.::MUAHAHAHA::.

FINALLY!!! MUAHAHAHHA

YES! Finally JYim is updating her blog. hahah. hehehe. hohoho.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

yaps. happy days, there are no entries de la. haha. thats perfectly normal. haha.

and hmm. quite a nice Christmas. haha. ok, is a WONDERFUL Christmas. hahahahah.

so much hahaha. hmm

what happened all these days. hmm. Anyhow Art? hmm. and hmm. so many that i dont remember.

but there is something that i dont understand. hmm. is it that i had strike a balance or is it that someone changed. but whatever it is, it is a good thing. hmm

i think i might go around tagging other people telling them that i had updated my blog.

oh ya. by the way, my com is gonna.the com in officealso. so now i m UTILISING my boss' computer. ok. it is laptop. haha

and hmm. i am missing him. haha. so amazing that i still miss him ah. hahah. aiya. i realli dunno wad to blog la.

oh ya. hmm. my mother keep rushing me to go start lesson soon. but hmm. i bet she will then realise that i dun have much money left. oops. hmm. HOHO.

oh ya. hmm. i am stuck in something. something that i cant decide. and i know, even if she say yes now, in the days to come, she will not agree to it de. hmm. somehow, u cant go far.

hahaha. nagging nagging nagging. haha. hmm. maybe i should start taking some more photos too. that is so random.

hmm.... hahahhahaha

.::lazy me::.

so many things happened recently and the amount of work is never ever cleared. maybe because i am way too slack.

i like the feeling of busy, time pass faster that way.

sometime i think, maybe it will be better to be alone. i mean. literally alone, dont need to interact with anyone. wad do you all think life will be like if that really happen? i will want to try. at least to me, i think that is the best thing i will wish for. to be literally alone, dont need to talk or humour anyone. just lead my life.

i talk to someone very guai lan today. anyway, it is not the first time anyway, realli buai tahan him. wah lao. it is not me that want things this way wad. it is not me. hope your company fold soon. god knows how long your can hold on. cheap cheap cheap.

rarr. it dint spoil my day. but now the more i think of it, the worse i feel. guai lan UNCLE. ass...

anyway. the main point is, i realise what is my fear, and that is a secret. and it is happening. or maybe it is always there but i just manage to realise it just now. hoho. that dun sound so nice. haas. but i dun care.

whoopieee. friday coming to an end soon!!! i will be free soon. hahahaha. countdown start now. 30 minute C=

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.::whoo::.

it has being weeks since i last blog? hmm. dunno. forget

hmm. if only there are some things that i can forget them the way i forget abt where i last placed some stuff. hmm. ok random

back to topic. was reading this book.. 'LOVE IS A WILD RIDE'

borrowed from KWA CHZE SIANG.

damn cool. haas. hmm. will blog about the content when i have the time.

i had a great weekend. meeting with friends and getting gifts for myself and giving myself a great meal. and a great day out with dear. hmm. thats the great part. the not so great part is waking up early and boo-hoo-hoo, spending alot of money. so much that i have to rely on grass for meals the coming weeks and to think that i am only one week after pay day. HOHO

hmm. dear is suspecting that i am having another guy. HOHO. as if i will. cause he seriously had no idea where all my money go. haha. and i dont know how to explain and i cant list everything that i spend money on so ya, iz only a joke though. hahahaha

i felt great, a great daughter that is. haha. i bought bakwa for mama to eat. hahahaha. hmm. oh. and she totally left it on the sofa before bed. lucky i realise, if not it will be Carrot supper party food. hoho

and while waiting for my sister to leave the room as she is still using the com last nite, i let the devil in and she slept beside me. wad an angel she was then. HOHO

tats the only time when she will be angelic. when she is in the mood for sleep. no matter how you slap her muscular thighs, she just wun wake up, no matter how u push her, she JUST WOULD NOT WAKE UP. lol

LAZY.

that sounds quite alot like me too though..

YEAH!!! GOING OUT TONITE!!! HAHAH. HAPPY HAPPY.

i hope it last

.::tired::.

~* i am tired*~

why am i the one? it felt so bad. nothing is right these few days.

how to make things right? what have i done wrong all these while?

falls and falls, failures and failures.

i hate everything that is happening now. i need a rest. i desperately need one now. i need a good long sleep. maybe i will spend my saturday sleeping. if i can do that.

i went to have another ear hole pierced. it dont feel that pain afterall. or should i say it is really nothing afterall.

i am turning psycho. oh no. stop me please.

my eyes keep twitching. i hate it too. both good and bad. i hate them.

and i am dreaming too much recently. i hate it too. i hate it when you say nice things to me in my dreams.

they are opposite in reality. i hate everything that is happening now.

i do love studying now and doing all the calculations at work. it felt good when you know that there is still something going your way.

i am ok. i know i am ok. i hope i am ok when that day comes

.::sweet sweet donuts::.

~*sweet sweet*~

i am just getting so bored and sleepy and tired at work that i feel just like coming here to blog to tell a wonderful story.

hmm. something real sweet and shocking happened last night!!! jd came all the way to pass me the donuts that he queued for at The Donut Factory after his wushu in Nanyang Poly. It ended at 8.45pm so he reached at around 10 plus. oh my. imagine. how shocked i was.

hmm. then we went to mac cos my poor thing did not have anything for dinner other than donuts. hmm. then jiu walked back to my house and he went of to the LRT station.

and oh my, isnt he lucky, he caught the last train. so in the end went to ang mo kio and hmm. i think he reached home only after MIDNIGHT!!! hmm..

thats the sweet sweet donuts story. haas.

hmm. he is so tired. even now he is still sleeping. hmm. iz like 12 noon now? haas.

thanks dear!!! C=

[edited] oh my. this is the 400th post and it is a HAPPY one!!! C= [edited]

the going to be

HMM. my blog is going to reach its 400 post real soon

but anyway. that is not the main point.

hmm. it is just true that i blog more when i am thinking, brooding over something or simply when i am sad.

ok, i feel stupid thinking about it the whole day. but. seriously i dont like what lies ahead of me because i totally have no idea what is going to happen.

maybe aft NDP i will be left with totally NOTHING. yes, nothing. it is just that cruel. ok. depressing and emo senses rising. not going to reach the peak yet.

arent those past days nice, not the nicest from what i know. but at least they are happy days.

never thought that i will face this day. not so soon at least.

i will get it over and done with.

Maybe everything has to end

Maybe everything has to come to an end one day. just like how everything that goes up will come down. like it or not, no one have much choice.

we all know that day will come. but somehow i wish it is not that day. it is going to be someting that will burn me for the rest of the years to come.

be it this or that. there is nothing much to be done. if only we can turn back time? then maybe we will learn how to say no? MAYBE. there are too many maybe and too many things that could be done. but what is the point of saying all thiese now?

maybe to others this dont affect as much and maybe for some of us, it dont realli matter. the most important thing is still to get things over and done with, then maybe we can move on?

i dont know. but it sure is emotional dependency. i feel insecured about all this. how will things be like in the weeks to come? i dont know. hmm.

will everyone know about it soon?

maybe it is really a good thing that i cried them out. how i bit my lips to stop it. i cant even look up. that is such a sad thing. it is someting that i never go through.

ya, it is time to grow up. all these things are forcing people to, be it this or that. they are nothing good.

how to tell the world that? i had a hard time letting it out just to tell my mother. i m refering to this. i needed someone to tell this thing to, badly. in the end i did. i told my mother, i tink she is as shocked as i m. but i think she dont feel much after that.

one moment we are happily playing game on DS, the next something so crazy happened. hmm. so people really dont know what will happen the next moment. hmm. that is just so sad. i dint expected that. he seems ok that day.

Thank you for everything that you had given us. I hope this is not the ultimate end.

slowly, the world will know. and maybe by then the name will exist for the last time that day.

.::The Much Loved::.

i forgot when but then somehow someone came along and i feel that love that no one have ever given to me.

then it was all sweet and happiness

.::emo freak::.

ya, thats me... emo freak.

ok one moment but not the next...

all the days of good treatment are there to make us feel happy. i know. i was happy. but i am not satisfy. i dare say i am not satisfy.

hmm. we are running further and further away from the problem, if that is what you want, you should be happy.

am i just suppose to sit there and cry and blame whoever that caused me to have this problem now? hmm. i don want that and i dont like that. but seems that i do not have a choice.

if there is something that you wish to do for us, for our sake, it will be just trying to convince.

i never not like you doing what you like. i just hate not being able to reach you.

i never not like you going out with your friends, i just hate you for being home late.

i never not like you being with your friends, i just hate you telling me that you not like them but yet you still have tonnes to talk to them about.

not your brothers in all cases.

or am i just starting to feel what you felt days or weeks ago? there is no more left? i dont know.

when was the last time we sat down and talk. no. there is nothing much to talk about anyway. you lead your life and i lead mine. 2 parrallel lines.

but still, it's like this since the beginning, i know that. just that it so happen that we have lesser time to even make a turn to each other. and ya, that problem.

a problem that it dont even occur to you to try and convince her.

so sir, i am here, waiting for orders to leave you when you want me to.

i am not going to sit here and wait. if there is someting that you want to do for US, tell her.

EMO FREAK. stop this will i?

not angry. just want to rant.

.::long ago post::.

~*Once upon a time*~

hmm. was talking to my sisters about my secondary school life and their secondary school life yesterday. hmm. wad a difference or should i say that my sister is more dumb? hmm

so i actually past those 3 days. hmm. that is the long gone feeling, but they are back and as sweet as before. as sweet as it used to be. i tink i should stop before people start to say that i m biased.

hmm. i m feeling tired and more tired and more more tired as the days goes by, maybe i should not even have took part in ndp in the first place.. i mean.. so i have the saturday. hmm. i feel like going to watch the art fest closing this friday, saturday or sunday.. hmm. but by then it will be very late. hmm..

suddenly remeber somting when i was talknig to my sisters. someone used to hide in the cupboard behind my class during one recess simply because he was upset. hmm. that is like.. hmm.. ok, i dunno wad to say.

hmm. so yesterday after that long work day, i went to look for dear outside his school and i waited quite long again.. hmm. maybe i should get used to that. hoho.

hmm. i m so looking forward to the 8th july!! what will we do? wad will i get? wad will happen? hahahahaha..

i want to know but i wan a surprise. haas..

thats all folks. time to work and stop slacking. hoho

~*Much loved*~
~*MeNU*~

What Tan Jie Yim Means

T is for Talented A is for Adventurous N is for Neat J is for Joyous I is for Impressive E is for Exquisite Y is for Yummy I is for Impressive M is for Modern

What Does Your Name Mean?

trying someting new

as u can see, i m quite bored in my office

.::The end::.

U.N.I. 2007 had came to an end.

We are not ok, or at least i dun tink i m ok. things are like all at the end.

i m making no sense, i know.

cos things are actually just as simple as making a decision and having all the fun during the production with the crew, our team.

playing with everything that we can, drinking the Anything, conversing with walkie and making silly comment.

iz like hmm. but maybe all happy things have to come to an end.

wads the ting that got me and u sitting on the bus crying. i feel that sour feeling in your heart. we both felt that bad. ya, iz really just that bad.

maybe all tings of this sort have to happen once in a while.

lets look forward to NDP. and maybe to its end too.

.::Chingay::.

~*it started out with nothing*~
~*it ended with a regret*~

the little girl that was 'fighting' with me over my boyfriend. to a little girl that turns out to wanting me and not wanting mr bom bom. haas. wadever. she is a cute little girl. but i just din get the chance to say good bye.

anyway. haas. gave her something before everything start. i pluck off a pink ball from the heart shape that uncle carry. haas

anyway, busy busy busy. my students all exams.

~*chingay 07*~
~*a wonderful experience*~

.::finally::.

~*this is what life*~
~*happy*~

ok. so finally project has sort of come to an end... haha. so more time for me, but the sad thing is EXAMS are coming!!! omg. just what is the world coming to. haha.

hmm. more commitment, and the most shitty thing is, my results are coming out!!! WHAT THE HELL? let me enjoy my new year can?! rarr

ok. whatever

i have to face the music one day.

~*let it be*~
~*i dun have a choice*~
`smiles
`love you C=

.::LONG WANTED POST::.

~*woots*~
~*hehe*~

ok. due to popular demand, i am here to post an entry. and that is just so amazing. i dont really like to type much nowadays cause most of my time are spent in front of the computer, and that can get real irritating too. hees.

there are just so much changes in the year 2006 to 2007.

i had the major changes in studies, love, family, dance and alot more. yups i changed. to the better or the worse, i am in no place to comment on that. haha.

i had the worst fight in studies. if only i didnt waste my time through out that first year.

for love, there is just one big change. and just someone is there now. and i am happy for all that. and sorry for all the stupid nonsense that the as usual paranoid me will make.

as for dance, there is a new start EVERYWHERE. more chances and more knowledge. and i am totally thankful for those people who allow that to happened.

and for family, the new member, ok. it is a DOG. and that idiot carrot. ok. her name is carrot. i so change my view for her. she is no longer pure and innocent. YUCK. ok. whatever.

what else? hmm.

~*Sweet and bitter*~
~*Laughter and cries*~
~*happy and sad*~
~*that's my life*~