*~
~*i feel like picking up my phone now*~

.::when you dont know what to do::.

~*when i dont know what to do*~

the title is abit random cause i dont know what to put as title...

ok... quite chaotic outside... baby just finished bathing and she is running around... carrot is running around with her sister... my mother screaming at baby trying to calm her down...

ok...then both darlings having dinner together now... that is the worst time of all... have to monitor them both cause baby just cannot tahan anyone touching her food and her belongings...

i realise there is something similar between me and baby... maybe that is what you mean the dog is like the owner...

i took her on a long walk yesterday... she is so unsure... not knowing where to go... but she still move along... cause there is me there to guide her...

my life also like that... i cant stand it when i am doing new things or taking up a new routine... i need someone there to guide me... maybe that isthe reason why i cant be a good leader...

so i shall stop thinking of being one... i mean... i never thought of being one actually... not that i dont like responsibility just that i am afraid of doing the wrong things...

anyway... i took baby on a long walk... and i realise that i like to take long walks whenever i am feeling down.. i am happy today!!! C=

i realise time is the answer to everything... that thing happened a nong nong time ago le... and he is still holding on to it... coming to me to talk about it... you have tried to get her back and nothing work out so maybe your are just not destinated to be together...

things are like that... weird... or am i the one who is weird... whatever... i am not making sense again.. haas.. so.. drop that topic...

it is nice to have 2 dogs at home... haas...

my dry fit shirt spoil le.. not as bad as weihong's but mine is more expensive... xin tong... sobs... 38 buckS!!!

not i rich ok.. it is a class tee shirt...

bought 2 bibs for some people.. haas.. i will be out again on thursday.. oh no...

~*thats all*~

.::continue::.

ok..i think i should continue...

i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?

whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...

that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...

i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com

omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...

i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...

ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...

but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...

weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...

anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...

anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=

ok... here is the end... i am tired...

.::continue::.

ok..i think i should continue...

i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?

whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...

that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...

i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com

omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...

i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...

ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...

but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...

weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...

anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...

anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=

ok... here is the end... i am tired...

.::i dont know::.

~*i dont know*~

i am just feeling plain down... i dont know why...

maybe i know why.. just that i dont know how to say...

i think it is the aftermath from being too hyper today...

went out with kaisiang and zirui... kaisiang still as bitchy... zirui still as kiddo and yes, attractive?more attractive?

i am not treating them as guys and they not treating me as girl... ok... no them, just kaisiang alone... he is still just like my sister...

had lunch and i am broke so the 2 guys paid for my meal...THANKYOU!!!

then we talked about alot of stuff...all the past that the 3 of us had...

kaisiang and someone... i was the matchmaker...that was in the past...

zirui huh... only know how to run away from girls... kaisiang knows what i mean... but i still cannot believe what he had done... omg!!! 2 weeks... but at least this had a proper and decent ending... at least there is a proper ending to this thing

ok fine..i cant continue le...

stupid argument... i dont feel like talking... this give me a reason to cry... hais... whatever... alone... i dont like this...

.::i cant sleep~~!::.

~*more blogging*~

hmm... i think i am supposed to be sleeping now.. but promises are meant to be broken? haas... dont care... after this entry and maybe after i manage to find out how to do some stupid things to this blog...

ok..yesterday there is this performance at tao payoh and i intented to blog about it yeaterday but i was way too tired and did not have the chance to use the computer... i only manage to get that small entry up...

anyway... yesterday performance was ok... but i got stupid comments today...my poor filming skills... i am not going to do it again.. rarr...

then today... i woke up real late... oh no... ya.. nagging and more nagging...

then went to pa... wanted to get bubble tea for lunch but i did not in the end cause i was kind of lazy and i am left with only 2 bucks so... leave it for dinner...

then went with an empty stomach... clever me forget to bring the Ego biscuit... and yah...also the CHINA SWEETS... rarr...

sorry lah.. aiyo... where is my browniese? kidding.. haas.. thanks for the chocolate...

anyway... after dance went to hawker... got some clever people say she might have left her wallet in PA... i called someone for her but before the person picks up, she say she found le... then ok lor.. but that person called back la... haas...

then that person called again... ask for delivery... rarr.. slap you ah... give you chance to come over also dont want... oops.. haas... i think got people want to kill me le... haas

then went 7-eleven...seems like that is a routine le... did not buy chocolate cause i no money.. but got nice people give me... haas... got plot.. i knew it... clever me.. haas...

went home... on 985... cold... i want jacket but dont have...

if i have a choice, i would choose cold over hot... i can tolerate low temperatures but my fingers just cant move and i will get purple nails and i will have trouble smsing...

ok... i feel like sleeping.. but Carrot is making alot of noise.!!!

Baby=Baby? haaas.. not very funny huh.. oops...

everytime ask me what i want to say... say liao then say i not sincere.. rarr... no more...~!!!

tomorrow going out with KaiSiang and Zirui... please stop mentioning that zirui and engagement thing HANNBIN!!! before i slap you... haas... kidding...

~*thats all*~
~*haas*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~

.::something tat happened::.

i think i should explain... now that i am tinking more normally...

firstly i am sorry for wad i did... my hp was wif me all the while.. i turned my house fone to silent mode... i appeared offline on msn...

things are ok now but i still think i shd explain...

i said tat i shd not be selfish and be the onli one happy... tat is the reason i wonder whether i shd let go.. but when i was on my way back frm nanhua, i realise i cant decide and i realise i cant let go so tat is the reason why i smsed you and i picked up ur call..

fine... i am feeling stupid now.. haas...

so yah... we dont know whether we are doing the rite ting now... let time tell the answer and let tings continue cause that is the oli way to find answer right?

i only know i kept tinking about u, what happened and what is happening...

i dont care and i dont mind about fair or not... but i dont want to be caught by surprise...so let me know if u cant talk to me cause u r talking to her, met up wif her, patched, etc...

and...haas... u better tell me what u r tinking and feeling huh... stop telling me to do tings tat u r not doing lor... haas...

and what happened tat nite will never happen again... I PROMISED.. C=

so stop being xiao qi... obviously it is you le rite?

whatever... lol

demanding me... haas... DONT CARE!!!

tired... rarr... injuries... poor leg... hmm... ok...both legs...

got some clever people... when i about to call, then tell mi he going sleep le... rarr...

but anyway... did i say tat Baby and Carrot rocks my world...?~~~! haas... they do~~~

~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~

.::okok... what a day::.

~*i am tired!!!*~

fine.. i really dont know what to blog.. i think i am just too tired to think... maybe too hungry too...

not many people are readin anyway... well here goes...

today went to chung cheng... omg... i didnt know teaching can be so so tiring one... i am really tired after all these days...

then got people ask me go suntec... i have to go for art fest opening so cannot make it... but this clever person here got short term memory... so dont blame him for not remembering that i going for art fest...

after chung cheng, went home... then my sisters tell me they going to pick carrot from the pet shop.. so now carrot is home... heard that baby not interested to play with her but she is not agressive towards carrot...that is a good thing... baby and carrot are both asleep now...

i am tired and hungry... i want to bite people liao...

then got clever people dont reply... then when finally call hor, sound so dead...

i think i really should stop nagging le lah... i try... i really swear i will try...

haiz... i am feeling so many feeling now... i think i will really miss carrot and baby tomorrow... d=

Mr Low always say... learn to take care of YOURSELF, take care of others and be a nian qing ren...

well... random...

oh ya.. no reception in the theatre cause the theatre is a good one... not i dont want to pick up the phone huh...

i never switch off my handphone one lor... ok...hardly...

hmmm... did put make up today ok...only abit la.. but whatever la...

my eyes pain again... NOW... rarr.. i think i really need to sleep le... haiz...

~*is it me?*~
~*haas*~
~*hate you*~

.::haix::.

~*hmm*~
~*is it me?*~

rarr... i am having this rarr rarr element in my brain, heart, body and soul again at this stupid moment... all thanks to those clever people around me huh... rarr...

i am now living in a world where communication is only possible if i take the first step...

HELLO can they grow up? she has tonnes to say... cant she just tell him herself... ?? cant he just grow up and stop being a kiddo? rarr...

i seriously dont like this and i seriously dont like being the messenger at home...

i talked to her about it... she told me to go and talk to him... WHAT is this??? rarr...

but i think today is considered quite a happy day other than the fact that i am abit too clever and i hurt my ankle abit again.. it is pain now... haix...

and i think i seriously need to get more rest... i didnt know taking a lesson can be so tired... i am super tired now.. but i came online to read some blogs...

rarr... stupid... i want to bite some people liao... i really hate this lah...

i think i need to talk to someone if not i will really go rarr... i am starting to think of alot of stupid things again hor... rarr...

haiz... hmmm... is it me? haas...

ok..today the happy things...? hmm... the war that i predicted didnt not happen and we went CHUNG CHENG high.. not zhong zheng primary... haas... d=

ok fine... nothing to say le lah...

ok... i miss... hmm... the PUPPY... ok... i miss carrot.. i didnt go and see her today... too tired...

and i seriously dont like the idea of seeing weihong and yongxuan EVERYDAY!!! rarr...

oh by the way... for all the bad and stupid things that yongxuan had done to me to disturb me and cause disruption to my life, here is one great thing that happened to him recently...

his pants splitted in Nan Chiau Primary... haas... and mind you... it is not a small split.. haas...

~*smiles*~
~*that is what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
`take care

.::hmmm::.

~*when will the sky fall?*~
~*when will the things end?*~

hmmm...i am not sad huh... i am not paranoid huh... i am not not happy huh... i am not angry huh... i am not feeling anything negative... instead i am feeling happy... haas...

so...yah... conclusion is i am thinking too much la... rarr...haas...

all the stupid topic about those 2 stupid persons... rarr.. ok... i should stop thinking about them.. HELLO... who are they right??? C=

happy things here...

we decide to name the new puppy CARROT and seriously i am missing her...haas... d=

i went to see her that day but she is sleeping... i think i may just chiong home after dance this sunday lor... haas... SEE HOW LAH... i seriously miss the puppy...

ok... i should stop saying i miss the puppy before someone start saying something again... haas...

BUT I REALLY MISS THE PUPPY!!! d=

rarrr... i feel like biting my sisters now... rarr...

there is this dispute between them about who is prettier... GROW UP!!!

and there is this thing about relationship with girls and guys... haas...

it is just in the genes... paranoid... haas... my sister is getting all paranoid about her relationship with guys after being in a girls school for four years...

haas... Baby is 'digging' my bed... and messing around... rarr... whatever...

what willl happen when Carrot comes?

OMG~!!! I AM MISSING THE PUPPY AGAIN!!! d=

haas...

oh ya...today after i alight from 985 to go to the market... ok...i am attempting to buy sweet talk again.. craving for peppermint milk tea double pearl...

haas... then there is this guy... i think i was abit rude la... anyway...

i was at that shop but they are already cleaning up and clearing... then there is these 2 guys infront of me... then the auntie was discussing with him whether she should still sell anymore since they are already washing up... then when the auntie ask him how many cup he want, i was sort of stunned when he turned to me and ask me what i want...

HELLO~!!! i dont know him LOR...

anyway when they finally come to a conclusion and decide to not sell anymore for the day, the three of us walked off... then i walked past the 2 guys... one of them said byebye and i think i am being abit rude for not replying anything... but I DONT CARE~!!! muahaha...

that was abit random la..

hmm...now... what am i thinking? i dont know...haas... oh ya... go and read people blog.. especially koonhui... haha...

baby just kissed me... d= lol... she is cute and such a darling... C=

OMG~!!! I AM MISSING THE PUPPY AGAIN...!!! d=

ok la... haas... i really should stop that lah... not just missing the puppy alone la...haas... lol...

i am tired... it is 1.10 am... oops.. haas...

~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
`si aun~!!! is this big enough??