Thursday, August 04, 2005

.::what can i do?i am always left without a choice::.

~*there is just nothing for me to type*~

i think i am getting too sensitive sometimes...or should i say over sensitive... thinking too much into things making me feel bad... not really bad...just keep thinking about it... and stoning away

darn cold today... and the whole class is just so dead la...

i hardly sleep during tutorial... but the room was so cold that i cant bring myself to do anyting...so i just doze of...=p

anyway... sometimes i just think that my sister is just not senstive enough... but what can i say?

i stayed up late to accompany her...just now she asked mi help her iron her uniform... easy job... so i said ok... then veri late le... i scare my mother come out scold cause i haven switch off the tv... so i asked sis whether can help mi switch off the tv cause to me she seems to be on her way out...

she just said no... and i started thinking why... i asked her why she dont want to help me... her reply was... 'i helped you last night le'... abit shocked...

i waited for her for countless nights... i help her iron her uniform... ok... i may not be there for her to ask question all the time... but i will do things for her if i can...

so...am i suppose to blame myself for not holding myself properly as a elder sis or should i blame her bad temper...

this was not the first time... our relationship just revolve around her mood... she happy... everything ok... if not then very hard to say..

i know she changed for the better alot le... but cant she see that i changed too? no more f words directed to her or said at home...

i say she selfish... then she started saying i bimbo... ok... your sis here is bimbo...

i go out in SUPER MINI SKIRTS ALL THE TIME...
i go out in SUPER BIMBOIC CLOTHES ALL THE TIME...
i walk AND LET MY BUTT GUIDES THE WAY ALL THE TIME...
i speak in those SUPER ACT CUTE VOICE ALL THE TIME...
i put SUPER MANY COLOURFUL HAIR CLIPS ALL THE TIME...
i tie my hair in SUPER BIMBOIC STYLE ALL THE TIME...


can she like just go and find out what a bimbo really is?...before she start insulting me and disgracing herself?

maybe sometimes i am when i say words like 'WHATEVER' but that was solely for fun... 'WHATEVER' with the 'WHATEVER'action is darn bimbo... i know that... so i never do that again ever since jeff said it was bimboic...

what is this... what kind of sister she want... if she really want to comment me... then i rather she say i LIAN... cause i admit i like to ACT LIAN... happy???

~*i am not the guai little girl all the time*~ ~*step on my tails and you die... *~

my patience is limited... so far she is the only one whom i am treating nicely even when i am maligned by her for so many things for so many times...

~*she stepped on my tail le*~

but i cant bring myself to treat her badly... but does anyone knows how bad it feels when she malign you...you treat her nicely... and the next moment she is shouting at you again...

what is this?

~*my keyboard is wet again*~
~*because of her again*~

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