Friday, October 30, 2009

How a person can turn out to be like him

Back from Malaysia yesterday night. Had a good time over there though it was a rather tiring trip towards the end of it when it comes to the actual thing. Had a long drive back which gave me the chance to sleep.

Anyway, when I am back at home at night, like usual, blog surf around as what I always do and I got to that blog again. And reading her blog, I decide to go facebook.

Hmm and just as what I expected, someone new is in his life again. On his birthday, she was still wishing him happy birthday, tagging on his blog and in about 16 days, someone else tag on her facebook some happenings that she had with him.

This just means that he got himself a new girlfriend in so little days.

I wonder, doesnt all these means anything to him? He always manage to get a new girlfriend in less than 3 months after his last relationship ends and the intervals just get shorter and shorter.

First it was after me and that took him 3 months and he got a new one. After with her for almost a year, God knows when they broke up, and now with someone new. All these dont make sense. What is love to him.

Sometimes I wonder, is it because of me leaving him so suddenly that make him turn out like that. But I dont think I have the ability to affect him that much.

I remember what other people around him said at that time.
"If you think any one else will be interested in her, go ahead and let her be. Someone with achievement will never be interested in her, will not even want her."

So in the end, he was proven wrong. I remember calling him in December, when I realise I dont know who else to turn to. But I cannot imagine him being different.

He never have the ability to keep girls around him though he have the ability to attract them. He hurts them, just like how he hurt me. Maybe I am not even in the position to comment about what he did for I did something similar before.

How he says to never keep your hopes high, because the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.
How he always say that promises are made because they are meant to be broken.
How he always like to say what he want, what he want but he never manage to get them out.
How he always have to wake up early in the morning though he isnt really getting anything out of it.

But one thing about him is different now. Or maybe because that is a new relationship, thats why he is doing what he is doing.

He gave the new girl a pressie for her birthday, and I do know where he got that idea from. That was what I did for him then.
He can be a nice person, a nice friend, a nice boyfriend at times.

I guess I dint really affected him that much, because i dont think i have the ability to do that. How much effort he put in then, how tiring it could be to keep the relationship going then, I can still remember. I guess he needed a younger girl all the while. I am too strong for him then. But then again, that doesnt give any reasons for him to get into relationship one after another.

Just some random ramblings, hoping that things will be better for the ones hurting now. Those dont go away so easily.

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