Sometimes silence seems to be the best thing.
You never know when the next statement will be mis-interpreted.
Clearing the mis-interpretation is more troublesome than to even not make the statement in the first place.
So be silent, silent is gold.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
How a person can turn out to be like him
Back from Malaysia yesterday night. Had a good time over there though it was a rather tiring trip towards the end of it when it comes to the actual thing. Had a long drive back which gave me the chance to sleep.
Anyway, when I am back at home at night, like usual, blog surf around as what I always do and I got to that blog again. And reading her blog, I decide to go facebook.
Hmm and just as what I expected, someone new is in his life again. On his birthday, she was still wishing him happy birthday, tagging on his blog and in about 16 days, someone else tag on her facebook some happenings that she had with him.
This just means that he got himself a new girlfriend in so little days.
I wonder, doesnt all these means anything to him? He always manage to get a new girlfriend in less than 3 months after his last relationship ends and the intervals just get shorter and shorter.
First it was after me and that took him 3 months and he got a new one. After with her for almost a year, God knows when they broke up, and now with someone new. All these dont make sense. What is love to him.
Sometimes I wonder, is it because of me leaving him so suddenly that make him turn out like that. But I dont think I have the ability to affect him that much.
I remember what other people around him said at that time.
"If you think any one else will be interested in her, go ahead and let her be. Someone with achievement will never be interested in her, will not even want her."
So in the end, he was proven wrong. I remember calling him in December, when I realise I dont know who else to turn to. But I cannot imagine him being different.
He never have the ability to keep girls around him though he have the ability to attract them. He hurts them, just like how he hurt me. Maybe I am not even in the position to comment about what he did for I did something similar before.
How he says to never keep your hopes high, because the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.
How he always say that promises are made because they are meant to be broken.
How he always like to say what he want, what he want but he never manage to get them out.
How he always have to wake up early in the morning though he isnt really getting anything out of it.
But one thing about him is different now. Or maybe because that is a new relationship, thats why he is doing what he is doing.
He gave the new girl a pressie for her birthday, and I do know where he got that idea from. That was what I did for him then.
He can be a nice person, a nice friend, a nice boyfriend at times.
I guess I dint really affected him that much, because i dont think i have the ability to do that. How much effort he put in then, how tiring it could be to keep the relationship going then, I can still remember. I guess he needed a younger girl all the while. I am too strong for him then. But then again, that doesnt give any reasons for him to get into relationship one after another.
Just some random ramblings, hoping that things will be better for the ones hurting now. Those dont go away so easily.
Anyway, when I am back at home at night, like usual, blog surf around as what I always do and I got to that blog again. And reading her blog, I decide to go facebook.
Hmm and just as what I expected, someone new is in his life again. On his birthday, she was still wishing him happy birthday, tagging on his blog and in about 16 days, someone else tag on her facebook some happenings that she had with him.
This just means that he got himself a new girlfriend in so little days.
I wonder, doesnt all these means anything to him? He always manage to get a new girlfriend in less than 3 months after his last relationship ends and the intervals just get shorter and shorter.
First it was after me and that took him 3 months and he got a new one. After with her for almost a year, God knows when they broke up, and now with someone new. All these dont make sense. What is love to him.
Sometimes I wonder, is it because of me leaving him so suddenly that make him turn out like that. But I dont think I have the ability to affect him that much.
I remember what other people around him said at that time.
"If you think any one else will be interested in her, go ahead and let her be. Someone with achievement will never be interested in her, will not even want her."
So in the end, he was proven wrong. I remember calling him in December, when I realise I dont know who else to turn to. But I cannot imagine him being different.
He never have the ability to keep girls around him though he have the ability to attract them. He hurts them, just like how he hurt me. Maybe I am not even in the position to comment about what he did for I did something similar before.
How he says to never keep your hopes high, because the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.
How he always say that promises are made because they are meant to be broken.
How he always like to say what he want, what he want but he never manage to get them out.
How he always have to wake up early in the morning though he isnt really getting anything out of it.
But one thing about him is different now. Or maybe because that is a new relationship, thats why he is doing what he is doing.
He gave the new girl a pressie for her birthday, and I do know where he got that idea from. That was what I did for him then.
He can be a nice person, a nice friend, a nice boyfriend at times.
I guess I dint really affected him that much, because i dont think i have the ability to do that. How much effort he put in then, how tiring it could be to keep the relationship going then, I can still remember. I guess he needed a younger girl all the while. I am too strong for him then. But then again, that doesnt give any reasons for him to get into relationship one after another.
Just some random ramblings, hoping that things will be better for the ones hurting now. Those dont go away so easily.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
A happy deepavali
Did i get that spelling right? oh well... not that i really care. i think i only cared that it gave me a holiday...
anyway, went dragonfly last night. i am firm about something. I LOVE TO DRINK. i love to get drunk. and to be able to keep yourself in control is IMPORTANT! i like that though. i concluded that you need to drink alot to get high to be able to dance mroe happily. haha. so i shall drink more the next time. hehe. :p
hmm. anyway, i drank afew glasses of blacklabel with coke. and 2 glasses of vodka lime. crazy. i think it was the vodka that made me high. -.-
and woke up at 11 this morning, went over to dear's house and went for the malay wedding. then went to his house, wanted to watch Pride and Prejudice but i think that show, you need to be really interested to be able to sit thru it. it is slow and dry and nice. :)
anyway, was feeling asleep and went to The Linear to view an apartment. not the best that you can get around. maybe it is the weather that made me not like that place. or just that i am sleepy and also not to mention that the blood is flowing and making me all uncomfortable. -.-
went back to office, took something, and asked something, and got a reply that made me feel stupid. -.- ya, maybe it is just ME that people always dont feel like talking to. but seriously, i dont even know the head and the tail and i assumed that she knew and saw the invoice already. and it just makes me feel that she dint want to entertain me, like dont undstd wad i am talking about. or rather, dont feel like bothering herself to understand what i am talking about. -.- irritating when you know that you cant offend her.
anyway, went to pass someone something and i asked where we are going and i got a reply that make me so stupid again. of course i know you need to go queensway but how do i know that if you have other plans? or i shouldnt even ask. or should i assume? or maybe i am really dumb to not see something so OBVIOUS.
and then was dinner and the stupid mosquito thing. YOU DO GET IMMUNED TO MOSQUITO BITES. not all people though.
"Some people become so desensitized that they become "immune" to the itchy bites"
thats what the webbie said and my bio teacher told me.
Apparently, when you introduce yourself to a new environment, and obviously, a new breed or group of mosquitoes, you get mosquito bites. over the days and weeks, you realise that you dont feel the itch and the swell anymore. just like when we shifted in to new office or new home, days or rather weeks later, the bites doesnt affect you anymore. simply because you are more tolerant to the saliva left behind by that group of mosquitoes.
i know the point is not about getting immune or not, but how irritating mosquito can get when they fly around.
but the thing is, i may not study alot, but there are things that i know i know. not some gossips that you hear on the streets. i do have knowledge of some kind.
like how fat molecules in your body breaks up into more when they get too fat. they split like cells and making you get fatter easier, because there is more fats molecule in your body to take in the fats. argh. thats difficult to put into words.
sometimes, it is not about me doing it and asking for it even before someone has a chance to do it or show it. sometimes, after waiting for a long time, the thing still dont happen. so about asking for kisses. it works for a few days? and thats all? and now. i just want someone to hold my hands and walk down the street or shopping centre. i dont even know how to place my hands. let them swing there? put in my pocket? fold my arms? but i will think. what if it is not he dont want to hold but just that i never let him have the chance to? so at the end of the day, my hand still hang there weirdly, with me not knowing what to do to them.
me not taking enough initiative or too much.
movies time!
anyway, went dragonfly last night. i am firm about something. I LOVE TO DRINK. i love to get drunk. and to be able to keep yourself in control is IMPORTANT! i like that though. i concluded that you need to drink alot to get high to be able to dance mroe happily. haha. so i shall drink more the next time. hehe. :p
hmm. anyway, i drank afew glasses of blacklabel with coke. and 2 glasses of vodka lime. crazy. i think it was the vodka that made me high. -.-
and woke up at 11 this morning, went over to dear's house and went for the malay wedding. then went to his house, wanted to watch Pride and Prejudice but i think that show, you need to be really interested to be able to sit thru it. it is slow and dry and nice. :)
anyway, was feeling asleep and went to The Linear to view an apartment. not the best that you can get around. maybe it is the weather that made me not like that place. or just that i am sleepy and also not to mention that the blood is flowing and making me all uncomfortable. -.-
went back to office, took something, and asked something, and got a reply that made me feel stupid. -.- ya, maybe it is just ME that people always dont feel like talking to. but seriously, i dont even know the head and the tail and i assumed that she knew and saw the invoice already. and it just makes me feel that she dint want to entertain me, like dont undstd wad i am talking about. or rather, dont feel like bothering herself to understand what i am talking about. -.- irritating when you know that you cant offend her.
anyway, went to pass someone something and i asked where we are going and i got a reply that make me so stupid again. of course i know you need to go queensway but how do i know that if you have other plans? or i shouldnt even ask. or should i assume? or maybe i am really dumb to not see something so OBVIOUS.
and then was dinner and the stupid mosquito thing. YOU DO GET IMMUNED TO MOSQUITO BITES. not all people though.
"Some people become so desensitized that they become "immune" to the itchy bites"
thats what the webbie said and my bio teacher told me.
Apparently, when you introduce yourself to a new environment, and obviously, a new breed or group of mosquitoes, you get mosquito bites. over the days and weeks, you realise that you dont feel the itch and the swell anymore. just like when we shifted in to new office or new home, days or rather weeks later, the bites doesnt affect you anymore. simply because you are more tolerant to the saliva left behind by that group of mosquitoes.
i know the point is not about getting immune or not, but how irritating mosquito can get when they fly around.
but the thing is, i may not study alot, but there are things that i know i know. not some gossips that you hear on the streets. i do have knowledge of some kind.
like how fat molecules in your body breaks up into more when they get too fat. they split like cells and making you get fatter easier, because there is more fats molecule in your body to take in the fats. argh. thats difficult to put into words.
sometimes, it is not about me doing it and asking for it even before someone has a chance to do it or show it. sometimes, after waiting for a long time, the thing still dont happen. so about asking for kisses. it works for a few days? and thats all? and now. i just want someone to hold my hands and walk down the street or shopping centre. i dont even know how to place my hands. let them swing there? put in my pocket? fold my arms? but i will think. what if it is not he dont want to hold but just that i never let him have the chance to? so at the end of the day, my hand still hang there weirdly, with me not knowing what to do to them.
me not taking enough initiative or too much.
movies time!
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Missing
Alrights, I just finished a whole story book. A really nice one and now going to bed. But I'm missing him. :( how I wish he was here next to me now. Argh! I can see him in another 7 hours! :) that makes me happier. Hehe.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
NEW LAYOUT!
Love this new layout totally... cant believe i actually manage to find it... haha
was sharing with dear about the story of honey, bee and queen bee... haha... i feel so clever suddenly...
but i see the need to faster get to bed... my throat is kicking up a big fuss after 2 nights of crazy things.
Love... Can be so beautiful...
Let things stay this way, if not, better. C=
was sharing with dear about the story of honey, bee and queen bee... haha... i feel so clever suddenly...
but i see the need to faster get to bed... my throat is kicking up a big fuss after 2 nights of crazy things.
Love... Can be so beautiful...
Let things stay this way, if not, better. C=
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