.::PB::.

HAHA. it is still about PB.

Did not have the intention to blog these weeks because i hope that the first entry that people read is about me and PB.

haha. but when i see Keelui's tag, i CHANGE my mind. haha.

so here is it. Keelui said maybe he din do it on purpose? haha.

Ya, i tink he is really busy with work and i never doubt what PB said. just that, i think the thing that accumulates is not his fatigue and tireness, but jsut his hatred for me. haha. i bet all of your know who PB is by now. hoho. this is the real him. the shy and good boy is fake. but so be it, everyone has their own choice to showcase whichever face/side of them that they want.

but anywya, back to the main point. the thing that accumulate is his hatred for me la. haha. after thinking for weeks, i finally rememeber when is the time that i was 'rude' to him before.

The XXXXXX camp incident.
Due to the escape of Mas Selamat, the various camp are more tight with their security and to prevent being lock out of the XXXXXX camp during one of the practice, i make people report at 2.30pm although the reporting time at camp is 3pm. and guess what, PB IS LATE AGAIN!!! he should thank god that we were ALL locked out that day till around 3.45pm, if not he will not even be able to go into the camp or something.

see the point? i set the time at 2.30pm to have a time of 15 minutes incase people are late. moving off at 2.45pm is still more than enough to reach the camp before 3pm. and i stated clearly to not be late, in case we are being locked out and i did mention about reason for making them turn up at 2.30pm. BUT PB is still late. rarr. kill me please.

and after my research, i conclude that PB is unhappy and treated what i said as being 'rude' to him, because i was so pissed off with his bo-chap attitude. and i have another conclusion. PB will only be on time or early when he is meeting GIRLS that he is woo-ing. i am not the only one who thinks that way.

and here is another funny issue that happened last week. i was being very kind to not EXPOSE him le la.

HE TOLD A STUPID, BIG, FAT LIE!!!

that fateful day, someone IMPORTANT asked me why PB is absent, i simply replied 'it is his birthday'.

and on another FATEFUL day, another quite important person knew about the quarrel because blahblahblah accidentally mentioned something about it and being the kind me, seeing how poor thing PB was, i said, 'oh it was nothing much, just that i wasnt happy that XX din jiao dai clearly and yet he scold me say i no common sense' the whole issue was 'presented' to the quite important person in less than 3 sentences.

afterwhich, the quite important person said, 'PB said he was absence because he had 3 projects on hand and was busy' and just then, IMPORTANT person walks in and blahblahblah gave an evil giggle. but i din not EXPOSE him.

YAYA, U miss the practice cause you are busy, but actaully u are busy CELEBRATING your birthday. to think that the day before the quarrel, i was still asking JD if we should get u a present. LUCKY I DINT GET ONE.

hmm. come to think of it, he was quite kelian. i dont know to feel happy or wad. i am a leo and as weihong said, i am quarrellsome. is that how u spell that? hmm. anyway, quarrel with jieyim and u will be zibi. maybe he will be very very happy cos i will be missing one NDP practice. ok. more and more obvious who the person is le. but i dont care.

quit thinking he is a good guy, because he is not. he is so unreasonable and stupid.

there is still the pole and performance issue that i have yet to mention. so be it.

I AM EVIL MOUTH right? so how does it feels when it is used on YOU?

.::Jieyim & her Evil Mouth::.

This is about a very interesting incident that happened to me and i am now here to share. No names will be mentioned so the person would not be affected. AND i hope that if the person happened to chance upon my blog, would not be a Petty Boy and a COWARD one to spam my tagboard. i would not hesitate to release more information regarding you.

AND I MUST EMPHASIZE, if anything mentioned by me or assumed by me is W.R.O.N.G. and unreasonable, i will be willing to APOLOGISE.

anyway, first i must admit that i intiated everything by being just slightly GuaiLan. But again, you cant blame me, I was busy and not really happy about what has happened.

But still hmm. after considering for about 12 hours, i have decided to let people know of this incident, but not the names.

It all started one faithful night, at 8.17pm, with ONE SMS. ya, everything is ALMOST word for word. PB is the name. and ME!!!

8.17pm to many (that includes PB):
Pls send me your blah blah blah blah blah blah by 12 noon tomorrow. thank you.
(Everyone replied except PB.)

Nevermind, the next day.

Someone name Blah sent me Early in the morning, the others sent me before noon and BlahBlah got me to remind him to send it in at night. (Ok, i am ok with that, at least you got jiao1 dai4.)

4.16pm to PB:
Did u receive my sms? Did u send it to my email?
(Obviously i know he haven send it to me thats why i sms him. YES, on purpose.)

PB:
Ya, i received bt from 8am to 5pm i m working, so 12pm i m still outside. later i reach home i will prepare.

The usually GUAILAN me will obviously reply the following as i was unhappy that he is like a kid that needs to be chased after and at the same time dont seem to give it a care.

ME:
Ok, thank you for at least informing now that you cant send it to me, at this time.

Note 1: I dint caps any single word other than the first 'O'. I know it was guailan but on a scale of 1 to 5 with 5 being the most guailan, this is like scale 1 for treating someone who had been irresponsible.

PB:
Oh!You are alway welcome. U mean ur common sense spoil till u don noe that i will be working and nt having holiday like those sec student?Maybe u can consult blahblahblah how to improve ur common sense and oso ur mouth. Your mouth is often evil. He sure will be a great help.

Note 2: Its irony for PB to say that i have a evil mouth and still quarrel with me. He should be prepared for the whole world to know. I know, JIEYIM is evil. but do u think i care?haha. At least i admit i am EVIL. way better than a faker. I m biased i must say.

Note 3: But the whole silly thing is, he is AT FAULT! Since he know that he will be working the next day, he could have replied my sms to tell me he cant give it by noon at 8.20pm the previous night. I gave him a 3min grace for him to type his reply ah. But even if he cant reply by 8.20pm, he got like 12 hours to reply before he even leave his house for work la.

ME:
Haha. I tout by being responsible u will let me know cox blahblah is also working and he let me know it can oli be done by 8pm. And blah, in army, 8 to 5, also sent it to me this morning. Be i heard nothing from u. Was that suppose to be my fault or somthing? Dunwan to argue, if u think u r being totally responsible and had a lot of common sense regarding this issue, so be it. Oh by the way, that has got nth much to do with common sense since including me, got 3 ppl working had managed to get it done or at least inform me abt it.

PB:
Oh ya ya! maybe common sense oso nv wake u that wat kind of job i will be doing or maybe deaf tat time when i mentioned my how my work will be like. It nt lik office work when there is time to sms ar. I hope u jus a worm inside my stomach to noe how busy will gt and nt just shoot ppl using evil mouth. ok, if u going to compare army wif my work, u oso noe how ermy life ba hor? unless they did mention while u close ur ears.

Note 4: i dun really understand what PB was trying to mean bt i know he is being sacar. bt that is just so wadever. he still dont know he is at fault.

ME:
if u still tink u r being totally correct regarding this issue, fine. U r being way too insulting and i dun remember i ever insult u tat way. And if u think u r the oli one busy, also so be it.

PB:
Ya, if u could think back clearly, u did said things which are being very rude to me and nt 1 time. u see last time i gt treat u like tat meh? if atfer u being very rude.

Note 5: I still dont think i am being very rude. i am just plain guailan lor. haha. i think PB is being insulting

ME:
Sorry, rude bt not insulting and i dun rmb being rude.

Note 6: I apologise nonetheless but i dont really mean to apologise. Hoho. Realisse my tone? try to realise my tone.

PB:
Actually if u wan it is, rude and insulting, Ya, of cus how would u noe, u always speak things without thinking than jux shoot out, so which words u said had offense ppl, how would u noe, am i right?

Note 7: To be truthful, i agree with wat he said bt most of the time, other people agree with wad i am saying and the last time i remember saying something mean about other people infront of PB was commenting about Chocolate(female) and Blahblah agree with me. Or maybe he is being petty for refering to another incident whereby i talk at a higher/stronger tone to someone else, i said i dont think i was scolding that person but i know i was being mean.

Note 8: i dont like the way he use 'shoot'. dunno he 'shooting' wad. as in, wad is that lor. It just seems like ejaculation to me. -.-

Note 9: I think he really deserve the name PB cos he is P.E.T.T.Y. B.O.Y.

ME:
Ya, u r totally rite. Sorry Sir, im at fault. I dun think i have any more things to say to u. U win, i am a busy woman. And hope u honour wad u said, send it to me tonite. Wad time will tat be?

Note 10: I decide to take blahblahblah advice and stop this pointless argument with the unreasonable PB. and AGAIN, i am being super guailan for the way i apologise and i have TOTALLY NO INTENTION TO APOLOGISE. but then, u will be shock by PB's next reply.

PB:
If u could apologise properly, i will surely do back the same thing. and it nt honour war i said, hope u can jus think b4 u speak in the future, u can jux realli breing no conflict to ppls around u.

Note 11: Seeing his reply, i dont know to laugh or cry. It is like i am BEGGING him to send me the things la. AND he is realli STUPID UNLIMITED. omg. to think that he really believe that i am going to apologise. SEE? See what i meant by P.E.T.T.Y.? the only fault i admit is i am being Guailan in the first place and i said Sorry 2 times le. although i dun mean it. HOHO

Note 12: I think i can only think before i speak if he show people his TRUE face lor, the side of him that he showed me when he is typing ALL THE ABOVE MESSAGES. A TYPICAL Gemini. (PB, U dont need to get agitated, no one knows it is u, and there is more than ONE gemini around me)

So in the attempt to stop the conflict and to make it seem like Jieyim let the loser win, i attempted to stop the argument by sending:
Wad time will u send me?

PB:
Around 8 to 9

The attempt to stop anymore argument FAILED when i saw that '8 to 9' .
ME:
So i will take the later time.

And thats all that happened and PB happily send it to me at 8.45pm. Which is like darn wadever la.

There are like tonnes of contradiction that i found or assume.

(i) PB claim he is busy but he is sending me LONG messages at 4.20pm? What time are u knocking off? 5pm. SO ARE U REALLY BUSY?

(ii) PB claim that i have offended him someway. Hmm. i think the amount of evil joke that i told to blahblah, weihong, koonhui or any other guys are more than the amount of evil jokes or silly comment that i said to him la. HE IS PETTY!!!

(iii) PB claim that i have offended him, but did it occur that he also did said silly/evil/mean jokes/comments about me? Like for example say i am black? And i am more gracious than him that i dont even give what he said a hoot. Maybe he can say that i am used to it. Even if i am used to it, does that mean that u can say those things? I dun remember what i said to him bt i believe wad i said were things tat other people said before.

Message to PB: i am trying to protect YOUR identity here. I am the GREAT person here. so u better dont make a fool out of urself. and ya, i just have to tell u something, YOU ARE JUST LIKE MY LITTLE SISTER!! people say u cannot but u say people can.

This is such a FUN post!!! By the way, just to remind PB, although i hope you dont have the face to read till the last line. THIS IS MY BLOG. and i dint tell people reading my blog that U r PB. So if u really not happy, just close the browser.

Oh again, maybe PB is a busy man that he dont have the time to chance upon my blog.

OH! DID I MENTION THAT he MISSED one of the practice because he think that his Birthday is the most IMPORTANT day THAT HE MUST celebrate it? I really dont blame him but it is not something i really will do.

hmm. what else do i have to say? YA, I KNOW. I AM MEAN/EVIL whatever u say.

That was a harsh post but only to him. Haha. JieYim can be a nice girl.

I was mean to PB and PB only because he dont seem to give anything a damn and this is the not the first time that he is being unreasonable and IRRESPONSIBLE!!!

AND, i am not using anything to 'control' him or 'overrule' him. Whatever position i am in, i am just doing my job and he failed to obey the most basic rule to jiao1 dai4 clearly. He really thought the whole world will wait for him ah. And i dont like the fact that he is ALWAYS late, with exception of going out with girls.

And he is the one who make everything bad and he is the one who left himself with 'no staircase to go down the stage'. Jie yim is evil mouth, he should have prepared for this when he start the first argument.

People all think he is a nice guy but i beg to disagree. he is just a plain FAKER. and that is the thing i hate most.

haha. any people bushuang what i said or PB, u think that i said anything wrong and wants to argue, please email me jie_yim@hotmail.com or sms me. But i will still prefer that we talk thru the phone or face to face cause that will make u less COWARD and i will get my chance to show people the REAL YOU.

this is not someone's temper, it is ur true self.

hmm. this post is getting longer and longer.

OOPS. haha.

hmm. apology to others who are unknowingly affected. JIE YIM dint mean it.

.::disgusted by my own life::.

ok fine, maybe DISGUSTED is too strong a word to use. haha.

hmm. i shall be emo here.

2 issues that make me realise how bad this world is, or at least how bad the people in my world is.

here to mention one single bloody issue.

Have this guy, lets call him Mr AI. He was assigned a task by Bossy Bastard. Mr AI's job was to pass something to someone. We shall not comment on why this guy is called AI by the way.

Hmm. and apparently AI failed to do so.

When i was being instructed by Bossy Bastard to ask AI the reason for failing the task, i found out that it was because someone had passed away in his family.

I dont really agree with AI all the time but, hmmm, i am not unreasonable am i? So i think that the reason he gave was a reasonable one and i think it is a valid one as he even proposed that the accident was in the paper.

so i did my job and told Bossy Bastard the reason. And BLAH! Bossy Bastard think that it is not a valid reason and he got all crazy about it, telling me that it is not a reason.

Bossy Bastard just like to make me pass message and people around me just like to use me as a machine to pass messages to him cause they are just tired of talking to Bossy Bastard.

It is like 'What the Fuck?!'

Always waste my time ask me to pass message and craps, i bet Bossy Bastard favourite pastime is to shout at me and argue with me. Although ultimately, he will either be left speechless or i will chose to give up on arguing with him and let him has his ways since he is Bossy.

Rarr Rarr.

and for the 2nd issue, it is sensitive but rarr. i small part to play for the situation that i landed myself in last nite.

Because of my BAD BAD BAD MEMORY, i totally forgot what i had to do in just less than 30 minute. I still remember it when i was having class, but *POOF* the moment i see my sis Maple-ing, i totally forgot about it and only remembers that it has to be done at around 1.30am!!!

and thank god that i got a FANTASTIC ANSWER!!! nonetheless, i did what i have to do and while waiting for it to be uploaded, i can only envy my dog, sleeping soundly on my bed, under my blanket. and just when i thought everything was going to end, out came my mother to shout at me. WTF. it all makes me feel like crying. argh. but hmm. i got nothing much to say about this issue as i should have expected something like that to happened. either this, or i should have expected a LOOOOOOoooong wait.

hmm. Jie Yim is trying to train her eyes to not see some people. hmm. *THEY ARE INVISIBLE*

hhaaha. someone, God, will do something to them. Oh, by the way, i am on another issue already, there are so many things to say and so many people involved in this entry. woah. when was the last entry like this? hahs.

today is still a happy day on the whole, maybe other than the fact that i cant see Jiangda.

Chicken Pox!!! Argh.

hmm. at least someone is dinning with me tonight. C=

ok, Maybe my life is not that DISGUSTING/BAD afterall.

.::NDP::.

OK. is NDP 08 hahah

whatever that was super random. just a quick update although i know that no one is reading my blog due to its low activity rate for the past one year or so. but i think that is still quite normal. something like that happened to many people also

anyway. here is what will be coming in the up coming week. oops. i use the same word twice in ONE sentence.

haha. performance and then still the same old stuff.

not bad a day today but poor throat. although not sore but i still pity it. haha. good thing i can shout but i think i shout wrongly but hmm. people can hear and i dont get sore throat can le la.

ahaha. it was mac after pract and what happened during pract... hmm. i think it is not appropriate to mention anything here. haha.

and hmm. the little ones at PA. hmm. we shall see how. ahaha

and i think thats all. muahahahhaah

.::busy days ahead::.

~*whatever that comes along*~
~*time will bring it on*~

hmm. busy days ahead. haha. but that should be something happy. something happy for me AT LEAST.

hmm. had a great day yesterday, doing what i should not be doing, and that is, going to Wild Wild Wet for like the 3rd time in less than 2 years. tired of that place le. ahha. not going there in the near future ba. hmm. maybe escape theme park is the next target.

and tomorrow, it will be a trip to sentosa. haha. hmm. some little prince's birthday. haha. i bought the present le and mama have reimburse me. haha.

anyway, i first tried to order somethign online using my new capital land card. haha. cool.

not feeling very very well these few days because of the blooding bloated feeling that i had in my tummy. hmm. go away please

oh. and and, i am going to get a pair of warrior shoes. hehe. hmm. faster get i hope.

argh. totally not in the mood to blog. haha. and hello, i need to find out where is my popular card. hmm. it hasnt arrive.

and i see something good up on net and that is the lowering of price for W910i. haha. it is only 188 per handset now. hoho. thats cool and that means i can afford 2. hmm. so now the question is, izit 910i or nokia 6500s. both are so slick and nice. omg. anyway, is that how u spell it? hmm. heck.

haha. hmm. new hp new hp. i still have to wait till first of may. hmm..

maybe i really should try the interview, go and be an animal keeper in the zoo. haha..

but hor. hmm. have to work on weekends. thats the headache part. hmm. maybe for the sake of the job?

i predict there will be more things for us to do in the coming days. haha. other than NDP that is.

hmm. 5 oclock faster come. argh.

and so now it is time to continue with Food Frenzy. haha.

tata.

.::alls done::.

~*Yeah, thats life*~

ok. i dont know what got into me that makes me feel like starting everything all over again. but one thing that is not going to change much is the fact that i would not do this for long BECAUSE i know myself too well.

haha. another thing that would not change much is the fact that everything will still be written in lower case, not like i will bother to go press the caps button very often or the shift button too... haha

another thing to note, i am in my office now. hoho. that is kind of bad. consider the weather and consider the fact that it is raining outside, i am starting to not make much sense out of what i was typing NOW. hahah

hmm. i enjoyed reading people's entries about how they spend their days but i dont know what other people think about this kind of typical-one-day-diary entry. because apparently, there are people who are so against those kind of entries.

haha. and i dont think it will be easy to get those typical-one-day-diary entry out of me becuase i always cant remember much details about a day although they are usually the same day in day out.

hmm. starting to miss PA. hoho. will be back soon. i really hope. hmm. life at kranji camp was not that bad yet i feel weird, i dont think i am doing good. but well... off to technorati now to check out other strangers' blog and see if anything was mentioned for the practices at kranji camp.

tata people. C=

.::Revival::.

~*That sounds just nice*~
~*Love me MY Way*~

Haha. I am going to revive the blog. I SWEAR!!!
x try my bestest la x

Hehe... I am quite a busy person ok. haha. thats all

yawn good nite

.::MUAHAHAHA::.

FINALLY!!! MUAHAHAHHA

YES! Finally JYim is updating her blog. hahah. hehehe. hohoho.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

yaps. happy days, there are no entries de la. haha. thats perfectly normal. haha.

and hmm. quite a nice Christmas. haha. ok, is a WONDERFUL Christmas. hahahahah.

so much hahaha. hmm

what happened all these days. hmm. Anyhow Art? hmm. and hmm. so many that i dont remember.

but there is something that i dont understand. hmm. is it that i had strike a balance or is it that someone changed. but whatever it is, it is a good thing. hmm

i think i might go around tagging other people telling them that i had updated my blog.

oh ya. by the way, my com is gonna.the com in officealso. so now i m UTILISING my boss' computer. ok. it is laptop. haha

and hmm. i am missing him. haha. so amazing that i still miss him ah. hahah. aiya. i realli dunno wad to blog la.

oh ya. hmm. my mother keep rushing me to go start lesson soon. but hmm. i bet she will then realise that i dun have much money left. oops. hmm. HOHO.

oh ya. hmm. i am stuck in something. something that i cant decide. and i know, even if she say yes now, in the days to come, she will not agree to it de. hmm. somehow, u cant go far.

hahaha. nagging nagging nagging. haha. hmm. maybe i should start taking some more photos too. that is so random.

hmm.... hahahhahaha

.::lazy me::.

so many things happened recently and the amount of work is never ever cleared. maybe because i am way too slack.

i like the feeling of busy, time pass faster that way.

sometime i think, maybe it will be better to be alone. i mean. literally alone, dont need to interact with anyone. wad do you all think life will be like if that really happen? i will want to try. at least to me, i think that is the best thing i will wish for. to be literally alone, dont need to talk or humour anyone. just lead my life.

i talk to someone very guai lan today. anyway, it is not the first time anyway, realli buai tahan him. wah lao. it is not me that want things this way wad. it is not me. hope your company fold soon. god knows how long your can hold on. cheap cheap cheap.

rarr. it dint spoil my day. but now the more i think of it, the worse i feel. guai lan UNCLE. ass...

anyway. the main point is, i realise what is my fear, and that is a secret. and it is happening. or maybe it is always there but i just manage to realise it just now. hoho. that dun sound so nice. haas. but i dun care.

whoopieee. friday coming to an end soon!!! i will be free soon. hahahaha. countdown start now. 30 minute C=

Technorati Profile

.::whoo::.

it has being weeks since i last blog? hmm. dunno. forget

hmm. if only there are some things that i can forget them the way i forget abt where i last placed some stuff. hmm. ok random

back to topic. was reading this book.. 'LOVE IS A WILD RIDE'

borrowed from KWA CHZE SIANG.

damn cool. haas. hmm. will blog about the content when i have the time.

i had a great weekend. meeting with friends and getting gifts for myself and giving myself a great meal. and a great day out with dear. hmm. thats the great part. the not so great part is waking up early and boo-hoo-hoo, spending alot of money. so much that i have to rely on grass for meals the coming weeks and to think that i am only one week after pay day. HOHO

hmm. dear is suspecting that i am having another guy. HOHO. as if i will. cause he seriously had no idea where all my money go. haha. and i dont know how to explain and i cant list everything that i spend money on so ya, iz only a joke though. hahahaha

i felt great, a great daughter that is. haha. i bought bakwa for mama to eat. hahahaha. hmm. oh. and she totally left it on the sofa before bed. lucky i realise, if not it will be Carrot supper party food. hoho

and while waiting for my sister to leave the room as she is still using the com last nite, i let the devil in and she slept beside me. wad an angel she was then. HOHO

tats the only time when she will be angelic. when she is in the mood for sleep. no matter how you slap her muscular thighs, she just wun wake up, no matter how u push her, she JUST WOULD NOT WAKE UP. lol

LAZY.

that sounds quite alot like me too though..

YEAH!!! GOING OUT TONITE!!! HAHAH. HAPPY HAPPY.

i hope it last

.::tired::.

~* i am tired*~

why am i the one? it felt so bad. nothing is right these few days.

how to make things right? what have i done wrong all these while?

falls and falls, failures and failures.

i hate everything that is happening now. i need a rest. i desperately need one now. i need a good long sleep. maybe i will spend my saturday sleeping. if i can do that.

i went to have another ear hole pierced. it dont feel that pain afterall. or should i say it is really nothing afterall.

i am turning psycho. oh no. stop me please.

my eyes keep twitching. i hate it too. both good and bad. i hate them.

and i am dreaming too much recently. i hate it too. i hate it when you say nice things to me in my dreams.

they are opposite in reality. i hate everything that is happening now.

i do love studying now and doing all the calculations at work. it felt good when you know that there is still something going your way.

i am ok. i know i am ok. i hope i am ok when that day comes

.::sweet sweet donuts::.

~*sweet sweet*~

i am just getting so bored and sleepy and tired at work that i feel just like coming here to blog to tell a wonderful story.

hmm. something real sweet and shocking happened last night!!! jd came all the way to pass me the donuts that he queued for at The Donut Factory after his wushu in Nanyang Poly. It ended at 8.45pm so he reached at around 10 plus. oh my. imagine. how shocked i was.

hmm. then we went to mac cos my poor thing did not have anything for dinner other than donuts. hmm. then jiu walked back to my house and he went of to the LRT station.

and oh my, isnt he lucky, he caught the last train. so in the end went to ang mo kio and hmm. i think he reached home only after MIDNIGHT!!! hmm..

thats the sweet sweet donuts story. haas.

hmm. he is so tired. even now he is still sleeping. hmm. iz like 12 noon now? haas.

thanks dear!!! C=

[edited] oh my. this is the 400th post and it is a HAPPY one!!! C= [edited]

the going to be

HMM. my blog is going to reach its 400 post real soon

but anyway. that is not the main point.

hmm. it is just true that i blog more when i am thinking, brooding over something or simply when i am sad.

ok, i feel stupid thinking about it the whole day. but. seriously i dont like what lies ahead of me because i totally have no idea what is going to happen.

maybe aft NDP i will be left with totally NOTHING. yes, nothing. it is just that cruel. ok. depressing and emo senses rising. not going to reach the peak yet.

arent those past days nice, not the nicest from what i know. but at least they are happy days.

never thought that i will face this day. not so soon at least.

i will get it over and done with.

Maybe everything has to end

Maybe everything has to come to an end one day. just like how everything that goes up will come down. like it or not, no one have much choice.

we all know that day will come. but somehow i wish it is not that day. it is going to be someting that will burn me for the rest of the years to come.

be it this or that. there is nothing much to be done. if only we can turn back time? then maybe we will learn how to say no? MAYBE. there are too many maybe and too many things that could be done. but what is the point of saying all thiese now?

maybe to others this dont affect as much and maybe for some of us, it dont realli matter. the most important thing is still to get things over and done with, then maybe we can move on?

i dont know. but it sure is emotional dependency. i feel insecured about all this. how will things be like in the weeks to come? i dont know. hmm.

will everyone know about it soon?

maybe it is really a good thing that i cried them out. how i bit my lips to stop it. i cant even look up. that is such a sad thing. it is someting that i never go through.

ya, it is time to grow up. all these things are forcing people to, be it this or that. they are nothing good.

how to tell the world that? i had a hard time letting it out just to tell my mother. i m refering to this. i needed someone to tell this thing to, badly. in the end i did. i told my mother, i tink she is as shocked as i m. but i think she dont feel much after that.

one moment we are happily playing game on DS, the next something so crazy happened. hmm. so people really dont know what will happen the next moment. hmm. that is just so sad. i dint expected that. he seems ok that day.

Thank you for everything that you had given us. I hope this is not the ultimate end.

slowly, the world will know. and maybe by then the name will exist for the last time that day.

.::The Much Loved::.

i forgot when but then somehow someone came along and i feel that love that no one have ever given to me.

then it was all sweet and happiness

.::emo freak::.

ya, thats me... emo freak.

ok one moment but not the next...

all the days of good treatment are there to make us feel happy. i know. i was happy. but i am not satisfy. i dare say i am not satisfy.

hmm. we are running further and further away from the problem, if that is what you want, you should be happy.

am i just suppose to sit there and cry and blame whoever that caused me to have this problem now? hmm. i don want that and i dont like that. but seems that i do not have a choice.

if there is something that you wish to do for us, for our sake, it will be just trying to convince.

i never not like you doing what you like. i just hate not being able to reach you.

i never not like you going out with your friends, i just hate you for being home late.

i never not like you being with your friends, i just hate you telling me that you not like them but yet you still have tonnes to talk to them about.

not your brothers in all cases.

or am i just starting to feel what you felt days or weeks ago? there is no more left? i dont know.

when was the last time we sat down and talk. no. there is nothing much to talk about anyway. you lead your life and i lead mine. 2 parrallel lines.

but still, it's like this since the beginning, i know that. just that it so happen that we have lesser time to even make a turn to each other. and ya, that problem.

a problem that it dont even occur to you to try and convince her.

so sir, i am here, waiting for orders to leave you when you want me to.

i am not going to sit here and wait. if there is someting that you want to do for US, tell her.

EMO FREAK. stop this will i?

not angry. just want to rant.

.::long ago post::.

~*Once upon a time*~

hmm. was talking to my sisters about my secondary school life and their secondary school life yesterday. hmm. wad a difference or should i say that my sister is more dumb? hmm

so i actually past those 3 days. hmm. that is the long gone feeling, but they are back and as sweet as before. as sweet as it used to be. i tink i should stop before people start to say that i m biased.

hmm. i m feeling tired and more tired and more more tired as the days goes by, maybe i should not even have took part in ndp in the first place.. i mean.. so i have the saturday. hmm. i feel like going to watch the art fest closing this friday, saturday or sunday.. hmm. but by then it will be very late. hmm..

suddenly remeber somting when i was talknig to my sisters. someone used to hide in the cupboard behind my class during one recess simply because he was upset. hmm. that is like.. hmm.. ok, i dunno wad to say.

hmm. so yesterday after that long work day, i went to look for dear outside his school and i waited quite long again.. hmm. maybe i should get used to that. hoho.

hmm. i m so looking forward to the 8th july!! what will we do? wad will i get? wad will happen? hahahahaha..

i want to know but i wan a surprise. haas..

thats all folks. time to work and stop slacking. hoho

~*Much loved*~
~*MeNU*~

What Tan Jie Yim Means

T is for Talented A is for Adventurous N is for Neat J is for Joyous I is for Impressive E is for Exquisite Y is for Yummy I is for Impressive M is for Modern

What Does Your Name Mean?

trying someting new

as u can see, i m quite bored in my office