.::FURIOUS::.

~*F*CK OFF*~

ok...i am not that pissed le... after having wonderful talk with wonderful people... i think we can just hang out one night and talk all we want... that will be heavenly... haha

anyway... clever people make me wasted one night waiting...but anyway, i was doing other things also...

ok... i am back to the same stupid topic... i can understand everything that you used to say... maybe you meant what you said or maybe you manage to make me feel how you want me to feel... i am feeling guilty that time... but i just cant deny the fact that you are somehow guiding him... guiding him too much, as though you are just plotting somethings... and so sad... i am not the only one thinking that way...

yup, life is just like that, when you thought that you are ok, something come along again... i thought i was alright until i start to sense things again...

everything is just so obvious... or maybe you are making it obvious to him, or making obvious to them, we caught the hint, thank you... but the feeling is not good... i understand what you used to say... i accept them... but the things now are just making me not able to tolerate... so bad that i will just choose to walk off...

i hope in the end i would not be alone in this so called war...

anyway, i dont mind you deciding not to tell us anything, but please stop whispering to each other... no one in this bloody world likes the feeling of not knowing something... cause that just makes one fall into the catergory of 'un-trusted' friends... that will be like so omg... one will feel so outcasted...

i think i did alot of stupi things on purpose... to say the truth, i am still scare... cause things are just better nowadays... i dont really wish to spoil things, but i do not want to be a loner... so... it is my choice to be with them...

yea... i did alot of evil things on purpose cause i wanted myself to be angry rather than sad... i just got out of depression for less than a month...i dont want to fall back in again... and seriously i felt as though i am going to fall back in again when i was walking from nh to clementi... that feeling was so intensed... the feeling ofbeing lost... not knowing what to do...

but i just learned to do things on purpose... so that i will get this sense of achievemen when my evil plot is successful... and i am much happy this way cause i got people to plot with me...

there are just so many things that i see, that we see that we just dont want to voice out... cause we dont see the point to and still hoping that one day things will be better and those stupid things will just stop... but seems like we are the stupid people... maybe you are just another asshole like those whoever people that i know... what you are doing are just things that even a not a so good thinker will know and observe... plus i dont think i am a good thinker but i am still a thinker...

please let me be selfish this time round... let me tell myself that it is a goodreason to buai song you because of whatever that you did to us without knowing... but i can just say... that you are still important to me... what i used to say is true... always... you matters... but i guess you just would not remember a single damn about it... cause i am just no one... the one who can help you and give you advice is the one that you really needs... the rest around you are just no one... no one that you can turn to when you need help cause they just failed terribly as a friend in your eyes... and that includes me...

you never know how much that makes me feel sad when i heard that... i never remember turning you away when you need help... maybe i am not a good thinker and i cant help much, but that just doesnt mean that i am someone who will do what the others will... so fine, whatever... i shall just be selfish again... let me do what i want.. let me plot... against you and let you have a taste of what we are feeling...

ok... haha... what a random entry... haha... by the way... i speak to that someone again today about the same thing... he is just someone who no one seems to give him a damn besides those who stand by him and accompanying them through the journey...

how to just convince him to stay on through everything is over... i lost 2... i dont feel like losing another one... i know it is my fault, or should i say it is our fault... i tried to stop but i was too late cause i woke up too late from that stupid dream of mine... and i tried to pass on my experience but no one seems to understand...

anyway... there will never be any chance of him reading my blog... but can someone teach me how to convince someone to stay on the journey... it is not nice to lose another one... everyone played a part in this joruney of four years... like it or not... you have to admit it.. he is part of your the very first day your were together... your are destinated to spend the four years together... he is a great friend... remember how much he changed ever since he is with your?

remember the first performance that your had? what was he doing during the free time? what about him now? if you have the time, please persuade him to stay... i am still trying my best...

ok... there are just so many different people in my entry this time round... the front part is a few individuals and me with another group of people... the second part is a few other different individuals and me with another entirely different group of people...

~*rocks on people*~
~*those people who conferenced with me on 01.02.2006 night, rocks my socks*~
~*do you know that there is a trend for long socks?*~
~*haha... thats what shibin said*~
~*jiayou!*~
~*chingay*~
~* C= *~