~*why am i feeling down again?*
~*is it because of the same thing?*~
~*i suppose it is*~
~*why?*~
~*i dont know how to pen them down here*~

hmm...things were quite alright i suppose... but i have some idea why i am here adding sorrows to my blog again... but i just dont know how to put them all in word...

they had a quarrel... i was not at home then... but it was shocking to let all things come to light... saddening...

why do i feel like i am being used by him? just felt that there is a purpose or motive behind everything he do... can someone tell him to stop that or do something else that wont gave me the wrong imprsseion? things are just coming and going the way they want... not the way i want...

maybe she should leave her... she said that she is tired... so many years... so many times... so many forgiving and so many quarrels... so much that even we are getting tired...

maybe i should have encourage her to get things over and done with... i dont need someone like him... someone who bears no responsibility in any way...

since when am i waiting again? i am forever waiting for the same old things... ok... so what if i am waiting... one of the sole purpose in life the moment you are born is to wait for death to arrive...

i had a weird dream... a dream that seems more like a drama... a drama that i am glad will never happen... because for me, dream are just the opposite of reality...

how i wish i can dream of me waiting for the same old things tonight... to get me the opposite...

anyone can be reading this entry now... anyone under the sun... if you get what i mean ten you get it... if you dont, then you dont...

can they leave, how i wish they never came into my life... but if they dont, where will i be? i am brought back to the same old situation that happen before... the same feeling, the same problem... the problem that never seems to be able to have a solution except for time to wash away everything... peace in my heart seems impossible...

maybe when i am alone... peace is attainable... maybe when i am alone, i am able to give myself hope telling myself that things are ok... but the greater the hope, the greater the fall.. i never had peace in trying to give myself hope...

for once i thought that things will be ok.. but i am wrong to think that way because things are never ok... when will they be ok? when they leave? when they learn? when they realise that everything good is just right before them? when will that day come? i dont know...

maybe no one ever have peace in their heart before... there is always something there... something that make you sad... some sad memories... what are the things that really matters? who knows? how you define peace? who knows?

when will they learn? i dont know... i bet even they also have no idea...

i am approaching the stagnent frame... something that leave me with no choice but to let time wash away the sorrows...

i once said that they were alike.. ok... i said for more than once... but will they ever remember? ok i said it to only one of them... they never realise they are alike because they always fail to see the true them that we see...
*if you remember me saying you are like someone else that i know... then maybe you are the ones that i am talking about here... any doubt can come and ask me... but again... i have the choice to say or not say...*

but i doubt they will be reading my blog...

ok... i bet i am getting everyone confused... for this entry and the previous one, any doubt can come and ask me...althoug i said before dont approach me regarding my entries... this is exception... i think most likely i will tell your what is going on... because i just think that everything is just so complicated... hmmm... or should i say i am making things complicated...

~*please leave my life*~
~*before everything becomes stagnent*~
~*leaving me with no choice but for time to wash away everything*~
~*me?him?her?us?i?you?he?she?we?mine?they?his?her's?their?
~*nothing matters*~
~*peace*~