Quiet Night

I am missing my bed and I have an index finger that is hurting for no apparent reason...

To be frank, it is scary at night. Because you cannot see whether anyone is coming in. And the walk from my house carpark. hmm. ok at times. when you are late enough that is. Haha.

But I guess this is what happen when the Boyfriend is not feeling well... GET WELL SOON!

Shall sleep in tomorrow morning. Lets just hope that weekends come faster!

Coward

I suddenly realise that I'm just like a coward and all that I want to do now is run away and take a break. I think I need a holiday. Soon.

sinful

I did something sinful. I went to have long John for lunch. Sinful as in a waste of time. But it was a quick one. 45mins. The hungry pangs are giving me bad headache and it sure is good to have alot of food in my stomach now!

Start of School AGAIN!

So it is the start of school again and after all the mad rush and fun that I had, I finally cleared a big chunk of the reports. Phew~!

Slept rather late last night. Argh, the report is one whole stack... And am so sleepy now. Teacher woke me up in class TWICE! Haha. But I am not the only one. haha

Tonight, dinner at Dear's house, a meal cooked by Raymond and maybe I should go get a swim.

I was thinking of getting a swim yesterday and in the end I jumped into the sea during practical. Haha. Most of my classmates did that. They jumped off the boat when they are some distance away from the shore and was tow back with lifebouy and rope. haha. FUN!

Thats all for now.... C=

Tomorrow!

Let's hope for a good weekend! It is sure a stressful week

Awaken

It felt like a sign. And I feel awake now though I'm sleepy. That sounded chim. Good night

A cross

I saw a cross at the place where I sleep. For the first time after so long. :)

The Lord

I found the link to it and I spoke to God. Hope I honour my words

Driving Record

Broke my personal record today. 140km/hour.
The highest speed acheive and it felt good.

Memories

~Very Personal Indeed~

I happened to go Raffles City yesterday, and I went by padang to realise that PA is training there. So i walked over to look for them after being rejected... And I am glad that I did!

When Mr Low asked how am I? I felt like crying... and when I was about to leave the place, he said, 'I know you are busy with your things. Just remember to come visit us when you are free'.

I almost cried again.

Did I tell anyone before that I actually hope to return to them? Return to where it all started and where I really come from. I have the urge to dance when I see people on stage. I feel thrilled when I see people that I know. I feel glad that I choose to walk over yesterday.

Thats the main happening of the weekend.

Wondering

After so long. What will things be like now if I really did what I thought I should do then. Haha.
Something to ponder over...
Ice cream, milk tea with pearl, popcorn. Food for the soul. Or rather, food for MY soul. :)

Happy Food

Had all the Happy food that I craved for in ONE DAY!

Thanks to the people who helped to make it all possible. Haha.

Ben and Jerry's icecream! By Jasmine, who helped to buy it.
Popcorn from Cornery at Ion, by QiuGui who helped to buy it.
Island Creamery, thanks for Dear for driving there and Qiugui for jio-ing us along!

Haha. Munch Munch. Next will be Bubble Tea!

Make it work!

It will work, for He will guide.

Let it be good. Things will be better! Find me the strength.

I dint managed to say

I didnt manage to say what I want to say.

Realise

I realised something today. I never hated my work, I love my work.

It is just that the things that I wanted never really happened and it makes me dread that things are always work. I wanted more than all those maybe.

Am I making sense? Work makes me feels alive actually.

I will ask for what I want tonight

The title speaks all... I hope I managed to do it.

Can I blog about somethings that are very ridiculous?

I seriously feel my life is of no joy now. At this very moment. I go to bed thinking that way too.
How will you feel when your boyfriend dont tell you he love you for 1 month?
What will you do when your boyfriend dont kiss you for 1 month?
What will happen if your boyfriend dont hug you for 1 month?
What will happen when all these is happening when you are staying with him?
What will you do if you feel like you are just constantly working and constantly at work, seeing no end?
Stop telling me that I have to take the iniative.
I am tired
I want to play
I want to sleep
I want to shop
I want to read
I want to piece puzzles
I want to finish cross stitch
I want more time.

off to first test!

Something interesting i saw on Stomp
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/389574/8_warning_signs_married_couples_have_become_more_like_siblings.html

!@#$%^&*()

CAN WE TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE?
~!@#$%$^&*()_+

Heard a song while driving

I like to drive around, especially when nice songs are being played.

I heard the following while I was driving back to office this afternoon, or rather, just now.

男人不该让女人流泪

你说我让你看不清楚转
你说你害怕在爱中迷途自
舍不得你哭 如果是我让你觉得无助
让我告诉你 我对这一切有多在乎魁
如何证明我深情的吻 才能呵护你脆弱的灵魂
我愿用生命阻挡任何能伤害你的人
就算被冷落 就算犯错 我都不走

喔~相信我无悔无求 我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪 至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲 我愿陪你 直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为 相信我

A particular scene came to my mind whenever I hear this song. Along with the feelings. Though it was once the worst period of my life then, the toughest, but it was when everything felt so strong and felt so real. I want abit of that now.

.::Life so far::.

The last post was about one month ago...

Nothing interesting in life to talk about at this very moment, just a hell lot of complains. I need motivation badly. I hope I do well for this upcoming exams cos thats the nearest motivation that I can wait before everything just dies off.

Work, Study, Love, Life, Family, Dog

Work, there isnt anything much convenient to describe here but the fact that there is always things that have to be said more than once, only to realise that they still dont understand makes me ANGRY!

Like the following example of what happened:
Me: I am driving now, I dont have the name of the client, just go there, call the person and ask that person for the Client and Project name.
XXX: Ok, so later you sms me the Client and Project name?
Me: ~!@##$%^&*

Please, enlighten me, what is this all about that I said that was difficult to understand?

And the same type of silly situation happened in this particular teleconversation that lasted for less than 1 minute TWICE.

I swear I would have rammed the vehicle that I am driving into his car if he is driving in front of me!

So. That should summarise the kind of situation that I am facing most morning. Not to mention all the morning calls that I have. just wanna nag here, because it doesnt really seems like I have a single other soul to talk to other than God

I quite hate the fact that at times working hard doesnt help. Because clients dont appreciate. Maybe this is just part of life again.

Study. Nothing much as well, but maybe this is the most interesting part in my life now, with cute and entertaining class mates. They are just like my JC classmate. I am glad I have them in my class! Haha. Sleeping in Basic Thermo becomes a norm. It is just so difficult to stay awake, maybe I am just allergic to his voice.

Chionging for test. MUST DO WELL!

Worried for maths and thermo!

Love, other than bunking in with Dear most of the at times, hmm. thats about it. I just remember, I think we both forgot about the month-versary. Nothing important afterall I guess.

I feel myself misplaced at times, not knowing what is the right thing to do at times. So much so that I feel like staying alone and be alone most of the times. I dont really like the idea of being around people. Seriously. Something is wrong I suppose. Like I dont even know what to do or how to behave appropriately when I am around my loved ones, that excludes my own blood related family members. I think I should snap out of all these though.

Life, that part, just more Wii-ing and more swimming and more coffee and more shopping. Looking forward to trips. I think I need them badly.

Family, like have more time to dine with mama nowadays that I hardly go home. I think they are glad without me around as well. But surely not my dogs! Haha. They wag their tail so hard when I am home! And I think one of them needs the vet.

Thats about it. The one month.

I was reading someone's blog that day and that person mentioned about people around him getting married with them at the right age and all... I think I salute those who took the courage to take that step into marriage. I think it is something so alien and something so difficult to maintain and to keep it up and all. I think being in a marriage feels even more difficult than raising a child.

There are people who are in marriages who is full of joy and sparks and passion and everything good, though some small setback here and there that we as outsider will never know about, but still good, with a smiley husband and cheerful wife most of the time.

There are couples who are in marriages that are just so 'formal', sleeping together in one bed at night with a big gap in between two of them. Minimal talking and not to mention, always with a stern husband that hardly smiles and a quiet wife when left alone.

Sometimes I think it is the world that we are in that makes marriage almost impossible. Look at the time spent at work, look at the list of things that we need to handle day in and day out.

Marrying your job or career is so much better and easier if you ever have a choice of that.

I once thought that it was easy and I would like to have it. But then again, I doubt that now...