.::depression again?!::.

~*The place bring back oli sad memories*~

~*why do i keep going back?*~

~*my friends are dere*~

weihong ask mi why i everytime i go nhss i go into depression? haiz i dunno... den i start to tink... i gt the answer...

today, dey do props... mi d props, daryl do props... i suddenly feel sad... i want to cry... i want to let everyting out... but sumhow i cant cry...

here i am feeling guilty abt everyting... guilty tat my batch EXCO is such a big letdown... guilty tat i m such a loser, not doing enuff when we were in charge... we cause sum of the probs tat are present now... guilty tat i cant help to imprve tings when we were in charge... guilty tat now i cum back yet i cant do much... guilty tat i cum back do props yet i m kind of like slacking...

budden i realised today... wads the point of mi feeling guilty when i tink tat i didnt put in my best to do the props... wads the point even if i put in my best? the others, refering to the sec3boys... sum of dem are just slacking... dun dey even fel guilty or aniting?

i cant find animore meaning in helping dem... sumhow i start to tink tat dey are no longer worth it... i didnt do as much as daryl... but bcox of dem... i sort of receive negative comments... saying mi biased and every shitty ting...

i dun like her... simply becox she 'touched' the sec3 boys casuing dem sum stupid ting... sumting tat will not happen if wifout her... not to say dey not at fault bt hu is she man... ok... apologies to daryl... i m biased... i m harsh... budden i dun realli care...

iz just tat few more days... although i dun realli find ani point in helping dem... but i noe i will cont to help dem... :) i will stay happy... :)