.::my life::.

~*i led a few happy days*~
~*those happy days excluded PW time*~
~*but now, i am sad again*~

everything seems to have come to an end... no more good night messages that i can send...maybe it is just about time to end things.. anyway, that is just what he want... he said that a lot of times...always the nice way but i never accept that... in the end i am the one sad...hmm...maybe it is just not worth it...

haix...but who cares, i expected this day to come anyway... still holding onto hopes at first but later then i realise everything is just nothing...

i was swing back to reality when i know i am just nothing...

then i came to remember those words...it is better to be with someone who loves you more than you love him... sometimes these things are just hard to settle on...cause the one you love may not be the one who love you...

all those stupid C= and youu... maybe it is time to dump everything off...but just as what i had always said, it is always easier said than done...

it is real nice if my world is filled with little babies... babies that cant talk yet...they are just so cute and easy to hang out with.. there is never a need to hide yourself and be fake in front of them...cause they are true to you as you are true to them...

i never intend to turn this into a depressing blog...i never intend to...but what are just those small things that can make me happy? youu know... i bet... but that will never be the case... so it is time to turn to other things to make me happy...babies... C=

i wanna leave town... to any where... anywhere that can let me not think of things that are unhappy...

are youu reading this? i was shocked when i know youu read my blog... but i will be even more shocked if youu are still reading it now... cause i thought youu no longer care...

i always have that feeling... it is harsh and bad to say that out...but i somehow think that i dont really care... we are just making use of each other... dont youu agree?

haix...life is like that... i am evil... hear my evil laughter? i never turn everything to the extreme end even if i hate that person to the core... cause it is pointless... who knows when i will need his or her help again?

but it is different here... youu will never understand...

can i leave town yet?

~*hmm...if youu are reading this entry*~
~*as i had said, i would be shocked*~
~*but youu know who youu are*~
~* C= *~