.::nice song::.

~*ok*~
~*i should not be here*~
~*but...*~

ok...my dad is going to china like tomorrow? no body going to send him off...but i think he dont mind as long as he still get to go china~!!

anyway... thank you for getting everything back... although i still feel abit out, things are still going on rather fine...we will be ok soon...

i suddenly realise that there are just some things that are just not worth it... there is no need to hold on to it... no need to be so persistent... no need to be so sad over it... no need to mind so much... no need to care so much... cause no one will be aware of what is just happening...

no one understand why things are just the way they are now... i also dont know... but one thing is for sure... i know how and why... i know and thats enough...

who will be a stupid and hold on to something that has thorns in your hand, grab it hard and make yourself bleed? i am still the stupid one currently... maybe it is time to stop and try to stop the bleed before i die from insufficient blood... or lack of oxygen or something...

here is a lyrics...

明天就像是盒子里的巧克力糖
什么滋味
充满想象
失望是偶尔拨不通的电话号码
多试几次总会回答
心里有好多的梦想
未来正要开始闪闪发亮
就算天再高那又怎样
踮起脚尖就更靠近阳光

许下我第一千零一个愿望(一个愿望)
有一天幸福总会听我的话(听我的话)
不怕要多少时间多少代价
青春是我的筹码
oh~~~
我只有这第一千零一个愿望(一个愿望)
有一天幸福总会在我手上(在我手上)
每一颗心都有一双翅膀
要勇往直前的飞翔

nice song here... or rather it is the only song that you can find in my handphone...

ok... fine... whatever... get what i am trying to say in the previous few paragraphs?

in smpler terms... i am learning to let go... let go something that most of your were never aware of... i mean... i should right? i think i deserve to get more?

haha... dont think too much... things will be ok when it should be...

i mean... things will be ok in the end... if it is not ok then it is not the end...

am i right?

haha

lame...

there are some lamers around me who will make me laugh... i know... haha..

~*i still hope for a chance*~
~*a chance for a change*~
~*an explanation*~
~*although i know...*~
~*they cant think well...*~
~*who will distort this message AGAIN?*~

it is hard to just say what is really happening when people cant think well... i mean... think... let someone who is capable of distorting message to tell you something...

i tried to explain... i know why things are the way they are now... i mean... someone is there... all i need now is a chance for me to explain... i am no longer sad... cause i know i can settle it... give me time... and chance... thats all i need...