God have his way

So many things happened these days but everyone is still kept busy and the job is being spread out. Haha. God really have his way. (: bless my dear.

blog

Shall blog while waiting for the guys to come out. Hmm. Realise something recently. I suppose it is the level of maturity that matters. I can't be finding for those kind of teenage love out of what I have now. I should grow up! Someone is in India!

Something today

Something that happened today made me realise the need to be optimistic.

Whatever that happened the past week threw all the efforts down the drain. And today, nothing happened is the fact that made me realise that being optimistic is more important than anything.

so many things

There is always so many things to SMS. But the sad truth is, I never get long SMS. I hate short replies and I hate no replies before. But I changed. I changed to accept.

worse drive

That was the worse drive back. From office to lawrence house on a Saturday. I was so drowsy from the medicine. And I was so careful but everything seems so blur and so not true. Oh my.

Once upon a time

Once upon a time, someone once told me something to convince me that things are suppose to be the way he said it should be.

Today, it reminded me how I used to spend my weekends when he is not around. Saturday is suppose to be days spent on catching up on sleep. And weekdays are just so busy with classes after classes, night class and driving lesson.

I was so alone then that I turned back to JD, hoping that there is someone who can talk to me. I didnt admit that before to anyone. No one knew about this and I suppose it is really stupid then.

I needed someone around me. Today, I remembered how to spend my weekends. But I also remembered how someone once knew that I was lonely but yet I am alone now again.

It is nice to knit and finish things up. Oh no, I am hungry.

Am I making sense? You can be alone but not lonely. I am not lonely.

Someone

Family members think she is 'fake'. Not 'fake' in a bad way, but rather, she might not be as nice as she protray herself to be.

So what was she thinking when she sms me, telling me to remind my boyfriend to bring his passport? Why didnt she sms him directly? Was she trying to let me know that she know more about him, know more about his needs, or just plainly, want another person to remind him?

What puzzled me was, why cant she sms him directly and why didnt she want to sms him directly? maybe she really just wanted another person to remind him.

Sick again. another time in less than 2 months. Not pleasant. I slept the whole day yesterday at the boyfriend's house. A nice place to sleep. Quite and no disturbance.

It has been long

It has been a while since I last post. It is good, it just means that everything is fine. Whatever that occur here are hardly good stuff anyway, and I will hardly be in a pleasant mood when I start to post. And thats why I am here now.

I have work to do, but I am feeling plain lazy, knowing that even if I start, I cant finish it now, so might as well dont start. I shall do it over the weekend.

And it really take so much to stay happy, take so much to be ok about things, only to realise that deep down, there is still someone who affects you so so much.

I was browsing on facebook and I remembered another date, important date of my life. Okies, lets move on. Haas

I am sleepy and my eyes are uncomfortable. I suppose it is the eye liner. It irritates my eyes.

And once again, it is just me that is unsure about things and that doesnt require any assurance at all. Who am I afterall?

Sometimes, when the right feeling comes, nothing can be done to it right?