.::What really happened?::.

Today, out of the 10 things I do, I miss out 2 and I make mistake in another 2.

A customer called and tell me that something was wrong again. Then follow by asking me, what went wrong recently?

Am I spending too much time on unnecessary things? Am I being too relaxed? Why things just cant seems to be finished?

.:: This is Life? ::.

If this is life, then it really sucks.

I am sick and tired of all these. Everything is easier said than done. Everyone say and only us doing.

And SHIT. I need recreation. I dont need work on Sundays. As if i have a choice.

I just wanna lament, let me be and I want one day leave! I need one.

I need someone to lunch with me, I need to cry, All these seems too much. I cant imagine going back to studies. I am suddenly so not looking forward to it.

can i be a useless person and not work and not study and just let days pass like that?

Fuck Up

I wanted to...

I wanted to blog about something but I changed my mind

The uncertain future

I shouldnt be blogging at this hour. But still.

I am getting all the wrong feelings in me. The thought of it sent chill down my spine and makes my hands and feets cold. Just like how I felt in the past when something happen. And even the previous few times, I dont feel that way. But I do now.

Does it matter or affect if she was left alone.

Lets see the logical side or the emotional side of me wins.

Enter at Your Own Risk

What will happened another month down the road... I am exactly 30days away from the start of school

Finally Done

Finally done! It was the boyfriend's birthday last Friday and I was just too packed to go and even get the things for his pressie.

Didnt know what to get for him, so thought that a cake will be good.

But... hmm... time doesnt permit. I cant find time to buy the ingredients and no one can help. So it drag till today and I am only giving him the cake one week after his birthday.

I miss him so much now. So much that I am getting paranoid and depressed.

I know I will just have lesser and lesser of his time in the future, even time on the phone.

I am just anal about things maybe but it feels so far away now.

My arm ache from the cake making. Really. Chocolate can be heavy.

And school is starting. And I am sleepy now.

Happy birthday Dear!

Time to get the thing out

It's my darling's birthday but it has been afew crazy weeks. Let's get the things out! I mean his birthday pressie. Guilty.

头发

我仍然坚信，卷发的男人是风流的。

微卷就丁点风流，越卷就越风流。

就只是和朋友的互动而已。只能怪自己没有那么多朋友，也就没有那种互动。

如果还像以前那么紧张，那该有多好。

为什么

对我说话时可以不要那么不耐烦吗？
是我很烦人吧？
也许吧。

有因有果，因是源自我吧。
当大家都少说话时，是因为了解了还是腻了`厌了？

No one knows...

I am hungry

原来这么难

原来这么难。每当我自己独自一人时，我总会想。

The best night and the worst day

Had one of the best night last night.

Today is officially the first worst day of the year.

FU*K myself.

Lost and 02 March 2010

What a day. Woke up early, not really early and before I can start driving, I get lots of calls that stop me from driving. So in the end, I wait till i settled all the things before moving on. Only managed to move off at 0830.

I think it is standard what the doctor will say. I do feel my eyes getting real tired today though. Anyway, I didnt really get alot of sleep last night. Or rather, I didnt get enough sleep last night.
I was almost told to get that stupid eye drop. It is $70 per box. Shall see how.

Going to cut my nails soon. it is getting irritating.

Went back to office, only to realise that the things that were supposed to pass to Lawrence arent in the office. Oh crap.

And I went to Loyang. And being in the mood that I was in in my previous post, I took a wrong turn and instead of going back to PIE to tuas, I went on PIE to changi. Double Crap.

So I took ECP to city and exited at Marine Parade, but I wonder why the drive from Marine Parade took so long. I went from Marine Parade to Mountbatten, to Geylang then finally to eunos.

Amazed that I made my way back though. Thats my day so far. I am craving for curry puff now. And I suspect moothy is staying behind because he want a share of the curry puff

Have you ever felt like there is someone that you feel like living with for life? I felt that and I found it but I am so scare of losing it, so scare that all the silly things happening around me gets me on my toes and paranoid. Yaps, paranoid, thats the word, I think that is my middle name -.-

Sleepyhead

I'm a sleepyhead who miss her bed.
Yawn, I am hungry and tired and not exactly happy, not unhappy, not irritated, not upset, not feeling excellent either, not feeling down but then again not feeling hyped. Tell me what is this about.

Silly little stupid irritating things that were taken into the wrong consideration

Sometimes, I think I am just too anal and over sensitive about all the silly little things, that I know are not logical, but tell me, how silly can it all get.

I am so irritated by myself. so irritated. and so irritated that I even get bothered by those things but I am still bothered.

Why she make herself sit at the passenger seat when my boyfriend is the one driving and why is she the one sitting next to him and not me when we are having lunch.

But anyway, they arent suppose to know.

So stupid right, but not like it matter to anyone other than me. I lost my appetite and just feel like finding someone to sms but that person didnt reply.

Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I dont talk. I think I will be forgotten. Maybe the only thing in common is work, and that I dont understand because there is just this much that I know. Actually it feels like I know alot but maybe sometimes things werent told to me but you thought they were and it is tired to think of things to talk.

I am tired to think of things to talk so I shall remain silent.

Anniversary

This is the 14th month together.

I realised today that the Boyfriend actually cares alot, without letting people know that he does. Now I know. C=

I feel so loved suddenly. Shall be more sensible =p that is the new year resolution. Abit too late to realise that.

And good decisions are being made today. Other than the purchase of the mini, also me deciding to go back to studies and work together!

Cool! Love it. shall release more details only when the things are finalised.

But it does mean one thing, lesser time with Love. Chiong ah!