.::convinced::.

~*i am just convinced*~
~*one way or other*~

all the changes in lif e recently...i cant help but agreeing that alot of changes had happened to my thinking...though there are still somethings that i am still persistent about...

i realise that i am able to think more now... able to be more calm... and that i am just so used to things now that i dont really care whether they are going the way i want them to be... cause i know that i life still have to move on right?

ok...that sounded so cool and good and everything nice... but seriously i dont know when i will regret that i actually said these things in the first place...

one is i think i learned how to sit and watch...like no point trying to find out what will happen next... what meant to happen will just happen...

another one is... i am still learning... although i am used to it... but i still trying to learn something that my civics teacher said today...

'class... do your believe in [1]love will come and find you? as in what is meant to be will be, andwhat is not meant
to be, will never be...or do you believe in [2] love can be earned through hard work and determination?'

guessed what was my answer?

it is a shocking NUMBER ONE!!!

oh well although i dont seem to be doing what i believe in... as in i cant believe in second one...cause i never do that before or should i say i never see results before?

so what else? i can only believe in number one

and trust me and i swear... i am trying to change my doings to suit my believe... cause i think that i will only be happier if i believe and do things in the first way...

oh well... how does this got to link with getting used to losing youu? haha i dont know... maybe it is just that same thing...

things are just so... dont know how to say... i will never allow myself to lose a friendship without knowing why... so dont blame me if i am persistent in trying to find out what is wrong... cause i dont think it is worth it to lose a friend without knowing why...

have your ever tried a friend coming to you only when he need your help? i tried that alot of times...but i am still accepting it... cause i am just so used to it le... like what can i do? at least i will be happier this way...

anyway... did i ever tell your that GATTACA is a super duper nice movie? what a nice movie about what the society maybelike in the future... the valids and the invalids.. living life in different classes... having discrimination by the classifying of your genetic composition... like how long you will live and how much tendency you will have suffering from a certain disease...

nice show... go and get it...

GATTACA

and did i mention that i think i sounded like koonhui when i am typing that above paragraphs? like that is what koonhui usually does... haha... no offence...

anyway... thancks for waking up that asleep dragon that is always there... making me admit to that only question that youu asked... and thanks alot for making me start to think again... i am convinced that what i feared is true... i am just convinced... anyway... thanks alot for showing me that youu cared when i hope and thought that youu wouldn't... and thanks for not doing anything when i am hoping that youu will... what a great help that can be... but anyway... i am just convinced but yet there is no more unhappiness... cause i am just so used to it le...

~*cheerios*~
~*thanks for waking up that dragon*~
~*thanks for doing the wrong things at the wrong time*~