.::MAybe i am just plain idiot and stupid?::.

~*it all make me seem stupid*~

i cried again today... sad case huh... i didnt want to... i am just sad... plain sad, disappointed and every other things bad...

i never want to lose my temper... i tried to sound nice... but it just does not seems to be of any use...

with a whole gang of others who think that this batch is bad, an even SOMEONE and some people who labelled them as disrespect, i never have that thought... they are simply my friends and nothing else... close friends... my close friends are actually them and not others my age...

maybe to some people out there, i am just plain idiot and stupid... what for shed all those tears when they don't undstd? what for try to go against the wind, trying to protect these little trees?

it is because of my trust for them... 3years are not alot , but they are enough to let u undstd a whole gang of people... i watch them grow... the same old grandmother story again... knowing that they will be serious when they are required to... but apparently they are not...

~*the howling of the wind continued into the late night*~

~*walking against the wind, i tried*~

~*for the sake of protecting the small trees*~

~*knwing that one day they will grow tall and strong*~

~*taking over my job*~

can the feeling of disappointment stop coming? i still believe that one day, i will no longer feel disappointed... becox the small trees would haf grown up by then... i dun care u believe mi or not... i trust myself and my small trees...