joker

Oh ya, did i mentioned that there was this joke of the day yesterday from a joker? totally. it teased the whole company!

.::End of 2008::.

So, like i always want to do, i want to type all the happenings in the year of 2008 out... Lets see if i can really complete it.

Moving away from 2007 and into 2008 was a good thing for me, because, if i am correct, 2007 wasnt a really good year for the dragons... oh whatever.. Had a bad experience in 2007 year end and was getting tired of life and the way things are in my life...

The year kicked off rather well, with new year, chingay and everything as per normal. Joined the PA group for their Chingay item and to me, that meant something... although i do hope to join back our own group but it still nice to get the chance to dance with the PA people and get to know people like Munirah...

Then i finally got a new HP for my sister and me!!! it meant alot too, to be able to get something not just for me, but also for my sister... C=

Then on one faithful night, Mr Low called me and drop me a bomb. that is to go china for an exchange programme... totally dint know how to say no and i m glad that i dint reject that...

Went around shopping for formal wear as the dress code was freaking crazy... and to me, it was a chance to go away from singapore, away from my life and to let me find out what i really want...

the forget-how-many-days there were crazy and i met new friends, friends that i missed so much after returning from the trip...

we went to alot of places during the trip and we did crazy things like singing K till wee hours the lasst few nights and i will never forget the BBQ food and the smelly tofu that made me suffer for days... haas

And from the trip, i get to meet someone who changed my life, someone who really took me to where i am now and someone who let me meet another important person in my life.

the trip to china made me realise that i dont need to live my life the way i used to live. i can make changes to make it more fruitful...

I made 3 major changes to my life then, half a year ago...
-I quit my job

-i left him

-i stop going to dance

thanks to him, i got the big big winnie the pooh that i always wanted... the next few times are just time and effort spent on getting Eb ready for ISO audit... Working till 1 plus in the morning and making things turn out well give a sense of satisfactory but at the same time, brought more argument into my life...

when i made up my mind to change job, i got someone who is unwilling to accept, someone who is merely accepting and not understanding because he can do nothing to change my mind... but it all ended the way i want it to...

upon ISO certification, we had a company dinner and that was the first company dinner ever... :) for me... and then i remember whatever that Mr Low said when we were inside the theatre, how he want to go into events since most of us are interested and how i know that it is too late, because i have committed to EB...

i did an evil thing to JD, i initiated the breakup on our anniversary.. maybe he did put in an effort to try to make me stay but him not being able to understand is bad enough... i think i put in all i can for this relationship le... if it is going to end, there is also nothing i can do and i just felt so taken for granted then that i decide it is time to let go...

i spent the night of the breakup with joyce and lawrence in east coast and had gelare at E!Hub while we are waiting for the workers to be done with work...

Then come my birthday, i remember how i was brought to have steamboat in town and how i went home to see a birthday cake. Oh man, at that time, birthday cakes are my love!

I quitted officially on 05 Aug 2008 with many many problems and unhappiness that were not voiced out. For the next 3 weeks, i continue to receive phone calls on questions but i am just so not willing to help... i wonder how i manage in the first place with no one to turn to, and yet she is jsut asking me every single bloody question...

then after working in EB, i met new people like MAK KWONG SOON, Kangwei, Qiugui, Victor, Peter, Ya Oo, etc.

nice people and more friends although some of them are more related at work...

Then came NDP, the last thing taht i ever want to be involved in and i met someone who helped me thru time when i was trying to find someone to talk to. RK Lee. someone whom i last met during NDP, someone whom i still manage to keep in contact with...

After NDP and after times spent in the office, before i got used to everything, Lawrence kim flew off to USA for an inspection job... this was one of the toughest time, where by i suppose i have went thru alot without him and with Mr Kim... how we survived with just mr kim driving, how we survived with Kangwei, and Zhiyan's help in driving... I am gladful for the 2 months that he was away though, it gave me a chance to be independent and truely knows and understand how the company works and i believe that things did changed abit in those 2 months...

But during those 2 months, alot of things happened too... i went for my SSSC course and completed it without even studying for it and during that period of critical time, trying to juggle between work and SSSC, my grandma passed away, someone who never was important to me but her depart made me realise that she actually meant alot... so much taht it made me miss her for months... then came the time after that, was the Industrial first aid course and something i took pride in happened...

I was the only girl in the whole class and i managed to pass the course with full marks in theory!!! some big achievement... haha... totally praised and had a sense of achievement!!! C=

the next big thing will be Lawrence coming back and me passing my driving test with 18 demerit points... and something stupid happened... after applying for my license, i left my IC in UBI!!! freak and i was only aware of it when i reached clementi or something...

crap... and i went back 2 days later and on one faithful day that i drove a new van, i scratched the bumper and pui... argh. it was a new van!!! crap...

then as the days go along, many many things happened that i dont feel like penning them down... not now... the countless times that i end up saying sorry, the happy times, the everything, not able to find a balance then...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! C=

not everything is here but i just dont feel like typing anymore...

.::TODAY IS A FRIDAY! OMG::.

OMG~! TODAY IS A FRIDAY!!!

and jieyim is one happy girl because today is a FRIDAY! although i am abit sad that i still have to work tomorrow

but it is still ok, at least the weekend is coming and i have yet to give LK whatever that i should. oh no!

JIE YIM, YOU SHOULD START TO WORK!

I troubled someone yesterday night. for someone staying in Jurong West to send me home from Jurong East.. OMG. so mafan but still feel grateful, if not i will be totally drenched.

Had my Occupational First Aid Theory Paper yesterday. haha. i like the instructor! ok, my sis will say that i like being praised la but i believe i was praise because i was good also.

I proved myself, its not because he is biased or something, i have the capability, i manage to get 30/30 for the theory paper. haha. actually i expected that d=

i think some people will feel like whacking me now. but haha. i dint even study and i know i wun fail.

hmm. this goes to proof something that my sister said, i am actaully cut out to study de. but hmm. i choose whatever that i am doing now. if i could turn back time, i will choose to study. but i dont regret also. hmm. contradicts but iz ok. I HAPPY JIU HAO! HAHA

i want to MAHJONG! but then i think i should find time to start studying again. OMG. my accounts are going down~ down~ down~ down~. haha

and oh ya, my kaki sick, and having exams. -.-

Enjoying Jay's new album at the moment. and i have to say, i really enjoy 花海.

花海

静止了 所有的花开

遥远了 清晰了爱

情侣们 爱却更喜欢

那时候 我不懂 这场爱

你喜欢 站在那窗台

你好久 都没再来

彩色的 世界染上空白

是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开 距离隔不开

思念变成海 在窗外进不来

原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍

手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开 泪已化不开

经历的阻碍 我在等待重来

天空仍灿烂 她爱着大海

情歌被打败 爱已不存在

你喜欢 站在那窗台

你好久 都没再来

彩色的 世界染上空白

是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开 距离隔不开

思念变成海 在窗外进不来

原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍

手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开 泪已化不开

经历的阻碍 我在等待重来

天空仍灿烂 她爱着大海

情歌被打败 爱已不存在

TATA. Thats all. haha. i am hungry. MUM MUM TIME!

.::My weekend::.

The weekend was rather well spent. Other than mahjonging and playing around, it was a nice time for me to start everything all over again.

First, Friday night, was suppose to go swimming but oh well, was pangseh by people and end up just laying around in my cousin's house.

I totally forget what we did but i know in the end i went home without nothing much done after the guys come back.

And i spent the night doing cross stitch. something nice and relaxing and not much brain cells exhausted in the process.

Then it is work the next morning as usual and i swear i look like a panda. After working and driving for 3 hours, i went home for a good sleep in the living room. haha.
When i was about to fall asleep, my dear mama called and she mistook me as Ah Chun~!!! WTH. but anyway, after i end the call, i saw my darling Carrot enjoying her sleep on my pillow and pui her. even after me putting my head on her body, she still dont want to move away. rarr~!

but anyway, i went over for my Mahjong session with them as usual and after one whole round, we decide that maybe it is time for dinner at 9 plus. haha. and to think that we actually walked all the way to Lot one for fast food and in the end settled down at KFC.

hmm. i was extremely loud on the way home as usual.

AND we played till 1 am in the stuffy kitchen. -.- with Ah Pui being the entertainer and making everyone laugh.

and then Sunday was to driving lesson after sleeping till noon and then to Kallang for dance. (will touch more later) and then was back to their house and SEE them play mahjong. ~!@#$%^$%^&*
then was dinner at 10pm and then we went home.

hmm. i forgot when or where but i realise that i am missing her more than anything. It has been 20 over days and i am still feeling something whenever i thought of her.

i never know that there will be someone that will make me feel this way other than him. she is someone where, happy, in the company of the others whom she have always missed.

Someone told me that there is actually something that we should not have execute a few years ago. it just lead her to her end faster. but anyway, everything have come to an end, and i believe we are all enjoying whatever that she had brought for us.

Her death bought us closer. she let us have the chance to interact and play together and work together and until now, unlike in the past, we are meeting up more than once each week.

Whatever that is happening now are things that i used to believe as something impossible but it is all going on well now. i hope to make everything last.

and then went back to dance. there are things that it is difficult to put into words for others to understand. i am not heartless, and sometimes, it is just a matter of choice that made me choose to do something and not the other.

it is not that the passion is not there, it is just plain tired of things and nothing that i do can change things so sometimes running away seems easier and better, for me.

Nothing much about work these days as the market is really quiet.

however, time pass rather fast today as i do out all the invoicing and stuff.

i enjoyed it when there is alot of work! C=

Enjoying my Uncle Quaker Baked Apple Granola Bar after a busy morning and Jieyim is attempting to go on DIET!!!

It is not really a boring life now. it is just an excuse to get more attention.

i have interesting foreign workers in the office, maybe other than 2 who likes to stare at me. -.-

EMO-ing when i dont have anyone to sms.
EMO-ing when i have nothing to do at work.

it was a good time spent and hmm, dun bring the hopes too high.

.::HAPPY YESTERDAY::.

haha. had a happy day yesterday. lets list them out one by one. C=

Early morning, i was kept rather busy. or rather, i dont remember whatever that i did. then came the call telling me that the new workers will be coming in. haha.
after that, everyone came back and they start to clean up the place. its great to see all of them working together, maybe other than a few of them that i dont really give a shit to anymore. the rest joke and play through everything and i like that kind of feeling! and they tried to reorganise everything yet AGAIN.
i predict EVERYTHING will be in a mess in less than 2 weeks. ahaha.

then i made a call to Absolute Kinetics and i got the good news! i passed my supervisor course! haha. HAPPY! C=

then some stupid jokes were been shared and HAHA. something about me going into a tank and coming out only 1 week later. -.-

and went on to briefing and we were talking about safety about looking at where you are walking and not fall into a manhole or something. then the stupid tank joke came up again.
and we are been constantly reminded about kumar and his $150 fine. haha

then went off for my first aid course. haha. CPR was scary because the instructor was very angry.
but when it is my turn, i was praised for knowing my procedure. and it feels great when you are the only lady there. i feel that the instructor is biased though

then while the instructor is concentrating on the other's CPR, we tried out our bandage and when i have done mine, and showed to the instructor, i end up looking at other 'classmates'. then was guiding them until the instructor direct them to me, for me to teach them how to hide the fingers in.

okok. haolian haolian.

wadever.

then i had a pack of fries when i was walking home and MAN, that spoils my day! the fries are rather undercook and i had a bad time biting them. but i finished it nonetheless.

someone told me 'you seem happier with your new job' and i said yes, i am really happier.
and we went on to talk about some blur people that i choose to not mention here. YES YOU ARE BLUR.

who can i turn to to let them know that i am not like that? now i know what kind of person you really is. i should have thought all this through a long time ago.

and i caught the hint. and i think it is all getting obvious.

i went to ah ma house. and hmm. its 21 days le.

.::BLOODY HELL::.

I was reminded of someone very damn bloody irritating.

Someone idiotic and stupid and yet still wanna run a business. you can go die.

No names will be mentioned here so dont ASSUME that it is YOU. if you do, then, thats bloody your own problem.

Do you think some meals can buy me over? i caught the hint a long time ago just that i choose to not give any response to it. so what if your volume dont need to employ someone to handle the document?

that is still ok. but some asshole actually came to me and tell me,
'erm, next time got people call, ask them nicely, see whether they want to leave a message or something, dont let them feel that there is no one from the company in the office'

Bloody f. but that is the fact right? how am i suppose to hide that when i really dont know how to handle YOUR documents and help YOUR client? you dont pay for MY salary and you dont even bother to pay for the rental just becuase my boss is out of town!

@~!#$%^&*(

really got nothing to say.

ok, so here i confess, i was giving the extremely-heck-care attitude when it comes to picking up YOUR incoming calls. because to me, that is something out of my job scope. and who are you to tell me what to do. maybe i will listen to you if you bother and can offer me a higher pay. but i doubt that day will come in the near future.

oh my goodness. this is all so obvious. but i dont give it a damn.

.::OOPS::.

OH NO. maybe one day i will just die in the office. hmm. i should try not to make the workers hate me. haha. but thats a tad bit difficult because jieyim can be VERY IRRITATING.

especially when she is PMS-ing, like now

hahaha. hmm. life last night was great! MAHJONG MAHJONG MAHJONG! Win like siao but hmm. no money come in because no money was involved in the first place.

hope i dont get exposed someday. but i predict that day is coming and that is tomorrow. =C

i am still coughing and my nose is still block. because i stop taking medicine MAHS... of course la. hmm.

hmm. and something to note, my boss is still not back yet. hmm. lets hope he will be back by the 18th.

... oversensitive is a problem. thinking too much is another problem and hoping for alot is a big big problem.
sometimes i am just contented being around, there is no need to be there all the time. thinking of different ways to start things up knowing that everything will end someday. although i hope that nothing will end at the end of the day. i always tell people things will be ok in the end. so who will tell me that things will be ok at the end of the day? i need assurance as usual. that is my big problem. and i am just like that. how to change the mind of someone and hint that everything is possible. OMG.
DIFFICULT, NEVER
lets hope that someone message me to entertain me later. C= HOPE

okok. i have CPR class tonight and i have yet to memorise the procedure. RARR

.::HELLO::.

JIEYIM IS HERE TO BLOG AGAIN

more and more people are not picking up my calls le. and its making me sad. hmm.

but anyway about my weekend, it is rather well spent la.

haha. i was suppose to go my cousin's house on friday night but seeing that it is my dad's birthday and my mummy will be at home, i said no to her AGAIN. i think she sad sad de.

hmm. went to enjoy our free sundae from Swensen and we met this super familiar manager that i suppose was my nanny's niece or something. but anyway, thats not important.

i crave for brewwarks' cheese sticks. they are the best. oops. i am not sure if i got the name correct. haha. iz that pub next to Igauna. C=

anyway, the cheese sticks at Swensen was DISAPPOINTING and yucky.

went to walk around in NTUC and also attempted to get shoes but everything FAIL!!!

we went to the pet shop thinking of getting a new dog for ME. and we end up buying a dried piggy ear for Carrot. it is really dried PIGGY EAR!!! at least thats what the shop owner claim it to be.

it was suppose to last long but our naughty clever dog finished it in less than an hour.!!!! we couldnt believe it and even resort to searching high and low in the house for it.

oh ya, after the pet shop, we were comtemplating if we should walk home. haha. but ultimately, due to some shit personal reasons, we end up taking 190 home. so be it.

upon reaching home, i also forget what i did.

on saturday, i chiong to quite a few places. -.-

i went to work and after that, my boss drove me to the stadium at Jurong West. haha. i passed them the PSP FINALLY. and we went to jurong point after that.

i was darn drowsy from the cough medicine the whole day or maybe i am really just tired. haha. and after having lunch with them, i took 172 home to cousin's house. haha.

i slept all the way and walked dreamily to the block. and downstairs, i happen to see Ah Huat and this time round, i din overshot the unit. -.-

had dinner at their house before going out to get sweettalk then to play badminton..

had a crazy night. really crazy. crazy beyond description. haha.

and after a long night, we went home and i attempt to watch the documentary but the medicine make me doze off every now and then. so no choice, bamb. i sleep like a pig after that

should i go to class tonite? hmmm...

why are things the way they are now? -.- =C

looking forward to chalet!!! C=

ohya, the tap in office just leak again and the guys just came back from van pushing. the van and lorry are taking turns to break down. OMG.

oh ya, i dreamt of her again. this time round, puking blood and very sickly in the bed.

SICK SICK SICK

that has been on my nickname on MSN for quite somedays le. and it is being mentioned in the previous entries for MANY MANY MANY times le.

argh. i am not getting any better. hmm.

i am so free now, AGAIN. hmm. but i believe later things will be very chaotic. haha. i shall go try to see if the dvd are in good conditions. C=

oh tonight, hmm. its lao bei's birthday, do you think i will get to meet the not-drunk-him? haha. i doubt so.

thinking of going over to grandma house to bai bai. hmm. maybe i should, or maybe i should bring and ask the others to go along as well.

hmm. something STUNNING happened at work. oh my goodness, cannot image they are THAT childish. no other words to describe le la. really BUAI TAHAN.

byebye. thats all i can tell the person and we shall see what will happen to the company.

poor partner of his. trying to cover up for him and got himself into deep shit also. oh no.

hmm. we shall see. hmm.

TOMORROW~! WHEE~!

should i get off tomorrow to go to the docs? or maybe i should go in the afternoon? all this is killing me. argh.

did i mention that i have a funny mama?

Case One:
Mei and mama went into the new lift.
Mei pressed 5th storey
Come out from the lift at 5th storey.
Mama: EEK! how come look so different? How come we are at 5th floor?!

Mei: Its the new lift ma!

Mama: The new lift can reach 5th floor meh?!

Mei: ...

Mama: OH...! HAHAHA


Case Two:
Me, Mei and Mama sitting in the living room, discussing about my cough and flu.

Me: The instructor at the first aider course say maybe i am down with Upper Respiratory Tract Infection. He ask me go see doctor to get medicine and antibiotics.

Mama: Ask your go take the cough syrup dont listen, can recover de. And, dont take antibiotics, it is not good, later nothing can cure you when you get worse next time.

Me: I know too much antibiotics not good la... but i also dont want to take the cough syrup. No use de.

Mama: The cough syrup no use, better than nothing.

Me: Dont want, later get sudden bad cough and i will cough like crazy.

(I dont remember mama replying me)
15 minutes later

Me(attempting to sneeze but fail): I should have gone to get the Panadol for flu!!! my nose is super itchy and its killing me!

Mama: Buy what medicine? Take the medicine no use de la.

Me: ...!!! HAHA. you just now still ask me go take the cough syrup!!!! hahahahahaha.

Mama (suddenly realise that she is contradicting herself, laughing): Oh ya hor, haha. go take the hot drinks for flu and cold la.

SUPER -.- lor.... my lao bu. hahaha

Oh ya, this remind me, i have a difficult time trying to sneeze. ah. and it dont feel good to not be able to sneeze. :(

.::here to post again::.

i seriously think i should stop posting new post like 2 times a day.

but dude. i dont care, i am just way too bored.

:P took a small nap for about 20minutes just now because i am really feeling very sick. i hope i can have the courage to take the saturday off.

and i now see the need to go shopping la... i need a dark coloured cardigan, or maybe a white one. cause apparently i only have one brown one that i can wear now. hmm. how long will this last, i dont know but i know it is all a want, not a need.

mama dont see the need for me to get a lappy so she is not going to help me with application of installment. sianed. so that means, either i wait till i am 21, pay full amount or give up the idea. whatever it is, it is going to be a long wait, maybe other than the last decision.

i am blog hopping and i came across alot of links to those young mommies blog. so interesting...

hmm. no ones understand how much i have gone through, how much i have done those years. i dont have the courage to say it out. even to someone close.

i keep thinking, what will happen if....

so many 'what will happen if...'

i am missing companies. i need people to go out with me. i need supper. i want supper time, better with drinking but i realli gave up on the idea of drinking, seeing what it did to me and how it worsened my cough.

argh. faster recover! ok, i drank alot of water today le hor.

hmm. reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply reply my sms~!

ARGH. my boss cannot sign off from cape town, that means he will take about another week before he is back...

and CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP. something stupid just happened.

i am eating alot recently, is my weighing machine spoil or something. hmmmmmm... how can i be only 47kg? hmmm.

looking forward to the occupational first aid course tonight! C= i like the way the instructor teach and conduct the class.

hmm. waiting for batteries to come before i go have my yun tun gou tiao! C=