Thursday, September 28, 2006

.::HUH?::.

~*to be double sure*~
~*i am always asking that*~

so? that dont mean anything. i still cant seem to get everything right. i always forget things and i always overlook things and what else? A HELL LOT MORE!!!

so? what can i say? it is like HELL. i am not doing well in studies and i always fail to complete whatever task that people tell me to do. why?

WHY?

it is those guilt that is filling me up now. i know i dont mean it. who wants to be so not observant like me? who want to be as forgetful like me? cant my mother just accept it or something?

maybe it all started out with a bad day today. i was worried that i might lose her. i wanted to ask her and be concern today morning but all i got was a yell from her to get out of bed and it is never good to have too many women at home. especially those during their critical period. sorry.

it is my fault to begin with, if only i got out of bed. if only i look through all the emails with more care.

ok

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry

~*smiles*~
~*trying to*~
~*sorry*~

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

.::another day::.

~*stupid blogger*~

rarr.. i am in a rarr rarr mood. cause i just feel so stupid today. no. i have donequite alot of work today. and i manage to post everything that i was trying to post yesterday.

ok. pmsing. no one in the house seems to care about me now. no one. just no one. ok. that is just so whatever.

i have a daddy who think that i am a kid and dont know how tohandle human relations, telling me to not introduce people to go and work and stuff like that. hello? i am 18! whatever.

then come my mother who is still ok. at least i think i still exist in her eyes. but when i stepped on that pole on the floor and hurt my leg, no one seems to care la. if the one yulping away now is baby or carrot, i bet it will be totally different.

and i have sisters who dont even thanks me or anything for whatever that i have done. ok. i am just pms ing. sorry. but it is just so whatever.

rarr. slap me. i am going to school tomorrow like finally. i intented to go today. but what time did i wake up? 6?! it is freaking late by then la. so? off to sleep la. dont care.

and what am i suppose to do next? it is like almost 11 now and i am just not in the mood to do anything other than stoning. WHATEVER!!

ok. rarr. today is just a silly day. a day that made me realise that no one care. it hurts k? stupid to run to a phone and what i get in return? rarr.

ok. finish ranting. thats all. i am going to find some entertainment.

oh. someone called mathew sms me today. it is like million years ago since he last do that. had no idea what word that was. cause i cant see. anyway. i replied and that idiot didnt reply. see?just another person who dont know how to say thank you or how to appreciate. rarr.

what a friend? ok. not a friend, just the son of my daddy's friend, who happens to be his 'brother'.

oh. today. i attempted to take a half an hour nap but i end up coughing and crying for the second time of the day and in the end the nap-attempt failed.

ok. that is my day. rarr.

~*smiles*~
~*grr. trying to.*~
`carrot is a nice friend
`baby changed

.::cont of day1::.

then after she left for her friends house to study at around 2, i am the only one left at home and i start to stone again. oops. i am just thinking you know? haas. then i went to write in the book like finally after so many years and then i went to work on maths and i sat there till my mama come home and i went to keep the laundry and i helped to cut the touhu up into pieces then my mother go fry.

then something that usually happened to someone young happened. little kids lose their teeths, puppy change their sets of milk teeths too! C=

i helped carrot removed her baby tooth. oops. thats both baby and carrot. lame. i mean carrot's baby tooth. cause she was bleeding mah. then went back to maths and then to dinner. then i watched tv, then here i am. after some talking, i am blogging. and i just had a good laugh on something private that happened to my sister and me last night. she just have the potential man. oops. potential to be a man maybe.

then what is next? early night? i will. tomorrow i am going school! C= i wanna go out. anyone? maybe go out for a lunch or something. i just dont want to go home and stone. and i dont want to go to plaza by the park or somewhere near there maybe. i dont want to think of you. rarr.

haas. i will tell people that joke man, it is funny and i mean it. Evil me. waiting for some jokes. and some entertainment.

and PMS ing somehow. i think. bloated. and i wanna go shopping!!! =D

this is all that i did today. not a very very very happy day.

rate your day. 1 being sad, 10 being extremely happy. i will say today is just 5 bahs. all thanks to that call! =D

~*smiles*~
~* C= *~
~*that is just how bad it feel*~
~*get used to it girl!*~

.::day1::.

~*today is a different day*~
~*it just felt different from last time*~

it just felt different from that previous camp, cause the previous one just dont make any different to me. now it do.

ok. so today, i woke up in the morning by an sms. did i say i quite like that feeling? but it is about something that i dont really like, who will like that? but hees. a message is a message.

then i replied and i went back to sleep. short reply, sorry. then i woke up by my mother a few times, but she fail terribly k. cause i kept going back to sleep. then i finally decide to not lai chuang and i woke up. i bet there is only this person who can wake me up. bleah.

then i went to bath. then i cleared up the mess in the kitchen by my darlings. then i went to wake my sis up and i went to the market to get food with her. she brought her ingredients for making jelly slice. seems to be something tasty huh, who knows?

then went home and she make the biscuit layer with biscuit and butter, just like the way she made for her cheese cake. and i bet someone agree that only the biscuit base layer taste good for her cheese cake. haas. oops. then we feasted on Siew Mai, which we bought from the NTUC. and nice and rather fattening lunch, but contented la. cause i just dont know what to eat. we also shared sweettalk. oops.
LO AND BEHOLD.

THE HISTORICAL MOMENT EVERYONE HAS BEEN EAGERLY WAITING FOR FOR THEIR ENTIRE MISERABLE LIFE..

AND SECRETLY WHISPERED TO THEMSELVES BEFORE THEY BLOW THE CANDLES ON THEIR BIRTHDAY CAKES EVERY YEAR..

is here!

NO. YOUR EYES AIN'T PLAYING TRICKS ON YOU!
THE LINE BEFORE THIS [okay actually the line before the one before this] READS:
I.S. [SPACE] H.E.R.E. [SPACE] [EXCLAMATION MARK] (IN small LETTERS)

YES! THE SISTER OF THE OWNER OF THIS BLOG IS VISITING!

and i know, all faithful readers of this blog will start pondering, and wondering and thinking. why is the sister of the owner of this blog [let's just put it in short for the convenience of the writer: sotootb] SO MUCH MORE ADORABLE THAN HER SIS [who happens to be the owner of this blog]?! i hope i'm not confusing you. okay well, the reply to the above question will be: CUTENESS IS A RECESSIVE ALLELE! HAHAHA! AND SO IS SMARTNESS! AND SO IS PRETTINESS!

aye, what a crap entry-.-"

P.S: CRAPPINESS IS A DORMINANT ALLELE!
P.S.S: nynpcc rocks! BWAHAHA! -.- my heart will drop out of my mouth if my juniors read this.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

.::it is just totally rarr rarr::.

~*rarr*~
~*PMS-ing*~

ok. that is just an annoucement to warn people to move away from me. i am going crazy now from extreme boredom. i am really having nothing to do and i have no idea and no feel for my books and there is no one to talk to me. and what else? i am just plain going crazy. there is just really nothing that i can do now. oh hold. i realise there is something that i can do. so off i go.

ok. i am done with them and here i am with nothing to do and a mother who is so so extremely unhappy with me sitting in front of the computer chatting that she demands me to iron my own clothes. that is so so whatever. do you think i care? no i dont. rarr

whatever whatever whatever. i am going crazy now. i need sleep. i need to do something. i need to stone. i need to cry. i need time. i want A level to end. i want to leave home now, just for today. i want to do something that i like. i need to do some craft. i need to have chocolate. i want to eat shilin. i want to eat KFC. i want to solve whatever problems that i have. i want to have more money. i want some quiet time. i want a new mp3. i want a new handphone. i want a earpiece. i want battery. i want to rant. i think i have rant enough. i want to spend more time with someone or something that i love.

anyway. i have rant enough and it is all done and over and i am feeling a hell lot better. bleah.

~*smiles*~
~*always know that*~
~*no matter how sad or unhappy you are*~
~*there is someone, somewhere there for you*~
~* ME *~
~* C= *~

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

.::oops::.

~*more tan*~
~*oops*~

anyway.. i got darker today and that is not a very good thing and i simply love fish leong's song and here i am doing nothing, cause my prelims just ended today and guess what? the moment the paper end, we got back results for biology paper.. -.- totally sianed

woah.. not bad as a start but i bet the other papers would not give me such pleasant surprise as biology paper does..

do you know what? i am craving for some dotA now.. but where is my partner? d=

i am scratching all over.. i think it is due to the over exposed to the sun and there my mama goes.. nagging.. she is just not used to seeing her daughter dark. but it is just in the genes.. no choice.. bleahs

haas.. and i am bored now.. entertain me please.. hmm.. waiting waiting waiting..

i had a happy day and i hope others around me are just as happy... C=

woots.. tomorrow getting back more and more paper and i predict nothing good will happen.. i just want some improvement.. what was the result for the last test? all F.. and ya... i am sure.. ALL Fs!!!

ok.. no more now.. i hope so.. bleah.. haas..

my biology paper.. i think i got a 61.5 over 140? hees.. that something good le ok? although i didnt pass la.. but at least i am not getting somewhere much lower.. and more maths to be done.. i will be home with a thick math booklet tomorrow for revision..

can you believe it?i am actually looking forward to that.. how i wish time just pass faster.. and jusst suddenly, i have the urge to mug.. d=

hees.. yea.. random.. whatever but i am not going ot mug now..maybe i am going off to write somethings.. C=

when was the last time i write?i feel like drawing winnie the pooh too.. yeaps.. more to searching of winnie the pooh pictures online~!! C=

woots.. thats all bahs.. bleah

~*smiles*~
~*when will the next one come?*~
~ C= *~

Sunday, September 17, 2006

.::woots::.

~*huh?*~
~*i dont sound that happy*~

i am not that happy.. just wondering whats wrong with me since yesterday.. hmm.. idiot me.. why? what happened?

i am like totally sian diao or something.. just dont feel like doing anything that requires me to think.. and today is a totally nothing-completed-day

other than finally finishing the forms for PAssion card and only to realise that i forgot to ask for yiting.. haiz.. i think i will have to do it next week.. haix

then what else? there is pratically nothing much to talk about today lor..

ok.. all i felt like doing was sitting there and stoning.. i dont know why.. mentally tired? maybe? but i am still jumping around like no body's business at times.. rarr.. slaps

ok.. so i am stuck at home tomorrow.. great.. and i hope i dont sleep the whole day.. silly me.. rarr...

whatelse to talk about here?

ok.. i predict.. i forgot what i was trying to predict.. and that is not very funny.. i am feeling like an idiot now.. whatever

this is even worse when you have a sister who constantly coming to me to consult me on Permutation and Combination, forcing me to think at this point of time.. and i have a mother who just keep telling me to study..

i dont have that determination to last that long.. ok.. so i give myself a treat.. mediacorp.. shhhh.. dont tell too many people.. i am feeling abit guilty

maybe i really should lock myself at home.. YA.. I SHOULD...

rarr

stop being an idiot la... TAN JIE YIM

ok.. so back to work.. oops.. not school work.. hmm.. d=

~*smiles*~
~*see that fake smile on my face?*~
~* =D *~
~* -.- *~

Friday, September 15, 2006

.::hmm::.

~*nothing much being done*~
~*i need sleep*~

hey.. that was what i have been ranting a few days ago.. to be exact, yesterday.. NOW? haas.. i am alive and kicking and i have more than enough sleep that i need..

i slept the whole day... that is someting to be guilty about... what a wasted day.. anyway.. i have plans for tonite.. a tv programme later at 11.30 and then more stoning in front of the computer and have an early night!! with an early night, tomorrow comes faster.. haas.. whatever.. i have enough of being stucked at home...

ok.. was trying to get a job from gapbuster and apparently i failed.. cause i just hate jobs to do with macdonald cause they are just so super obvious and the moment after you turn your back, people will be ranting behind you.. must be her.. that is just so whatever.. although there is one in pasir ris tomorrow.. hmm..

anywya.. what have i done? study and spend alot of time lazing around.. and that is fun.. :P anyway.. what else?

yaps sakae.. oh my god.. fat huh.. oops.. but had quite a lot.. oh no.. haas

whatelse?

ok.. so the last paper is coming and the next are the results.. please.. no more royal flush.. i will be super sad.. anyway.. what wil i do if i cant win this race?

headache and headache now.. oh no.. too much sleeping.. maybe.. haas..

going to roam around later.. i mean the net.. haas..

and do i have to say that i got something like 'killing spree' when i was playing dota last nite? whoa.. that feels great.. hope i have another chance to hear that again.. d=

~*smiles*~
~*whose birthday is it today?*~
~*happy birthday*~
~* C= *~
`when the skies come crushing down
`you will be beside me
`wouldn't you?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

.::regret? live with it::.

~*i made the choice*~
~*i will not give up*~

things in the world are just so funny.. i got a second hand phone and how glad i was, that was what i want and that the uncle dint realise the fault in my old hp.. C= evil me.. i spent 50 bucks for an old phone.. and i am feeling guilty now.. i spent quite alot recently.. haix..

and now.. i am with the phone and someone is just getting all fed up with it.. haix.. sorry.. my choice, the 2 choices that i have, definitely not my hp.. ok.. a hp and i lost someone in return?how much worst can it get? that explain why i cried.. ok.. it is stupid..

sorry.. i cried quite alot recently.. and i am not happy with the life at home... taking me for granted and not seeing what i have done, all they know is shout at me.. ok.. so whatever.. what can i say?

and next week.. hope it is full of surprises for someone.. i hope i hope.. C=

and here i am. blogging after so many days... seems like i still have quite somethings in my hands.. should i dance or do my work tomorrow? seems like studying is a better choice.. but nope.. warm up!!!C=

and the 20 push up and sit up each day? haas.. standard push up for me?haas d=

`i love my phone
`but i love you more
`oops

~*smiles*~
~*jieyim*~
~*smiles*~
~*no more tears*~
~* =D *~

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

.::messy days::.

~*know what are the bad things that mood swing cause?*~

ok.. mood swings.. sometimes overly hyper and sometimes overly sian and sad.. maybe i should have just lock and keep myself in bed..

hmm.. ok.. these few days.. nothing much done.. nothing good done to be exact.. haix.. when was the last time that i felt so bad? apologise also no use..

hmm.. ok.. spent money to go and watch that performance at victoria.. some people take tickets le din turn up.. haix..

i like being a backstage helper.. i like those kind of job.. but haix.. how does it feel when someone that you have to work with is not happy of your presence? anyway.. it is over.. no more chance to be a helper until the one outside Esplanade? hmm.. i missed a chance to get to know victoria and to explore victoria.. hmm.. wadever.. nothing is right now.. apology dont work..

i felt relieved yesterday and i realise how idiotic i was the past few days.. hmm.. nevermind.. nothing much to say..

what is next?had seoul that day and cool.. outbreak huh.. haix...

MY LIFE IS IN A MESS!!!

whatever la..

sobs... when you dont know what words to use, you use cute...

when you dont know how to react, you can choose to laugh out loud or cry..

~*smiles*~
~*finally one day i feel like cooping myself at home*~

Sunday, September 03, 2006

.::hate blogger::.

~*ok la*~
~*not really actually*~

na li she de? haas.. so so many entries.. so many memories.. i think i would not bear to give up on all of them unless something real bad happens..

hmm..

i stopped making dreamcatcher... hmm.. i gave to 2 people before.. seems like it is rather.. hmm.. cursed? hmm.. dont know.. but ya.. better be safe than sorry.. but haas.. when the day comes for me to make it for someone, it means i have total faith, trust and believe that whatever relationship that is, will last.. C= maybe a big bet.. but i have faith...

ok.. had steamboat at home yesterday.. oops.. outbreak.. sobs.. worse and worse.. how? haix.. and somemore seoul this monday.. tempting.. hmm. so long din eat le.. i dont care.. must eat.. d=

auntie.. where are you? where is my cream? sobs.. ok.. yaps.. hmm.. ok.. nothing much..

today.. hmm.. nothing significant.. maybe because i spent most of the time on my own.. haas.. tomorrow!! monday!!! C=

dont remind me i have to mug.. please dont.. haas.. d=

~*smiles*~
~*know that you are being loved*~
~*know that the dreamcatcher will be in your hands one day*~
~*and i promise a BIG one*~
~* C= *~

Friday, September 01, 2006

.::rarr::.

~*kind of bored*~~* d= *~
so here i am to tell you about my day and what are things i am doing..
ok.. today.. woke up real early to wait for the installer to come.. ok.. the person.. lets name this person an uncle la..
he realli is an uncle though..
then he came at around 9.30? install and done le..
but was wondering whether the wireless can work not cause the LED is not lit.. then he went off saying he will check and asking me to try it asap.. i am tinking.. how to?no laptop..
anywya.. he called back later and confirmed that the wireless is NOT working.. so he came again after i had planned to go out with Hoon.. so called her and lucky she haven go out.. so in the end i think the mother and the son went out on their own..
then that uncle come again and went through same struggle with the 2 little brats and done.. C=
wireless up and going.. C= test tomorrow huh.. haas.. someone's laptop.. nope, it is mine, got my name.. muahahhaa...
then anyway.. slept for dont know how long then mama come home and went out for dinner.. oops.. sweet talk.. i had sweet talk after a light dinner..
then what? hmm... then went to check out the prices of phone.. hmm.. then tried to buy online but realise we got no credit card.. ok.. fine..
then after that what? i tried to do bio mcq.. failed.. just a few questions and the computer is ready for me to use.. so off to maple and then to dota, about 1 hour and 20 minute game.. hmm.. stupidity.. din even get to see the throne and i feel so omg todya.. only one pathetic kill.. what is this? tian ah..
then here i am.. i went to read yiting's blog and did some blogthing.. FUN.. haha.. result below... C=
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