.::SORRY!!!::.

~*2 issues*~
~*one apology*~
~* C= *~

ok.. apologise to you.. i think i should.. hmm.. call that mood swings? i dont know but i just feel so bad.. i mean.. just feel that i should not have let my mood go down and i know how bad it feels when someone is sad and there is nothing that you can do or say to make that person feels better...

hmm.. ok.. sorry... sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.. hmm.. i typed all those ok? haas..

hmm... today...

i didnt really expect myself to feel that way.. i thought i wil never care but apparently, i think i do care.. or is it because i just feel weird? i mean.. how to not feel weird or was i over sensitive? and that everything is ok and alright?

i used to think that, it is ok.. i see them as people who will come and leave my life the way the others do.. i mean.. i dont think i really care.. maybe i dont even care about it now.. i am just wondering what went wrong.. hold on.. i do mind...

ok.. i mind.. i want to know what went wrong.. or was it destinated to be like that as time pass and since this group is big?

i thought everything was on the surface and i will never give it a damn but since like i dont even know myself.. i mean.. i realise i am wrong.. i do care.. and things may seem to be on the surface but i cant deny the fact that they were the ones with me when i was at the most difficult times..

yes i am still in that period of time.. difficult time.. how i wish i can stop this race and have time for the things that do really matters to me..

i know i cant.. i dont have a choice.. even if i know i am going to fail this race, i know i still have to finish it and take it.. i mean.. ya.. i regret..

to me, all used to be easy.. last minute work is nothing.. but now i cant.. i mean.. call this last minute bahs.. it is really last minute..

i didnt realise it can be that difficult... but i am wrong and ya.. here i am struggling..

ok.. they were the ones with me.. there to help me... now.. should i just have predicted this day to come?

not making sense here.. ok.. i predicted this day to come but i didnt expect myself to be expected by it.. ok.. i mean.. ya.. i thought i would not give it a damn but i realise i am wrong...

ok.. now.. when will my holidays come? my schedule is up.. on and going.. haix.. work piling up at the same time.. how to consult your teachers when there is no time for practice? ok..

what am i doing here? i should be mugging right? ok.. tomorrow there is this service learning thing and here i am preparing for the thing.. haix.. dont want to say le lah.. i mean.. ok.. fine whatever...

so tomorrow is the 8th ah? haas.. i said i will be there to remind you.. so here i am.. ok.. so? haas.. it is the future that matters.. C=

tomorrow.. announcement.. fireworks!!! C= haas tomorrow.. haas.. 9pm.. C=

~*smiles*~
~*i am perfectly ok*~
~*i am perfectly alright*~
~* C= *~