.::what are people thinking?::.

~*after so long*~
~*i am finally back to the same topic*~

ok... i am bringing myself back to the same topic, although i never wanted to...

i never wanted to think about it... although, like i say, i am used to it, i will never get very sad over this thing le... but i still think about it...

the thing is always there in my heart, it is just the matter with where it is... i mean, at times it is just at the bottom... but other time when i am alone, it just flash across my mind...

i mean... when it is at the bottom of my heart, i never wish to dig it out and think about it... i just need a few glimpse... never abit more than that... cause i know anything more than that the thing will be out...

i mean... but when that thing is out, a few glimpse is never enough anymore... i mean, i will keep thinking about a whole lot of stupid things about it and i will just keep thinking... but i swear i am not sad...

i am so going to change my wishlist...there are a whole lot of things that i want... haha... my birthday coming mah...so... it will be easier for you all to have a target and start saving money for my presents...but you all better go and have a meeting or something to decide who to get me what... haha... clever me...

ok...back to topic... actually most of the time... i just know what may happen next.. i mean i can tell and i can sense... i am extremely sensitive to these things... but i just still choose to act blur... i dont know what else to do... even if i keep thinking about the same thing, nothing much will change right? things will still be the same... i mean... still going to happen the way that he want?

anyway i shall go and change the wishlist and sleep for the sake of the total 3 hours lecture tomorrow morning...

still, thank you to all those who helped and counselled me all these days and months and weeks, especially daryl, zhongyi, da sam, yongxuan, weihong, connie, zhengyu and jeffrey. although i am still like that... it is my mind that cant accept that... i cant change, so... i mean i still cant accept that thinking...so... hmm... ya... i am still trying to change... maybe one day... i will become someone that no one likes me...

~*stay happy*~
~*youu*~
~*yes youu*~
~* C= *~