.::wad else can i do except wait?::.

~*i try to be ok*~
~*i will be ok*~
~*or m i lying to myself?*~

i dunno wad to tink and i dunno how to tink animore... i go to the extreme... i can only wait now... wait and hope that everything is ok on his side... wad else can i do?

sori roy i choose not to go in the end... cos i realli not in the mood when i realised that i have to wait again... i wait for one year... and for that past week and those few days i thought that i can be happy again... but i sort of realise i was wrong... terribly wrong... sumhow he might have things planned out... or we strated out but he think that sumting is not right... or mayb things are just not right on his side...

i dunno wad to tink and how to tink... i dun wan to lie to myself to tell myself to tink on the better side... i dun wan to put in hope cox i dun wan to have disappointment in the end... so i choose to numb myself and maybe drown myself in liquor... i dunno wad i will do... i will never do it again on my own... should the sunday cum and he didn't appear, but he appear sumwhere else, i will not be the one doing the job... it shall be my friends... i haf done enuff... in fact i think i do too much... i felt myself like a pest... so i choose to let go and dun tink about things now... enjoy my week till the sunday cum...

i dunno wad to tink... hope to find him but scare to face wad terrible truth there might be... but still hope to find him to know that he is orite...

haha... and dear readers... iz ok not to understand a single ting... or mayb undstd sumthings... cox sumtings are just meant to be like that... to be a mystery till the mastermind choose to reveal everything....

i tout i can be happy... but i was wrong... i just want to know he is ok... i can not care that much now... he is just another stupid guy... mayb i will have to wait again? mayb i should not even had said yes? i dunno... i oli know tat i m sad and worry and every other ting bad...