.::A new life! Enjoying it!!!

Yaps, as what the title say, i realise it is a different life and i am enjoying it!!!

Last friday, the Singapore delegation TRIED to meet up, but ended up there is only around 8 of us? ok. so here are the names. not much pictures taken. maybe junyi has a hell lot since he brought his camera.

so the people who appear and are alive:
ME!
Angeline
Cindy
Gina
Junyi
Lawrence
Mike
Mira
and of course, Mira's Bf.

ok. then drank bourbon coke for the first time in my life. but i m very sure that would not be the last time. =D

and after leaving at around 1am, i went home, sleep and totally failed to wake up early on saturday mornign to go BBDC. so i changed my mind and sleep in till noon. -.- before going down to PA for a meeting.

and apparently, i reach on the dot and i totally forget about what Mr Tay said. ok la, actually i remember. =D Jieyim's memory can be good ok. haha. just a matter of want or dont want

then after that, after NDP, got my tickets and i enjoyed my walk home from marina.

and tired. bam. sleep on bus until some aunties quarrelling wake me up. but... hmm. nothing much to comment on the quarrel, just glad that it dint turn into a cat fight. but again, hmm. that will be something that i have never see before. =p evil Jieyim

and then the next day, sunday, i dint go PA again, and went to Ebenezer dinner instead. Early morning was breakfast with mama and Auntie. waited 30 minutes for the food. which i think is worth it la. and keh kai about the same old topic and i still feel the same thing. During the dinner at night, drink again, simply because i can drink. so i drank beer. trained up liao, dun feel anything. -.- this is a good thing right? please tell me it is. hahaha

and then went home, and finally reached home at a even earlier time. and nothing much, i forgot what i did.

then on Monday morning, i went to work hoping that i will see some new face today, but i saw only my boss face.

so after a tiring morning, i received another shocking sms. from angeline. KTV at liang court with the Philippines delegation leader. 0.o ok. haha. we are all shocked and surprise.

haha. so after working that night, we went to pick angeline up and had dinner at some place in TPY and then to kbox, we are early, although it is already 10pm. -.-

so sing sing sing sing sing sing and drink drink drink drink. i drink this time round because i feel like drinking. i tried tequila with coke. hmm. and took a sip from Angeline's rum with sprite. ok. and i know it is the first time but wouldnt be the last time i am going to try them. so yaps and had beer too. again.

IT WAS SUPER HAPPENING! although only have me, angeline, cindy, lawrence, hanny and Kid, still, never sing like that in k before. will post all the things we do up real soon. =D

so reached home at 2.30. blah. will try to be home early t0morrow.

i realise something after all these 'busy' days, i am really enjoying my life. not because i get to drink or party. but simply because i am occupied. i like the feeling, i mean, actually i like the fact that i am busy till i got no time to take my lunch, no time to sleep, no time to rest, becuase that make me treasure my free time mroe.

i plan more now and try hard to stick to plan, other than last saturday maybe. hmm. haha.. =p

so, yaps. enjoyed and maybe now is time to enjoy my bed and do some cross stitch. oh shit, i still have books and papers waiting to be read. ... will go read papers now. cross stitch can wait =D

Lastly, i want to annouce,

JIEYIM IS LOVING HER LIFE, LOVING HERSELF, LOVING BEING SINGLE, LOVING BEING ALONE!

Still i want to thank you JD for whatever. and i hope life is better for him, soon. and also, i m still here, as a friend.

.::My Birthday!!!::.

Yesterday was my birthday, and i thanks those DARLINGS who wished me happy birthday, celebrated, or give me a present!!!

So here is the list. hope i dont miss anyone out.

Jiangda
Lawrence
Joyce
JieBin
Sam
Suyin
YanJia (i was surprised)
Meichen
LyeYee
Hoon
Ni
Zhiyan (i was surprised)
Angeline
Mira
Gina
Junyi
Cheryl Monica Siantar (I just feel like typing out her full name haha. although i am not very sure if i got it correctly)

hmm. is that all? haha. oh no. People who contributed to the Capitagift Cards, thanks a million!!! rrrreaaalllyyy LOVE it!!! :D

hmm. and went out for dinner at some steamboat restaurant at a street that i never knew it existed. haha. it will be million times better if JOYCIE is there. hmm.

***JOYCIE!!! Pon tomorrow's practice~~!!!***

anyway, after that went home and cut cake!!! haha. so many years dint take photo with a cake le lor. be it my birthday or other people's birthday, actually ok la, i just took one on the 1st April this year. bt then, the point is, i am always helping people take photo de. -.- so sad rite?

hmm. then ate the cake but we are all too full that only less than a quarter of the cake is gone. so yaps, into the fridge it went.

and i took a quarter of the cake for breakfast and lunch today!!! =D

ok. i woke up this morning feeling ok, but after i gulp down the daily dose of coffee, i can feel the Ma La soup and beer in my stomach 0.o so, carefully, i make sure i dont puke anything out and went to work. it gets better before noon and now it is gone! C=

then came the ISO/OHSAS consultant. hmm. they said i did quite alot and job well done, and i start to feel guilty, because i know i could have get more things done de. but i choose not to. but i will get the papers done before i leave this company. hmm

what will happen after i go? hmm. he will have a difficult time handling the auditor, i am sure. but still hope he will pass the auditing.

and today,it will be A Tale of Shaolin-date with mama. :D hmm. first time paying to go to a show with mama. haha.

and then tomorrow is the gathering!!! but no one is replying me!!! hmm. i bet it will just end up being a chit chat session or someting =p

and for now, it is back to work. chiong for ISO/OHSAS!!!

and that way, the day will end faster

*i realised, i am waiting AGAIN, waiting till you have the time to handle me. and why am i waiting again? do i have to? i am thinking things through again. the whole time, it is mostly me waiting for you, and you are either having wushu, having class, or just out with friends or even busy with project. i am always waiting for a message. not that i mind waiting, but i need to feel appreciated. not you thinking that it is ok to make me wait, or that i choose to wait. just some bit of appreciation is mroe than enough. maybe you did, just that i dont remember. there are just things that you claimed you did, but i dont remember. sorry*

.::What a weekend::.

hmm. first, it was NDP and in the saturday morning, i gave up the plan to go URA building because i seriously, just dont know how to go. oh wells. so i gave it up in exchange for my sleep/rest.

after waking up at 12 noon by someone's phone call, i walked out of the room to see the living room in a MESS. some cute dog chew up an adidas shoe box. omg. jialat. then i went on and bathe and fly out of the house with my sister for brunch.

reached PA and i forgot what i do there. but i remember we staged a show. and i dont think we acheive what we want to achieve. hmm.

then it was at the platform. so many stupid things that i just dont want to talk about and we should consider ourselves rather lucky. the rain stops after the finale. and we stayed on the platform for about 1.5 hours more, waiting for the Pri 5 students to move off. sian. thats the only way to describe the waiting time.

and my heels hurt like crazy. piang. no place to sit and just simply standing around can really kill.

so after that, we went back to the show village and back to the pick up point and back to PA and things happened which i dont want to say. and i zoomed off upon reaching. hmm. heck. :P

then rushed to clark quay to meet up with KS and ZR. went for MAC and we gave up on the idea of going Iguana. so we sat at somewhere near the river and crap. haha. smelly river.

that should be the kind of life. at least i am enjoying it now. :D

so shared a cab and went home. was the last to alight. =C and then reached home at 3.30? haha. amazed. hardly so late.

and slept till 12 again? woke up because i was disturbed by stupid Carrot.
(she lick me on my lips, i wipe my lips clean with my sleeves) X 3 times. IRRITATING! so i wake up to eat brunch. haha

and then was to PA. if not for the cha siew rice, i wun get drenched.

slack till meeting and during meeting, weeeee... happy, 暗爽！who wun lor. haha. they did ask me for my name before. :D

so after that, i feel tired and dont know what to do, i went home. did cross stitch after having dinner. and here i am. i will go for more cross stitch. :D

tata. thats all folks. C=

.::First Private Driving::.

today, is the first driving lesson, as in private one la. kan ciong spider. -.- haha. as usual.

that is jieyim C=

and nothing much, but Mr Tay just speak rather soft sometimes and he likes to stick his words together. haha.

but i think driving myself is not that scary afterall.

hmm. it will be better next time. when i get used to it!!! C=

and Jieyim just drink Choya. abit seh. haha.

nothing much to write. how to spend my friday night?

.::stupid computer::.

i give up on trying to blog with another computer le. -.- it never manage to load the page de. only hang on me. argh.


whatever, this computer is no where better, the keyboard is difficult to press.


anyway, chionged through work today and realise that time pass real fast!!!


hmm. if only there is someone, as in a colleague in the office, i think life will be better. -.-


but anyway, i am leaving real soon. just hope that my boss is really trying to find someone to cover my job. but apparently, from what i see, there is no sign of searching. hmm. i will ask him tomorrow!!! that is if he come into the office. -.-


hmm. tiring days. but i enjoyed being busy, if the thing i do is not something that i hate/dont like. then it is perfectly fine to be busy! C=


hmm. hope i can get to go out tml or sat nite. haha. KS CHO!!! i wanna go out.



hmm. back to wish list.


hmm. i forgot wad else tat i want le. sian. -.- ok, maybe a gathering soon.

ok, just ended an MOM call that i waited a whole day for. but. i think i have the answer in the first place lor. -.-

.::BIRTHDAY WISHLIST::.

I DEMAND THE FOLLOWING FOR MY BIRTHDAY. HAHA. i hope i can get la.

Top on the list,
1. Beijing Olympic Limited Edition CapitaGift Card, ALL FIVE!!!
Priced at S$68 for 5 cards at any Capitaland mall in Singapore, and that includes Lot one, Bugis, Plaza Sing, yada yada yada, with no stored value.

2. Some nice silver ring that i can wear.
But this is something that i have to go choose myself

3. Jewelleries/Accessories!!!
which girl dont love them? ok la, i dont always wear la. but i still like to have more

4. Pass driving before my advance theory expire.
Hmmm. starting this thurday le!!!

5. cannot remember anymore at the moment.
will try to think of more tomorrow. C=

i heard something from the radio. why XXX want to be doraemon?
because he want to sheng chu yuan shou.

.::JIEYIM IS BLOGGING AGAIN::.

JIEYIM IS BLOGGING AGAIN.

haha. yawn. maybe i should go offline and do cross stitch until i fall asleep. ahahaha

i did quite alot yesterday although it seems so insignificant on the big thing. haha

and i feel *bang* whacked in the head today, bt i know that is normal la. haha. cos is soemthing new afterall.

right. i remember i have somthing to search for. thats all.

the whole night was doing reports but hmm. keep having the feeling that i missed something out and i really do in the end. :P

.::a few things::.

just a few things that i really have to blog about.

first, i am using another computer in the office and i am so not used to it. the keys are so small and i am just not used to where the backspace or enter is because it is just a different keyboard.

anyway, that is something super random and not important

this whole two years, i dont think i wasted anything and in fact, i learn quite alot of things from whichever source.

firstly, i think i never regret this one year in this company, i really learnt alot and i mean alot. i forge great friendship again, people who are knowledgeable in their own field and knows alot of things just cant wait to teach me things and get to learn more about computer stuff from me! :D that is something happy for me. because they are willing to teach me, means i get the chance to learn more things.

then again, there are unhappy things that is always happening and i dont know how to help. things are just not going right for him these few weeks.

it is first the new car, got involved in a small accident which result in the damage of the bracket and having to change a new light, and for a BMW, that is around 2k? hmm. then after servicing, he ran over a nail and damaged his tyre. whatelse can be more suay than all these for a car that is just about 2 months old.

and there just seem to be more to come. the termite attacked buddha painting from thailand, me quitting, officers not happy about him, workers arguing and quarrelling with him. what else?

and cashflow. hmm. shall not continue with this topic, it is jsut endless. hope that things will be better for him. dont want to see him die afterall.

and then i went cycling yesterday although i should be at PA having dance practice, but i think i deserve a break after all these years. i know laoshi deserve a break more and i am not the only one feeling tired, but i think i really wanna think about what i want to do in life in the coming years. because, for now, i think getting achievements in career seems like a better idea.

but then again, i never regret whatever that i had done. just wished that i had managed my human relations better in the past.

and then again, i dont know what went wrong between me and him. cant it be just simple friendship? if there is something that you need to say, something that u hope that i will do, just tell me. i know and understand your pride. but then again. haix. nothing much

i realise there are so many things i wanted to do, wished to do in the past 2 years, but i didnt do. i choose not to, i know that. but then again. it is over.

and now it is a new life!!! :D should i celebrate my BIRTHDAY?! JIE YIM DEMAND A PRESENT! :D

kidding -.- haas

.::JIEYIM post alot::.

jieyim post alot of entry only when something is happening.

something is happening and pui, i totally hate it.

hmm. la la la la la la la la la. we shall see about it.

going to enjoy my weekend~!!! C=

i am still happy although i totally hate whatever that is happening. blah. but i dont care. =D

.::Set a limit or Start a war::.

it is getting complicated and it is really time to let go.

sometimes it is really between setting a limit to whatever you are doing or start a war.

And i think in this case, starting a war is not something that some people will like to do if they know whatever is going on.

sian. it is all over again. at least one thing is settled *wink* :P

hmm. look on the bright side of life. JIE YIM is currently single, maybe being friends is really better although things that happened now is not what we want it to be. :D

ok. i got a shock of my life. just got it. piang. kill me please. argh.

.::Understanding::.

生命中不可承受的轻
让耳机循环这旋律
反复超重低音震动着宁静
挡风玻璃里爱成了蒙太奇
我哼着我自己的叹息

只是爱与被爱的比例 不是爱或不爱的问题
如果明天还有好天气 都已经跟你没关系

你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

偶阵雨偶尔会天晴
还好星光熠熠好心的提醒
一个人追寻一个人的和平
我看见我自己的天际

爱真的需要一点勇气 就看我们敢不敢忘记
我和彩虹最短的直径 也不一定没有你不行

你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

就让我狠狠地加速前进 脱离你所给我的梦境
再零点零一零公里就可以清醒
我决定不再等你决定 我决定不再当局者迷
我决定属于我自己的黎明
距离你一世纪下一个世纪

just a random nice song that i randomly fall for. i want to get out of here now. this minute. i am not in the right condition to face whatever that is going to come today. tomorrow will be a better day.

ya, the trip changed my life. it is time to talk to mama again. tonight it will be. i hope.

i thought i am not under any/much stress. but i dont agree to that now. i don't want the phone to ring. i don't want to hear his voice.

it does not seem to concern only me now.

i am tired.

i remember typing something similar some years ago.

i always thought i am veri strong. i always thought i can handle anything, handle myself. i appear like i dont need any special attention.

now, once again, i changed my mind. i need concern sometimes.

it is a simple thing that is not simple now.

.::my life::.

the girl who use to dislike changes realised something.

she realised that maybe it is good to change afterall.

there are so many things going on and so many people growing up. hope everyone grow out of it soon and be ok again.

i know it is not right to blog now. the things that i think are very important to me are not the way they used to be now.

year after year, it is always the same thing. the same problem and sometimes even the same people.

to think back, i dont regret whatever that i have done, i dont regret raising my hand at that moment and making that decision. it added colours to my life but i believe i will be more carefree now if i did not do whatever that i have done.

life is like that. even if you regret, you still have to live with it. i dont regret. i took my freedom in exchange for colours. something that is worth it.

at least until now, i still think it is worth it.

what will happen if we are all gone?

the things and decision that i made during this period, maybe can make me feel better but i know the people affected by my decision will not feel good.

i have the intention to go for one and have decided to go for another one.

what will happened if i go?
will they be ok if i go?
will they make me stay if i try to go?
what will my life be like if i go?

they will struggle for a while. but they will be ok in the end. one might ask me to stay, but i am sure the other will not. my life will be less colourful, thats for sure.

or maybe, with or without me, nothing matters at all. but i dont have the heart to just go away with everyone and let him be alone.

i think i just need a short break now. bring me out to drink. i want to drink. ok. i will drink choya tonight. just abit. at home.

or maybe, i should have jumped out of it LOOOOOONNNG ago.

.::Big Things::.

being away for about one week is never something good.

I still have the same feeling after coming back but i realise i am able to control my eyes more. i can choose who to see and who not to care.

the same people who still have the same attitude and same look in their face,
the same people who makes me wanna go away.

everything is still the same, but this time round, i seems to be more determined in whatever that i have decided.

i came back from China, i met great people and i forged great friendships. and i learnt things. all the more, i gain time and the opportunities to pull myself out of the picture.

there are somethings that even if you try to change with all your might, nothing can be done.

there are no particular reasons that really affects me now. at least, that is what i hope is the way.

maybe the problem have always lies with me from the start. the fact that i am giving more than i should give. but that never seems like a problem until one day, you realise people take it for granted.

or maybe when i see the flaws in other people and there are more people that i am not pleased about, it simply means that i am the one who has the biggest problem.

totally not making sense. it is a bad time of the year, i remember feeling this way before, last year, same period.

when people come together and no one really cares, or maybe they cared about things the wrong way, or they simply showed their care in different way, i think thats when the problem arise.

there is no need to step up now, step out girl! i think that is more important now. so many things that makes me wonder, what kind of a person i really am. and what kind of person are the people who affected me in the past but not now.

now, i only hope for the much awaited time that i have yearn for long.

just doing cross-stitch is totally fine. (randomness)

maybe i should have stayed in china. =.=

minus the talks and it seems better there, but i will bring my Love over. C=