.::happy me?::.

~*it is easier to not care about anything*~
~*but someday everything will just come crushing down again*~

ok...i am promoted... i should be happy about that... yeah...but it mean nothing to me...it only meant more work next year... have to control le...

haix... why am i always feeling so sad? i am tired of finding reasons to why i am sad le... it is somehow always the same few things... the same old stupid useless issues... only if your know what i am talking about...

i hate people coming into my life and leaving my life... that is the reason why i do not have close friends now bah...no extremely close ones like those that i had when i was in secondary one...

those that you always hang out with and never with others... but... now no more...

even watching a drama series coming to an end... i also few kind of sad... will kind of miss those characters...although i know right from the start it is only A SHOW... but still... haix... useless me
someone once told me that...when you miss those characters in a drama series after watching it...it means you are in love... in love with someone...that is why you put in so much effort into appreciating the drama... so does that mean that i have someone in my heart now?

it is a sad thing to admit... but yes... sadly...yes... it is never a happy thing to fall in love... cause i never get what i want... and i am used to it... and i shall be happy with what i have... C=

the smile means something to me... i dont know why... C=

i will try to be happy... i looked happy when i am with you guys... i supposed so... but i hate times like this... sad and alone... hmm... i am waiting for some replies or something...but i never get any...

things are no longer the same... when your are bored...your can sms me... i will reply if i am free... C=

like i say...no matter what youu do... there is always a reason... so far most of them are like that... what can i say? i cant do anything... that is your choice... not mine... i can only take it or leave it...

i used my tarot cards.. i trust them...but it is always the same thing...all the bad things are accurate but never the good ones... they are always not accurate... or maybe i am just waiting for the day that these good things to happen to come... a long wait...

i believe in dreamcatcher... i hardly have bad dreams... it somehow make m happy to realise that dreamcatcher keeps my bad dreams away... maybe by making one and giving it, will make one happy...

~*the earth is rotating*~
~*but it never seems to be for me*~
~*how i wish that things were the way they are weeks ago*~
~*since the earth is not rotating for me...*~
~*it will never stop for me*~
~*so be it*~
~*i accept it*~

[please believe me... i tried to be happy... i am happy most of the time.... but that feeling is just not good when everything just come down together...be happy is my goal for life.... so i tried to be happy...]
~*i will be happy for tomorrow after this entry*~