.::sad and depression all at once::.

~*i brought her trouble*~

~*but how m i suppose to help her when i dun undstd her?*~

i jux read her blog... life seems very miserable for her... i hope to hel her... but how? i jux dunno how to talk sense into her mind... she is taking tings too seriously... she is putting ppl down casuing others to feel like total failure... she said she would get bad results... if tat is the case, den wad will i get?

according to her blog, tings jux dun seem to go the right way for her all her life.... but she forgot all abt *him*... she has gt a *him* in her life hu love her more dan she love *him*.... shouldnt she be happi? frends ard mi including mi jux couldnt find tat *him* in our life hu love us or love us more dan we love *him*... to most of my friends and mi, the other party jux dun care or not putting in enuff... but tats totally diff in her case... not meaning tat she is not putting in enuff... but sumhow i jux feel tat she izzen content wif wad she haf...

~*she may not be very clever...*~

~*but she is one of the cleverest amongst us*~

~*she may not be the best looking amongst us (according to her)...*~

~*but she gt the *him* in her life*~

~*she may not be very rich...*~

~*but her family can still afford a car (apparently my family cant)*~

~*she may not see herself as one of the best dancer...*

~*but the fact is... SHE IS!!!*~

i dunno how to put all dese facts into her mind... how to let her know tat she izzen tat bad.... she is one of the best gal tat i had ever know... i may disagree wif wad she does at times.... i may say bad tings abt her when i m angry wif her.... but she is still one of the best... ya ppl are putting her down... but she is pulling herself down even more...

~*how to tell her all dese?*~

~*or shd i jux stay and watch and do nuting?*~

~*i m guilty*~

~*guilty for all the tings tat happened bcox of mi*~

~*guilty for not giving her the support when she needed it*~

~*i jux feel that i m not fit to be her friend...*~

~*after all those bad tings i had said abt her when i was angry*~

.::sad::.

~*my heart sank when i saw it*~

~*m i forcing him? i tink...*~

in the past i tried to force him to change his tinking to accept my theory in a rude way... but i was jux too anxious to get things right...

now that he seem to haf undstd, i m starting to feel guilty... is he changing for the sake of our friendship? i forced him to change... i know tat... i m feeling sad now...

i wish to help him... but i tink i did tings the wrong way... we were all sad abt wad happened to him recently and we were all concerned... yet our concern cant do aniting... our concern cant help him... he still haf to face tings on his own...

~*how i wish i can tell him everyting*~

~*but i cant*~

.::kekex::.

~*wad shd i do next?*~

today i realised tat i haf so many questions in my life... haiz... presently i mean... i dunno where to go after getting results... i haf fears for my results... i dunno how to handle friendship problem... haiz... the worse ting of all is still how to help him...

no one had told him how serious tings were now... i oli let j and t know abt it... but i realli cant tink of ani solution... watch everyting from a far or dun gif a damn abt it since he never learn? i realli dunno...

i wish tat he will jux learn... i wish tat tings between us will be good agin... ut tings juz dun seem right... he doesnt learn... mayb becox he is jux under too much influence to change himself to suit the environment... haiz wad shd i say? iz time for him to learn...

~*let tings go the way dey r supposed to be*~

~*half a glass of water is better to be refered as half-full than half-empty*~