What happen when...

What happen when a toaster break down when you are dying for a piece of toast? And reminding you that it is not the first time that it break down?

Maybe it is time to get a new one. Or maybe something better than a toaster.

That isnt making sense like always.

and now. blah. it feels weird to have water in your ears. and it doesnt feel good to see your mother squating there having durian by herself, with the dogs around her, hoping to have some as well.

It doesnt feel good to know that you just disappointed someone. although it seems like a norm for me to cause disappointment in people already.

But then again. how do you work on that. put in more effort? I never know i was this bad. Yes, very bad. Beyond hope, totally not there yet.

And it doesnt help when you sit downstairs thinking of where to go or who else to talk to when you realise that there isnt someone around that you can speak to. Like before.

And maybe the only good thing now is me having the room to myself, switching off the lights and going to bed as early as i want myself to and hoping that waking up the next morning, something will just be different.

Or maybe, you werent fated to eat a toast in the first place. A toast can cause you sore throat. and it might be too hard for my teeth now. Maybe, it wasnt really the toaster but the toast in the first place.

Maybe sometime, what went through your mind at that moment when you realise that the toaster isnt working, isnt anger but just the feeling of frustration because you know that the same things seems to be happening again, and you are at a lost of trying to fix that toaster again.

Ya, maybe it wasnt anger. So what will happen when one day you realise... okies. i dont know what is there to realise.

i need to go get cotton for my nails and i need to get conditioner for my hair and i feel like buying proper pen and i feel that i should really go back to reading books.

I always wonder, why is it so difficult for guys to let girls know that they are home safely? hmm. i always make it a must to do that. and has been doing that all the while. so why do i even find it a hassle to do it now? never the case. i dont even know why that became a topic on its own. *shrugs*

oh, i got the water out of my ears. and my dog have nice teeth man, but with a slight durian smell now.

oh. it never feels good to wait for SMS...

Thats all folks. maybe i need to have some quiet time. Maybe i should go back to doing my cross stitch.

i have this feeling that tomorrow would not be that great afterall.

i feel like going back to work now and write all my film pockets.