.::Big Things::.

being away for about one week is never something good.

I still have the same feeling after coming back but i realise i am able to control my eyes more. i can choose who to see and who not to care.

the same people who still have the same attitude and same look in their face,
the same people who makes me wanna go away.

everything is still the same, but this time round, i seems to be more determined in whatever that i have decided.

i came back from China, i met great people and i forged great friendships. and i learnt things. all the more, i gain time and the opportunities to pull myself out of the picture.

there are somethings that even if you try to change with all your might, nothing can be done.

there are no particular reasons that really affects me now. at least, that is what i hope is the way.

maybe the problem have always lies with me from the start. the fact that i am giving more than i should give. but that never seems like a problem until one day, you realise people take it for granted.

or maybe when i see the flaws in other people and there are more people that i am not pleased about, it simply means that i am the one who has the biggest problem.

totally not making sense. it is a bad time of the year, i remember feeling this way before, last year, same period.

when people come together and no one really cares, or maybe they cared about things the wrong way, or they simply showed their care in different way, i think thats when the problem arise.

there is no need to step up now, step out girl! i think that is more important now. so many things that makes me wonder, what kind of a person i really am. and what kind of person are the people who affected me in the past but not now.

now, i only hope for the much awaited time that i have yearn for long.

just doing cross-stitch is totally fine. (randomness)

maybe i should have stayed in china. =.=

minus the talks and it seems better there, but i will bring my Love over. C=