.::Thinking things through::.

Hmm. Something not really pleasant happened yesterday night and it made me thought through quite alot of things.

Someone called me during lesson and me happen to pick it up. then we had the following conversation:

Girl: Oei, i saw your daddy leh!!!
Me(during class, and speaking damn softly): Orh, i having class.
Girl: I dint see him at the usual coffeeshop leh, i saw him at another one.
Me(still speaking damn softly): Orh, i having class.
Girl: You guess which coffeeshop i saw him?
Me(starting to get irritated, still speaking damn softly): I having class!
Girl: Orh, why having class? What class?
Me end the call aruptly.

ANGRY! BLOOD BOIL CAN?!

Ok, i should not even have picked up the call in the first place.

But this is freaking irritating! How can she be so irritating.

hmm. then when i was walking home, i thought through everything that happened and the weather is nice, small drizzle, real small droplets of rain drop.

I used to think that she is a poor little girl because her sisters dont really treat her well at home and i know ultimately, what she needs is just attention, something that she need endless amount of but her sisters and people living in her house are in no ability to provide her with.
Then i start to realise where her limits are or rather, i realise she have no limits to the need for attention.

Then the fuse start to get shorter and shorter but still manageable.

Just like another Boy, i was telling the brother to give him more attention cause that is what he need also.

But i always tell them, who am i to tell them what to do, they are not my brother or sister. and this make me wonder, am i a good sister?

I know i wasnt there for them the past 2 years but now i am. I know i was just a spoilt brat for the past 2 years but now i believe i am not. so am i a good sister or not? hehe.

Someone told me to heck care her but come to think of it, i still think she very poor thing, no one want to play with her, etc. and even if she was the one who manage to convince us to go over and 'play' with her, ultimately, we will still cast her aside when we start to mj or do other things.

Am i suppose to blame her for her young age? or should i just blame myself for picking up that bloody call? but anyway, its really a SMALL thing la. i just feel so bitch and xiao qi blogging about it here.

anyway, hoping to enjoy whatever that comes along in life but for now, i will continue worrying about what is going to happen at home.

Apparently, my mama forgot to turn off the gas this time round, although the gas is finished, but you never know what. she also damn DOK KONG can? last time forget to turn off the slow cooker and it made me think about it for hours only to realise that it is switch off already. and now this. -.- wth.

OH YA! I wanna go shopping!!! =C i need a new bag BADLY.

ok, wednesday will be the day that i will shop. d= shhh...

hmm. what can i say? sometimes somethings just arent meant to be. my sister asked me about him last night. something that surprised me anyway, everything is over. C= and i am a happy, loving soul now! C=