.::this was what happened then::.

I felt what i felt a year ago. Having more than enough time on hand, not knowing how to spend them.

I got the phone that i like, i got the pouch that i want. But i am not happy. I got all those with just me, i and myself to share the joy.

I think i just need a place to hide and cry and i like where i am now. I was glad that i have this place at least.

Maybe it is the world that matter. or i just dont have a world to call it my own.

shall continue to plan for the birthday party. i left the list at home, if not i could have send the email tonight. i think i should. but maybe i should go home. i was hoping for...

How to go home with swollen eyes? I hope i fall asleep here and wake up tomorrow.

I am hungry. maybe i should eat macdonalds. i want sweettalk. it will make me feel better. i swear.

but how to buy sweettalk when you dont even know how to order.

or maybe whipcream will be good too. maybe i should just go ahead and buy a can of whipcream and not care so much.

i felt the burn from the petrol cost. it isnt cheap, but after so much, i think i should put in a bit. so i did.

and i know how lost it felt today. how u cant find your car in the carpark and you are just walking around in circles. thats the worse feeling, especially when you are trying to find a place to hide for things to fall.

i still found the car in the end. and i am glad that i manage to get out in 5 mins? suppose that is something great le.

i think i should just get macdonalds.

one tooth is feeling loose and weird, the other is feeling swollen, like the gums are growing around the metal things. who to tell these to?

i need more sleep maybe. i need to hug the pooh bear to sleep tonight.