.::hmm::.

~*maybe it is just the wrong time*~
~*plus the wrong mood factor on too?*~

hmm.. i slept and no way am i feeling better.. i finally know what is wrong... i am feeling frustrated.. why?

i need sleep and i need time.. can i just have both? oh ya.. and i want silence.. i dont want a sister to be ranting away.. trying to ask me to go and clear the tings up when she can jolly well do it herself..

slept and forced myself to wake up and back to bed again.. then the ranting and nagging begin...

'ah jie, can u go and throw away the things done by the dogs? can go do now?'

please.. when you are sleeping, will you be willing to get out of bed to go and throw someting when those people have the ability to do it themselves? HELLO.. i know ur have done alot.. so it wun kill to do one more rite?

then after them, it is my dad... drunk as usual, in to try to make me do the tings but in a nicer tone.. took away my blanket and my pillow.. hate that.. no choice.. and after doing the tings, i wen back to bed..

then come again..

'oh shit.. ah jie, can u help me refill the printer ink?'

please.. ok.. say i am LAZY...

I AM PLAIN LAZY..

who will drag herself out of bed? so i replied

'when u need it? can i do it tomorrow?'

and then the shouting come... 'MONDAY GOT TEST LA.. NEVERMIND.. I DO IT MYSELF!!!'

oh mine.. dont need to be like that de rite? then she was real loud when she shouted that.. hmm.. then i tried to tell her..

'leave it there.. i do later.. i make sure u see the ting in the morning..'

ok.. that did not get into her head.. then mama come in.. SCOLD.. whatelse?

'the person say, ink omost finish jiu have to refill le.. ur everyting oso later later... later spoil'

then my sis contributed her thoughts... 'ah jie everytime refill cartridge also didnt fill it up totally...'

WHATEVER!!! that is really so freaking WHATEVER.. do it yourself then..

ok.. to avoid argument and to prevent me from saying anyting bad and making the whole situation worse, i oli sat there and cry and they bombed me with words.. ok.. end of story...

suddenly i feel very tired.. crying dont help.. what is wrong? how i wish u r with me now.. iz oli less than a month of intense studying and i am feeling this bad.. how to hold on till november? i dont know..

~*smiles*~
~*i will*~