.::what a day::.

~*thank you Si Aun*~
~*thank you Daryl*~
~*...for listening...*~

what a day...laughter... and jokes... i know i promised myself a much happier entry today... but...hmm... i cant seem to that now... sorry... it is the time that i blog and the things that i thought about before i blog...

what a day... i thought i should not have thought about those things again... but still i did... the whole day... behind those smiles and laughter today... still...

anyway... peixuan and hannqian... the previous entry was not directed at your... cool... C=thanks for being nice nice juniors...

the others also...by the way...

thank you si aun for being a good listener... a good 'son'...

thank you daryl for being a good listener too... you know how i feel... C=

the smile is so bitter... it is not from the heart... not that i am not thankful but just that it is not enough to make m smile... maybe when school re open i will be better... better cause i do not need to handle all these things again and cause i know that by school re open, i will be the most outdated one AGAIN...

the same thing... the message did not reach the one i intented... i should have been used to things being one-way...

JIE YIM... IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT... RATHER ONE-WAYED... INSTEAD FOR A FEW... WAKE UP... DON'T DROWN YOURSELF IN YOUR WONDERFUL DREAM AGAIN...

I Should have expected things to be like that... then why did i still bother so much? i don't know... silly me huh...

it is nice to act as though there is something going on... let the one wonder who it is... revenge... but i wonder... does anyone catch that message?

ok...maybe the tone for this entry will get lighter and lighter... cause i am currently mapling...

i feel like crying... i don't know how to continue actually...

seriously if that person was someone else i would not have cared... seems to be considering for me but did you ever think how i will feel? you would not like that feeling too... did you realise that? no you did not...

so like i say... one-way-ed

say i feelso bad... feel as though i very KAPO... don't say...keep thinking... it would not help... i rather choose to say... i have been thinking from day 1... i thought i make myself clear once but what i get in the end?

everything is just so long and draggy... what long story it turnt out to be... what long story it can be...how long the story can be? how long will the gist be? what matters has always been the heart...

things never get any better... like expected?

AIYO...PLEASE SLAP MI HARD... i feel so silly... knew that it was expected still sad... ARGH!!!

i like time alone when i am sad...someone just half to come up and ask and that will touch my heart... thank you peixuan... you were the one... you asked... something short... and not knowing... but you did touch my heart... i was not feeling good then... C=

but walking through changi airport alone seems nice... suggestion...run away from home can run there... ok...that shall be what i will do if i runaway from home...

terrible night... it is time to get myself a dream catcher.. i need one... cry myself to sleep... terrible dreams... never once good... make one myself... my old one without feathers le...

anyway...no longer feel like typing names of people... maybe not giving it a damn right from the very start will not make me like that now... easy...just don't associate...i think i can do that... but my heart...

just ended the call with wahtuck...somethings are just difficult to let go that easily...i am trying...all along i am trying to... but sometimes the heart just lead the way...

thank you wah tuck for helping me to cry...crying make me feel better... thanks for listening... i feel silly...

to SiAun,Daryl,WahTuck: 'thank you... i know your will keep what i said a secret... C='

still i must thank you for all the jokes all these years...
making me laugh when i am being unreasonable...
unreasonable and getting angry over nothing...
you made me laugh...
although i told you more than once that i laugh do not means i am no longer sad or angry...
i am just a failure at controlling my laughter...
but all these years i am immuned...
and things have changed...
you are no longer the one i know...
so be it... it is always your choice...
so much similarities between your...
not for my case...
so much difference...
i thought i know you but then i realise i don't...
sad case ah? what a failure i have been...
don't tell me that things lies with me...
don't tell me i didn't ask...
cause i cant...
the ratio is wrong...
i am already biased...
i thought things were ok all along...
but...
there is always a 'but'...
i was wrong..
all along wrong...
so what can i say?...
maybe everything should not be this way right from the start...
but still i must thank you...
until everything is over, i don't think i will associate myself with you...
until everything is over...
soon i suppose...
but yet i doubt you will realise me moving far away...
i know you...
C=

don't ask me who the message is for... cause i know i die die will not say one... keep SECRET... C= purposely or not i don't know...maybe half half... but anyway... there are still things that i need to learn and there are things that i cant imagine yet... i don't wish to think till the day come...

cheerios people... life rocks when you don't think so much and just have fun... hmm... easier said than done but at least you will try will you not?

it is always btte rto be happy than sad... please tag... thank you a million for reading so far... all the stupid sad things about me...

C=
what the smile >>>C= means still means the same thing... just that youu never know... yes... youu...

~*let time solve it*~
~*youu never know*~
~*you never know*~
~*it is just different*~