.::someone please ask me whether i am happy::.

~*please*~
~*someone please ask me whether i am happy*~
~*please let me know that someone care*~

the one that i am hoping is not coming... but somethings that i expect are just coming along the way...

no one will be willing to accept that they are at fault... i am one of them... everyone is like that... just the extend of the case...

when was the last time you ask yourself whether you are happy with whatever that you are doing?

i bet that was a long time ago... cause you are happy with life...there is no need to ask... but i am always asking myself that... always... i am always wondering whether i am really happy... and always trying to dig in to find out whether i am truly happy or sad...

i no longer yearn for an answer... i no longer dare to think so much... i will always try to put an end to my thoughts... i dont want them to run wild... it ran wild just now... maybe even now... i am still feeling lost...

why do i always realise that i interfere too much only when i had done that something?

i dont know why i failed to control things that night although i know that something like that will happen one day...

i am so guilty...so guilty that i just shouted at my mother... so sorry that i am not doing my homework simply because i am not in the right mind state to do them...

when was the last time that i felt like that? cultural potpourri last year... someone gave me a painful stab... sorry... i want to forget...but the impact is just so great... ever felt so bad that you may forget how to walk any time? that bad... it feels like i may lose control over my legs anytime...

no longer sad... i am just disappointed? i am always asking myself whether i am doing the right thing... for every single thing that i do when i am alive on this world... all the time... dont ask me why... i want to know why...

there are just so many things that you have done, but you never want to voice and say them out... cause you dont want people to think that you hao lian... but i am just tired of doing things quietly... ya.. i never wanted returns... but i also never wanted bad returns...

although i know that things that will be coming out from his mouth will never be the same, and never be the truth...but still i choose to tell him... cause no one else choose to listen...

no one to blame...

ever tried standing in front of guys who are about to fight and try to stop them from fighting? what is the bet? the bet is me myself... and the bet is that the guy would not touch the girl... quite alot of times... all the lame reasons i find just to protect someone... although they still fought in the end...

all the things that you all are doing... i never know the reasons... i assumed all the reasons... so in the end i have to back you all up with all my assumed reasons...

maybe you didnt realise or dont want to admit... you all did forget him once... you all didnt realise... i was forgotten by you all also... everyone did... dont claim that you will never forget someone cause that is just never true...

dont know what i am blogging le... the one that i hope to call and feel like calling is not around... maybe my tears will help me... if i cry everything out tonight, everything will be ok tomorrow?

i am always thinking that way... tomorrow will be a better day...

~*do youu know?*~