Giving Up

I feel like I am giving up so much for all these but yet it is never perfect. Not even close to it. There is always a gap, a distance.

If it is under 1.5mm then it is rejectable under ASME B31.6?

If Lack of Fusion is present, it is rejectable under ASME B31.3?

If Lack of Fusion or Lack of Penetration is present, it is rejectable under ABS Hull Weld. Confirm.

It is always those small dots of random porosity that makes the NAD not perfect, not NAD anymore.

What is wrong?

Share about my Days

It is just two days into school term and I can feel the tireness. I am glad that amidst the busy days and packed schedule, I have a rather empty Wednesday. The night class spoils it all but on the brighter side, at least I know that I have a good day of rest before a full night of maths. And rest is important for doing well in maths.

I remember when I was in Primary school, when maths is NOTHING to me, and I can easily score well without studying. My best way of getting myself prepared for maths exam the next day is always to have an extra early night. Like I usually sleep at 10.00pm, I will then try to sleep at 09.30pm instead. Rest your brain, thats what my tutor used to say.

And come to talk about class in Singapore Poly. Have a bunch of good classmates who are rather fun to be with. I am glad I am in a Engineering class. To be exact, the SMA big family, with the Marine Engineering class.

One will never understand the passion for Marine! There is just so much information out there that you feel like you should know and by going for this diploma course, I hope my sister didnt regret getting into this course as well!

And this thursday is no car green day. I hope i manage to find my way to school!

And school has only started for two days and the list below are the things that I need to buy!
SMA Overall
Set square
Set of pencils
Get a piece of good cloth
A good ruler
Eraser Shield

Okies, I think there is more but I dont have the list with me now. I left them in the car.

And today is the second day of class and I have assignment to complete. I have to analyse a article for Critical Resoning. Somewhat like General Paper in JC.

I realise CR is so cool. I wondered what happened to me in my life in JC. Maybe you really need to lose it to treasure it. And I think GP used to be even more interesting!

And there was a topic I wanna share about. It is about driving and handling the steering wheel with just one hand. But it is in the iphone so I shall finish it on the iphone. C=

And had a great night with dear today. Today is a good day! Just talks and more talk. I feel like having steamboat again.

And but for now, time for bed. I miss my bed quite a fair bit. And I shall read some news to keep myself up to date. Haas.

Shall see what else that I need to buy before next week. I hope I dont have to buy textbook for the class tomorrow. Calculus. Kill me please!

And last but not least, I am now looking forward to weekends with dear! I l0ve you darling!

Be a 1.1 today!

Heard the following on the radio during my drive home on FM 93.3. Here it goes.

Take 1 multiply by 1 multiply by 1 multiply by 1, i.e. (1) to the power of 10.
What do you get at the end? You get a 1.

Next, simply add 0.1 to the 1, getting 1.1, and multiply 1.1 by 1.1 by 1.1, ie, (1.1) to the power of 10.
What do you get at the end? You get 2.59.

Next, minus 0.1 from 1 to get 0.9. And multiply 0.9 by 0.9 by 0.9, i.e, (0.9) to the power of 10.
What do you get at the end? You get 0.35.

So, this can reflect how a slight difference in daily life attitude can affect greatly.

Taking 1 as the benchmark, 1 being how you normally behave and your normal attitude at work. By putting in a little bit more of extra effort, you will get 1.1. And after ten days of 1.1, you will get 2.59, which is way more than the initial 1 that you are achieving.

On the other hand, if you dont choose to work hard, instead, you choose to slack a little bit every day, instead of getting 1 or 1.1, you get a 0.9 every day. And after ten days of 0.9, you will get 0.35, which is way lesser than the initial 1 that you are achieving.

Similarly, by having a attitude at 1 everyday, consistent and not improving, at the end of the day, you will still be at 1.

So what do you want in life? Do you want to be the 1 who is the same every other day? Or the 0.9 who is getting worse every single day? Or the 1.1 who gets better every day? Take your pick.

Be the 1.1 today. And the first step for me will be to wake up early tomorrow!

Sweetie

Darling is being such a sweetie today. but aww, he have a upset tummy in the morning but glad that it is over and didnt affect his day. Bet it is all a mad rush today.

And And, I flew from Eunos to CCK in 20 minutes today afternoon. Woah. Thats something worth mentioning. In a Hyundai Trajet, which is Dear's MPV, with a 2.0 tank. I think that is something amazing. Considering that it is already 4 years old and I seriously rev it quite a fair bit. Doubt I am considered a light footer afterall. And all this, is because of the ridiculous girl, who slept all the way till 1.45 when she is supposed to be in school at 8 to do flag day and return her can at 1 to 2.

Anyway, Dear got a Clubman in return for his Devil Mini. Alright, that shall be the name for that fierce and fast car now. It is a combination of the driver and the car though.

Haha. Anyway, nothing amazing about the Clubman, but seems like a Cooper is fast. So after the engine is runn-ed in, we shall see how fast Dear's Cooper S can be, since it is capable of going from 0 to 100km/hour in 7.4seconds!

Thats a devil.

And my FULL timetable is out. My night class is on Wednesday and that sorts of spoilt the plan. Ah. So i have to go to school EVERYDAY! even Wednesday. But it is alright, knowing that the time is only 6 to 9.

And And, I realised something different in the guys. From the past and now. I realised, now work is a joyous thing for them. I like to see how they prepare to get to work. They are like having a party and all working together, helping each other. It is so cool! And I am glad that I am part of this BIG Family!

And now, I shall get back to work and stop slacking and go home soon. A couple more writing to go!

Something that I forget

There is really something that I wanted to post or I wanted to tell dear but seriously, I dont remember.

I should go see if my notes are out or not and get them printed.

This is Life

something stupid happened to me. I guess I am just too too tired. Yat was suppose to come my house at 8am and I dint hear any alarm or phone call till 9 when he turned up at my door and my dogs barked like crazy.

Today, nothing much achieved and nothing much worth mentioning. But I had lunches with my dear these two days.

We had dinner as well, a quiet and quick one. At least with him around, I will sit down properly to have a lunch. If not, I will most likely have it at a later time or rush through it like no body business.

And we went to the pig organ soup shop at balestier to have pig organ soup, pig trotter in vinegar. Finally had a taste of the food there. Nice! We used to want to go there for food. When he started his last sem in SMU and me having night classes. But just nice, our night class falls on Monday, which so happened is the off day for that particular shop. But nonetheless, we manage to have it today. And did I mentioned that the parking lot was so difficult to get.

And thats my day. Not forgeting to mention that I have trouble logging on to the E-journals that is available on SP Library. But I do find some interesting database. Which I believe will be much more easy to access with the company's desktop.

I am planning for a trip to Shanghai. I must save up enough to go!

Will getting a air ticket now and a air ticket at a later time make any or much difference in pricing?

The life after orientation and HOLIDAY!

Okies. Orientation was fine. A class of monkey guys. Some are ridiculously rude. But I doubt I will be their target, since they know that I am so much older. The girls are poor things though, they are all so quiet. -.-

I have a classmate who joined marine engineering, thinking that shipyards like keppel is in tanjong pagar and jurong shipyard is in jurong island. But I told her the brutal truth. They are both in Tuas. And for someone staying in the east, Sengkang, that is ridiculously far!

But anyway, life changes and there is always a choice of the eastern anchorage i suppose

We didnt manage to visit poly marina, because of some late issues and the bus couldnt ferry us there anymore. So we ended early.

And I have this urge to go to Shanghai World EXPO

http://en.expo2010.cn/

must go! I am going to set a date with dear. And for the first time in my life, I am going to pay for the air tickets. It has always always been dear paying for holidays. So I will pay for just the air tickets this time round. SInce that seems like the only attainable thing from now on.

Come to think again, Dear paid alot for all the trips. BinTan, KL (numerous of times), Korea! and Thats alot!

THANK YOU!

And for now, finish blogging, visit the EXPO site and set a date with dear!

Singapore Poly

I used to hate all those talks and lectures but now, looking at the orientation program for today, I rather be attending the talks. Oh. Haha. And I have a sister who pangseh me for guys and come to me when she needs a ride! Haha

Finding peace

At least I feel at peace now. Words can't describe what I'm feeling now but it is like taking a walk back to the past, finding what is right then and put it back to the present. It feels like hitting the restart button and getting here again. I will make it right this time!
Though the boyfriend didn't really say much. :)
And I'm affected by something. JURONG TOWN HALL ROAD. I'm sad that the slope might be gone and I wouldn't be able to feel that feeling again. To think that I was still hoping to go through that road in the mini. Let's try it someday dear. I hope that 'free-fall' feeling is still there. :( happy memories that that road will always bring. ALWAYS

The relationship

Sometime, I feel that I just cant communicate well with the Boyfriend. Like what he said, every other girl can get along well with him, except me. And I definitely have to agree to that. And at times, I just wonder, why the times when he was with me, he is always tired. And sometimes, when you are facing a quiet, a tired, and a thinker, all 3 at the same time, I get tired of trying to find things to say or talk about.

Sometime, it is also because, I find the things in my life that I want to share with him, so minute and micro and not worth mentioning and at times, I do know that he have no idea how to reply me or rather, it dont really interest him. There are just so much more bigger things to talk about.

So, because of that, I still remember how it used to be. It used to be us talking more than the radio and now, the radio is always on. And at times when the volumn is turn down, more than half of the time, we are talking about work.

Sometimes, it feels like I am alone, trying to make things work but then again at times I realised I seems to be the one trying to make things difficult.

And all in all, quarrels is something common and frequent and yes, my mood swings.

And although my mother always says we spend alot of our time together, but it just never seems to be enough for me. Not because I am still in the sticky honeymoon period and honeymoon mood, but more of the fact that I dont feel like the time spent was of quality. Quantity dont work. More than half the time it is work. And the more than half of the remaining time, we are not alone. And sometimes, I hope I cant drive, then he will have to drive me and then we have time in the car, though there are always silence but we do talk occasionally.

And it is saddening to know that your boyfriend hardly smiles at you or laugh with you. Maybe it is because of work, for I am such a useless freak at work. People may say I have done alot but I am still a careless and lazy person. There are things piling up, and again, sometimes, I wish I dont have to drive around. It sometimes makes me doesnt even have time to eat and there are just so many things and driving around, how to task your boss to do it when you know that they can be doing something more useful with their time.

And I used to know everywhere the boyfriend goes and now, no more. And when people asked me where is he, i tried not to answer 'I dont know' because I dont want to hear replies like 'how come you dont know, you should know what', 'how come you dont know, i thought you always know'.

And the boyfriend is usually happy with other people. Or just that I am feeling sore that he doesnt seems happy with me. But then again, seems like most of the times, I am the one making things back. But cant he just have more patience when he is talking to me? Hmm... And that makes me feel stupid.

And at times, I just get jealous that I am no longer the part of the 'We' that is in his mouth.

And sometimes, things do get better, but then again, it doesnt really stay, I think it is me, cause I am never consistent.

And sometimes, I wonder whether I should have a relationship, because I put more effort in my work than in him. Although it is not reflected in the work output. :( sadly.

And I miss time when we go on long walks to places like Hort Park, Marina Barriage, and all the other exotic places that I haven been to before, now, we dont have time for that. The time most spent is in the office, with me in the conference room and him in his room.

And I miss the time, when we will snuggle at my house, to talk, and now, once again, it is just a terribly waste of time.

I realised most of the time I say something, he dont catch it. One thing is, I am soft, but then again, the old me wasnt like that. And another is he is in another conversation. Yap, he is in another conversation. Usually constantly in one. Sometimes I wonder, will he talk to me if I dont talk to him.

Sometimes, I wonder, will things be better if he is not him. A simple person.

And i read the following from someone's blog. Interesting. So which stage am I in now? oh. I mean, what stage are we suppose to be in now.

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Have you ever wondered: Why is our relationship so hard? Things were so perfect when we first met – what happened? Most likely, the answer is that you’ve left the first stage of your relationship, and have moved into another. But could it really be that easy?

Yes! Most people understand that relationships grow and change over time… but what many people don’t know is that they tend to evolve in the same way. There are specific, defined stages of long-term relationships, which offer new feelings, new challenges to overcome, and new opportunities for growth. And if you want your relationship to evolve into one of mutual respect, love and intimacy, it’s likely that you’ll have to experience all of the following relationship stages at some point or another. Take a look at the description of each phase – do any of this sound familiar?

Before we get started, you should know that most people experience these stages in this order, and will need to resolve the challenges in each stage before they can move successfully on to the next. Of course there are always exceptions to this rule. But for the most part, you can’t get out of experiencing all of these stages if you want a healthy and fulfilling relationship. Every couple will move through these stages at different speeds, and most people will experience each stage more than once – it is common to fluctuate from one stage to another.*

Okay, now that I’ve given you the basic info, let’s dig a little deeper….

Stage 1 – The Romance Stage

This is also known as the Courtship Phase or the Fantasy Stage, and can last anywhere from 2 months to 2 years. This is when you and your partner have just met, and everything is absolutely amazing. You can’t get enough of each other. Neither of you can do any wrong in the eyes of the other… mainly because you’re both still on your best behavior. The focus in this stage is on commonalities – you have so many common interests, you could practically be the same person! You show your partner your absolute best self, and you try to please each other as much as possible. Conflict is seen as “bad” in this stage, and is avoided at all costs. You can’t imagine living without this person, so you begin spending as much time together as possible. This is the stage when our defenses are down the most, which allows you to be open to and fall in love. You and your partner are building an important foundation in this stage, so your relationship can grow. There are biological effects as well. When you’re in this stage, your body is producing enormous amounts of endorphins, which makes you feel unusually happy, positive and excited about everything in your life (this is that “head over heels in love” feeling!). This is the stage most often portrayed in movies and romantic novels, for obvious reasons. Bottom line – you are happier than you’ve ever been, and can’t imagine ever feeling any differently.

Stage 2 – The Disillusionment Stage

This stage is also known as the Familiarization Stage, or the Adjusting to Reality Phase. This is where you begin to realize that your partner is actually a human being (horror of horrors!). You get to know each other more and more, and as a result you start recognizing their various flaws and shortcomings. You see your partner in relaxed situations, and you become more relaxed as well. Since your body cannot possibly continue to produce the same levels of endorphins that it was in the beginning, those feelings of being on top of the world start to decline. Your partner’s little habits aren’t quite as cute as they used to be, but there is still enough goodwill from the Romance Stage that you’re willing to overlook them. This stage can start to trickle into your relationship slowly, as you begin to see your partner for who s/he really is. Or sometimes it happens all of a sudden, when there has been some sort of dishonesty or deceit. This phase can be confusing and discouraging, since you’ve just experienced so much openness and connection in the Romance Stage. However, at this stage, your main job is to learn how to communicate and resolve conflict with this person effectively, which is an important skill if you want your relationship to continue.

Stage 3 – The Power Struggle Stage

This stage is also known as the Disappointment Phase or Distress Stage. As the characteristics from the Disillusionment Phase intensify, they become harder and harder to deal with. You will most likely begin to pull away from each other in this stage. At this point, you both still believe that conflict is a “bad” thing, but you are increasingly aware of your many differences. You fight to draw boundaries in the relationship, and as a result even small annoyances become big issues. This is the stage where you define unacceptable behavior, and most couples have occasional or frequent thoughts of leaving the relationship. More and more often, you start to feel like your partner is self-centered or un-caring, or even worse, that they simply can’t be trusted. Deep resentments begin to build if you’re unable to resolve your issues in a respectful and mutually agreeable way. Many couples get stuck in this stage, because this way of interacting becomes normal in their relationship. This is when it is absolutely necessary to learn to manage your differences effectively – to communicate and work together as a team, even though it’s tempting to believe that your partner’s sole purpose on Earth is to make your life difficult. Not surprisingly, this is the stage most couples are in when they decide to break up or file for divorce. However, if they are able to negotiate all of the landmines during this phase, they’ll move on to….

Stage 4 – The Stability Stage

This is a restful and peaceful time, compared to the last stage. This stage is also known as the Friendship Phase or Reconciliation Stage. Some couples never make it to this stage, but the ones who do find that they have deeper feelings of love, connection and trust with their partner. You now have history together, and most people begin to rely on the predictability of the relationship. As you enter this stage, you begin to realize that your partner isn’t perfect, but your personal differences aren’t quite as threatening as they used to be. You’re able to resolve most of your differences, at least to some extent, and you become more confident in the relationship. Some people feel a sense of loss in this stage as they learn to accept their partner for who they truly are, since this means they have to let go of the fantasy that was established early on in the relationship. But for the most part, the deepening sense of friendship and commitment is a good trade-off for those early feelings of butterflies and excitement. This is also when you begin to re-establish your own outside interests and friendships, which were given up in the Romance Phase. There is some danger that you may begin to drift apart from or become bored with your partner in this phase, so you should try to maintain the connection that was created in the Romance Phase. Overall, this is the stage when you finally begin to feel comfortable and happy with your deepening relationship.

Stage 5 – The Commitment Stage

This stage is also known as the Acceptance Phase, the Transformation Stage, or the Real Love Phase. It is estimated that fewer than 5% of couples actually make it to this stage, according to The Relationship Institute. This is the stage when both couples have a clear notion of who their partner is, faults, foibles and weaknesses galore… yet they make a conscious choice to be with this person in spite of all of those things (and in some cases, because of those things). You are no longer with your partner because you need them, but because you’ve chosen them, which means the level of resentment you felt in the Power Struggle Phase has decreased, if not disappeared. If you’ve made it to this stage, you and your partner are a team. You genuinely love your partner, and you look out for their best interests just as much as you look out for your own. Your partner is your best friend. There are few surprises about your partner’s habits or character in this phase. You’ve collaborated to overcome many challenges together, and have grown to accept and support each other without restriction. Your vision for your relationship is in congruence with who you are and what you both truly want. You have discussed your future together – you have similar life goals, and you feel encouraged to define your relationship further. Many couples decide to make a formal or public commitment to each other in this stage (such as marriage) to demonstrate their intention to continue their relationship. This is the stage in which your relationship becomes a true partnership.

About the author: Sarah M. Schultz, MA, CPC is a certified Personal Development Coach in Park City, UT. Sarah coaches quarter lifers (adults in their 20s and 30s) who want to create meaning and passion in their lives by building lasting committed relationships, creating a fulfilling work/life balance, and managing the stress of major life transitions.

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Finally, I managed to type all those out. This blog better publish it well.

at 1.15am

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Warm!

I love the fact that The Boyfriend is always warm. Even in cold concert, cold Ktv room or in cold church. :)
So I get alot of warmth from him. :)
Now, craving for some Mac. I'm hungry