Always wanted to post an entry regarding NDP or give a 'touching' speech because there are really people who touched my heart during NDP. but i just dont seem to have the time to do it.
So many things changed these weeks and days. and i dont like what i am actually going through. not the working part but just something personal. something not nice is happening.
New work, everyday work and i am looking forward to the courses that i will get to take.
looking forward to NDP thank you party and i suppose i will be back next sunday. i hope i will go back and i still owe Loris and Doris from PA stuff. shit. siam. haha. i will hand in the NDP soon. i think it will be tonite.
sinking into the vicious cycle although i know it is not right. i thought i told myself to never let that happen to me again.
shit him, why did he let me see him and him talking? if i dint see what happened, things wouldnt be like that now.
and this is the vicious cycle of hoping, and then disappointment comes along.
i crossed my line. knowing that i did, i still hope and i still get disappointed.
JIEYIM! hoping for both the best for me and the ............
Monday, August 18, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
.::A new life! Enjoying it!!!
Yaps, as what the title say, i realise it is a different life and i am enjoying it!!!
Last friday, the Singapore delegation TRIED to meet up, but ended up there is only around 8 of us? ok. so here are the names. not much pictures taken. maybe junyi has a hell lot since he brought his camera.
so the people who appear and are alive:
ME!
Angeline
Cindy
Gina
Junyi
Lawrence
Mike
Mira
and of course, Mira's Bf.
ok. then drank bourbon coke for the first time in my life. but i m very sure that would not be the last time. =D
and after leaving at around 1am, i went home, sleep and totally failed to wake up early on saturday mornign to go BBDC. so i changed my mind and sleep in till noon. -.- before going down to PA for a meeting.
and apparently, i reach on the dot and i totally forget about what Mr Tay said. ok la, actually i remember. =D Jieyim's memory can be good ok. haha. just a matter of want or dont want
then after that, after NDP, got my tickets and i enjoyed my walk home from marina.
and tired. bam. sleep on bus until some aunties quarrelling wake me up. but... hmm. nothing much to comment on the quarrel, just glad that it dint turn into a cat fight. but again, hmm. that will be something that i have never see before. =p evil Jieyim
and then the next day, sunday, i dint go PA again, and went to Ebenezer dinner instead. Early morning was breakfast with mama and Auntie. waited 30 minutes for the food. which i think is worth it la. and keh kai about the same old topic and i still feel the same thing. During the dinner at night, drink again, simply because i can drink. so i drank beer. trained up liao, dun feel anything. -.- this is a good thing right? please tell me it is. hahaha
and then went home, and finally reached home at a even earlier time. and nothing much, i forgot what i did.
then on Monday morning, i went to work hoping that i will see some new face today, but i saw only my boss face.
so after a tiring morning, i received another shocking sms. from angeline. KTV at liang court with the Philippines delegation leader. 0.o ok. haha. we are all shocked and surprise.
haha. so after working that night, we went to pick angeline up and had dinner at some place in TPY and then to kbox, we are early, although it is already 10pm. -.-
so sing sing sing sing sing sing and drink drink drink drink. i drink this time round because i feel like drinking. i tried tequila with coke. hmm. and took a sip from Angeline's rum with sprite. ok. and i know it is the first time but wouldnt be the last time i am going to try them. so yaps and had beer too. again.
IT WAS SUPER HAPPENING! although only have me, angeline, cindy, lawrence, hanny and Kid, still, never sing like that in k before. will post all the things we do up real soon. =D
so reached home at 2.30. blah. will try to be home early t0morrow.
i realise something after all these 'busy' days, i am really enjoying my life. not because i get to drink or party. but simply because i am occupied. i like the feeling, i mean, actually i like the fact that i am busy till i got no time to take my lunch, no time to sleep, no time to rest, becuase that make me treasure my free time mroe.
i plan more now and try hard to stick to plan, other than last saturday maybe. hmm. haha.. =p
so, yaps. enjoyed and maybe now is time to enjoy my bed and do some cross stitch. oh shit, i still have books and papers waiting to be read. ... will go read papers now. cross stitch can wait =D
Lastly, i want to annouce,
JIEYIM IS LOVING HER LIFE, LOVING HERSELF, LOVING BEING SINGLE, LOVING BEING ALONE!
Still i want to thank you JD for whatever. and i hope life is better for him, soon. and also, i m still here, as a friend.
Last friday, the Singapore delegation TRIED to meet up, but ended up there is only around 8 of us? ok. so here are the names. not much pictures taken. maybe junyi has a hell lot since he brought his camera.
so the people who appear and are alive:
ME!
Angeline
Cindy
Gina
Junyi
Lawrence
Mike
Mira
and of course, Mira's Bf.
ok. then drank bourbon coke for the first time in my life. but i m very sure that would not be the last time. =D
and after leaving at around 1am, i went home, sleep and totally failed to wake up early on saturday mornign to go BBDC. so i changed my mind and sleep in till noon. -.- before going down to PA for a meeting.
and apparently, i reach on the dot and i totally forget about what Mr Tay said. ok la, actually i remember. =D Jieyim's memory can be good ok. haha. just a matter of want or dont want
then after that, after NDP, got my tickets and i enjoyed my walk home from marina.
and tired. bam. sleep on bus until some aunties quarrelling wake me up. but... hmm. nothing much to comment on the quarrel, just glad that it dint turn into a cat fight. but again, hmm. that will be something that i have never see before. =p evil Jieyim
and then the next day, sunday, i dint go PA again, and went to Ebenezer dinner instead. Early morning was breakfast with mama and Auntie. waited 30 minutes for the food. which i think is worth it la. and keh kai about the same old topic and i still feel the same thing. During the dinner at night, drink again, simply because i can drink. so i drank beer. trained up liao, dun feel anything. -.- this is a good thing right? please tell me it is. hahaha
and then went home, and finally reached home at a even earlier time. and nothing much, i forgot what i did.
then on Monday morning, i went to work hoping that i will see some new face today, but i saw only my boss face.
so after a tiring morning, i received another shocking sms. from angeline. KTV at liang court with the Philippines delegation leader. 0.o ok. haha. we are all shocked and surprise.
haha. so after working that night, we went to pick angeline up and had dinner at some place in TPY and then to kbox, we are early, although it is already 10pm. -.-
so sing sing sing sing sing sing and drink drink drink drink. i drink this time round because i feel like drinking. i tried tequila with coke. hmm. and took a sip from Angeline's rum with sprite. ok. and i know it is the first time but wouldnt be the last time i am going to try them. so yaps and had beer too. again.
IT WAS SUPER HAPPENING! although only have me, angeline, cindy, lawrence, hanny and Kid, still, never sing like that in k before. will post all the things we do up real soon. =D
so reached home at 2.30. blah. will try to be home early t0morrow.
i realise something after all these 'busy' days, i am really enjoying my life. not because i get to drink or party. but simply because i am occupied. i like the feeling, i mean, actually i like the fact that i am busy till i got no time to take my lunch, no time to sleep, no time to rest, becuase that make me treasure my free time mroe.
i plan more now and try hard to stick to plan, other than last saturday maybe. hmm. haha.. =p
so, yaps. enjoyed and maybe now is time to enjoy my bed and do some cross stitch. oh shit, i still have books and papers waiting to be read. ... will go read papers now. cross stitch can wait =D
Lastly, i want to annouce,
JIEYIM IS LOVING HER LIFE, LOVING HERSELF, LOVING BEING SINGLE, LOVING BEING ALONE!
Still i want to thank you JD for whatever. and i hope life is better for him, soon. and also, i m still here, as a friend.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
.::My Birthday!!!::.
Yesterday was my birthday, and i thanks those DARLINGS who wished me happy birthday, celebrated, or give me a present!!!
So here is the list. hope i dont miss anyone out.
Jiangda
Lawrence
Joyce
JieBin
Sam
Suyin
YanJia (i was surprised)
Meichen
LyeYee
Hoon
Ni
Zhiyan (i was surprised)
Angeline
Mira
Gina
Junyi
Cheryl Monica Siantar (I just feel like typing out her full name haha. although i am not very sure if i got it correctly)
hmm. is that all? haha. oh no. People who contributed to the Capitagift Cards, thanks a million!!! rrrreaaalllyyy LOVE it!!! :D
hmm. and went out for dinner at some steamboat restaurant at a street that i never knew it existed. haha. it will be million times better if JOYCIE is there. hmm.
***JOYCIE!!! Pon tomorrow's practice~~!!!***
anyway, after that went home and cut cake!!! haha. so many years dint take photo with a cake le lor. be it my birthday or other people's birthday, actually ok la, i just took one on the 1st April this year. bt then, the point is, i am always helping people take photo de. -.- so sad rite?
hmm. then ate the cake but we are all too full that only less than a quarter of the cake is gone. so yaps, into the fridge it went.
and i took a quarter of the cake for breakfast and lunch today!!! =D
ok. i woke up this morning feeling ok, but after i gulp down the daily dose of coffee, i can feel the Ma La soup and beer in my stomach 0.o so, carefully, i make sure i dont puke anything out and went to work. it gets better before noon and now it is gone! C=
then came the ISO/OHSAS consultant. hmm. they said i did quite alot and job well done, and i start to feel guilty, because i know i could have get more things done de. but i choose not to. but i will get the papers done before i leave this company. hmm
what will happen after i go? hmm. he will have a difficult time handling the auditor, i am sure. but still hope he will pass the auditing.
and today,it will be A Tale of Shaolin-date with mama. :D hmm. first time paying to go to a show with mama. haha.
and then tomorrow is the gathering!!! but no one is replying me!!! hmm. i bet it will just end up being a chit chat session or someting =p
and for now, it is back to work. chiong for ISO/OHSAS!!!
and that way, the day will end faster
*i realised, i am waiting AGAIN, waiting till you have the time to handle me. and why am i waiting again? do i have to? i am thinking things through again. the whole time, it is mostly me waiting for you, and you are either having wushu, having class, or just out with friends or even busy with project. i am always waiting for a message. not that i mind waiting, but i need to feel appreciated. not you thinking that it is ok to make me wait, or that i choose to wait. just some bit of appreciation is mroe than enough. maybe you did, just that i dont remember. there are just things that you claimed you did, but i dont remember. sorry*
So here is the list. hope i dont miss anyone out.
Jiangda
Lawrence
Joyce
JieBin
Sam
Suyin
YanJia (i was surprised)
Meichen
LyeYee
Hoon
Ni
Zhiyan (i was surprised)
Angeline
Mira
Gina
Junyi
Cheryl Monica Siantar (I just feel like typing out her full name haha. although i am not very sure if i got it correctly)
hmm. is that all? haha. oh no. People who contributed to the Capitagift Cards, thanks a million!!! rrrreaaalllyyy LOVE it!!! :D
hmm. and went out for dinner at some steamboat restaurant at a street that i never knew it existed. haha. it will be million times better if JOYCIE is there. hmm.
***JOYCIE!!! Pon tomorrow's practice~~!!!***
anyway, after that went home and cut cake!!! haha. so many years dint take photo with a cake le lor. be it my birthday or other people's birthday, actually ok la, i just took one on the 1st April this year. bt then, the point is, i am always helping people take photo de. -.- so sad rite?
hmm. then ate the cake but we are all too full that only less than a quarter of the cake is gone. so yaps, into the fridge it went.
and i took a quarter of the cake for breakfast and lunch today!!! =D
ok. i woke up this morning feeling ok, but after i gulp down the daily dose of coffee, i can feel the Ma La soup and beer in my stomach 0.o so, carefully, i make sure i dont puke anything out and went to work. it gets better before noon and now it is gone! C=
then came the ISO/OHSAS consultant. hmm. they said i did quite alot and job well done, and i start to feel guilty, because i know i could have get more things done de. but i choose not to. but i will get the papers done before i leave this company. hmm
what will happen after i go? hmm. he will have a difficult time handling the auditor, i am sure. but still hope he will pass the auditing.
and today,it will be A Tale of Shaolin-date with mama. :D hmm. first time paying to go to a show with mama. haha.
and then tomorrow is the gathering!!! but no one is replying me!!! hmm. i bet it will just end up being a chit chat session or someting =p
and for now, it is back to work. chiong for ISO/OHSAS!!!
and that way, the day will end faster
*i realised, i am waiting AGAIN, waiting till you have the time to handle me. and why am i waiting again? do i have to? i am thinking things through again. the whole time, it is mostly me waiting for you, and you are either having wushu, having class, or just out with friends or even busy with project. i am always waiting for a message. not that i mind waiting, but i need to feel appreciated. not you thinking that it is ok to make me wait, or that i choose to wait. just some bit of appreciation is mroe than enough. maybe you did, just that i dont remember. there are just things that you claimed you did, but i dont remember. sorry*
Sunday, July 20, 2008
.::What a weekend::.
hmm. first, it was NDP and in the saturday morning, i gave up the plan to go URA building because i seriously, just dont know how to go. oh wells. so i gave it up in exchange for my sleep/rest.
after waking up at 12 noon by someone's phone call, i walked out of the room to see the living room in a MESS. some cute dog chew up an adidas shoe box. omg. jialat. then i went on and bathe and fly out of the house with my sister for brunch.
reached PA and i forgot what i do there. but i remember we staged a show. and i dont think we acheive what we want to achieve. hmm.
then it was at the platform. so many stupid things that i just dont want to talk about and we should consider ourselves rather lucky. the rain stops after the finale. and we stayed on the platform for about 1.5 hours more, waiting for the Pri 5 students to move off. sian. thats the only way to describe the waiting time.
and my heels hurt like crazy. piang. no place to sit and just simply standing around can really kill.
so after that, we went back to the show village and back to the pick up point and back to PA and things happened which i dont want to say. and i zoomed off upon reaching. hmm. heck. :P
then rushed to clark quay to meet up with KS and ZR. went for MAC and we gave up on the idea of going Iguana. so we sat at somewhere near the river and crap. haha. smelly river.
that should be the kind of life. at least i am enjoying it now. :D
so shared a cab and went home. was the last to alight. =C and then reached home at 3.30? haha. amazed. hardly so late.
and slept till 12 again? woke up because i was disturbed by stupid Carrot.
(she lick me on my lips, i wipe my lips clean with my sleeves) X 3 times. IRRITATING! so i wake up to eat brunch. haha
and then was to PA. if not for the cha siew rice, i wun get drenched.
slack till meeting and during meeting, weeeee... happy, 暗爽！who wun lor. haha. they did ask me for my name before. :D
so after that, i feel tired and dont know what to do, i went home. did cross stitch after having dinner. and here i am. i will go for more cross stitch. :D
tata. thats all folks. C=
after waking up at 12 noon by someone's phone call, i walked out of the room to see the living room in a MESS. some cute dog chew up an adidas shoe box. omg. jialat. then i went on and bathe and fly out of the house with my sister for brunch.
reached PA and i forgot what i do there. but i remember we staged a show. and i dont think we acheive what we want to achieve. hmm.
then it was at the platform. so many stupid things that i just dont want to talk about and we should consider ourselves rather lucky. the rain stops after the finale. and we stayed on the platform for about 1.5 hours more, waiting for the Pri 5 students to move off. sian. thats the only way to describe the waiting time.
and my heels hurt like crazy. piang. no place to sit and just simply standing around can really kill.
so after that, we went back to the show village and back to the pick up point and back to PA and things happened which i dont want to say. and i zoomed off upon reaching. hmm. heck. :P
then rushed to clark quay to meet up with KS and ZR. went for MAC and we gave up on the idea of going Iguana. so we sat at somewhere near the river and crap. haha. smelly river.
that should be the kind of life. at least i am enjoying it now. :D
so shared a cab and went home. was the last to alight. =C and then reached home at 3.30? haha. amazed. hardly so late.
and slept till 12 again? woke up because i was disturbed by stupid Carrot.
(she lick me on my lips, i wipe my lips clean with my sleeves) X 3 times. IRRITATING! so i wake up to eat brunch. haha
and then was to PA. if not for the cha siew rice, i wun get drenched.
slack till meeting and during meeting, weeeee... happy, 暗爽！who wun lor. haha. they did ask me for my name before. :D
so after that, i feel tired and dont know what to do, i went home. did cross stitch after having dinner. and here i am. i will go for more cross stitch. :D
tata. thats all folks. C=
Thursday, July 17, 2008
.::First Private Driving::.
today, is the first driving lesson, as in private one la. kan ciong spider. -.- haha. as usual.
that is jieyim C=
and nothing much, but Mr Tay just speak rather soft sometimes and he likes to stick his words together. haha.
but i think driving myself is not that scary afterall.
hmm. it will be better next time. when i get used to it!!! C=
and Jieyim just drink Choya. abit seh. haha.
nothing much to write. how to spend my friday night?
that is jieyim C=
and nothing much, but Mr Tay just speak rather soft sometimes and he likes to stick his words together. haha.
but i think driving myself is not that scary afterall.
hmm. it will be better next time. when i get used to it!!! C=
and Jieyim just drink Choya. abit seh. haha.
nothing much to write. how to spend my friday night?
.::stupid computer::.
i give up on trying to blog with another computer le. -.- it never manage to load the page de. only hang on me. argh.
whatever, this computer is no where better, the keyboard is difficult to press.
anyway, chionged through work today and realise that time pass real fast!!!
hmm. if only there is someone, as in a colleague in the office, i think life will be better. -.-
but anyway, i am leaving real soon. just hope that my boss is really trying to find someone to cover my job. but apparently, from what i see, there is no sign of searching. hmm. i will ask him tomorrow!!! that is if he come into the office. -.-
hmm. tiring days. but i enjoyed being busy, if the thing i do is not something that i hate/dont like. then it is perfectly fine to be busy! C=
hmm. hope i can get to go out tml or sat nite. haha. KS CHO!!! i wanna go out.
hmm. back to wish list.
hmm. i forgot wad else tat i want le. sian. -.- ok, maybe a gathering soon.
ok, just ended an MOM call that i waited a whole day for. but. i think i have the answer in the first place lor. -.-
whatever, this computer is no where better, the keyboard is difficult to press.
anyway, chionged through work today and realise that time pass real fast!!!
hmm. if only there is someone, as in a colleague in the office, i think life will be better. -.-
but anyway, i am leaving real soon. just hope that my boss is really trying to find someone to cover my job. but apparently, from what i see, there is no sign of searching. hmm. i will ask him tomorrow!!! that is if he come into the office. -.-
hmm. tiring days. but i enjoyed being busy, if the thing i do is not something that i hate/dont like. then it is perfectly fine to be busy! C=
hmm. hope i can get to go out tml or sat nite. haha. KS CHO!!! i wanna go out.
hmm. back to wish list.
hmm. i forgot wad else tat i want le. sian. -.- ok, maybe a gathering soon.
ok, just ended an MOM call that i waited a whole day for. but. i think i have the answer in the first place lor. -.-
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
.::BIRTHDAY WISHLIST::.
I DEMAND THE FOLLOWING FOR MY BIRTHDAY. HAHA. i hope i can get la.
Top on the list,
1. Beijing Olympic Limited Edition CapitaGift Card, ALL FIVE!!!
Priced at S$68 for 5 cards at any Capitaland mall in Singapore, and that includes Lot one, Bugis, Plaza Sing, yada yada yada, with no stored value.
2. Some nice silver ring that i can wear.
But this is something that i have to go choose myself
3. Jewelleries/Accessories!!!
which girl dont love them? ok la, i dont always wear la. but i still like to have more
4. Pass driving before my advance theory expire.
Hmmm. starting this thurday le!!!
5. cannot remember anymore at the moment.
will try to think of more tomorrow. C=
i heard something from the radio. why XXX want to be doraemon?
because he want to sheng chu yuan shou.
Top on the list,
1. Beijing Olympic Limited Edition CapitaGift Card, ALL FIVE!!!
Priced at S$68 for 5 cards at any Capitaland mall in Singapore, and that includes Lot one, Bugis, Plaza Sing, yada yada yada, with no stored value.
2. Some nice silver ring that i can wear.
But this is something that i have to go choose myself
3. Jewelleries/Accessories!!!
which girl dont love them? ok la, i dont always wear la. but i still like to have more
4. Pass driving before my advance theory expire.
Hmmm. starting this thurday le!!!
5. cannot remember anymore at the moment.
will try to think of more tomorrow. C=
i heard something from the radio. why XXX want to be doraemon?
because he want to sheng chu yuan shou.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
.::JIEYIM IS BLOGGING AGAIN::.
JIEYIM IS BLOGGING AGAIN.
haha. yawn. maybe i should go offline and do cross stitch until i fall asleep. ahahaha
i did quite alot yesterday although it seems so insignificant on the big thing. haha
and i feel *bang* whacked in the head today, bt i know that is normal la. haha. cos is soemthing new afterall.
right. i remember i have somthing to search for. thats all.
the whole night was doing reports but hmm. keep having the feeling that i missed something out and i really do in the end. :P
haha. yawn. maybe i should go offline and do cross stitch until i fall asleep. ahahaha
i did quite alot yesterday although it seems so insignificant on the big thing. haha
and i feel *bang* whacked in the head today, bt i know that is normal la. haha. cos is soemthing new afterall.
right. i remember i have somthing to search for. thats all.
the whole night was doing reports but hmm. keep having the feeling that i missed something out and i really do in the end. :P
Monday, July 14, 2008
.::a few things::.
just a few things that i really have to blog about.
first, i am using another computer in the office and i am so not used to it. the keys are so small and i am just not used to where the backspace or enter is because it is just a different keyboard.
anyway, that is something super random and not important
this whole two years, i dont think i wasted anything and in fact, i learn quite alot of things from whichever source.
firstly, i think i never regret this one year in this company, i really learnt alot and i mean alot. i forge great friendship again, people who are knowledgeable in their own field and knows alot of things just cant wait to teach me things and get to learn more about computer stuff from me! :D that is something happy for me. because they are willing to teach me, means i get the chance to learn more things.
then again, there are unhappy things that is always happening and i dont know how to help. things are just not going right for him these few weeks.
it is first the new car, got involved in a small accident which result in the damage of the bracket and having to change a new light, and for a BMW, that is around 2k? hmm. then after servicing, he ran over a nail and damaged his tyre. whatelse can be more suay than all these for a car that is just about 2 months old.
and there just seem to be more to come. the termite attacked buddha painting from thailand, me quitting, officers not happy about him, workers arguing and quarrelling with him. what else?
and cashflow. hmm. shall not continue with this topic, it is jsut endless. hope that things will be better for him. dont want to see him die afterall.
and then i went cycling yesterday although i should be at PA having dance practice, but i think i deserve a break after all these years. i know laoshi deserve a break more and i am not the only one feeling tired, but i think i really wanna think about what i want to do in life in the coming years. because, for now, i think getting achievements in career seems like a better idea.
but then again, i never regret whatever that i had done. just wished that i had managed my human relations better in the past.
and then again, i dont know what went wrong between me and him. cant it be just simple friendship? if there is something that you need to say, something that u hope that i will do, just tell me. i know and understandyour pride. but then again. haix. nothing much
i realise there are so many things i wanted to do, wished to do in the past 2 years, but i didnt do. i choose not to, i know that. but then again. it is over.
and now it is a new life!!! :D should i celebrate my BIRTHDAY?! JIE YIM DEMAND A PRESENT! :D
kidding -.- haas
first, i am using another computer in the office and i am so not used to it. the keys are so small and i am just not used to where the backspace or enter is because it is just a different keyboard.
anyway, that is something super random and not important
this whole two years, i dont think i wasted anything and in fact, i learn quite alot of things from whichever source.
firstly, i think i never regret this one year in this company, i really learnt alot and i mean alot. i forge great friendship again, people who are knowledgeable in their own field and knows alot of things just cant wait to teach me things and get to learn more about computer stuff from me! :D that is something happy for me. because they are willing to teach me, means i get the chance to learn more things.
then again, there are unhappy things that is always happening and i dont know how to help. things are just not going right for him these few weeks.
it is first the new car, got involved in a small accident which result in the damage of the bracket and having to change a new light, and for a BMW, that is around 2k? hmm. then after servicing, he ran over a nail and damaged his tyre. whatelse can be more suay than all these for a car that is just about 2 months old.
and there just seem to be more to come. the termite attacked buddha painting from thailand, me quitting, officers not happy about him, workers arguing and quarrelling with him. what else?
and cashflow. hmm. shall not continue with this topic, it is jsut endless. hope that things will be better for him. dont want to see him die afterall.
and then i went cycling yesterday although i should be at PA having dance practice, but i think i deserve a break after all these years. i know laoshi deserve a break more and i am not the only one feeling tired, but i think i really wanna think about what i want to do in life in the coming years. because, for now, i think getting achievements in career seems like a better idea.
but then again, i never regret whatever that i had done. just wished that i had managed my human relations better in the past.
and then again, i dont know what went wrong between me and him. cant it be just simple friendship? if there is something that you need to say, something that u hope that i will do, just tell me. i know and understand
i realise there are so many things i wanted to do, wished to do in the past 2 years, but i didnt do. i choose not to, i know that. but then again. it is over.
and now it is a new life!!! :D should i celebrate my BIRTHDAY?! JIE YIM DEMAND A PRESENT! :D
kidding -.- haas
Friday, July 11, 2008
.::JIEYIM post alot::.
jieyim post alot of entry only when something is happening.
something is happening and pui, i totally hate it.
hmm. la la la la la la la la la. we shall see about it.
going to enjoy my weekend~!!! C=
i am still happy although i totally hate whatever that is happening. blah. but i dont care. =D
something is happening and pui, i totally hate it.
hmm. la la la la la la la la la. we shall see about it.
going to enjoy my weekend~!!! C=
i am still happy although i totally hate whatever that is happening. blah. but i dont care. =D
.::Set a limit or Start a war::.
it is getting complicated and it is really time to let go.
sometimes it is really between setting a limit to whatever you are doing or start a war.
And i think in this case, starting a war is not something that some people will like to do if they know whatever is going on.
sian. it is all over again. at least one thing is settled *wink* :P
hmm. look on the bright side of life. JIE YIM is currently single, maybe being friends is really better although things that happened now is not what we want it to be. :D
ok. i got a shock of my life. just got it. piang. kill me please. argh.
sometimes it is really between setting a limit to whatever you are doing or start a war.
And i think in this case, starting a war is not something that some people will like to do if they know whatever is going on.
sian. it is all over again. at least one thing is settled *wink* :P
hmm. look on the bright side of life. JIE YIM is currently single, maybe being friends is really better although things that happened now is not what we want it to be. :D
ok. i got a shock of my life. just got it. piang. kill me please. argh.
Monday, July 07, 2008
.::Understanding::.
生命中不可承受的轻
让耳机循环这旋律
反复超重低音震动着宁静
挡风玻璃里爱成了蒙太奇
我哼着我自己的叹息
只是爱与被爱的比例 不是爱或不爱的问题
如果明天还有好天气 都已经跟你没关系
你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴
偶阵雨偶尔会天晴
还好星光熠熠好心的提醒
一个人追寻一个人的和平
我看见我自己的天际
爱真的需要一点勇气 就看我们敢不敢忘记
我和彩虹最短的直径 也不一定没有你不行
你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴
就让我狠狠地加速前进 脱离你所给我的梦境
再零点零一零公里就可以清醒
我决定不再等你决定 我决定不再当局者迷
我决定属于我自己的黎明
距离你一世纪下一个世纪
just a random nice song that i randomly fall for. i want to get out of here now. this minute. i am not in the right condition to face whatever that is going to come today. tomorrow will be a better day.
ya, the trip changed my life. it is time to talk to mama again. tonight it will be. i hope.
i thought i am not under any/much stress. but i dont agree to that now. i don't want the phone to ring. i don't want to hear his voice.
it does not seem to concern only me now.
i am tired.
i remember typing something similar some years ago.
i always thought i am veri strong. i always thought i can handle anything, handle myself. i appear like i dont need any special attention.
now, once again, i changed my mind. i need concern sometimes.
it is a simple thing that is not simple now.
让耳机循环这旋律
反复超重低音震动着宁静
挡风玻璃里爱成了蒙太奇
我哼着我自己的叹息
只是爱与被爱的比例 不是爱或不爱的问题
如果明天还有好天气 都已经跟你没关系
你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴
偶阵雨偶尔会天晴
还好星光熠熠好心的提醒
一个人追寻一个人的和平
我看见我自己的天际
爱真的需要一点勇气 就看我们敢不敢忘记
我和彩虹最短的直径 也不一定没有你不行
你让我梦见了太美的梦 生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以 所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴
就让我狠狠地加速前进 脱离你所给我的梦境
再零点零一零公里就可以清醒
我决定不再等你决定 我决定不再当局者迷
我决定属于我自己的黎明
距离你一世纪下一个世纪
just a random nice song that i randomly fall for. i want to get out of here now. this minute. i am not in the right condition to face whatever that is going to come today. tomorrow will be a better day.
ya, the trip changed my life. it is time to talk to mama again. tonight it will be. i hope.
i thought i am not under any/much stress. but i dont agree to that now. i don't want the phone to ring. i don't want to hear his voice.
it does not seem to concern only me now.
i am tired.
i remember typing something similar some years ago.
i always thought i am veri strong. i always thought i can handle anything, handle myself. i appear like i dont need any special attention.
now, once again, i changed my mind. i need concern sometimes.
it is a simple thing that is not simple now.
Friday, July 04, 2008
.::my life::.
the girl who use to dislike changes realised something.
she realised that maybe it is good to change afterall.
there are so many things going on and so many people growing up. hope everyone grow out of it soon and be ok again.
i know it is not right to blog now. the things that i think are very important to me are not the way they used to be now.
year after year, it is always the same thing. the same problem and sometimes even the same people.
to think back, i dont regret whatever that i have done, i dont regret raising my hand at that moment and making that decision. it added colours to my life but i believe i will be more carefree now if i did not do whatever that i have done.
life is like that. even if you regret, you still have to live with it. i dont regret. i took my freedom in exchange for colours. something that is worth it.
at least until now, i still think it is worth it.
what will happen if we are all gone?
the things and decision that i made during this period, maybe can make me feel better but i know the people affected by my decision will not feel good.
i have the intention to go for one and have decided to go for another one.
what will happened if i go?
will they be ok if i go?
will they make me stay if i try to go?
what will my life be like if i go?
they will struggle for a while. but they will be ok in the end. one might ask me to stay, but i am sure the other will not. my life will be less colourful, thats for sure.
or maybe, with or without me, nothing matters at all. but i dont have the heart to just go away with everyone and let him be alone.
i think i just need a short break now. bring me out to drink. i want to drink. ok. i will drink choya tonight. just abit. at home.
or maybe, i should have jumped out of it LOOOOOONNNG ago.
she realised that maybe it is good to change afterall.
there are so many things going on and so many people growing up. hope everyone grow out of it soon and be ok again.
i know it is not right to blog now. the things that i think are very important to me are not the way they used to be now.
year after year, it is always the same thing. the same problem and sometimes even the same people.
to think back, i dont regret whatever that i have done, i dont regret raising my hand at that moment and making that decision. it added colours to my life but i believe i will be more carefree now if i did not do whatever that i have done.
life is like that. even if you regret, you still have to live with it. i dont regret. i took my freedom in exchange for colours. something that is worth it.
at least until now, i still think it is worth it.
what will happen if we are all gone?
the things and decision that i made during this period, maybe can make me feel better but i know the people affected by my decision will not feel good.
i have the intention to go for one and have decided to go for another one.
what will happened if i go?
will they be ok if i go?
will they make me stay if i try to go?
what will my life be like if i go?
they will struggle for a while. but they will be ok in the end. one might ask me to stay, but i am sure the other will not. my life will be less colourful, thats for sure.
or maybe, with or without me, nothing matters at all. but i dont have the heart to just go away with everyone and let him be alone.
i think i just need a short break now. bring me out to drink. i want to drink. ok. i will drink choya tonight. just abit. at home.
or maybe, i should have jumped out of it LOOOOOONNNG ago.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
.::Big Things::.
being away for about one week is never something good.
I still have the same feeling after coming back but i realise i am able to control my eyes more. i can choose who to see and who not to care.
the same people who still have the same attitude and same look in their face,
the same people who makes me wanna go away.
everything is still the same, but this time round, i seems to be more determined in whatever that i have decided.
i came back from China, i met great people and i forged great friendships. and i learnt things. all the more, i gain time and the opportunities to pull myself out of the picture.
there are somethings that even if you try to change with all your might, nothing can be done.
there are no particular reasons that really affects me now. at least, that is what i hope is the way.
maybe the problem have always lies with me from the start. the fact that i am giving more than i should give. but that never seems like a problem until one day, you realise people take it for granted.
or maybe when i see the flaws in other people and there are more people that i am not pleased about, it simply means that i am the one who has the biggest problem.
totally not making sense. it is a bad time of the year, i remember feeling this way before, last year, same period.
when people come together and no one really cares, or maybe they cared about things the wrong way, or they simply showed their care in different way, i think thats when the problem arise.
there is no need to step up now, step out girl! i think that is more important now. so many things that makes me wonder, what kind of a person i really am. and what kind of person are the people who affected me in the past but not now.
now, i only hope for the much awaited time that i have yearn for long.
just doing cross-stitch is totally fine. (randomness)
maybe i should have stayed in china. =.=
minus the talks and it seems better there, but i will bring my Love over. C=
I still have the same feeling after coming back but i realise i am able to control my eyes more. i can choose who to see and who not to care.
the same people who still have the same attitude and same look in their face,
the same people who makes me wanna go away.
everything is still the same, but this time round, i seems to be more determined in whatever that i have decided.
i came back from China, i met great people and i forged great friendships. and i learnt things. all the more, i gain time and the opportunities to pull myself out of the picture.
there are somethings that even if you try to change with all your might, nothing can be done.
there are no particular reasons that really affects me now. at least, that is what i hope is the way.
maybe the problem have always lies with me from the start. the fact that i am giving more than i should give. but that never seems like a problem until one day, you realise people take it for granted.
or maybe when i see the flaws in other people and there are more people that i am not pleased about, it simply means that i am the one who has the biggest problem.
totally not making sense. it is a bad time of the year, i remember feeling this way before, last year, same period.
when people come together and no one really cares, or maybe they cared about things the wrong way, or they simply showed their care in different way, i think thats when the problem arise.
there is no need to step up now, step out girl! i think that is more important now. so many things that makes me wonder, what kind of a person i really am. and what kind of person are the people who affected me in the past but not now.
now, i only hope for the much awaited time that i have yearn for long.
just doing cross-stitch is totally fine. (randomness)
maybe i should have stayed in china. =.=
minus the talks and it seems better there, but i will bring my Love over. C=
Friday, June 13, 2008
.::PB::.
HAHA. it is still about PB.
Did not have the intention to blog these weeks because i hope that the first entry that people read is about me and PB.
haha. but when i see Keelui's tag, i CHANGE my mind. haha.
so here is it. Keelui said maybe he din do it on purpose? haha.
Ya, i tink he is really busy with work and i never doubt what PB said. just that, i think the thing that accumulates is not his fatigue and tireness, but jsut his hatred for me. haha. i bet all of your know who PB is by now. hoho. this is the real him. the shy and good boy is fake. but so be it, everyone has their own choice to showcase whichever face/side of them that they want.
but anywya, back to the main point. the thing that accumulate is his hatred for me la. haha. after thinking for weeks, i finally rememeber when is the time that i was 'rude' to him before.
The XXXXXX camp incident.
Due to the escape of Mas Selamat, the various camp are more tight with their security and to prevent being lock out of the XXXXXX camp during one of the practice, i make people report at 2.30pm although the reporting time at camp is 3pm. and guess what, PB IS LATE AGAIN!!! he should thank god that we were ALL locked out that day till around 3.45pm, if not he will not even be able to go into the camp or something.
see the point? i set the time at 2.30pm to have a time of 15 minutes incase people are late. moving off at 2.45pm is still more than enough to reach the camp before 3pm. and i stated clearly to not be late, in case we are being locked out and i did mention about reason for making them turn up at 2.30pm. BUT PB is still late. rarr. kill me please.
and after my research, i conclude that PB is unhappy and treated what i said as being 'rude' to him, because i was so pissed off with his bo-chap attitude. and i have another conclusion. PB will only be on time or early when he is meeting GIRLS that he is woo-ing. i am not the only one who thinks that way.
and here is another funny issue that happened last week. i was being very kind to not EXPOSE him le la.
HE TOLD A STUPID, BIG, FAT LIE!!!
that fateful day, someone IMPORTANT asked me why PB is absent, i simply replied 'it is his birthday'.
and on another FATEFUL day, another quite important person knew about the quarrel because blahblahblah accidentally mentioned something about it and being the kind me, seeing how poor thing PB was, i said, 'oh it was nothing much, just that i wasnt happy that XX din jiao dai clearly and yet he scold me say i no common sense' the whole issue was 'presented' to the quite important person in less than 3 sentences.
afterwhich, the quite important person said, 'PB said he was absence because he had 3 projects on hand and was busy' and just then, IMPORTANT person walks in and blahblahblah gave an evil giggle. but i din not EXPOSE him.
YAYA, U miss the practice cause you are busy, but actaully u are busy CELEBRATING your birthday. to think that the day before the quarrel, i was still asking JD if we should get u a present. LUCKY I DINT GET ONE.
hmm. come to think of it, he was quite kelian. i dont know to feel happy or wad. i am a leo and as weihong said, i am quarrellsome. is that how u spell that? hmm. anyway, quarrel with jieyim and u will be zibi. maybe he will be very very happy cos i will be missing one NDP practice. ok. more and more obvious who the person is le. but i dont care.
quit thinking he is a good guy, because he is not. he is so unreasonable and stupid.
there is still the pole and performance issue that i have yet to mention. so be it.
I AM EVIL MOUTH right? so how does it feels when it is used on YOU?
Did not have the intention to blog these weeks because i hope that the first entry that people read is about me and PB.
haha. but when i see Keelui's tag, i CHANGE my mind. haha.
so here is it. Keelui said maybe he din do it on purpose? haha.
Ya, i tink he is really busy with work and i never doubt what PB said. just that, i think the thing that accumulates is not his fatigue and tireness, but jsut his hatred for me. haha. i bet all of your know who PB is by now. hoho. this is the real him. the shy and good boy is fake. but so be it, everyone has their own choice to showcase whichever face/side of them that they want.
but anywya, back to the main point. the thing that accumulate is his hatred for me la. haha. after thinking for weeks, i finally rememeber when is the time that i was 'rude' to him before.
The XXXXXX camp incident.
Due to the escape of Mas Selamat, the various camp are more tight with their security and to prevent being lock out of the XXXXXX camp during one of the practice, i make people report at 2.30pm although the reporting time at camp is 3pm. and guess what, PB IS LATE AGAIN!!! he should thank god that we were ALL locked out that day till around 3.45pm, if not he will not even be able to go into the camp or something.
see the point? i set the time at 2.30pm to have a time of 15 minutes incase people are late. moving off at 2.45pm is still more than enough to reach the camp before 3pm. and i stated clearly to not be late, in case we are being locked out and i did mention about reason for making them turn up at 2.30pm. BUT PB is still late. rarr. kill me please.
and after my research, i conclude that PB is unhappy and treated what i said as being 'rude' to him, because i was so pissed off with his bo-chap attitude. and i have another conclusion. PB will only be on time or early when he is meeting GIRLS that he is woo-ing. i am not the only one who thinks that way.
and here is another funny issue that happened last week. i was being very kind to not EXPOSE him le la.
HE TOLD A STUPID, BIG, FAT LIE!!!
that fateful day, someone IMPORTANT asked me why PB is absent, i simply replied 'it is his birthday'.
and on another FATEFUL day, another quite important person knew about the quarrel because blahblahblah accidentally mentioned something about it and being the kind me, seeing how poor thing PB was, i said, 'oh it was nothing much, just that i wasnt happy that XX din jiao dai clearly and yet he scold me say i no common sense' the whole issue was 'presented' to the quite important person in less than 3 sentences.
afterwhich, the quite important person said, 'PB said he was absence because he had 3 projects on hand and was busy' and just then, IMPORTANT person walks in and blahblahblah gave an evil giggle. but i din not EXPOSE him.
YAYA, U miss the practice cause you are busy, but actaully u are busy CELEBRATING your birthday. to think that the day before the quarrel, i was still asking JD if we should get u a present. LUCKY I DINT GET ONE.
hmm. come to think of it, he was quite kelian. i dont know to feel happy or wad. i am a leo and as weihong said, i am quarrellsome. is that how u spell that? hmm. anyway, quarrel with jieyim and u will be zibi. maybe he will be very very happy cos i will be missing one NDP practice. ok. more and more obvious who the person is le. but i dont care.
quit thinking he is a good guy, because he is not. he is so unreasonable and stupid.
there is still the pole and performance issue that i have yet to mention. so be it.
I AM EVIL MOUTH right? so how does it feels when it is used on YOU?
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
.::Jieyim & her Evil Mouth::.
This is about a very interesting incident that happened to me and i am now here to share. No names will be mentioned so the person would not be affected. AND i hope that if the person happened to chance upon my blog, would not be a Petty Boy and a COWARD one to spam my tagboard. i would not hesitate to release more information regarding you.
AND I MUST EMPHASIZE, if anything mentioned by me or assumed by me is W.R.O.N.G. and unreasonable, i will be willing to APOLOGISE.
anyway, first i must admit that i intiated everything by being just slightly GuaiLan. But again, you cant blame me, I was busy and not really happy about what has happened.
But still hmm. after considering for about 12 hours, i have decided to let people know of this incident, but not the names.
It all started one faithful night, at 8.17pm, with ONE SMS. ya, everything is ALMOST word for word. PB is the name. and ME!!!
8.17pm to many (that includes PB):
Pls send me your blah blah blah blah blah blah by 12 noon tomorrow. thank you.
(Everyone replied except PB.)
Nevermind, the next day.
Someone name Blah sent me Early in the morning, the others sent me before noon and BlahBlah got me to remind him to send it in at night. (Ok, i am ok with that, at least you got jiao1 dai4.)
4.16pm to PB:
Did u receive my sms? Did u send it to my email?
(Obviously i know he haven send it to me thats why i sms him. YES, on purpose.)
PB:
Ya, i received bt from 8am to 5pm i m working, so 12pm i m still outside. later i reach home i will prepare.
The usually GUAILAN me will obviously reply the following as i was unhappy that he is like a kid that needs to be chased after and at the same time dont seem to give it a care.
ME:
Ok, thank you for at least informing now that you cant send it to me, at this time.
Note 1: I dint caps any single word other than the first 'O'. I know it was guailan but on a scale of 1 to 5 with 5 being the most guailan, this is like scale 1 for treating someone who had been irresponsible.
PB:
Oh!You are alway welcome. U mean ur common sense spoil till u don noe that i will be working and nt having holiday like those sec student?Maybe u can consult blahblahblah how to improve ur common sense and oso ur mouth. Your mouth is often evil. He sure will be a great help.
Note 2: Its irony for PB to say that i have a evil mouth and still quarrel with me. He should be prepared for the whole world to know. I know, JIEYIM is evil. but do u think i care?haha. At least i admit i am EVIL. way better than a faker. I m biased i must say.
Note 3: But the whole silly thing is, he is AT FAULT! Since he know that he will be working the next day, he could have replied my sms to tell me he cant give it by noon at 8.20pm the previous night. I gave him a 3min grace for him to type his reply ah. But even if he cant reply by 8.20pm, he got like 12 hours to reply before he even leave his house for work la.
ME:
Haha. I tout by being responsible u will let me know cox blahblah is also working and he let me know it can oli be done by 8pm. And blah, in army, 8 to 5, also sent it to me this morning. Be i heard nothing from u. Was that suppose to be my fault or somthing? Dunwan to argue, if u think u r being totally responsible and had a lot of common sense regarding this issue, so be it. Oh by the way, that has got nth much to do with common sense since including me, got 3 ppl working had managed to get it done or at least inform me abt it.
PB:
Oh ya ya! maybe common sense oso nv wake u that wat kind of job i will be doing or maybe deaf tat time when i mentioned my how my work will be like. It nt lik office work when there is time to sms ar. I hope u jus a worm inside my stomach to noe how busy will gt and nt just shoot ppl using evil mouth. ok, if u going to compare army wif my work, u oso noe how ermy life ba hor? unless they did mention while u close ur ears.
Note 4: i dun really understand what PB was trying to mean bt i know he is being sacar. bt that is just so wadever. he still dont know he is at fault.
ME:
if u still tink u r being totally correct regarding this issue, fine. U r being way too insulting and i dun remember i ever insult u tat way. And if u think u r the oli one busy, also so be it.
PB:
Ya, if u could think back clearly, u did said things which are being very rude to me and nt 1 time. u see last time i gt treat u like tat meh? if atfer u being very rude.
Note 5: I still dont think i am being very rude. i am just plain guailan lor. haha. i think PB is being insulting
ME:
Sorry, rude bt not insulting and i dun rmb being rude.
Note 6: I apologise nonetheless but i dont really mean to apologise. Hoho. Realisse my tone? try to realise my tone.
PB:
Actually if u wan it is, rude and insulting, Ya, of cus how would u noe, u always speak things without thinking than jux shoot out, so which words u said had offense ppl, how would u noe, am i right?
Note 7: To be truthful, i agree with wat he said bt most of the time, other people agree with wad i am saying and the last time i remember saying something mean about other people infront of PB was commenting about Chocolate(female) and Blahblah agree with me. Or maybe he is being petty for refering to another incident whereby i talk at a higher/stronger tone to someone else, i said i dont think i was scolding that person but i know i was being mean.
Note 8: i dont like the way he use 'shoot'. dunno he 'shooting' wad. as in, wad is that lor. It just seems like ejaculation to me. -.-
Note 9: I think he really deserve the name PB cos he is P.E.T.T.Y. B.O.Y.
ME:
Ya, u r totally rite. Sorry Sir, im at fault. I dun think i have any more things to say to u. U win, i am a busy woman. And hope u honour wad u said, send it to me tonite. Wad time will tat be?
Note 10: I decide to take blahblahblah advice and stop this pointless argument with the unreasonable PB. and AGAIN, i am being super guailan for the way i apologise and i have TOTALLY NO INTENTION TO APOLOGISE. but then, u will be shock by PB's next reply.
PB:
If u could apologise properly, i will surely do back the same thing. and it nt honour war i said, hope u can jus think b4 u speak in the future, u can jux realli breing no conflict to ppls around u.
Note 11: Seeing his reply, i dont know to laugh or cry. It is like i am BEGGING him to send me the things la. AND he is realli STUPID UNLIMITED. omg. to think that he really believe that i am going to apologise. SEE? See what i meant by P.E.T.T.Y.? the only fault i admit is i am being Guailan in the first place and i said Sorry 2 times le. although i dun mean it. HOHO
Note 12: I think i can only think before i speak if he show people his TRUE face lor, the side of him that he showed me when he is typing ALL THE ABOVE MESSAGES. A TYPICAL Gemini. (PB, U dont need to get agitated, no one knows it is u, and there is more than ONE gemini around me)
So in the attempt to stop the conflict and to make it seem like Jieyim let the loser win, i attempted to stop the argument by sending:
Wad time will u send me?
PB:
Around 8 to 9
The attempt to stop anymore argument FAILED when i saw that '8 to 9' .
ME:
So i will take the later time.
And thats all that happened and PB happily send it to me at 8.45pm. Which is like darn wadever la.
There are like tonnes of contradiction that i found or assume.
(i) PB claim he is busy but he is sending me LONG messages at 4.20pm? What time are u knocking off? 5pm. SO ARE U REALLY BUSY?
(ii) PB claim that i have offended him someway. Hmm. i think the amount of evil joke that i told to blahblah, weihong, koonhui or any other guys are more than the amount of evil jokes or silly comment that i said to him la. HE IS PETTY!!!
(iii) PB claim that i have offended him, but did it occur that he also did said silly/evil/mean jokes/comments about me? Like for example say i am black? And i am more gracious than him that i dont even give what he said a hoot. Maybe he can say that i am used to it. Even if i am used to it, does that mean that u can say those things? I dun remember what i said to him bt i believe wad i said were things tat other people said before.
Message to PB: i am trying to protect YOUR identity here. I am the GREAT person here. so u better dont make a fool out of urself. and ya, i just have to tell u something, YOU ARE JUST LIKE MY LITTLE SISTER!! people say u cannot but u say people can.
This is such a FUN post!!! By the way, just to remind PB, although i hope you dont have the face to read till the last line. THIS IS MY BLOG. and i dint tell people reading my blog that U r PB. So if u really not happy, just close the browser.
Oh again, maybe PB is a busy man that he dont have the time to chance upon my blog.
OH! DID I MENTION THAT he MISSED one of the practice because he think that his Birthday is the most IMPORTANT day THAT HE MUST celebrate it? I really dont blame him but it is not something i really will do.
hmm. what else do i have to say? YA, I KNOW. I AM MEAN/EVIL whatever u say.
That was a harsh post but only to him. Haha. JieYim can be a nice girl.
I was mean to PB and PB only because he dont seem to give anything a damn and this is the not the first time that he is being unreasonable and IRRESPONSIBLE!!!
AND, i am not using anything to 'control' him or 'overrule' him. Whatever position i am in, i am just doing my job and he failed to obey the most basic rule to jiao1 dai4 clearly. He really thought the whole world will wait for him ah. And i dont like the fact that he is ALWAYS late, with exception of going out with girls.
And he is the one who make everything bad and he is the one who left himself with 'no staircase to go down the stage'. Jie yim is evil mouth, he should have prepared for this when he start the first argument.
People all think he is a nice guy but i beg to disagree. he is just a plain FAKER. and that is the thing i hate most.
haha. any people bushuang what i said or PB, u think that i said anything wrong and wants to argue, please email me jie_yim@hotmail.com or sms me. But i will still prefer that we talk thru the phone or face to face cause that will make u less COWARD and i will get my chance to show people the REAL YOU.
this is not someone's temper, it is ur true self.
hmm. this post is getting longer and longer.
OOPS. haha.
hmm. apology to others who are unknowingly affected. JIE YIM dint mean it.
AND I MUST EMPHASIZE, if anything mentioned by me or assumed by me is W.R.O.N.G. and unreasonable, i will be willing to APOLOGISE.
anyway, first i must admit that i intiated everything by being just slightly GuaiLan. But again, you cant blame me, I was busy and not really happy about what has happened.
But still hmm. after considering for about 12 hours, i have decided to let people know of this incident, but not the names.
It all started one faithful night, at 8.17pm, with ONE SMS. ya, everything is ALMOST word for word. PB is the name. and ME!!!
8.17pm to many (that includes PB):
Pls send me your blah blah blah blah blah blah by 12 noon tomorrow. thank you.
(Everyone replied except PB.)
Nevermind, the next day.
Someone name Blah sent me Early in the morning, the others sent me before noon and BlahBlah got me to remind him to send it in at night. (Ok, i am ok with that, at least you got jiao1 dai4.)
4.16pm to PB:
Did u receive my sms? Did u send it to my email?
(Obviously i know he haven send it to me thats why i sms him. YES, on purpose.)
PB:
Ya, i received bt from 8am to 5pm i m working, so 12pm i m still outside. later i reach home i will prepare.
The usually GUAILAN me will obviously reply the following as i was unhappy that he is like a kid that needs to be chased after and at the same time dont seem to give it a care.
ME:
Ok, thank you for at least informing now that you cant send it to me, at this time.
Note 1: I dint caps any single word other than the first 'O'. I know it was guailan but on a scale of 1 to 5 with 5 being the most guailan, this is like scale 1 for treating someone who had been irresponsible.
PB:
Oh!You are alway welcome. U mean ur common sense spoil till u don noe that i will be working and nt having holiday like those sec student?Maybe u can consult blahblahblah how to improve ur common sense and oso ur mouth. Your mouth is often evil. He sure will be a great help.
Note 2: Its irony for PB to say that i have a evil mouth and still quarrel with me. He should be prepared for the whole world to know. I know, JIEYIM is evil. but do u think i care?haha. At least i admit i am EVIL. way better than a faker. I m biased i must say.
Note 3: But the whole silly thing is, he is AT FAULT! Since he know that he will be working the next day, he could have replied my sms to tell me he cant give it by noon at 8.20pm the previous night. I gave him a 3min grace for him to type his reply ah. But even if he cant reply by 8.20pm, he got like 12 hours to reply before he even leave his house for work la.
ME:
Haha. I tout by being responsible u will let me know cox blahblah is also working and he let me know it can oli be done by 8pm. And blah, in army, 8 to 5, also sent it to me this morning. Be i heard nothing from u. Was that suppose to be my fault or somthing? Dunwan to argue, if u think u r being totally responsible and had a lot of common sense regarding this issue, so be it. Oh by the way, that has got nth much to do with common sense since including me, got 3 ppl working had managed to get it done or at least inform me abt it.
PB:
Oh ya ya! maybe common sense oso nv wake u that wat kind of job i will be doing or maybe deaf tat time when i mentioned my how my work will be like. It nt lik office work when there is time to sms ar. I hope u jus a worm inside my stomach to noe how busy will gt and nt just shoot ppl using evil mouth. ok, if u going to compare army wif my work, u oso noe how ermy life ba hor? unless they did mention while u close ur ears.
Note 4: i dun really understand what PB was trying to mean bt i know he is being sacar. bt that is just so wadever. he still dont know he is at fault.
ME:
if u still tink u r being totally correct regarding this issue, fine. U r being way too insulting and i dun remember i ever insult u tat way. And if u think u r the oli one busy, also so be it.
PB:
Ya, if u could think back clearly, u did said things which are being very rude to me and nt 1 time. u see last time i gt treat u like tat meh? if atfer u being very rude.
Note 5: I still dont think i am being very rude. i am just plain guailan lor. haha. i think PB is being insulting
ME:
Sorry, rude bt not insulting and i dun rmb being rude.
Note 6: I apologise nonetheless but i dont really mean to apologise. Hoho. Realisse my tone? try to realise my tone.
PB:
Actually if u wan it is, rude and insulting, Ya, of cus how would u noe, u always speak things without thinking than jux shoot out, so which words u said had offense ppl, how would u noe, am i right?
Note 7: To be truthful, i agree with wat he said bt most of the time, other people agree with wad i am saying and the last time i remember saying something mean about other people infront of PB was commenting about Chocolate(female) and Blahblah agree with me. Or maybe he is being petty for refering to another incident whereby i talk at a higher/stronger tone to someone else, i said i dont think i was scolding that person but i know i was being mean.
Note 8: i dont like the way he use 'shoot'. dunno he 'shooting' wad. as in, wad is that lor. It just seems like ejaculation to me. -.-
Note 9: I think he really deserve the name PB cos he is P.E.T.T.Y. B.O.Y.
ME:
Ya, u r totally rite. Sorry Sir, im at fault. I dun think i have any more things to say to u. U win, i am a busy woman. And hope u honour wad u said, send it to me tonite. Wad time will tat be?
Note 10: I decide to take blahblahblah advice and stop this pointless argument with the unreasonable PB. and AGAIN, i am being super guailan for the way i apologise and i have TOTALLY NO INTENTION TO APOLOGISE. but then, u will be shock by PB's next reply.
PB:
If u could apologise properly, i will surely do back the same thing. and it nt honour war i said, hope u can jus think b4 u speak in the future, u can jux realli breing no conflict to ppls around u.
Note 11: Seeing his reply, i dont know to laugh or cry. It is like i am BEGGING him to send me the things la. AND he is realli STUPID UNLIMITED. omg. to think that he really believe that i am going to apologise. SEE? See what i meant by P.E.T.T.Y.? the only fault i admit is i am being Guailan in the first place and i said Sorry 2 times le. although i dun mean it. HOHO
Note 12: I think i can only think before i speak if he show people his TRUE face lor, the side of him that he showed me when he is typing ALL THE ABOVE MESSAGES. A TYPICAL Gemini. (PB, U dont need to get agitated, no one knows it is u, and there is more than ONE gemini around me)
So in the attempt to stop the conflict and to make it seem like Jieyim let the loser win, i attempted to stop the argument by sending:
Wad time will u send me?
PB:
Around 8 to 9
The attempt to stop anymore argument FAILED when i saw that '8 to 9' .
ME:
So i will take the later time.
And thats all that happened and PB happily send it to me at 8.45pm. Which is like darn wadever la.
There are like tonnes of contradiction that i found or assume.
(i) PB claim he is busy but he is sending me LONG messages at 4.20pm? What time are u knocking off? 5pm. SO ARE U REALLY BUSY?
(ii) PB claim that i have offended him someway. Hmm. i think the amount of evil joke that i told to blahblah, weihong, koonhui or any other guys are more than the amount of evil jokes or silly comment that i said to him la. HE IS PETTY!!!
(iii) PB claim that i have offended him, but did it occur that he also did said silly/evil/mean jokes/comments about me? Like for example say i am black? And i am more gracious than him that i dont even give what he said a hoot. Maybe he can say that i am used to it. Even if i am used to it, does that mean that u can say those things? I dun remember what i said to him bt i believe wad i said were things tat other people said before.
Message to PB: i am trying to protect YOUR identity here. I am the GREAT person here. so u better dont make a fool out of urself. and ya, i just have to tell u something, YOU ARE JUST LIKE MY LITTLE SISTER!! people say u cannot but u say people can.
This is such a FUN post!!! By the way, just to remind PB, although i hope you dont have the face to read till the last line. THIS IS MY BLOG. and i dint tell people reading my blog that U r PB. So if u really not happy, just close the browser.
Oh again, maybe PB is a busy man that he dont have the time to chance upon my blog.
OH! DID I MENTION THAT he MISSED one of the practice because he think that his Birthday is the most IMPORTANT day THAT HE MUST celebrate it? I really dont blame him but it is not something i really will do.
hmm. what else do i have to say? YA, I KNOW. I AM MEAN/EVIL whatever u say.
That was a harsh post but only to him. Haha. JieYim can be a nice girl.
I was mean to PB and PB only because he dont seem to give anything a damn and this is the not the first time that he is being unreasonable and IRRESPONSIBLE!!!
AND, i am not using anything to 'control' him or 'overrule' him. Whatever position i am in, i am just doing my job and he failed to obey the most basic rule to jiao1 dai4 clearly. He really thought the whole world will wait for him ah. And i dont like the fact that he is ALWAYS late, with exception of going out with girls.
And he is the one who make everything bad and he is the one who left himself with 'no staircase to go down the stage'. Jie yim is evil mouth, he should have prepared for this when he start the first argument.
People all think he is a nice guy but i beg to disagree. he is just a plain FAKER. and that is the thing i hate most.
haha. any people bushuang what i said or PB, u think that i said anything wrong and wants to argue, please email me jie_yim@hotmail.com or sms me. But i will still prefer that we talk thru the phone or face to face cause that will make u less COWARD and i will get my chance to show people the REAL YOU.
this is not someone's temper, it is ur true self.
hmm. this post is getting longer and longer.
OOPS. haha.
hmm. apology to others who are unknowingly affected. JIE YIM dint mean it.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
.::disgusted by my own life::.
ok fine, maybe DISGUSTED is too strong a word to use. haha.
hmm. i shall be emo here.
2 issues that make me realise how bad this world is, or at least how bad the people in my world is.
here to mention one single bloody issue.
Have this guy, lets call him Mr AI. He was assigned a task by Bossy Bastard. Mr AI's job was to pass something to someone. We shall not comment on why this guy is called AI by the way.
Hmm. and apparently AI failed to do so.
When i was being instructed by Bossy Bastard to ask AI the reason for failing the task, i found out that it was because someone had passed away in his family.
I dont really agree with AI all the time but, hmmm, i am not unreasonable am i? So i think that the reason he gave was a reasonable one and i think it is a valid one as he even proposed that the accident was in the paper.
so i did my job and told Bossy Bastard the reason. And BLAH! Bossy Bastard think that it is not a valid reason and he got all crazy about it, telling me that it is not a reason.
Bossy Bastard just like to make me pass message and people around me just like to use me as a machine to pass messages to him cause they are just tired of talking to Bossy Bastard.
It is like 'What the Fuck?!'
Always waste my time ask me to pass message and craps, i bet Bossy Bastard favourite pastime is to shout at me and argue with me. Although ultimately, he will either be left speechless or i will chose to give up on arguing with him and let him has his ways since he is Bossy.
Rarr Rarr.
and for the 2nd issue, it is sensitive but rarr. i small part to play for the situation that i landed myself in last nite.
Because of my BAD BAD BAD MEMORY, i totally forgot what i had to do in just less than 30 minute. I still remember it when i was having class, but *POOF* the moment i see my sis Maple-ing, i totally forgot about it and only remembers that it has to be done at around 1.30am!!!
and thank god that i got a FANTASTIC ANSWER!!! nonetheless, i did what i have to do and while waiting for it to be uploaded, i can only envy my dog, sleeping soundly on my bed, under my blanket. and just when i thought everything was going to end, out came my mother to shout at me. WTF. it all makes me feel like crying. argh. but hmm. i got nothing much to say about this issue as i should have expected something like that to happened. either this, or i should have expected a LOOOOOOoooong wait.
hmm. Jie Yim is trying to train her eyes to not see some people. hmm. *THEY ARE INVISIBLE*
hhaaha. someone, God, will do something to them. Oh, by the way, i am on another issue already, there are so many things to say and so many people involved in this entry. woah. when was the last entry like this? hahs.
today is still a happy day on the whole, maybe other than the fact that i cant see Jiangda.
Chicken Pox!!! Argh.
hmm. at least someone is dinning with me tonight. C=
ok, Maybe my life is not that DISGUSTING/BAD afterall.
hmm. i shall be emo here.
2 issues that make me realise how bad this world is, or at least how bad the people in my world is.
here to mention one single bloody issue.
Have this guy, lets call him Mr AI. He was assigned a task by Bossy Bastard. Mr AI's job was to pass something to someone. We shall not comment on why this guy is called AI by the way.
Hmm. and apparently AI failed to do so.
When i was being instructed by Bossy Bastard to ask AI the reason for failing the task, i found out that it was because someone had passed away in his family.
I dont really agree with AI all the time but, hmmm, i am not unreasonable am i? So i think that the reason he gave was a reasonable one and i think it is a valid one as he even proposed that the accident was in the paper.
so i did my job and told Bossy Bastard the reason. And BLAH! Bossy Bastard think that it is not a valid reason and he got all crazy about it, telling me that it is not a reason.
Bossy Bastard just like to make me pass message and people around me just like to use me as a machine to pass messages to him cause they are just tired of talking to Bossy Bastard.
It is like 'What the Fuck?!'
Always waste my time ask me to pass message and craps, i bet Bossy Bastard favourite pastime is to shout at me and argue with me. Although ultimately, he will either be left speechless or i will chose to give up on arguing with him and let him has his ways since he is Bossy.
Rarr Rarr.
and for the 2nd issue, it is sensitive but rarr. i small part to play for the situation that i landed myself in last nite.
Because of my BAD BAD BAD MEMORY, i totally forgot what i had to do in just less than 30 minute. I still remember it when i was having class, but *POOF* the moment i see my sis Maple-ing, i totally forgot about it and only remembers that it has to be done at around 1.30am!!!
and thank god that i got a FANTASTIC ANSWER!!! nonetheless, i did what i have to do and while waiting for it to be uploaded, i can only envy my dog, sleeping soundly on my bed, under my blanket. and just when i thought everything was going to end, out came my mother to shout at me. WTF. it all makes me feel like crying. argh. but hmm. i got nothing much to say about this issue as i should have expected something like that to happened. either this, or i should have expected a LOOOOOOoooong wait.
hmm. Jie Yim is trying to train her eyes to not see some people. hmm. *THEY ARE INVISIBLE*
hhaaha. someone, God, will do something to them. Oh, by the way, i am on another issue already, there are so many things to say and so many people involved in this entry. woah. when was the last entry like this? hahs.
today is still a happy day on the whole, maybe other than the fact that i cant see Jiangda.
Chicken Pox!!! Argh.
hmm. at least someone is dinning with me tonight. C=
ok, Maybe my life is not that DISGUSTING/BAD afterall.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
.::NDP::.
OK. is NDP 08 hahah
whatever that was super random. just a quick update although i know that no one is reading my blog due to its low activity rate for the past one year or so. but i think that is still quite normal. something like that happened to many people also
anyway. here is what will be coming in the up coming week. oops. i use the same word twice in ONE sentence.
haha. performance and then still the same old stuff.
not bad a day today but poor throat. although not sore but i still pity it. haha. good thing i can shout but i think i shout wrongly but hmm. people can hear and i dont get sore throat can le la.
ahaha. it was mac after pract and what happened during pract... hmm. i think it is not appropriate to mention anything here. haha.
and hmm. the little ones at PA. hmm. we shall see how. ahaha
and i think thats all. muahahahhaah
whatever that was super random. just a quick update although i know that no one is reading my blog due to its low activity rate for the past one year or so. but i think that is still quite normal. something like that happened to many people also
anyway. here is what will be coming in the up coming week. oops. i use the same word twice in ONE sentence.
haha. performance and then still the same old stuff.
not bad a day today but poor throat. although not sore but i still pity it. haha. good thing i can shout but i think i shout wrongly but hmm. people can hear and i dont get sore throat can le la.
ahaha. it was mac after pract and what happened during pract... hmm. i think it is not appropriate to mention anything here. haha.
and hmm. the little ones at PA. hmm. we shall see how. ahaha
and i think thats all. muahahahhaah
Friday, April 11, 2008
.::busy days ahead::.
~*whatever that comes along*~
~*time will bring it on*~
hmm. busy days ahead. haha. but that should be something happy. something happy for me AT LEAST.
hmm. had a great day yesterday, doing what i should not be doing, and that is, going to Wild Wild Wet for like the 3rd time in less than 2 years. tired of that place le. ahha. not going there in the near future ba. hmm. maybe escape theme park is the next target.
and tomorrow, it will be a trip to sentosa. haha. hmm. some little prince's birthday. haha. i bought the present le and mama have reimburse me. haha.
anyway, i first tried to order somethign online using my new capital land card. haha. cool.
not feeling very very well these few days because of the blooding bloated feeling that i had in my tummy. hmm. go away please
oh. and and, i am going to get a pair of warrior shoes. hehe. hmm. faster get i hope.
argh. totally not in the mood to blog. haha. and hello, i need to find out where is my popular card. hmm. it hasnt arrive.
and i see something good up on net and that is the lowering of price for W910i. haha. it is only 188 per handset now. hoho. thats cool and that means i can afford 2. hmm. so now the question is, izit 910i or nokia 6500s. both are so slick and nice. omg. anyway, is that how u spell it? hmm. heck.
haha. hmm. new hp new hp. i still have to wait till first of may. hmm..
maybe i really should try the interview, go and be an animal keeper in the zoo. haha..
but hor. hmm. have to work on weekends. thats the headache part. hmm. maybe for the sake of the job?
i predict there will be more things for us to do in the coming days. haha. other than NDP that is.
hmm. 5 oclock faster come. argh.
and so now it is time to continue with Food Frenzy. haha.
tata.
~*time will bring it on*~
hmm. busy days ahead. haha. but that should be something happy. something happy for me AT LEAST.
hmm. had a great day yesterday, doing what i should not be doing, and that is, going to Wild Wild Wet for like the 3rd time in less than 2 years. tired of that place le. ahha. not going there in the near future ba. hmm. maybe escape theme park is the next target.
and tomorrow, it will be a trip to sentosa. haha. hmm. some little prince's birthday. haha. i bought the present le and mama have reimburse me. haha.
anyway, i first tried to order somethign online using my new capital land card. haha. cool.
not feeling very very well these few days because of the blooding bloated feeling that i had in my tummy. hmm. go away please
oh. and and, i am going to get a pair of warrior shoes. hehe. hmm. faster get i hope.
argh. totally not in the mood to blog. haha. and hello, i need to find out where is my popular card. hmm. it hasnt arrive.
and i see something good up on net and that is the lowering of price for W910i. haha. it is only 188 per handset now. hoho. thats cool and that means i can afford 2. hmm. so now the question is, izit 910i or nokia 6500s. both are so slick and nice. omg. anyway, is that how u spell it? hmm. heck.
haha. hmm. new hp new hp. i still have to wait till first of may. hmm..
maybe i really should try the interview, go and be an animal keeper in the zoo. haha..
but hor. hmm. have to work on weekends. thats the headache part. hmm. maybe for the sake of the job?
i predict there will be more things for us to do in the coming days. haha. other than NDP that is.
hmm. 5 oclock faster come. argh.
and so now it is time to continue with Food Frenzy. haha.
tata.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
.::alls done::.
~*Yeah, thats life*~
ok. i dont know what got into me that makes me feel like starting everything all over again. but one thing that is not going to change much is the fact that i would not do this for long BECAUSE i know myself too well.
haha. another thing that would not change much is the fact that everything will still be written in lower case, not like i will bother to go press the caps button very often or the shift button too... haha
another thing to note, i am in my office now. hoho. that is kind of bad. consider the weather and consider the fact that it is raining outside, i am starting to not make much sense out of what i was typing NOW. hahah
hmm. i enjoyed reading people's entries about how they spend their days but i dont know what other people think about this kind of typical-one-day-diary entry. because apparently, there are people who are so against those kind of entries.
haha. and i dont think it will be easy to get those typical-one-day-diary entry out of me becuase i always cant remember much details about a day although they are usually the same day in day out.
hmm. starting to miss PA. hoho. will be back soon. i really hope. hmm. life at kranji camp was not that bad yet i feel weird, i dont think i am doing good. but well... off to technorati now to check out other strangers' blog and see if anything was mentioned for the practices at kranji camp.
tata people. C=
ok. i dont know what got into me that makes me feel like starting everything all over again. but one thing that is not going to change much is the fact that i would not do this for long BECAUSE i know myself too well.
haha. another thing that would not change much is the fact that everything will still be written in lower case, not like i will bother to go press the caps button very often or the shift button too... haha
another thing to note, i am in my office now. hoho. that is kind of bad. consider the weather and consider the fact that it is raining outside, i am starting to not make much sense out of what i was typing NOW. hahah
hmm. i enjoyed reading people's entries about how they spend their days but i dont know what other people think about this kind of typical-one-day-diary entry. because apparently, there are people who are so against those kind of entries.
haha. and i dont think it will be easy to get those typical-one-day-diary entry out of me becuase i always cant remember much details about a day although they are usually the same day in day out.
hmm. starting to miss PA. hoho. will be back soon. i really hope. hmm. life at kranji camp was not that bad yet i feel weird, i dont think i am doing good. but well... off to technorati now to check out other strangers' blog and see if anything was mentioned for the practices at kranji camp.
tata people. C=
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