for a reader who dont read anymore

There are so many things to say and yet the one that this was meant for never read anymore. It is not easy, not even now. But it shouldn't hurt anymore ba. I hope. Thinking of whatever that they might be doing now and the time that they are spending together. Convince me that he wasn't that good afterall and he isn't the better one that I deserved like he said before. When will I meet the one for me?