.::hope, tats wad i m tinking now::.

~*why m i tinking abt tat again?*~

~*i m not brave enuff*~

i tout thru tings again... after so long tat i decide to let go, i m tinking abt it again..how stupid can i get?

i haf given up... the definition of given up is he dun occupy much of my touts animore... tat doesnt mean tat i dun tink of him...

it is not long, but 1 year is more dan enuff... more dan enuff for mi to haf trouble letting go totalli...

ya, i haf given up, but i still haf hope... i still hope tat sumting will happen... sum miracle or sumting.. i said miracle cos i know it will nv happen...

i know it sounds quite bad and bitchy, but i still haf hope tat he will realise how much i haf done... not alot to be compared wif others sumtimes... but to mi, i never do so much...

i sumhow cant stand seeing him so quiet at times... sumtime i tink i shd go and tok to him, bt i dun like the feeling of toking to him... all along i never like tat... he always gif mi the feeling tat i m toking crap and he cant b bothered... ya, i m toking crap, but...haix... so even now when i see him quiet, i usualli wun tok to him... cox i dun see the point...

the other time,just when i choose to gif up, i still tink alot abt him... little tings tat he do still gif mi hope... but dey r all false hope...

i noe i haf given up... but i dunno how long tat hope will stay within mi... i will try to let go totalli... i haf to... i dun haf a choice...

~*i haf to gif up totalli*~

~*i know i haf to*~

~*i dun haf a choice*~

~*i know him well*~

~*i cant keep him in my heart*~

~*ever since i start waiting*~

~*i lost my right to choose*~

~*the hope wun last long*~

~*i hope it wun*~