.::losing youu is nothing::.

~*i am just so used to it*~
~*that i dont even dare to dream of having youu*~
~*i am just so used to losing youu*~

youu came in and out of my life as and when you like... but i know that things are just different this time round... i am no longer that afraid... no longer that afraid of losing youu... cause like i said... i am just so used to it...

i never blame anyone for the way things are now... it is all fated to be the way it is now...

i know youu are different... there are just so many times that i tried to hide but still i know i failed... like before... cause youu showed me that youu cared whenever i thought youu would not...

for every changes that youu made, i know there must be a reason... though youu denied... but my six sense just tell me that... things are not the way youu said they are...

all the things that my tarots told me... seems to be opposite in reality... for the bad one, it is actually quite good now... as for this good thing here, it is not good at all...

consult my tarots today... and it said something that i have always been afraid of... something that no matter how much i hope will not happen, it still happen...

giving hope and leaving again... i am just used to the way things are le...

anyway... i can say that i would not be sad this time round... although i had much hope but i know i would not be sad...

believe me...i am not sad now... i am just amazed by the fact that i can actually handle my emotions so well this time round... no longer as sad as i used to be... amazed... not that the feelings are different... just that i have expected things to turn out like they usually do...

smply... i am used to it...

so... if youu think i am talking about youu, haha... then good for youu... cause i think i am not talking about youu...

this sounds lame... haha

my computer is super laggy now la...

haha...whatever... i think youu know...

~* C= *~