.::why::.

~*it is always those same stupid titles*~
~*it is always those same stupid problems*~
~*it is always there*~
~*i cant solve*~

i never started off making friends with a stupid attitude. i never fake those whom dont have serious problem in their attitude... that is the way i handle things... all along... but seems like they are not working out right...

so many stupid things on hand... dont have a single idea what may happen the next minute...

so many things...who can i tell? not paranoid... but things are really just the way they are...just that your fail to realise that...

i think i am the closest to your but what is on your mind?i dont know... from what i see... things are only in the name... hardly true...

so all the while i am stuck here... with some stupid doings of mine that i never know was wrong?

what a stupid reason to not like me... to bu shuang me...

how to let it be...

did i ever said that i care how others look at me? alot... i care alot...

it is tiring to face those who like you

it is tiring to laugh when you are not happy at all

it is even more tiring when you thought you are with them and that they will understand you but yet in the end they dont.

why do i always have the urge to throw my handphone?

i just have the urge to throw anything that is in my hand whenever i see what they are doing...

i think i am going through what they are going through also...

always thought that things will be ok... thought that you will get their support and understanding but somehow you never get what you want...how disheartening can that be?

you never know until you go through it yourself...

what a day...everything just happen suddenly... i thought i could hold on... i thought i will not be bothered by it but i realise i am wrong... only when someone left then will i realise how much i actually hoped...

youu disappear...keep on telling myself the time is not right yet...sometime later youu will but guess like i am wrong...what a time now... a time now for myself only... youu feeling happy about whatever good things that have happened today...

youu know?i never get angry about youu being there only when youu want to talk... i just choose to deny...never like to admit... i dont want to get back that same stupid feeling again... so it is still better to not think about anything...

~*but there are just somethings*~
~*that i just have to think*~
~*not think...*~
~*but rather, feel*~