~*clever me*~
~*stupid you*~
~* d= *~
random... never felt so screwed but considering the amount of time that i had spent, i think it is ok...
it just dont feel like test is over today... maybe because i am not going out in the afternoon...
or maybe it is not the end of a test... it is just the beginning... this leads to more...
do you know what are the things that i need the most now? i have them with me... C=
aircon, bed and baby... C=
just a few games of spider and to bed!!! C=
i think i cant sleep tonight.. but i think i have to try to sleep... what a weekend ahead...wait... it is 3 days ahead!!! C= monday is a holiday!!! C=
GO OUT!!! =C haiz... nevermind...
CC=
smile smile smile smile smile...
lets enjoy today!!! C=
oops...i feel like dressing up... hmm... why? haas... d=
~*smiles*~
~*that is what i want to see on your face*~
~*you know*~
~* C= *~
Friday, June 30, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
.::multiple post::.
~*multiple entries means mixed feeling in a day*~
omg...cant type in peace...with that carrot walking around... dont know what she trying to do lah... omg.. kept pulling things out to bite... nevermind... she is cute right? haas... C=
ok... i was down just down... think alot then i got to the same conclusion... and after the nap and everything, i am ok!!! C= i mean..i am ok in the first place right? who say i am not...
tomorrow... 8-10.30.. oh no.. haas.. but it is going to end early.. that means i can come home then go out.. but to where? haas... anyone want to go out? C=
then next, after this is mugging... more mugging... all those biology terms and everything... blah...
i think i am evil.. but as i am telling people, i can be forgiving, but not forgetting... but come to think of it, when i first heard about the incident, i was not thinking about revenge or getting back at her... the first thought was whether the kids will get into trouble in the end not.. but after double checking with people, realise it will be ok...
hope that costume comes on saturday.. it is just a few days away...
some clever people want the nan hua alumni tee shirt... zhuan xiao ah? lol...
suddenly thought of something...
whenever i say anything hor, people start to tell me there is nothing called anything... i mean this is so whatever...
i mean i dont mind anything so i said anything... if i know exactly what i want, i swear i would not say anything... so.. let me say anything...haas... whatever...lol....
ok... eat bread, cook dinner, wait.. where to fit in studies? haas...
come to think of it... why are there always intention in people doing things? for everything that i said i am doing for, i dont need question... i need support... cause i am not even sure whether i can get it done... haiz... why is there only one computer at home? =C
~*smiles*~
~*this has become the standard ending*~
~* C= *~
omg...cant type in peace...with that carrot walking around... dont know what she trying to do lah... omg.. kept pulling things out to bite... nevermind... she is cute right? haas... C=
ok... i was down just down... think alot then i got to the same conclusion... and after the nap and everything, i am ok!!! C= i mean..i am ok in the first place right? who say i am not...
tomorrow... 8-10.30.. oh no.. haas.. but it is going to end early.. that means i can come home then go out.. but to where? haas... anyone want to go out? C=
then next, after this is mugging... more mugging... all those biology terms and everything... blah...
i think i am evil.. but as i am telling people, i can be forgiving, but not forgetting... but come to think of it, when i first heard about the incident, i was not thinking about revenge or getting back at her... the first thought was whether the kids will get into trouble in the end not.. but after double checking with people, realise it will be ok...
hope that costume comes on saturday.. it is just a few days away...
some clever people want the nan hua alumni tee shirt... zhuan xiao ah? lol...
suddenly thought of something...
whenever i say anything hor, people start to tell me there is nothing called anything... i mean this is so whatever...
i mean i dont mind anything so i said anything... if i know exactly what i want, i swear i would not say anything... so.. let me say anything...haas... whatever...lol....
ok... eat bread, cook dinner, wait.. where to fit in studies? haas...
come to think of it... why are there always intention in people doing things? for everything that i said i am doing for, i dont need question... i need support... cause i am not even sure whether i can get it done... haiz... why is there only one computer at home? =C
~*smiles*~
~*this has become the standard ending*~
~* C= *~
.::I hope::.
~*things that i hope*~
i hope i can just shout into people's face and say that i dont want to know anything...
[i dont like it]
i hope i can stop thinking about whatever that i am thinking now...
[what am i really thinking?]
i hope i can switch my senses off so i would not know anything...
[i dont even know if they are right]
i hope i can laugh with my friends...
[i can only see them laugh]
i hope i can stop all the feelings that i am having now...
[mixed feelings]
i hope i can stop trying to predict what will be happening...
[i thought i had decided to stop thinking?]
i hope i am correct...
[am i even sure in the first place?]
i hope i trust myself...
[how to?]
i hope i can stop feeling so insecured...
[since when am i feeling secured?]
i hope i can get more assurance in life...
[since when do i have assurance?]
i hope i can learn to be contented...
[i did learn to be contented for the past weeks]
i hope i can stop missing you...
[as if i can]
i hope life to be more than just what i think it is...
[to me, nothing seems excellent]
i hope i can stop having disappointment...
[if only i can stop hoping, then there would not be disappointment]
i hope i can stop moodswings...
[i think i know the reasons for mood swings]
i hope i am not the only one happy...
[are you happy?]
i hope i can stop thinking...
[what am i doing now?]
i hope dreams come true...
[dreams and reality are opposite]
i hope i am not hearing the wrong things...
[when was that?]
i hope i am right in whatever that i know now...
[what the hell do i know to begin with?]
i hope you are thinking of me...
[am i the only one?]
i hope you are happy...
[are you?]
i hope i can take up the phone to call...
[are you busy? dont want to be like a nuisance]
i hope i can stop hoping...
[see the next sentence?]
i hope i can stop... but apparently i cant...
[guess the next word?]
that is just so whatever...
yupx... i thought of all these before math test today... i just cant study cause i am super tired... and i seriously think i should take a nap...
i was not very ok this morning to begin with... but to not spoil people's mood, i did try to be happy...
then after math test i got real moody... maybe because i am hungry... or was is because there were no replies or no calls? i understand... whatever...
then i went home alone... without waiting for my friends... and i went Lot 1 and i walked home from lot 1, taking the long route... i need a walk... with the peppermint milk tea in my hand... C=
then i reached home... feeling alot better... so here i am...
i dont think i should be moody or anything right? i mean... hello... tomorrow is the last paper and weekend is coming!!! and monday is a holiday!!! that is enough for me to be happy le... C=
what about you? are you happy?
all those that i hope for are mostly things that i cant get... so whatever...
I AM OK!!! C=
i just felt like ranting... C=
~*smiles*~
`those days...
~The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending. And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, you go into the unknown. And once you do, you can never go back.'
i hope i can just shout into people's face and say that i dont want to know anything...
[i dont like it]
i hope i can stop thinking about whatever that i am thinking now...
[what am i really thinking?]
i hope i can switch my senses off so i would not know anything...
[i dont even know if they are right]
i hope i can laugh with my friends...
[i can only see them laugh]
i hope i can stop all the feelings that i am having now...
[mixed feelings]
i hope i can stop trying to predict what will be happening...
[i thought i had decided to stop thinking?]
i hope i am correct...
[am i even sure in the first place?]
i hope i trust myself...
[how to?]
i hope i can stop feeling so insecured...
[since when am i feeling secured?]
i hope i can get more assurance in life...
[since when do i have assurance?]
i hope i can learn to be contented...
[i did learn to be contented for the past weeks]
i hope i can stop missing you...
[as if i can]
i hope life to be more than just what i think it is...
[to me, nothing seems excellent]
i hope i can stop having disappointment...
[if only i can stop hoping, then there would not be disappointment]
i hope i can stop moodswings...
[i think i know the reasons for mood swings]
i hope i am not the only one happy...
[are you happy?]
i hope i can stop thinking...
[what am i doing now?]
i hope dreams come true...
[dreams and reality are opposite]
i hope i am not hearing the wrong things...
[when was that?]
i hope i am right in whatever that i know now...
[what the hell do i know to begin with?]
i hope you are thinking of me...
[am i the only one?]
i hope you are happy...
[are you?]
i hope i can take up the phone to call...
[are you busy? dont want to be like a nuisance]
i hope i can stop hoping...
[see the next sentence?]
i hope i can stop... but apparently i cant...
[guess the next word?]
that is just so whatever...
yupx... i thought of all these before math test today... i just cant study cause i am super tired... and i seriously think i should take a nap...
i was not very ok this morning to begin with... but to not spoil people's mood, i did try to be happy...
then after math test i got real moody... maybe because i am hungry... or was is because there were no replies or no calls? i understand... whatever...
then i went home alone... without waiting for my friends... and i went Lot 1 and i walked home from lot 1, taking the long route... i need a walk... with the peppermint milk tea in my hand... C=
then i reached home... feeling alot better... so here i am...
i dont think i should be moody or anything right? i mean... hello... tomorrow is the last paper and weekend is coming!!! and monday is a holiday!!! that is enough for me to be happy le... C=
what about you? are you happy?
all those that i hope for are mostly things that i cant get... so whatever...
I AM OK!!! C=
i just felt like ranting... C=
~*smiles*~
`those days...
~The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending. And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, you go into the unknown. And once you do, you can never go back.'
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
.::late::.
~*i am tired*~
today? nothing much accomplished... but do have a slight sense of satisfaction...
i mean... i felt that i got more answer than i did for the other test in myjc life... that is something to be proud of ok?
but still i predict that i will fail this...
after that...
i am officially announcing here that i had enough!!! omg... more and more people joining into the scandal thing and i should not elaborate...
nevermind...i am tired... i think i should continue with math and off to bed... try to be earlier today... tomorrow is a morning paper.... C=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see*~
~* C= *~
today? nothing much accomplished... but do have a slight sense of satisfaction...
i mean... i felt that i got more answer than i did for the other test in myjc life... that is something to be proud of ok?
but still i predict that i will fail this...
after that...
i am officially announcing here that i had enough!!! omg... more and more people joining into the scandal thing and i should not elaborate...
nevermind...i am tired... i think i should continue with math and off to bed... try to be earlier today... tomorrow is a morning paper.... C=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see*~
~* C= *~
.::consider this the 3rd entry of the day bah::.
~*stupid*~
i am going crazy... i think it is chemsitry fault... whatever lah...
sorry... really sorry... i think i was quite unreasonable...
small things also fa pi qi... but that really did not sound nice... sorry...
and i am really not angry... unreasonable but not xiao qi ok...
why am i in a bad mood? when was the last time that i had a bad mood? quite long time ago le...maybe thats a good thing to know...
i think i will be ok tomorrow...
i realised something... i think now you know how i felt whenever you are feeling down...
i just received a call... my grandmother in the hospital... my dad seems calm about it... so late then receive call.. still can so calm... haiz...
i very long time did not see my grandpa le.. maybe it is really time to take a break to visit him.. visit him on my own seems weird leh.. hmm...
what is going on in my mind now?
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
I really mean nothing... cause i cant think much now... saturated...
is it the right thing that i am catching? or am i wrong again this time round? i dont know... i cant think now...
*slaps*
slap me please...
whatever lahs... blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
stupid me... i am sleeping soon... before my mama come in and nag again...
WHATEVER!!! it is really just so plain WHATEVER... i mean me...
i am seriously refering to me myself... the crazy person here...
MOOD SWING!!! i bet i never put so many caps in an entry before...
WHATEVER LAH...~!!!
~*chemistry*~
~*i am dead*~
~*smile will you?*~
~*i mean you*~
i am going crazy... i think it is chemsitry fault... whatever lah...
sorry... really sorry... i think i was quite unreasonable...
small things also fa pi qi... but that really did not sound nice... sorry...
and i am really not angry... unreasonable but not xiao qi ok...
why am i in a bad mood? when was the last time that i had a bad mood? quite long time ago le...maybe thats a good thing to know...
i think i will be ok tomorrow...
i realised something... i think now you know how i felt whenever you are feeling down...
i just received a call... my grandmother in the hospital... my dad seems calm about it... so late then receive call.. still can so calm... haiz...
i very long time did not see my grandpa le.. maybe it is really time to take a break to visit him.. visit him on my own seems weird leh.. hmm...
what is going on in my mind now?
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
I really mean nothing... cause i cant think much now... saturated...
is it the right thing that i am catching? or am i wrong again this time round? i dont know... i cant think now...
*slaps*
slap me please...
whatever lahs... blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
blah
stupid me... i am sleeping soon... before my mama come in and nag again...
WHATEVER!!! it is really just so plain WHATEVER... i mean me...
i am seriously refering to me myself... the crazy person here...
MOOD SWING!!! i bet i never put so many caps in an entry before...
WHATEVER LAH...~!!!
~*chemistry*~
~*i am dead*~
~*smile will you?*~
~*i mean you*~
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
.::2nd post of the day? o.0::.
~*whatever*~
~*haas...*~
~*i am ok hor*~
i remember saying that too many entries a day means that something is wrong with that person...
but please...the person typing all these here is ok... she is perfectly alright... and she is trying to study.. lol.. chem...
anyway... today... other than studying, nothing much done... but i did go out... omg.. felt guilty and i had peppermint milk tea and green apple green tea today... bad... too sweet...
anyway... type type type... later my sis want to use computer le...
came across the dream on thing... sounds fun... haas... but not interested in the concert though..
lol... realise that my birthday is one day after the concert... haas.. hinting people le.. lol.. 23 july... what date is it?
lol... whatever...haas...
today i realise my mama is super cute and she is getting more and more like a teenager can?
story goes like this... it is 7 and i am still waiting for dinner... then i finally decide... maybe i should go bath first?
so i took my things and i went into the kitchen... with my mama cutting up onions...
]i want to chong liang, it is 7 o'clock le...
(no idea why i told my mama... maybe i should have just shut up)
[my tv programme start le leh...
]ya i know
[why dont u help me cook?
]o.O ok lor... cook what
[la la la la la la la... (my mama say wich 2 dishes to cook)
]orh...ok...
then she went out to watch tv...
during the commercial break, she come in...
]mama... the oil keep where?
(i am referring to the remaining oil from the frying of potato k...)
[put there... later use a little oil to fry the onion...
(as she say, she took the ladle from me)
]i know... MAMA... WHEN I COOKING CAN YOU GO OUT? LET ME DO IT MYSELF?
(haas...ok la... the tone was joking ok? haas.. and she laughed and i laughed and she left the kitchen!!!)
haas...cute mama huh? and she went out continue watching her tv...ever since da chang jin came into her world, tv programme just seems to be more important than her kids...haas...
anyone want tickets to nanyang girls school carnival? this saturday... not really tickets but coupons... the school forced every nanyang girls to sell at least 10 tickets...which is 100 bucks.. and my sis only managed to sell 2... so... the rest my mama pay...haiz... should i go?
back to chemistry bahs...
oh ya..i got a black purse or something more like a pencil case for my things...cause i washed the other one... C=
~*haas...*~
~*i am ok hor*~
i remember saying that too many entries a day means that something is wrong with that person...
but please...the person typing all these here is ok... she is perfectly alright... and she is trying to study.. lol.. chem...
anyway... today... other than studying, nothing much done... but i did go out... omg.. felt guilty and i had peppermint milk tea and green apple green tea today... bad... too sweet...
anyway... type type type... later my sis want to use computer le...
came across the dream on thing... sounds fun... haas... but not interested in the concert though..
lol... realise that my birthday is one day after the concert... haas.. hinting people le.. lol.. 23 july... what date is it?
lol... whatever...haas...
today i realise my mama is super cute and she is getting more and more like a teenager can?
story goes like this... it is 7 and i am still waiting for dinner... then i finally decide... maybe i should go bath first?
so i took my things and i went into the kitchen... with my mama cutting up onions...
]i want to chong liang, it is 7 o'clock le...
(no idea why i told my mama... maybe i should have just shut up)
[my tv programme start le leh...
]ya i know
[why dont u help me cook?
]o.O ok lor... cook what
[la la la la la la la... (my mama say wich 2 dishes to cook)
]orh...ok...
then she went out to watch tv...
during the commercial break, she come in...
]mama... the oil keep where?
(i am referring to the remaining oil from the frying of potato k...)
[put there... later use a little oil to fry the onion...
(as she say, she took the ladle from me)
]i know... MAMA... WHEN I COOKING CAN YOU GO OUT? LET ME DO IT MYSELF?
(haas...ok la... the tone was joking ok? haas.. and she laughed and i laughed and she left the kitchen!!!)
haas...cute mama huh? and she went out continue watching her tv...ever since da chang jin came into her world, tv programme just seems to be more important than her kids...haas...
anyone want tickets to nanyang girls school carnival? this saturday... not really tickets but coupons... the school forced every nanyang girls to sell at least 10 tickets...which is 100 bucks.. and my sis only managed to sell 2... so... the rest my mama pay...haiz... should i go?
back to chemistry bahs...
oh ya..i got a black purse or something more like a pencil case for my things...cause i washed the other one... C=
not i want to say... aun really look like weihong.. i bet weihong will give me that sian diao face again if i tell him that... but so sad.. people just think that your look alike... haas...
oh wait... people getting jealous over that picture le... lol... dont care...haas... aun just look overly orange...i think this picture suits my blog...haas...
i think i am now overly happy... and that seems wrong...
whatever...haas..
~*smiles*~
~*it is easier to smile than to frown*~
~* C= *~
.::officially bored::.
~*oh no*~
i am dying from stacks of papers and notes... hmm... notes... not as in cash... how i wish it is cash...
blah...
i am officially bored...
i had peppermint milk tea doubled pearl for breakfast... or rather brunch... and guess what i am craving for now? hmm... green apple green tea!!! C=
d= sweet sweet sweet sweet sweet...
i think i need a slap... *slaps*
stop me... omg... stupid le lah.. haas... officially bored... can someone tell me why my left ankle aches huh? erm... or rather suan suan de... nope...not sour taste... i mean... my left ankle feels weird... oh no... 2 days le... oh no oh no oh no oh no...
should i set a password? haas... or rather put many passwords? hmm... lets see how... haas...
~*bored*~
i am dying from stacks of papers and notes... hmm... notes... not as in cash... how i wish it is cash...
blah...
i am officially bored...
i had peppermint milk tea doubled pearl for breakfast... or rather brunch... and guess what i am craving for now? hmm... green apple green tea!!! C=
d= sweet sweet sweet sweet sweet...
i think i need a slap... *slaps*
stop me... omg... stupid le lah.. haas... officially bored... can someone tell me why my left ankle aches huh? erm... or rather suan suan de... nope...not sour taste... i mean... my left ankle feels weird... oh no... 2 days le... oh no oh no oh no oh no...
should i set a password? haas... or rather put many passwords? hmm... lets see how... haas...
~*bored*~
.::i had a conclusion::.
~*this is life*~
i have decided to not think...
this is just life.. you never know what will happen the next minute...
so why bother to find out what will happen in the future...
i know that can make me feel better but it is pointless... C=
so i changed things back to the way that they should be...
so i am just going to take whatever that comes along...
still prepared for the worse... but whatever it is...
this is just life...you never know what will happen the next minute...so i decide to not think...
maybe i will die in bed later? you never know... C=
~*smiles*~
~*they are the most important thing in life*~
~*on our faces*~
~* C= *~
i have decided to not think...
this is just life.. you never know what will happen the next minute...
so why bother to find out what will happen in the future...
i know that can make me feel better but it is pointless... C=
so i changed things back to the way that they should be...
so i am just going to take whatever that comes along...
still prepared for the worse... but whatever it is...
this is just life...you never know what will happen the next minute...so i decide to not think...
maybe i will die in bed later? you never know... C=
~*smiles*~
~*they are the most important thing in life*~
~*on our faces*~
~* C= *~
Monday, June 26, 2006
.::what are we?::.
~*all the things*~
~*wrong time*~
RUBBISH~!!! i hope i dont think... blah blah... no way am i going to use those words again...i found a new word... C=i scare tomorrow i will lc again... oh no...have to study tomorrow... some kind soul wake me up please...
blah...omg... i only told one person about it lor... since when did i publicise? blah... stop asking him to nag at me... please please....
i think i learnt my lesson... not from those nagging but from those stupid scandal things... blah... me and hmm... i should not continue...oh...
thanks to some clever people, got me the tagboard code.. i hate those registration and stuff...i think i should not complain... but...hmm...very orangy blog now... maybe thats one yam milk tea added to those that i owe you?
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*wrong time*~
RUBBISH~!!! i hope i dont think... blah blah... no way am i going to use those words again...i found a new word... C=i scare tomorrow i will lc again... oh no...have to study tomorrow... some kind soul wake me up please...
blah...omg... i only told one person about it lor... since when did i publicise? blah... stop asking him to nag at me... please please....
i think i learnt my lesson... not from those nagging but from those stupid scandal things... blah... me and hmm... i should not continue...oh...
thanks to some clever people, got me the tagboard code.. i hate those registration and stuff...i think i should not complain... but...hmm...very orangy blog now... maybe thats one yam milk tea added to those that i owe you?
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
Sunday, June 25, 2006
.::who are you?::.
~*burning questions*~
nevermind... today? not a very good day... i seriously dont know what i am doing today... stoning away...even when i am dancing... i am also hmm...thinking...
in a mess... nevermind... haiz... am i wrong? i dont know... not whatever you all are thinking about...
i am also thinking about what happened yesterday... which i know is stupid... cause think for what right? i think i need to find someone to talk to... i dont know how to... hmm... nevermind.. i think i asked that before... and i think i will get the same answer but i think i cant accept it bah... whatever...
i bet life is like that.. you never know what will happen the next minute... maybe i will just die in bed tonight? who knows? whatever it is... i think the most important thing is to not regret whatever that you did in life...
tomorrow having papers le... this whole week...but i have a free tuesday... whats the point?
nevermind...
i realise something... when someone gets into some troubles or something not right, there can be a sudden increase in blog entries... i got 2 ezamples to proof my deduction... whoa... praise me please...
oh no.. this blog is going back to the old depressing things... nevermind... good things hardly comes onto this blog... cause i think i am just those freaks who only remember more of the bad things...
when you remember the bad things, you will not be surprised one day when something bad or even worse happened...cause you are all prepared...
like whatever that i am doing now...
i can be forgiving but not forgetting...maybe that is the reason why i am so not up today... erm... i was quite down the whole day...
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i finally feel like stopping... WHATEVER... haiz...
why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why...
haiz i seriously think i should stop this... WHATEVER...
I AM OK!!! C=
yea... C=
~*clever people sleeps early*~
~* C= *~
~*be a clever person*~
nevermind... today? not a very good day... i seriously dont know what i am doing today... stoning away...even when i am dancing... i am also hmm...thinking...
in a mess... nevermind... haiz... am i wrong? i dont know... not whatever you all are thinking about...
i am also thinking about what happened yesterday... which i know is stupid... cause think for what right? i think i need to find someone to talk to... i dont know how to... hmm... nevermind.. i think i asked that before... and i think i will get the same answer but i think i cant accept it bah... whatever...
i bet life is like that.. you never know what will happen the next minute... maybe i will just die in bed tonight? who knows? whatever it is... i think the most important thing is to not regret whatever that you did in life...
tomorrow having papers le... this whole week...but i have a free tuesday... whats the point?
nevermind...
i realise something... when someone gets into some troubles or something not right, there can be a sudden increase in blog entries... i got 2 ezamples to proof my deduction... whoa... praise me please...
oh no.. this blog is going back to the old depressing things... nevermind... good things hardly comes onto this blog... cause i think i am just those freaks who only remember more of the bad things...
when you remember the bad things, you will not be surprised one day when something bad or even worse happened...cause you are all prepared...
like whatever that i am doing now...
i can be forgiving but not forgetting...maybe that is the reason why i am so not up today... erm... i was quite down the whole day...
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i finally feel like stopping... WHATEVER... haiz...
why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why...
haiz i seriously think i should stop this... WHATEVER...
I AM OK!!! C=
yea... C=
~*clever people sleeps early*~
~* C= *~
~*be a clever person*~
.::Who am I?::.
~*nevermind*~
~i am feeling stupid again*~
~*thats for today only bah*~
omg...today dont seem to be a good day?
first i got paranoid thinking that someone is bu shuang
then i got into the thing that i cant handle... i felt like a burden to someone... hmmm... and when the whole stupid thing is...when i was told that i was not at fault... but i am still wondering... stupid right?
haiz.. i dont know lah... i think it is just not appropriate to talk about those stuff here... so... who to talk to? =C
nevermind... i am ok... just for the fact that i dont like this...
someone telling me i am RUDE...next moment, someone of higher rank say that we are cultured people with good manners... hear that? what is this?
and contradiction after contradiction... we want her back...
oh no... actually i feel like breaking down now...but NO!!! control...
look at the time... hmm...where is my tagboard? hmm... sianz...
actually...how do i face... ? hmmm...nevermind... drop the topic...
for everything that i do, i have a purpose and i think i know what i am doing... i hope people understand...
oh no...stoning again... what now? stop thinking...rarr...
nevermind... haiz... yesterday and today? i bet they are not good days for sam and i... hmm...
yupz...maybe i should just SHUT UP too right? rarr
who am i...? i mean... nevermind...that is the god-knows-how-many-time i typed that word le... i mean... i think i just dont feel like putting everything down here anymore...
or maybe for now?...
ok... i think i ate very little today.. is that something good or bad? erm...wanton mee... 1slice of pizza... 1 small garlic bread... 2drumlets... 1 chicken pie... and really drank alot of water today...
ok... i suddenly remember something.. i am being deemed as REGULARS can? rarr...rarr... maybe i should stop typing that word... i mean... '**rr*
cause that will mean i have to touch on those 2 letters that can be found in her name... **rr... hmm...i am sensitive to quite alot of things today...oops...
got some clever people...still asking me need morning call or not... in the end? wake up later than me... =C sorry... for getting you more sick... shall sleep early today... C=
my eyes are feeling quite heavy from the crying today... d=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our face*~
~* C= *~
~i am feeling stupid again*~
~*thats for today only bah*~
omg...today dont seem to be a good day?
first i got paranoid thinking that someone is bu shuang
then i got into the thing that i cant handle... i felt like a burden to someone... hmmm... and when the whole stupid thing is...when i was told that i was not at fault... but i am still wondering... stupid right?
haiz.. i dont know lah... i think it is just not appropriate to talk about those stuff here... so... who to talk to? =C
nevermind... i am ok... just for the fact that i dont like this...
someone telling me i am RUDE...next moment, someone of higher rank say that we are cultured people with good manners... hear that? what is this?
and contradiction after contradiction... we want her back...
oh no... actually i feel like breaking down now...but NO!!! control...
look at the time... hmm...where is my tagboard? hmm... sianz...
actually...how do i face... ? hmmm...nevermind... drop the topic...
for everything that i do, i have a purpose and i think i know what i am doing... i hope people understand...
oh no...stoning again... what now? stop thinking...rarr...
nevermind... haiz... yesterday and today? i bet they are not good days for sam and i... hmm...
yupz...maybe i should just SHUT UP too right? rarr
who am i...? i mean... nevermind...that is the god-knows-how-many-time i typed that word le... i mean... i think i just dont feel like putting everything down here anymore...
or maybe for now?...
ok... i think i ate very little today.. is that something good or bad? erm...wanton mee... 1slice of pizza... 1 small garlic bread... 2drumlets... 1 chicken pie... and really drank alot of water today...
ok... i suddenly remember something.. i am being deemed as REGULARS can? rarr...rarr... maybe i should stop typing that word... i mean... '**rr*
cause that will mean i have to touch on those 2 letters that can be found in her name... **rr... hmm...i am sensitive to quite alot of things today...oops...
got some clever people...still asking me need morning call or not... in the end? wake up later than me... =C sorry... for getting you more sick... shall sleep early today... C=
my eyes are feeling quite heavy from the crying today... d=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our face*~
~* C= *~
Saturday, June 24, 2006
.::tan black::.
~*hmm...*~
i am hungry... hmm...nevermind...
i dont know what to blog about... but i think i should still at least write something to keep this blog alive...
whatever lah... haiz...
i announced that i got sun burned... omg... but i bet it will be gone tomorrow... i mean it will be ok le lah...
whatever lah...i rather get sun burn can... i mean at least.. skin pee off le... will be less black...nevermind
talk tomorrow bahs... rarr...lol
~*omg*~
~*iz late!!!*~
~* d= *~
i am hungry... hmm...nevermind...
i dont know what to blog about... but i think i should still at least write something to keep this blog alive...
whatever lah... haiz...
i announced that i got sun burned... omg... but i bet it will be gone tomorrow... i mean it will be ok le lah...
whatever lah...i rather get sun burn can... i mean at least.. skin pee off le... will be less black...nevermind
talk tomorrow bahs... rarr...lol
~*omg*~
~*iz late!!!*~
~* d= *~
Friday, June 23, 2006
.::random before sleep::.
~*rarr*~
stupid people... i almost cry just now... almost... but hmm...i think things are ok le lah...
hate it lor.. but anyway.. since it is ok le...then i shall not mention it here... but still..i am not happy ok...
lucky tomorrow nanhua is 10... i really pity yongxuan... got 2 gates and only one him... he have to run around... lucky tomorrow have chuenyong...
nanhua... let the sec3 do the job... hope tomorrow will be a better day... and i hope i dont wake up with a fever tomorrow...maybe 2 panadols again will do the job? i am feeling weird already... oh no...
i need sleep... my mama tried to talk to me... of all times, today...when i dont feel like talking... so i just tried to shut her up...especially my sister...rarr...
hello... i am ok lor...i mean...i have been like that for quite long le... now then ask me whats wrong abit too late huh... nevermind... at least my mama is concern... but i am really ok... i wonder what makes them think that i am not...
i swear i will wear a cap tomorrow...my mama say my face is getting more and more black.. oh no...
tomorrow will be a much better day!!! ok?
~*smiles*~
~*nites*~
~* C= *~
stupid people... i almost cry just now... almost... but hmm...i think things are ok le lah...
hate it lor.. but anyway.. since it is ok le...then i shall not mention it here... but still..i am not happy ok...
lucky tomorrow nanhua is 10... i really pity yongxuan... got 2 gates and only one him... he have to run around... lucky tomorrow have chuenyong...
nanhua... let the sec3 do the job... hope tomorrow will be a better day... and i hope i dont wake up with a fever tomorrow...maybe 2 panadols again will do the job? i am feeling weird already... oh no...
i need sleep... my mama tried to talk to me... of all times, today...when i dont feel like talking... so i just tried to shut her up...especially my sister...rarr...
hello... i am ok lor...i mean...i have been like that for quite long le... now then ask me whats wrong abit too late huh... nevermind... at least my mama is concern... but i am really ok... i wonder what makes them think that i am not...
i swear i will wear a cap tomorrow...my mama say my face is getting more and more black.. oh no...
tomorrow will be a much better day!!! ok?
~*smiles*~
~*nites*~
~* C= *~
Thursday, June 22, 2006
.::i am bored::.
~*random post*~
~*abit early*~
but i seriously have got nothing to do...other than studying... i am going on a walk alone tonight... haiz... hmm... tomorrow will be so so dead again...i bet...
hmm... who can be a nice person to help me get a tagboard code? and help me paste? or at least help me get one lah... i dont mind letting people know my universal password... oops... d= kidding...haas...
it is weird to not have a tag board...
why does she have to act as though she is ok and alright when she is not? i mean... it is just ok to cry it out... or maybe she just dont want to let people know? or maybe all these seems like a joke... she was dragged in and when she is determined, she lose everything... what can i say? who to blame? i still have no idea what is going on... maybe time will give the answer...
it is ok to be sad... at least you know how to be sad...
i am ok... i almost had fever today... pop 2 panadols again today... yesterday night also... hmm... i hope i will be real ok tomorrow... but haiz... still have to go... haas
rarr...i sneezed like-dont-know-what again today... omg... consider the fact that i am not feeling well and going to be down with a flu, i think it is ok...haas...
i surprised people with my new voice...haas... oops... =S
haas
hmm..what to type next? i actually did nothing much today...i went out to get something from my friend and when i waas on my way home... MR LOW CALLED... shocked... in the end realise he called the wrong person... -.-
lol... and did i mention that i saw vincent ng again yesterday in nanhua? whatever... thats very whatever...i know...haas... people were fascinated by that guard who climb up a dont know what pole...and i dont know why hannqian and girls think that is something so amazing...when i think it is nothing... -.- lol...oops... sounds bad...haas
omg...today is thursday le huh... rarr...
officially sian-ed and officially sick and officially...hmm... nothing...nevermind...
*slaps myself*
*what are you thinking?*
*silly*
*RARR*
*stop being a useless bum*
* d= *
haas...ok.. thats all... i think i will blog again tonight... maybe after my walk with Baby... C=
~*smiles*~
~* C= *~
~*abit early*~
but i seriously have got nothing to do...other than studying... i am going on a walk alone tonight... haiz... hmm... tomorrow will be so so dead again...i bet...
hmm... who can be a nice person to help me get a tagboard code? and help me paste? or at least help me get one lah... i dont mind letting people know my universal password... oops... d= kidding...haas...
it is weird to not have a tag board...
why does she have to act as though she is ok and alright when she is not? i mean... it is just ok to cry it out... or maybe she just dont want to let people know? or maybe all these seems like a joke... she was dragged in and when she is determined, she lose everything... what can i say? who to blame? i still have no idea what is going on... maybe time will give the answer...
it is ok to be sad... at least you know how to be sad...
i am ok... i almost had fever today... pop 2 panadols again today... yesterday night also... hmm... i hope i will be real ok tomorrow... but haiz... still have to go... haas
rarr...i sneezed like-dont-know-what again today... omg... consider the fact that i am not feeling well and going to be down with a flu, i think it is ok...haas...
i surprised people with my new voice...haas... oops... =S
haas
hmm..what to type next? i actually did nothing much today...i went out to get something from my friend and when i waas on my way home... MR LOW CALLED... shocked... in the end realise he called the wrong person... -.-
lol... and did i mention that i saw vincent ng again yesterday in nanhua? whatever... thats very whatever...i know...haas... people were fascinated by that guard who climb up a dont know what pole...and i dont know why hannqian and girls think that is something so amazing...when i think it is nothing... -.- lol...oops... sounds bad...haas
omg...today is thursday le huh... rarr...
officially sian-ed and officially sick and officially...hmm... nothing...nevermind...
*slaps myself*
*what are you thinking?*
*silly*
*RARR*
*stop being a useless bum*
* d= *
haas...ok.. thats all... i think i will blog again tonight... maybe after my walk with Baby... C=
~*smiles*~
~* C= *~
.::practice in the stadium, wednesday::.
~*omg*~
~*i hope i am ok*~
~* C= *~
who is the one who is going to lose her voice?
who is the one who is going to have fever?
who is the one who is going to have a cough?
who is the one who is going to get so much darker?
who is the one who is going to go on friday and run around again?
who is the one who is going to shout again on friday?
who is the one who is sneezing like dont-know-what today?
who is the one who is having an aching ankle?
omg...all ME!!! yes!!! totally me... and clever me still went for KFC with the others just now... since i am hungry and since accompany them... hmmm
do i need to repeat myself that this is the first time that i am having sore throat because i shouted the wrong way? i am feeling like a failure again... oops...
nevermind...we shall talk about today...
went to nanhua... shout and oops... then went with the sec 3 dancers to stadium... helped junyang to pass down instruction since he also having the same problem as me... or maybe even worse than me...haas
then reach there, settle them down, then core group and the juniors start to move in... omg.. i regret not telling them the instrution in the hall...cause i thought we will have the chance to leave first what... so shouted like hell there lor..
then nanhua had runs through SYF... hmm... then there is this girl who have breathing difficulties.. tell me no use...so i went to get keelui to get bao shu lao shi, who happen to be nearby...and sam is not free... so laoshi helped... and then we called for medic and this poor guy have to carry the girl around half the field...
thats when i start to really run alot... then after that girl cooled down and settled down, nanchiau came in... erm..i mean... arrive... but they took a long time to come in... then when things settled, i went to eat lunch... then slack around... then went to help yongxuan.. abit only... but also running around... my voice... oh no...
i think i was quite mean to nan chiau kids.. but i mean... haiz... got good ones too la...haas...
then after that they start to have combine for all the 3 schools... then weihong and keelui left for nanhua with those for the media briefing rehearsal... left with only me, szepheng and yongxuan... siao...really omg... then help baoshun laoshi to arrange those from another secondary school... and also... meiman laoshi is also there...
then help and then when finally everything end,debrief the dancers and sec3s were dispatch to other buses since their bus left for those media briefing people... then went back nanhua... along the way there is this short traffic jam...lucky is a short one... if not i think i will freeze to death on bus... it is cold...
reach nanhua..went to studio... NOT LOCKED...omg... changed, washed my face... go find them in the auditorium... then ya...the media preview thingy rehearsal... then went off when things end... went out to eat... KFC...oops...
then went home by 184... omg... cold again... then LRT... cold again...siao liao la...
reach home...the moment i step in, urine... omg... cleaned up and bath and here i am... siao...i miss my bed... i need sleep...
i dont know is it because i am sianed or because i am tired or because i am sick.. but i just dont feel like doing anything... i did not think about anything the whole day... i tried to think though, but i cant la...
i think that is really all... i am way too tired... rarr... wait... is it tired or sian or sick?
i better dont wake up with a fever tomorrow...haiz...
~*smiles*~
~*omg*~
~*i hope i am ok*~
~* C= *~
who is the one who is going to lose her voice?
who is the one who is going to have fever?
who is the one who is going to have a cough?
who is the one who is going to get so much darker?
who is the one who is going to go on friday and run around again?
who is the one who is going to shout again on friday?
who is the one who is sneezing like dont-know-what today?
who is the one who is having an aching ankle?
omg...all ME!!! yes!!! totally me... and clever me still went for KFC with the others just now... since i am hungry and since accompany them... hmmm
do i need to repeat myself that this is the first time that i am having sore throat because i shouted the wrong way? i am feeling like a failure again... oops...
nevermind...we shall talk about today...
went to nanhua... shout and oops... then went with the sec 3 dancers to stadium... helped junyang to pass down instruction since he also having the same problem as me... or maybe even worse than me...haas
then reach there, settle them down, then core group and the juniors start to move in... omg.. i regret not telling them the instrution in the hall...cause i thought we will have the chance to leave first what... so shouted like hell there lor..
then nanhua had runs through SYF... hmm... then there is this girl who have breathing difficulties.. tell me no use...so i went to get keelui to get bao shu lao shi, who happen to be nearby...and sam is not free... so laoshi helped... and then we called for medic and this poor guy have to carry the girl around half the field...
thats when i start to really run alot... then after that girl cooled down and settled down, nanchiau came in... erm..i mean... arrive... but they took a long time to come in... then when things settled, i went to eat lunch... then slack around... then went to help yongxuan.. abit only... but also running around... my voice... oh no...
i think i was quite mean to nan chiau kids.. but i mean... haiz... got good ones too la...haas...
then after that they start to have combine for all the 3 schools... then weihong and keelui left for nanhua with those for the media briefing rehearsal... left with only me, szepheng and yongxuan... siao...really omg... then help baoshun laoshi to arrange those from another secondary school... and also... meiman laoshi is also there...
then help and then when finally everything end,debrief the dancers and sec3s were dispatch to other buses since their bus left for those media briefing people... then went back nanhua... along the way there is this short traffic jam...lucky is a short one... if not i think i will freeze to death on bus... it is cold...
reach nanhua..went to studio... NOT LOCKED...omg... changed, washed my face... go find them in the auditorium... then ya...the media preview thingy rehearsal... then went off when things end... went out to eat... KFC...oops...
then went home by 184... omg... cold again... then LRT... cold again...siao liao la...
reach home...the moment i step in, urine... omg... cleaned up and bath and here i am... siao...i miss my bed... i need sleep...
i dont know is it because i am sianed or because i am tired or because i am sick.. but i just dont feel like doing anything... i did not think about anything the whole day... i tried to think though, but i cant la...
i think that is really all... i am way too tired... rarr... wait... is it tired or sian or sick?
i better dont wake up with a fever tomorrow...haiz...
~*smiles*~
~*omg*~
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
.::oh no::.
~*omg*~
~*worse*~
haiz..i am going crazy...
my voice is getting from bad to worse... for your info, i just woke up and i am feeling wrong... oh no...
and omg...shit, i am going crazy... dont ask me why...
`yes, there are somethings that need not be said
`but there are things that need to be clear
`it is better to live in a world where you know when the rain will fall
`uncertainty away!!!
~*omg*~
~*but i am happy*~
~*see?*~
~*i am crazy*~
~*worse*~
haiz..i am going crazy...
my voice is getting from bad to worse... for your info, i just woke up and i am feeling wrong... oh no...
and omg...shit, i am going crazy... dont ask me why...
`yes, there are somethings that need not be said
`but there are things that need to be clear
`it is better to live in a world where you know when the rain will fall
`uncertainty away!!!
~*omg*~
~*but i am happy*~
~*see?*~
~*i am crazy*~
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
.::hmmm... what title should i put?::.
~*i dont know*~
~*i am feeling crazy*~
hmm...it is only the first day lor... rarr... thats why i say i am feeling crazy... can actually dump my handphone aside for these few days le lor...
anyway... my voice changed!!! that is not something to be proud of... or to be happy about... i hope that i can still talk tomorrow after the NDP or rather, SYF practice in the stadium...
oh no... ok... for today... what i did today... before i move on to what are the wrong things that i ate today... d=
i woke up at 7.18am by my sister... i insisted on sleeping in for another 5 min so i lied there and i felt weird... ok...i felt crazy.. then i woke up, bathe and went to nanhua... rained when i walked to bus stop... got abit drenched... then reach there...
the moment i step into the hall, heard weihong shouting at some people... stunned... then after that jiu have practice lor... and i lazed around again... d=
then i went to take a short nap... then rachel came and wake me up say can go eat lunch le... but before that i ate somethings also la... oops... and when i am eating, some people message me... hmm... then ok lor... oh ya... did i mention that yongxuan called at 2 plus that night? rarr... lucky he didnt wake me up... i wonder why...haas...
then i went down with weihong... hmmm... 4 trays... for 140 people... lol... how can it be enough? then the 2 of us went to get our own food... depend on her? lol... starve to death...shall not continue on that... then went to talk to laoshi...
then went up and cassandra and christine came and we started talking about...hmm... then after that the others dance dance dance then they went for their games... and guess what? i sleep AGAIN... i sleep till 5 plus from around 3 i think... haas...
i dont know is it because i am feeling tired, sick, sian or crazy.. but i just cant play those wet games.... lucky i didnt... if not i guess i will be feeling worse now...
then they come up... i wake up... laoshi was saying i have a big bedroom...the whole hall is like my room like that...
then sat there...stone... ya...i start stoning again.. so i think your should know what i am doing again... then laoshi start to get angry cause no one is doing anything to keep the things... then jiu no choice...start to help them find key to the studio... and thats when i shouted again...
then after that things end... then went downstairs then walked to central with hannqian and gang... then crap and joke... omg... lol... then went to get PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLED PEARL... then took train home with yunian and 2 sec1s... haas.. but i alight at jurong east... then i am alone for the trip to choa chu kang...
then reached home...mama ask me to eat... but no wei kou cause i just had that sweettalk... then went to bath and then when i was about to use the computer, my dad's friend came and my house is still having a dog gathering now... cause my dad's friend brought his dog along... so my house have 3 dogs now... I AM NOT ONE OF THEM OK... rarr
i cant play with baby lah... she dont want to play with me... she keep spending her time on the sofa lor... to run away from carrot... haiz... hmm...
ok... now...to what i ate the whole day... d=
omg...my dad just gave me 20 bucks... hmm... lol
ok...back to topic...
in the morning... my mama made me hotdogs...meant to go with a bread... so i ate 2 hotdogs and 1 bread... wait... the hotdog is burnt... cao da... it is bad or my throat...my mama ask me to remove those burnt part but i am lazy...
then reach school... mouth itchy...want to eat... then i went to get nuggets and hotdog... hmm...then ate shao bing and those biscuit that hannbin got back from malaysia...oops.. but i drank dong gua cha... packeted drink...
then lunch... i went to eat cheesedogs and nuggets and rice... omg... then went up... then hmm...fat... then i ate pizza also..omg... 3 slices... shi fei de lor... lol... then no more after that... had PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLED PEARL...
all the above food mentioned, nothing seems to be good for my throat... whatever la... haas... i will stop it tomorrow..
i want my voice to be ok... i want to talk.. i scare i cant talk after tomorrow... haas...
ok... when i reached home and was about to use the computer, my sister was 'borrowing' it for awhile... then i started singing 轨迹.. she got abit shocked...
]why you suddenly like the song?
[erm...i dont know
]erm... ok
that day i was singing 最熟陌生人... then yunian asked me twice
]you 失恋 izzit??
[huh? why? no lah... lol...
something like that and he asked me TWICE... what a cute junior i have...
erm...so top on the list now... 轨迹 最熟陌生人 你要的不是我...
i think i am just getting myslf prepared for that day to come... i am like that... cant blame me... but i still cant imagine...oops..i am going crazy again...haas...
i am not sad...just dont know what to think...haas...
cause i really dont know what will happen next... so i am thinking...haas... we shall see...
stupid... i think i should go and get soemthings done and sleep early?i will sleep early...haas... C=
~*smile*~
~*i hope you are smiling now*~
~* C= *~
`there are just somethings that dont need to be said
~*i am feeling crazy*~
hmm...it is only the first day lor... rarr... thats why i say i am feeling crazy... can actually dump my handphone aside for these few days le lor...
anyway... my voice changed!!! that is not something to be proud of... or to be happy about... i hope that i can still talk tomorrow after the NDP or rather, SYF practice in the stadium...
oh no... ok... for today... what i did today... before i move on to what are the wrong things that i ate today... d=
i woke up at 7.18am by my sister... i insisted on sleeping in for another 5 min so i lied there and i felt weird... ok...i felt crazy.. then i woke up, bathe and went to nanhua... rained when i walked to bus stop... got abit drenched... then reach there...
the moment i step into the hall, heard weihong shouting at some people... stunned... then after that jiu have practice lor... and i lazed around again... d=
then i went to take a short nap... then rachel came and wake me up say can go eat lunch le... but before that i ate somethings also la... oops... and when i am eating, some people message me... hmm... then ok lor... oh ya... did i mention that yongxuan called at 2 plus that night? rarr... lucky he didnt wake me up... i wonder why...haas...
then i went down with weihong... hmmm... 4 trays... for 140 people... lol... how can it be enough? then the 2 of us went to get our own food... depend on her? lol... starve to death...shall not continue on that... then went to talk to laoshi...
then went up and cassandra and christine came and we started talking about...hmm... then after that the others dance dance dance then they went for their games... and guess what? i sleep AGAIN... i sleep till 5 plus from around 3 i think... haas...
i dont know is it because i am feeling tired, sick, sian or crazy.. but i just cant play those wet games.... lucky i didnt... if not i guess i will be feeling worse now...
then they come up... i wake up... laoshi was saying i have a big bedroom...the whole hall is like my room like that...
then sat there...stone... ya...i start stoning again.. so i think your should know what i am doing again... then laoshi start to get angry cause no one is doing anything to keep the things... then jiu no choice...start to help them find key to the studio... and thats when i shouted again...
then after that things end... then went downstairs then walked to central with hannqian and gang... then crap and joke... omg... lol... then went to get PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLED PEARL... then took train home with yunian and 2 sec1s... haas.. but i alight at jurong east... then i am alone for the trip to choa chu kang...
then reached home...mama ask me to eat... but no wei kou cause i just had that sweettalk... then went to bath and then when i was about to use the computer, my dad's friend came and my house is still having a dog gathering now... cause my dad's friend brought his dog along... so my house have 3 dogs now... I AM NOT ONE OF THEM OK... rarr
i cant play with baby lah... she dont want to play with me... she keep spending her time on the sofa lor... to run away from carrot... haiz... hmm...
ok... now...to what i ate the whole day... d=
omg...my dad just gave me 20 bucks... hmm... lol
ok...back to topic...
in the morning... my mama made me hotdogs...meant to go with a bread... so i ate 2 hotdogs and 1 bread... wait... the hotdog is burnt... cao da... it is bad or my throat...my mama ask me to remove those burnt part but i am lazy...
then reach school... mouth itchy...want to eat... then i went to get nuggets and hotdog... hmm...then ate shao bing and those biscuit that hannbin got back from malaysia...oops.. but i drank dong gua cha... packeted drink...
then lunch... i went to eat cheesedogs and nuggets and rice... omg... then went up... then hmm...fat... then i ate pizza also..omg... 3 slices... shi fei de lor... lol... then no more after that... had PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLED PEARL...
all the above food mentioned, nothing seems to be good for my throat... whatever la... haas... i will stop it tomorrow..
i want my voice to be ok... i want to talk.. i scare i cant talk after tomorrow... haas...
ok... when i reached home and was about to use the computer, my sister was 'borrowing' it for awhile... then i started singing 轨迹.. she got abit shocked...
]why you suddenly like the song?
[erm...i dont know
]erm... ok
that day i was singing 最熟陌生人... then yunian asked me twice
]you 失恋 izzit??
[huh? why? no lah... lol...
something like that and he asked me TWICE... what a cute junior i have...
erm...so top on the list now... 轨迹 最熟陌生人 你要的不是我...
i think i am just getting myslf prepared for that day to come... i am like that... cant blame me... but i still cant imagine...oops..i am going crazy again...haas...
i am not sad...just dont know what to think...haas...
cause i really dont know what will happen next... so i am thinking...haas... we shall see...
stupid... i think i should go and get soemthings done and sleep early?i will sleep early...haas... C=
~*smile*~
~*i hope you are smiling now*~
~* C= *~
`there are just somethings that dont need to be said
Monday, June 19, 2006
.::what a weird person i am::.
~*i am a weird person...*~
~*i think la*~
whatever... somethings happened today... i shall talk one by one... but one of the 2big things that is bugging me today is always on my mind...even when i am lying there sleeping... today... yes... i sleep again... oops...
as he walked beside me, i realise that he is no longer the one that i know...i think things have been like that since the start of the year...after giving him that thing... i swear i will never make anymore...
the thing is... i let him into my life again at that point of time...although it is no longer that intense or he is no longer that major part in my life, but still he came back in... i remembered how i cried that time...
then come to the thing now... i think i should just stop... i think it is pointless... if he choose to tell me, i will be there to listen, if not then whatelse can i do?
then come the second thing which is like on my mind all the time... i realise i am scare... afraid... scare that history will repeat itself... i can say that my mood changed at that time...but still i dont think anyone know... i think i just dont know how to react bah...
i am always thinking... maybe...
i realise something also... i am a freako... everytime when i am alone, i will think about things that i had done that day and the way that i had reacted to things that day...
i came to know that i cried today because i felt helpless... alone, squashed, tickle... what can i do? i asked them to stop but they didnt...
i did the test... some general things about myself... the true me...
careful, high standards, need clear cut boundaries for relationships, will give in rather than argue, prefers not to verbalize feelings, fear criticism...
listener, team player, possessive, predictable, understanding, friendly, reliable, patient, takes long time to adjust to changes, resist changes, senstitive to criticism, fear loss of security....
they all seems negative... ok.. majority seems negative.. haas.. i think that is me... so do you think it is true?
where is my gui ji? rarr... haas...
oh no... sianz... the top song on my list... C=
the lyrics... C=
thats all...
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*i think la*~
whatever... somethings happened today... i shall talk one by one... but one of the 2big things that is bugging me today is always on my mind...even when i am lying there sleeping... today... yes... i sleep again... oops...
as he walked beside me, i realise that he is no longer the one that i know...i think things have been like that since the start of the year...after giving him that thing... i swear i will never make anymore...
the thing is... i let him into my life again at that point of time...although it is no longer that intense or he is no longer that major part in my life, but still he came back in... i remembered how i cried that time...
then come to the thing now... i think i should just stop... i think it is pointless... if he choose to tell me, i will be there to listen, if not then whatelse can i do?
then come the second thing which is like on my mind all the time... i realise i am scare... afraid... scare that history will repeat itself... i can say that my mood changed at that time...but still i dont think anyone know... i think i just dont know how to react bah...
i am always thinking... maybe...
i realise something also... i am a freako... everytime when i am alone, i will think about things that i had done that day and the way that i had reacted to things that day...
i came to know that i cried today because i felt helpless... alone, squashed, tickle... what can i do? i asked them to stop but they didnt...
i did the test... some general things about myself... the true me...
careful, high standards, need clear cut boundaries for relationships, will give in rather than argue, prefers not to verbalize feelings, fear criticism...
listener, team player, possessive, predictable, understanding, friendly, reliable, patient, takes long time to adjust to changes, resist changes, senstitive to criticism, fear loss of security....
they all seems negative... ok.. majority seems negative.. haas.. i think that is me... so do you think it is true?
where is my gui ji? rarr... haas...
oh no... sianz... the top song on my list... C=
the lyrics... C=
thats all...
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
.::what a day?::.
~*what kind of day did you have when you dont know what is really going on?*~
i am feeling lost...somehow... picking up signs here and there for whatever that is in my life... like it or not i got no other choice... i can pick up signs if no one choose to tell me anything...
i think the majo topic of the day is him... i really dont know what to say... not that i want to have something in return... just that i really cannot stand it... i am quite determined to get him out of my life now...
`if only i have that courage to make that decision for other things... but seriously it takes time
back to topic... this took me 3 years? or maybe 2... i dont know... i never wanted much in return...maybe just him in my life... but for so long and so many occasion, he came and he go...i really dont know what to say about that... i should have know that all the while... he is like that...
for him, i put up with things that i can never put up with in my life... the moment i heard about it, the first thought that came to my mind is not anger... just thinking of how to protect him.. maybe thats why... but will he even know if i leave his life?
he likes it... i buy it... no he dont care... teng lai gan ma?
i also dont know what i am thinking now... i am like thinking about other people's stuff more than i think of mine... but maybe that is a good thing... i dont know... but seriously... even if i think of my stuff, what can i do? as if i can decide...
i wanted to tell you something but i forgot and i am still trying to remember now lor... stupid me...
i swear i am going to go crazy tomorrow... but what time will i wake up tomorrow? hmm... look at the time... 2am? nothing to say...
maybe i should not sound so happy afterall...cause i am not happy... there is so many burning questions within me... can i just not think?
if your ever see me stoning, please stop me... cause when i stone, i am thinking... and when i think, nothing good comes out or nothing comes out... so maybe it is better to not think... cause think le de jie guo is only i sad...
come to think of it... i realise something very qiao... not i want to say..but it is really.. hmm...i cant continue... WAIT... is i am not suppose to continue... haas... oops... d=
maybe for everyone that comes into my life, i have to be prepared for that person to leave... prepare myself for that day to come... i am preparing and i think i am prepared...
oh...i remember what i want to tell you le... omg... short term memory... slow... omg...
i think i got to go and sleep... should i dream? better not... see how lah... random...
shucks... i am missing someone and i dont like it...cause i still think that it is not right to do that... or rather that should not be something that i am doing...
i dont know whether i had a good day caus emy mood went up and down....
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*i hope you will be ok*~
~*i know you will*~
~* C= *~
i am feeling lost...somehow... picking up signs here and there for whatever that is in my life... like it or not i got no other choice... i can pick up signs if no one choose to tell me anything...
i think the majo topic of the day is him... i really dont know what to say... not that i want to have something in return... just that i really cannot stand it... i am quite determined to get him out of my life now...
`if only i have that courage to make that decision for other things... but seriously it takes time
back to topic... this took me 3 years? or maybe 2... i dont know... i never wanted much in return...maybe just him in my life... but for so long and so many occasion, he came and he go...i really dont know what to say about that... i should have know that all the while... he is like that...
for him, i put up with things that i can never put up with in my life... the moment i heard about it, the first thought that came to my mind is not anger... just thinking of how to protect him.. maybe thats why... but will he even know if i leave his life?
he likes it... i buy it... no he dont care... teng lai gan ma?
i also dont know what i am thinking now... i am like thinking about other people's stuff more than i think of mine... but maybe that is a good thing... i dont know... but seriously... even if i think of my stuff, what can i do? as if i can decide...
i wanted to tell you something but i forgot and i am still trying to remember now lor... stupid me...
i swear i am going to go crazy tomorrow... but what time will i wake up tomorrow? hmm... look at the time... 2am? nothing to say...
maybe i should not sound so happy afterall...cause i am not happy... there is so many burning questions within me... can i just not think?
if your ever see me stoning, please stop me... cause when i stone, i am thinking... and when i think, nothing good comes out or nothing comes out... so maybe it is better to not think... cause think le de jie guo is only i sad...
come to think of it... i realise something very qiao... not i want to say..but it is really.. hmm...i cant continue... WAIT... is i am not suppose to continue... haas... oops... d=
maybe for everyone that comes into my life, i have to be prepared for that person to leave... prepare myself for that day to come... i am preparing and i think i am prepared...
oh...i remember what i want to tell you le... omg... short term memory... slow... omg...
i think i got to go and sleep... should i dream? better not... see how lah... random...
shucks... i am missing someone and i dont like it...cause i still think that it is not right to do that... or rather that should not be something that i am doing...
i dont know whether i had a good day caus emy mood went up and down....
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*i hope you will be ok*~
~*i know you will*~
~* C= *~
Saturday, June 17, 2006
.::maybe yes i should::.
~*i heard somethings that i dont wish to hear today*~
~*it is not something good*~
i think i know him well enough... i think i can predict the ending le... hope he can prove me wrong...that is definitely not a good thing at all... no... it didnt spoil my day... just that i am so so tired after that, that i choose not to think anymore...
oh no... the stupid me is thinking of stupid things again... CONTROL... *get lost* i am screaming to the other me inside...
nevermind... today... woke up early... amazingly... i woke up on my own... i mean...my alarm woke me up and not my mother... praise me please...
was ok when i woke up...then went out... then was awake and ok... then ndp... then walked to pa..
then i slack around while the others do their things...oops... then cab down tpy... then went to settle things... then this is the time that i finally know what is called luan... mess... it is really in a mess..
then things end...watch the puppet.. then people start to go home... then went up and down... then waited for jieming to come... then went to eat... i dont know why walked so far when so many people cant walk...
ME...pain pain pain... run too much... omg... nevermind... i think got people worse than me lor...
then eat le... end up also in foodcourt...
then walked to library... my eyes closing le lor... rarr...so i walked to mrt and then i went home myself... sleep sleep sleep..
reach home...sleep somemore.... then jiu wake up...bath... then dont know what i do lah... my sis need the com... oh no...
~*it is not something good*~
i think i know him well enough... i think i can predict the ending le... hope he can prove me wrong...that is definitely not a good thing at all... no... it didnt spoil my day... just that i am so so tired after that, that i choose not to think anymore...
oh no... the stupid me is thinking of stupid things again... CONTROL... *get lost* i am screaming to the other me inside...
nevermind... today... woke up early... amazingly... i woke up on my own... i mean...my alarm woke me up and not my mother... praise me please...
was ok when i woke up...then went out... then was awake and ok... then ndp... then walked to pa..
then i slack around while the others do their things...oops... then cab down tpy... then went to settle things... then this is the time that i finally know what is called luan... mess... it is really in a mess..
then things end...watch the puppet.. then people start to go home... then went up and down... then waited for jieming to come... then went to eat... i dont know why walked so far when so many people cant walk...
ME...pain pain pain... run too much... omg... nevermind... i think got people worse than me lor...
then eat le... end up also in foodcourt...
then walked to library... my eyes closing le lor... rarr...so i walked to mrt and then i went home myself... sleep sleep sleep..
reach home...sleep somemore.... then jiu wake up...bath... then dont know what i do lah... my sis need the com... oh no...
Friday, June 16, 2006
.::why am i so tired?::.
~*omg*~
~*why am i so tired?*~
~*mess*~
my house is seriously in a mess...with carrot down with ring worm infection in her leg...and baby scratching her ear till they bleed... rarr... had a messy morning today... so much struggles... and bites... sobs... poor me...
then some clever people come and went kallang... anything to do with dance, my mother roar... i bet she will roar if i say i going nanhua ndp tomorrow morning... but dont care...i am still going...
my msn just disconnected me again... sianz...
then went nanhua...then i walked bare footed out of nanhua for 2 days in a row... haas... random...
hungry when i reached nanhua...ask some clever people go eat, dont want to eat... whatever...haas
then after that went hawker and met daryl and his friend... then got someone got super low and sian diao with me... i am plain tired.. and i dont know why k... then that person... i hope things will be ok...
tomorrow... toapayoh... sian...end at 2.30... where to go after that? hmmm...
i swear i will find the sweet talk in toa payoh tomorrow!!!
hmm...let me try to remember some nice phrase that i come across or thought of recently...
`things will be ok in the end
`if things are not ok then it is not the end
`we lead our lives like water
`going in more or less one direction
`until something come across that forces us to change our course
`the rain gave me a reason to cry
`cause it makes me miss the sun
`if you cant promise me my future
`then i rather not have memories of the sun
`let me remember only the rain
shucks...i forgot the rain and tears one... have to go and dig through my old entries... which i am lazy to do...and my sister is bugging me for the computer... rarr...
nevermind... i am thinking of nicer phrases...
`when things are just left with guilt
`maybe there is really nothing left
nice nice...haas...
clever me!!! C=
I NEED PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLE PEARL!!! RARR...
~*thank you*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*why am i so tired?*~
~*mess*~
my house is seriously in a mess...with carrot down with ring worm infection in her leg...and baby scratching her ear till they bleed... rarr... had a messy morning today... so much struggles... and bites... sobs... poor me...
then some clever people come and went kallang... anything to do with dance, my mother roar... i bet she will roar if i say i going nanhua ndp tomorrow morning... but dont care...i am still going...
my msn just disconnected me again... sianz...
then went nanhua...then i walked bare footed out of nanhua for 2 days in a row... haas... random...
hungry when i reached nanhua...ask some clever people go eat, dont want to eat... whatever...haas
then after that went hawker and met daryl and his friend... then got someone got super low and sian diao with me... i am plain tired.. and i dont know why k... then that person... i hope things will be ok...
tomorrow... toapayoh... sian...end at 2.30... where to go after that? hmmm...
i swear i will find the sweet talk in toa payoh tomorrow!!!
hmm...let me try to remember some nice phrase that i come across or thought of recently...
`things will be ok in the end
`if things are not ok then it is not the end
`we lead our lives like water
`going in more or less one direction
`until something come across that forces us to change our course
`the rain gave me a reason to cry
`cause it makes me miss the sun
`if you cant promise me my future
`then i rather not have memories of the sun
`let me remember only the rain
shucks...i forgot the rain and tears one... have to go and dig through my old entries... which i am lazy to do...and my sister is bugging me for the computer... rarr...
nevermind... i am thinking of nicer phrases...
`when things are just left with guilt
`maybe there is really nothing left
nice nice...haas...
clever me!!! C=
I NEED PEPPERMINT MILK TEA DOUBLE PEARL!!! RARR...
~*thank you*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
Thursday, June 15, 2006
.::here i am!!!::.
~*i am not hyped today either*~
ok...woke up...walked to the vet... realised it is closed... rarr... nevermind... i think have to go again tomorrow... I THINK... cause no one want to tell me the truth... i dont even know whether she is home.. i think she is... nevermind...
ok... made my way to nanhua... silly...nothing to do there...sianed... then i start to do xuanzi again...then i realise why i am having that pain on my left part of my yao... rarr... XUAN ZI... omg.. stupid...
then went to studio...went to bring blur blur and erm-herm in... then when they left and no one is there to talk to me le... i jiu start to feel sleepy when all the jokes are over... then keelui the mouse went to sleep in the lion... then rarr.. i also sleep.. d= but i sleep by the mirror...
then when everything end,i woke up...keelui DIDNT!!! haas...he woke up and THREW the lion aside... cause have to xia ke mah... then after that we went central...
should i go chalet? i think better not.. i am not feeling very right recently...
omg...kuai le chong bai... heavenly... C=
i am going to force people to learn that dance... lol...
erm...ok the past few days... i talked to chuenyong last night... and i have a conclusion...or rather an answer... for myself... and whatever la... i dont want to talk about it le... i dont want to repeat everything, cause things have been going on in my head for quite sometime le.. weeks? hmm...dont know...
but whatever it is...i know chuenyong did not have that sense of saticsfaction cause he didnt really help me... how to help lor... it is me... i mean..my choice.. but the good thing is i have an answer... let what happened be...hmm... i dont know how to say... thank you anyway... C=
please understand...not i dont want to say.. but just that i dont know how to... things are in my mouth and yet i choose to not let them out... nevermind... that will never have the chance of happening again...i think... i would not allow that to happen... C=
actually i thought about alot of things today also... i am being reminded of my past these few days.. is that a good thing? i dont know... who are the ones who made me cried the most... them, especially him bah... i suppose your know who... nevermind.. things are over...
oh no...i have to wear skirt or shorts tomorrow le lah...rarr... no more jeans or pants... die die... see... not enough clothes... d=
busy day...nothing much done today.. oh no... that means more time to stone...and that means OH NO... nevermind...
you cant blame me for thinking too much.. cause i am having a mixed emotions most of the times...
my bill... handphone bill... my mother is exceptionally calm about it.. she didnt nag...she just said somethings about it.. it is 50plus... oh no.. but i am shocked cause i expected more... but i didnt exceed last month k... d=
ok.. weekends are coming..so that means holidays are ending soon... hmm... nevermind... tomorrow will be another crappy day bah... study!!!
i am missing some people... LIYING!!! haas... when can we go out to study? hmm...
omg... i sneezed lot today... i am not sick or having running nose or anything and i think i broke my own record... 10 times...it is considered alot for not a day when i am not sick... crazy... haas...
`actually it is already nice to know that you are sitting there
`next to me
`even if it is in the rain
~*listen to kuai le chong bai*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
ok...woke up...walked to the vet... realised it is closed... rarr... nevermind... i think have to go again tomorrow... I THINK... cause no one want to tell me the truth... i dont even know whether she is home.. i think she is... nevermind...
ok... made my way to nanhua... silly...nothing to do there...sianed... then i start to do xuanzi again...then i realise why i am having that pain on my left part of my yao... rarr... XUAN ZI... omg.. stupid...
then went to studio...went to bring blur blur and erm-herm in... then when they left and no one is there to talk to me le... i jiu start to feel sleepy when all the jokes are over... then keelui the mouse went to sleep in the lion... then rarr.. i also sleep.. d= but i sleep by the mirror...
then when everything end,i woke up...keelui DIDNT!!! haas...he woke up and THREW the lion aside... cause have to xia ke mah... then after that we went central...
should i go chalet? i think better not.. i am not feeling very right recently...
omg...kuai le chong bai... heavenly... C=
i am going to force people to learn that dance... lol...
erm...ok the past few days... i talked to chuenyong last night... and i have a conclusion...or rather an answer... for myself... and whatever la... i dont want to talk about it le... i dont want to repeat everything, cause things have been going on in my head for quite sometime le.. weeks? hmm...dont know...
but whatever it is...i know chuenyong did not have that sense of saticsfaction cause he didnt really help me... how to help lor... it is me... i mean..my choice.. but the good thing is i have an answer... let what happened be...hmm... i dont know how to say... thank you anyway... C=
please understand...not i dont want to say.. but just that i dont know how to... things are in my mouth and yet i choose to not let them out... nevermind... that will never have the chance of happening again...i think... i would not allow that to happen... C=
actually i thought about alot of things today also... i am being reminded of my past these few days.. is that a good thing? i dont know... who are the ones who made me cried the most... them, especially him bah... i suppose your know who... nevermind.. things are over...
oh no...i have to wear skirt or shorts tomorrow le lah...rarr... no more jeans or pants... die die... see... not enough clothes... d=
busy day...nothing much done today.. oh no... that means more time to stone...and that means OH NO... nevermind...
you cant blame me for thinking too much.. cause i am having a mixed emotions most of the times...
my bill... handphone bill... my mother is exceptionally calm about it.. she didnt nag...she just said somethings about it.. it is 50plus... oh no.. but i am shocked cause i expected more... but i didnt exceed last month k... d=
ok.. weekends are coming..so that means holidays are ending soon... hmm... nevermind... tomorrow will be another crappy day bah... study!!!
i am missing some people... LIYING!!! haas... when can we go out to study? hmm...
omg... i sneezed lot today... i am not sick or having running nose or anything and i think i broke my own record... 10 times...it is considered alot for not a day when i am not sick... crazy... haas...
`actually it is already nice to know that you are sitting there
`next to me
`even if it is in the rain
~*listen to kuai le chong bai*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
.::why this feeling?::.
~*feel like... hmm...*~
i will really appreciate if someone give me a slap on my face now... maybe it will be even better if someone can explain to me why i am getting this stupid feeling...
swollen eyes... rarr... i hate it la... just what is wrong?
great that now i can use the computer... but it only make me want to nag more on blog...and all these naggings dont help...
maybe i really should sleep early... normally...normally...since when are things normal? RARR...
i think i am not stupid...i am just feeling sad over the fact that i am such a failure... dont ask me why...i dont like that... cause the question only make me feel even more stupid and more of a failure... cause i cannot come up with an answer... when will i learn?
slap me la... if next time anyone of you see me staring into space, it is advisable to hit me on my head...so that i will stop thinking... i hope it will...
or maybe it is the songs...
i wasted a whole lot of time...
i realise i dont want to say those words... i know i will not like it and i know i will regret...but i know i am feeling stupid... what can i say?
`when you say those things
`what can i say?
`i am holding them back
`cause i know they cant help
`i will only be hyped after that
`whats the point?
i will really appreciate if someone give me a slap on my face now... maybe it will be even better if someone can explain to me why i am getting this stupid feeling...
swollen eyes... rarr... i hate it la... just what is wrong?
great that now i can use the computer... but it only make me want to nag more on blog...and all these naggings dont help...
maybe i really should sleep early... normally...normally...since when are things normal? RARR...
i think i am not stupid...i am just feeling sad over the fact that i am such a failure... dont ask me why...i dont like that... cause the question only make me feel even more stupid and more of a failure... cause i cannot come up with an answer... when will i learn?
slap me la... if next time anyone of you see me staring into space, it is advisable to hit me on my head...so that i will stop thinking... i hope it will...
or maybe it is the songs...
i wasted a whole lot of time...
i realise i dont want to say those words... i know i will not like it and i know i will regret...but i know i am feeling stupid... what can i say?
`when you say those things
`what can i say?
`i am holding them back
`cause i know they cant help
`i will only be hyped after that
`whats the point?
.::am i ok?::.
~*please dont ask me that question*~
~*i just dont feel like lying*~
anyway... i am here to blog again...and if blogger lose this entry AGAIN... i am sure i will collapse... but since you are reading this, it means i will continue using blogger...
yesterday? ok la... come to think of it... i mean... after today.. i think it is actually nothing much... i mean.. ya.. what you want me to say? what can i say? i can only say... these 2 days are ok la...
i felt stupid today though... ya... i am thinking again... i feel like scolding some people for all the stupid things that they had done but i cant...
here is one simple quiz about somethings about me... i think only people who really talked to me know them...
Here's a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com
CLICK on the link below or PASTE it into your browser.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060613105506-193598&
here is another quiz that i just created today... if you think you really know me that well, take this quiz and we shall see... C=
Here's a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com
CLICK on the link below or PASTE it into your browser.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060614074358-386305&
ok...so that is 2 quizzes... suddenly going crazy...but i bet there will only be these 2...
i almost went out with spects today... omg... swollen eyes... erm... there are only 2 causes for swollen eyes... late nights and crying before bed...
but lucky...the swell was not that bad... so... yes!!! contact lens...
i feel like stoning again... and i dont like this...
i realise i hate a quite a few songs now... rarr...
but they are still all in my play list and i hate this particular song...
nevermind...that is abit random... maybe i need a nap... cause i am really going bonkers... sorry
i think i am stupid today.. i just dont feel like talking... so yah...whatever... sorry..
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
i am still feeling stupid... nevermind then
`things will be ok in the end
`if things are not ok
`then it is not the end
`i have a choice
`i have my rights
recollection...?? hmm... nevermind... random...
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on everyone's face*~
~* C= *~
~*i just dont feel like lying*~
anyway... i am here to blog again...and if blogger lose this entry AGAIN... i am sure i will collapse... but since you are reading this, it means i will continue using blogger...
yesterday? ok la... come to think of it... i mean... after today.. i think it is actually nothing much... i mean.. ya.. what you want me to say? what can i say? i can only say... these 2 days are ok la...
i felt stupid today though... ya... i am thinking again... i feel like scolding some people for all the stupid things that they had done but i cant...
here is one simple quiz about somethings about me... i think only people who really talked to me know them...
Here's a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com
CLICK on the link below or PASTE it into your browser.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060613105506-193598&
here is another quiz that i just created today... if you think you really know me that well, take this quiz and we shall see... C=
Here's a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com
CLICK on the link below or PASTE it into your browser.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060614074358-386305&
ok...so that is 2 quizzes... suddenly going crazy...but i bet there will only be these 2...
i almost went out with spects today... omg... swollen eyes... erm... there are only 2 causes for swollen eyes... late nights and crying before bed...
but lucky...the swell was not that bad... so... yes!!! contact lens...
i feel like stoning again... and i dont like this...
i realise i hate a quite a few songs now... rarr...
but they are still all in my play list and i hate this particular song...
nevermind...that is abit random... maybe i need a nap... cause i am really going bonkers... sorry
i think i am stupid today.. i just dont feel like talking... so yah...whatever... sorry..
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
i am still feeling stupid... nevermind then
`things will be ok in the end
`if things are not ok
`then it is not the end
`i have a choice
`i have my rights
recollection...?? hmm... nevermind... random...
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on everyone's face*~
~* C= *~
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
.::today?::.
~*stupid blogger*~
i lose an entry...adn i am lazy to type again..
i am tired.. rrr.... i swear i will sleep early tonight...later got people face become even blacker..haas...
rarr... something happened...but after that i am not thinking about what happened but what happened in the past...stupid...
anyway... i hate having fever at night..cause that means no aircon...rarr...
omg..i feel lazy...
i lose an entry...adn i am lazy to type again..
i am tired.. rrr.... i swear i will sleep early tonight...later got people face become even blacker..haas...
rarr... something happened...but after that i am not thinking about what happened but what happened in the past...stupid...
anyway... i hate having fever at night..cause that means no aircon...rarr...
omg..i feel lazy...
Monday, June 12, 2006
.::something about today again?::.
~*sorry*~
haiz... i dont know lah...see how my mood fluctuate? haas... oh no... oops...
this morning...i am feeling down...i made that entry... after that i got quite hyped... then now i am feeling down... or am i tired?
i think i am just tired... i need coke!!! C=
haiz.. i dont know la... i only know that i went out when i should be resting at home...
i went out... they spent five minutes in the car after picking me up to decide where to go... aiyo... that is so not like them...
we went IMM... then went with her to go see tv..cause she want to buy...then saw those programmes on the tvs one... feel like performing..then i suddenly feel so stupid again... haiz...
i am there for all the practice and there on the actual day...and i am not performing...what is this??? rarr...
i missed kopi o once AGAIN...rarr
then i think i am tired la... going out to study alone tonight feel stupid also...
then come to think of tomorrow.. i suddenly feel like dressing up and going out to shop or just walk around...what will my mama say if i do that?
or should i join them for laser quest? haiz.. see how la...
or should i go nanhua?
or should i go cresent?
haiz... why i suddenly feel like dressing up huh? siao liao la...lol...
~*nevermind*~
~*thats all*~
~* C= *~
dont think i can online tonight le..r.arr
OH YA.. I GOT 2 HAMSTERS!!! C=
haiz... i dont know lah...see how my mood fluctuate? haas... oh no... oops...
this morning...i am feeling down...i made that entry... after that i got quite hyped... then now i am feeling down... or am i tired?
i think i am just tired... i need coke!!! C=
haiz.. i dont know la... i only know that i went out when i should be resting at home...
i went out... they spent five minutes in the car after picking me up to decide where to go... aiyo... that is so not like them...
we went IMM... then went with her to go see tv..cause she want to buy...then saw those programmes on the tvs one... feel like performing..then i suddenly feel so stupid again... haiz...
i am there for all the practice and there on the actual day...and i am not performing...what is this??? rarr...
i missed kopi o once AGAIN...rarr
then i think i am tired la... going out to study alone tonight feel stupid also...
then come to think of tomorrow.. i suddenly feel like dressing up and going out to shop or just walk around...what will my mama say if i do that?
or should i join them for laser quest? haiz.. see how la...
or should i go nanhua?
or should i go cresent?
haiz... why i suddenly feel like dressing up huh? siao liao la...lol...
~*nevermind*~
~*thats all*~
~* C= *~
dont think i can online tonight le..r.arr
OH YA.. I GOT 2 HAMSTERS!!! C=
.::what a morning::.
~*my fault*~
rarr... i should not have played till so late yesterday but i didnot expect myself to be sick la...
so sadly...i am here...alone in front of my computer...give me food... rarr...
i hate this feeling... i hate missing you cause i think i cant and should not do that... haiz... but what can i do? siao liao la... i mean me...
early morning...someone asked me about performance... reply... go back sleep... then mama come in nag...then i jiu think...might as well wake up la... then sms le... realise i still want to sleep...jiu go back sleep lor... rarr...
shit...i am having this wrong feeling inside again... oh no... smiles...
haiz... have to try to study... not done with them yet.. should i go out? oh no.. sick and thinking of going out... see how lah...
tomorrow.. go where? wednesday? going cresent... i think.. dont know... rarr...
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
nevermind...that dont help.. only make me feel more like a stupid...
haiz.. i am stupid la... HAPPY? rarr
oops..i sounded angry... i am not k... haas... C=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*it is easier to smile than to frown*~
~* C= *~
rarr... i should not have played till so late yesterday but i didnot expect myself to be sick la...
so sadly...i am here...alone in front of my computer...give me food... rarr...
i hate this feeling... i hate missing you cause i think i cant and should not do that... haiz... but what can i do? siao liao la... i mean me...
early morning...someone asked me about performance... reply... go back sleep... then mama come in nag...then i jiu think...might as well wake up la... then sms le... realise i still want to sleep...jiu go back sleep lor... rarr...
shit...i am having this wrong feeling inside again... oh no... smiles...
haiz... have to try to study... not done with them yet.. should i go out? oh no.. sick and thinking of going out... see how lah...
tomorrow.. go where? wednesday? going cresent... i think.. dont know... rarr...
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
nevermind...that dont help.. only make me feel more like a stupid...
haiz.. i am stupid la... HAPPY? rarr
oops..i sounded angry... i am not k... haas... C=
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*it is easier to smile than to frown*~
~* C= *~
Sunday, June 11, 2006
.::today?::.
~*today is a special sunday*~
~*cause it is the first sunday that i am not sad*~
~*hmm...haas*~
i think i was quite quiet today thats why...hello!!! i am quiet ok...haas...
anyway... wake up by nagging...nagging and more nagging...
nevermind... rarr...went out with her to market...got food...
went PA...keelui ate one... thinking of giving someone...but no chance to ask...nevermind...
haas
warm up... quite high during warm up..then the new dance.. really hor... not i want to say... haiz... really hor...haiz...
then come the dance... handled music...and then nothing..weather not good...
then went mac...then took 985 home.. random...
i thought you will call back but you didnt...came online and see you online... nevermind...
i lost the smiles token!!! rarr guilty... sad...
today is a bad day but a happy one...lol...
busy week...oh no...where to go?
tomorrow will be a better day...
~*cause it is the first sunday that i am not sad*~
~*hmm...haas*~
i think i was quite quiet today thats why...hello!!! i am quiet ok...haas...
anyway... wake up by nagging...nagging and more nagging...
nevermind... rarr...went out with her to market...got food...
went PA...keelui ate one... thinking of giving someone...but no chance to ask...nevermind...
haas
warm up... quite high during warm up..then the new dance.. really hor... not i want to say... haiz... really hor...haiz...
then come the dance... handled music...and then nothing..weather not good...
then went mac...then took 985 home.. random...
i thought you will call back but you didnt...came online and see you online... nevermind...
i lost the smiles token!!! rarr guilty... sad...
today is a bad day but a happy one...lol...
busy week...oh no...where to go?
tomorrow will be a better day...
Saturday, June 10, 2006
.::ya?::.
~*dont know*~
my leg...the sole.. really hurts...
when something goes wrong, nothing goes right... that is my life now...
nag nag and more nag... rarr...
maybe i should talk more about today...since i really got nothing to do...
when to the ndp thing when i am not supposed to...early morning jiu scolded by mama...
went there...yongxuan late...went for breakfast alone...
met him then took cab there... get ready to be baked...
then went into stadium... found weihong and keelui there... went out to look for laoshi and the flag bearers...
helped out... then shifted to the nearby field... help out... get scolded by laoshi... i didnt understand so my fault...
then went back to get bag from grandstand...
went on bus,tried to sleep but yongxuan keep disturbing... rarr...
reach nanhua... went to canteen... dancers got pumped... then went west coast for food...
had peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL
then took 188... went lot 1...then i walked home...
wait.. i mean i walked around.. i walked from lot 1 to home, then i went to lrt, then i walked down that stretch of road from one lrt station to another...then i walked to the market from the lrt station using the longest route...then i walked from the market to the route that i walked when i came from lot1, which is also the usual jogging route... then i walked there and i went down that route, pass south view primary...then down the route to lrt again and went around the multi storey carpark... then went to block 118 along the way and then home...
online... then sleep then dinner then i sat infront of the computer until now... hmm...
pain la...my legs... poor thing...
my leg...the sole.. really hurts...
when something goes wrong, nothing goes right... that is my life now...
nag nag and more nag... rarr...
maybe i should talk more about today...since i really got nothing to do...
when to the ndp thing when i am not supposed to...early morning jiu scolded by mama...
went there...yongxuan late...went for breakfast alone...
met him then took cab there... get ready to be baked...
then went into stadium... found weihong and keelui there... went out to look for laoshi and the flag bearers...
helped out... then shifted to the nearby field... help out... get scolded by laoshi... i didnt understand so my fault...
then went back to get bag from grandstand...
went on bus,tried to sleep but yongxuan keep disturbing... rarr...
reach nanhua... went to canteen... dancers got pumped... then went west coast for food...
had peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL
then took 188... went lot 1...then i walked home...
wait.. i mean i walked around.. i walked from lot 1 to home, then i went to lrt, then i walked down that stretch of road from one lrt station to another...then i walked to the market from the lrt station using the longest route...then i walked from the market to the route that i walked when i came from lot1, which is also the usual jogging route... then i walked there and i went down that route, pass south view primary...then down the route to lrt again and went around the multi storey carpark... then went to block 118 along the way and then home...
online... then sleep then dinner then i sat infront of the computer until now... hmm...
pain la...my legs... poor thing...
.::tired::.
~*maybe a short one?*~
~*cause i am tired*~
i pity my feet... my legs... i made them walked a very very long distance today...cause i just feel like walking around today...
i pity my handphone...cause i am starting to not care about it le...
i had a happy morning...all the playing around, thanks to yongxuan... THANK YOU!!!... until i see that message and it makes me wait again...
but as i walked around, and as time pass, i realise i got the answer...the answer is obvious...
i walked around... and i bet this is really the longest walk ever...
not much things done and not much conclusion made... so things are still like that...
the whole stupid thing about me is... i cant accept changes... so i need time... and a hell lot of time...
when was the last time i walked in the rain? i bet it is a long time ago..cause i totally forget how nice it is to walk in the rain...
a nice phrase that i heard from somewhere...
`the rain gave me a reason to cry `cause it makes me miss the sun
~*thats all*~
~*cause i am tired*~
i pity my feet... my legs... i made them walked a very very long distance today...cause i just feel like walking around today...
i pity my handphone...cause i am starting to not care about it le...
i had a happy morning...all the playing around, thanks to yongxuan... THANK YOU!!!... until i see that message and it makes me wait again...
but as i walked around, and as time pass, i realise i got the answer...the answer is obvious...
i walked around... and i bet this is really the longest walk ever...
not much things done and not much conclusion made... so things are still like that...
the whole stupid thing about me is... i cant accept changes... so i need time... and a hell lot of time...
when was the last time i walked in the rain? i bet it is a long time ago..cause i totally forget how nice it is to walk in the rain...
a nice phrase that i heard from somewhere...
`the rain gave me a reason to cry `cause it makes me miss the sun
~*thats all*~
.::when you feel nothing at all::.
~*when you feel nothing at all*~
~*that is when everything will start anew*~
i went to Choa Chu Kang Community Centre MacDonald to study ALONE... i tried to study and i think i did managed to study... but through out the whole time there, i think the only thing that i know was cold and nothing else...
my flow of thoughts was constantly being cut off by something or somehow by someone that just walk pass... hmmm...
No, it is not the handphone's fault, it is mine fault... Although the phone have vibration every now and then to notify me of incoming messages, it is always not what i want to see...
now to the topic...
is it better to be with someone that you love/like or with someone that love/like you? hmm...i think i talked about this topic before le... hmmm...
complicated? NO!! it is not...not complicated at all.. just that it is difficult to come to a decision and even if a decision is made, it is just difficult to put what you decide into action...you will come to realise that it is unfair to one party...
come to think of it... maybe it is my mp3 fault.. all the songs.. not a single one is happy...
ok..since when are things fair? that is the reason why i dont mind and dont care whether it is fair or not...
so when the other party dont mind, then maybe it is ok to be with someone who love/like you. trust me. you will be happy... cause there will be someone there who dotes on you...but even me, cant bear to make such a decision. you will just feel so bad towards that other party, who is the innocent party who just stupidly fall for you...
so that is the reason why this topic or rather this question is something so difficult to decide...
so maybe when you are in this situation, it will be wise to run away?but if only it really seem so easy...
so maybe it is ok for you to just turn to her... but nevermind.. you will never know i am refering to you cause you are always living in your own world...
things in our life are just so...hmm...how you say? oh. ya...thats the phrase... easier said then done...
i realised something..i am turning evil.. oh no..haas... nevermind..
hmm...do i still have the right to hope? haas... whatever la...
~*that is when everything will start anew*~
i went to Choa Chu Kang Community Centre MacDonald to study ALONE... i tried to study and i think i did managed to study... but through out the whole time there, i think the only thing that i know was cold and nothing else...
my flow of thoughts was constantly being cut off by something or somehow by someone that just walk pass... hmmm...
No, it is not the handphone's fault, it is mine fault... Although the phone have vibration every now and then to notify me of incoming messages, it is always not what i want to see...
now to the topic...
is it better to be with someone that you love/like or with someone that love/like you? hmm...i think i talked about this topic before le... hmmm...
complicated? NO!! it is not...not complicated at all.. just that it is difficult to come to a decision and even if a decision is made, it is just difficult to put what you decide into action...you will come to realise that it is unfair to one party...
come to think of it... maybe it is my mp3 fault.. all the songs.. not a single one is happy...
ok..since when are things fair? that is the reason why i dont mind and dont care whether it is fair or not...
so when the other party dont mind, then maybe it is ok to be with someone who love/like you. trust me. you will be happy... cause there will be someone there who dotes on you...but even me, cant bear to make such a decision. you will just feel so bad towards that other party, who is the innocent party who just stupidly fall for you...
so that is the reason why this topic or rather this question is something so difficult to decide...
so maybe when you are in this situation, it will be wise to run away?but if only it really seem so easy...
so maybe it is ok for you to just turn to her... but nevermind.. you will never know i am refering to you cause you are always living in your own world...
things in our life are just so...hmm...how you say? oh. ya...thats the phrase... easier said then done...
i realised something..i am turning evil.. oh no..haas... nevermind..
hmm...do i still have the right to hope? haas... whatever la...
Friday, June 09, 2006
.::Weird People::.
~*or should i say*~
~*PEOPLE ARE WEIRD*~
ok fine... whatever...
hmm...i dont know why people like to lie to themselves... i mean... i know you inside out... just that i didnt want to voice out my understanding... i think you will be so shocked if i do...
but anyway... however nice you made it sound, i know you are still lying to yourself.. things can never be the way you want them to be... no matter what happen, she is still in your life... she is just so important to you...
no matter how happy and nice you make yourself sound and seem, you still cannot deny that tingy little feeling within you... maybe because you are just used to the kind of life with her around...
that is the reason why i say people are weird creature... you did something that you jolly well know that you should not and in the end you still dont regret when you are left in a struggle... how long have this struggle last le?
another reason why people are weird creatures.. they like to lie to themselves... obviously the thing in front of you is a plum and yet you choose to tell yourself it is just an apple... haiz... stupid people...
another stupid thing that make humans weird creature is the fact that they say one thing and do another... i understand the fact that somethings are easier said than done...but haiz... people are still weird.. and that is my conclusion...
who was the one who tell me that he never believe in...nevermind.. i should not continue.. haiz...it is ok... cause i expected the answer from you.. i know what you will say if i ask it infront of you.. i mean.. i understand you..haas.. it is just my choice to show or not show my understanding...
i think i need to talk a long walk again.. maybe tonight.. haas...maybe coke? haas... random...
nevermind.. i think i should not continue on this topic anymore since i am also not very clever... and since the person who should be reading this will never know it is him.. haiz... pointless right?
see... stupid me...
haiz... i seriously dont know what i am thinkng this afternoon... i only know i feel stupid.. haas.. stupid...
am i feeling better? or do i feel lost now? maybe more of lost? nevermind.. i think i choose to be a weird creature and treat as though nothing have happened... since i really dont know what to do las... haas... nevermind... happy jiu hao.. haas... but hor...it is difficult to call... i still prefer sms... d= haas...whatever...
shit...i hate this feeling.. i am missing you.. ya.. but somehow, somthing tell me i should not.. hmm.. rarrr.. haiz..
nevermind... i feel like picking up my phone...but are you busy? hmm... nevermind...
okok...maybe i should move on to what happened yesterday... went marina bay.. i forgot le lah... i dont remember events and dates but i think i remember those small details of small little things... until now i still dont know what i know lor.. rarr... see? another evidence of me being stupid... d=
took some spastic photos at the arcade...
post later if i manage to get them from kaiwen? haas...
ok..there is this stupid thing... there is this group of ah beng... thekids playing parapara mah...then they want to play... ask the kids to let them have their go first.. OBVIOUSLY is want to show off see how pro they are la...
so this funnyah beng went to try... then fine lor...want to show off, we see lor... seriously i tried to hold back my laughter le hor...
then he dance la... then there are just parts that he will 为了要炫耀, some parts he go and use his leg or do other stunts...but for all those, he miss... aiyo...MALU...lol
then after that... i really buai tahan.. me and yunian go to the back to laugh.. the ah bengs there still trying to prove their friends are great by clapping for him...
HELLO hannbin is pro-er
haas
i think those guys think that we are laughing at their pro-ness or greatness... but WRONG... we are laughing at their sillyness...haas...
i think the sec1 wushu better than them lor... rarrs...haas
okok... next...today morning.. haas...
i am blogging now cause i dont know whether ican use the computer tonight...haas...
my mama called me this morning but i accidentally reject her call.. i think this is the first time that i reject her call in the morning.. but cant blame me...she has been scolding me thru the phone for so many times these few days.. and i am really scare... phobia? so i just reject the call without knowing...haas...
then after i reject that call, half awake, some clever people called and wake me up... first is sms in the morning la..next is call... you stupid jiu hao... wake up so early go school when school dont start so early... still hai me to wake up so early also...
nevermind.. then talk lor... how to go back and sleep la... rarr... nevermind... talk awhile after that jiu dont entertain me le.. rarr... nevermind... weather so good.. should have sleep in longer... nevermind!!! i go bathe then i went to the bank despite the heavy rain... despite the cats and dogs.. haas...
then mama call and scold again... say what rain also go out... rarr rarr.. nevermind.. i went to get peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL!!! haas.. happy whole day le lor...haas...
stupid... come home.. i think i sleep again... oops.. is i really sleep again... have to study le... rarr....
next week...weihong was saying... he think chungcheng people miss him... sorry..i think they miss me too.. i will rush down after my chemistry test that day...since the test is at 9...haas.. by the time i end.. hmm... 11 at most... cab down... before 12? haas.. still can play...haas...
~*weird people*~
~*so many weird people around me LOR*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*GOOD LUCKS*~
~*PEOPLE ARE WEIRD*~
ok fine... whatever...
hmm...i dont know why people like to lie to themselves... i mean... i know you inside out... just that i didnt want to voice out my understanding... i think you will be so shocked if i do...
but anyway... however nice you made it sound, i know you are still lying to yourself.. things can never be the way you want them to be... no matter what happen, she is still in your life... she is just so important to you...
no matter how happy and nice you make yourself sound and seem, you still cannot deny that tingy little feeling within you... maybe because you are just used to the kind of life with her around...
that is the reason why i say people are weird creature... you did something that you jolly well know that you should not and in the end you still dont regret when you are left in a struggle... how long have this struggle last le?
another reason why people are weird creatures.. they like to lie to themselves... obviously the thing in front of you is a plum and yet you choose to tell yourself it is just an apple... haiz... stupid people...
another stupid thing that make humans weird creature is the fact that they say one thing and do another... i understand the fact that somethings are easier said than done...but haiz... people are still weird.. and that is my conclusion...
who was the one who tell me that he never believe in...nevermind.. i should not continue.. haiz...it is ok... cause i expected the answer from you.. i know what you will say if i ask it infront of you.. i mean.. i understand you..haas.. it is just my choice to show or not show my understanding...
i think i need to talk a long walk again.. maybe tonight.. haas...maybe coke? haas... random...
nevermind.. i think i should not continue on this topic anymore since i am also not very clever... and since the person who should be reading this will never know it is him.. haiz... pointless right?
see... stupid me...
haiz... i seriously dont know what i am thinkng this afternoon... i only know i feel stupid.. haas.. stupid...
am i feeling better? or do i feel lost now? maybe more of lost? nevermind.. i think i choose to be a weird creature and treat as though nothing have happened... since i really dont know what to do las... haas... nevermind... happy jiu hao.. haas... but hor...it is difficult to call... i still prefer sms... d= haas...whatever...
shit...i hate this feeling.. i am missing you.. ya.. but somehow, somthing tell me i should not.. hmm.. rarrr.. haiz..
nevermind... i feel like picking up my phone...but are you busy? hmm... nevermind...
okok...maybe i should move on to what happened yesterday... went marina bay.. i forgot le lah... i dont remember events and dates but i think i remember those small details of small little things... until now i still dont know what i know lor.. rarr... see? another evidence of me being stupid... d=
took some spastic photos at the arcade...
post later if i manage to get them from kaiwen? haas...
ok..there is this stupid thing... there is this group of ah beng... thekids playing parapara mah...then they want to play... ask the kids to let them have their go first.. OBVIOUSLY is want to show off see how pro they are la...
so this funnyah beng went to try... then fine lor...want to show off, we see lor... seriously i tried to hold back my laughter le hor...
then he dance la... then there are just parts that he will 为了要炫耀, some parts he go and use his leg or do other stunts...but for all those, he miss... aiyo...MALU...lol
then after that... i really buai tahan.. me and yunian go to the back to laugh.. the ah bengs there still trying to prove their friends are great by clapping for him...
HELLO hannbin is pro-er
haas
i think those guys think that we are laughing at their pro-ness or greatness... but WRONG... we are laughing at their sillyness...haas...
i think the sec1 wushu better than them lor... rarrs...haas
okok... next...today morning.. haas...
i am blogging now cause i dont know whether ican use the computer tonight...haas...
my mama called me this morning but i accidentally reject her call.. i think this is the first time that i reject her call in the morning.. but cant blame me...she has been scolding me thru the phone for so many times these few days.. and i am really scare... phobia? so i just reject the call without knowing...haas...
then after i reject that call, half awake, some clever people called and wake me up... first is sms in the morning la..next is call... you stupid jiu hao... wake up so early go school when school dont start so early... still hai me to wake up so early also...
nevermind.. then talk lor... how to go back and sleep la... rarr... nevermind... talk awhile after that jiu dont entertain me le.. rarr... nevermind... weather so good.. should have sleep in longer... nevermind!!! i go bathe then i went to the bank despite the heavy rain... despite the cats and dogs.. haas...
then mama call and scold again... say what rain also go out... rarr rarr.. nevermind.. i went to get peppermint milk tea DOUBLE PEARL!!! haas.. happy whole day le lor...haas...
stupid... come home.. i think i sleep again... oops.. is i really sleep again... have to study le... rarr....
next week...weihong was saying... he think chungcheng people miss him... sorry..i think they miss me too.. i will rush down after my chemistry test that day...since the test is at 9...haas.. by the time i end.. hmm... 11 at most... cab down... before 12? haas.. still can play...haas...
~*weird people*~
~*so many weird people around me LOR*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*GOOD LUCKS*~
.::short::.
i am feeling alot better... lighter? haas... at least i know what you are thinking... C= that is a good thing... at least i dont feel that stupid now...
but i am feeling abit bad...seems like 我建立我的快乐在你的痛苦上... d=
if seeing me happy is something good, then that is just what you will see... C=
sorry for all that trouble... seems like we are bring quite alot of problems into
each others life... d=
but still...the stupid thing is... i think i have decided to leave things the way they used to be if you dont mind... cause i think i am somehow used to it le.. d=
haas... let time tell the answer...
coke overdose... i feel like puking now... d=
haas...went marina bay...my mama super duper bu shuang... this will be a super short entry cause she will be coming out to throw the computer away anytime...
oh ya...something quite random happened today... yongxuan smsed me and asked a stupid question... fine... and thanks for reading my blog...haas... i know when you read and when you dont...haas...
hmm...hyper now...
got to go... haas... i never like marina and those places that are near to the sea.. it never make me feel good or happy... d= i feel down whenever i go to those places...
but i am feeling abit bad...seems like 我建立我的快乐在你的痛苦上... d=
if seeing me happy is something good, then that is just what you will see... C=
sorry for all that trouble... seems like we are bring quite alot of problems into
each others life... d=
but still...the stupid thing is... i think i have decided to leave things the way they used to be if you dont mind... cause i think i am somehow used to it le.. d=
haas... let time tell the answer...
coke overdose... i feel like puking now... d=
haas...went marina bay...my mama super duper bu shuang... this will be a super short entry cause she will be coming out to throw the computer away anytime...
oh ya...something quite random happened today... yongxuan smsed me and asked a stupid question... fine... and thanks for reading my blog...haas... i know when you read and when you dont...haas...
hmm...hyper now...
got to go... haas... i never like marina and those places that are near to the sea.. it never make me feel good or happy... d= i feel down whenever i go to those places...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
.::haiz...i hate...::.
~*i hate my senses*~
it make me think too much, and know too much.. and also to know too much things that actually dont exist or are not true...
silly and stupid right? that is ME... that is the ME when i do not get assurance... haiz... even i hate myself... everything in my life... unsure and uncertainty...
他缓缓走向湖心，
水有一点冰冷。
他想要去弄清楚，
一些无法确定的事情，
他不晓得他心中那些不确定的感觉，
是真的不确定，
还是因为他自己的不确定，
所以才变得如此的不确定。
如果是因为他自己的不确定，
才会搞的一团糟，
他该如何确定那些不确定？
如果是因为别人的不确定，
他又该如何和那些不确定取得确定？
水真的很冷，
他一直发抖，
他快要无法呼吸了。
他只能确定一件事，
他要慢慢走回岸边。。。
爱情犹如空中飞人耍特技，
必须胆大心细、旗鼓相当、互相配合、信赖对方、放手一搏，才可能有完美的演出。。。
但爱情的半空并没有固定的安全网，
常常一失手，就会粉身碎骨。
i got these from 吉米 book... 你们我们她们... the english title is Something about love...
hmm... i will be normal tomorrow... i am learning to not trust myself...
i cant trust myself... if i trust myself, i will hope...
can there be miracle? my results...
so many things in my brain...
it make me think too much, and know too much.. and also to know too much things that actually dont exist or are not true...
silly and stupid right? that is ME... that is the ME when i do not get assurance... haiz... even i hate myself... everything in my life... unsure and uncertainty...
他缓缓走向湖心，
水有一点冰冷。
他想要去弄清楚，
一些无法确定的事情，
他不晓得他心中那些不确定的感觉，
是真的不确定，
还是因为他自己的不确定，
所以才变得如此的不确定。
如果是因为他自己的不确定，
才会搞的一团糟，
他该如何确定那些不确定？
如果是因为别人的不确定，
他又该如何和那些不确定取得确定？
水真的很冷，
他一直发抖，
他快要无法呼吸了。
他只能确定一件事，
他要慢慢走回岸边。。。
爱情犹如空中飞人耍特技，
必须胆大心细、旗鼓相当、互相配合、信赖对方、放手一搏，才可能有完美的演出。。。
但爱情的半空并没有固定的安全网，
常常一失手，就会粉身碎骨。
i got these from 吉米 book... 你们我们她们... the english title is Something about love...
hmm... i will be normal tomorrow... i am learning to not trust myself...
i cant trust myself... if i trust myself, i will hope...
can there be miracle? my results...
so many things in my brain...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
.::random::.
i dont know what happened last night.. but my thinkings are getting more and more towards the wrong way...
my left eye is twitching... allow something good to happen
if this is the game and i dont have a say, i think one day, i will choose to end the game...if i can... i am a leo... like it or not...i am the way i am... i already lose the control of having a say... haiz... maybe that is the sad thing... so i cant even choose to end the game...
anyway... i am both a cancer and a leo... a failure of both... not sensitive enough to be a cancer and not able to lead the life that i want as a leo...
i am in no position to say anything now... not in any position to demand anything...
i am in no position to be angry... and maybe even in no position to be sad...
we are all in no position to own anything now... except to finish the race...
it is acting time... time to act happy... C=
that is me... i have not being acting for quite some time...
haiz... ok... i have been acting all along... it is part of my life... i never let my family know what i am feeling...
cause they cant help...
i am not restricting myself with all the horoscope and stuff.. but i just believe that they are real to some extent... who dare to say that it is totally not true?
scold me please...wake me up... tell me everything in my life is ok and going the right way.. tell me that i am thinking too much... tell me that i am just paranoid.. tell me that things are really ok...
~*communication problem*~
~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*all of us*~
~* C= *~
my left eye is twitching... allow something good to happen
if this is the game and i dont have a say, i think one day, i will choose to end the game...if i can... i am a leo... like it or not...i am the way i am... i already lose the control of having a say... haiz... maybe that is the sad thing... so i cant even choose to end the game...
anyway... i am both a cancer and a leo... a failure of both... not sensitive enough to be a cancer and not able to lead the life that i want as a leo...
i am in no position to say anything now... not in any position to demand anything...
i am in no position to be angry... and maybe even in no position to be sad...
we are all in no position to own anything now... except to finish the race...
it is acting time... time to act happy... C=
that is me... i have not being acting for quite some time...
haiz... ok... i have been acting all along... it is part of my life... i never let my family know what i am feeling...
cause they cant help...
i am not restricting myself with all the horoscope and stuff.. but i just believe that they are real to some extent... who dare to say that it is totally not true?
scold me please...wake me up... tell me everything in my life is ok and going the right way.. tell me that i am thinking too much... tell me that i am just paranoid.. tell me that things are really ok...
~*communication problem*~
~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~*all of us*~
~* C= *~
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
.::i hate myself::.
~*ya*~
~*nothing done*~
~*no achievement*~
i am crying now... everytime i cry and i want to talk to someone... i realise i got no one to turn to... i dont like this... i hate this... wrong time...
that is my life... that is what she said... ya...nothing done... sitting in front of the computer is a waste of time...
ya...maybe i really should not have come online today...
if i did not come online, i would not be thinking of stupid things and i will not get scolded...
i hate this... i really should not have come online...
maybe today is really a bad day...
i bite myself... this time is to hold back the tears... i dont want her to see me cry...
i really should not have come online today... tomorrow also.. forever...
i should just blame myself for whatever that has happened... this is the only thing that i am in control now... my studies... whatever...
i hope my finger will be ok... i bite it... teeth marks...
how does it feels when the whole family is against you? when your sisters just keep saying bad things... and yet next moment they are being nice to you cause they want chocolates?
how to be nice to this kind of sisters? i am tired of treating them good.. and the next thing i get is their bad temper... especially her...
i think chuenyong is speechless now... thanks for trying to make me feel better...
i will be ok tomorrow... i hope... crying will make me feel better...
two days le... crying two days in a row and when i need someone to talk to, i cannot find anyone to turn to...
i am in no position to do anything now... in no position to feel anything...
why are things the way they are now? if only i can turn back time... if only there is backspace in life... there will be so many things that i will not do and so many things that i will do...
~*thats all*~
~*conclusion*~
~*cry myself to bed?*~
~*dont know*~
~*i feel like picking up my phone now*~
~*nothing done*~
~*no achievement*~
i am crying now... everytime i cry and i want to talk to someone... i realise i got no one to turn to... i dont like this... i hate this... wrong time...
that is my life... that is what she said... ya...nothing done... sitting in front of the computer is a waste of time...
ya...maybe i really should not have come online today...
if i did not come online, i would not be thinking of stupid things and i will not get scolded...
i hate this... i really should not have come online...
maybe today is really a bad day...
i bite myself... this time is to hold back the tears... i dont want her to see me cry...
i really should not have come online today... tomorrow also.. forever...
i should just blame myself for whatever that has happened... this is the only thing that i am in control now... my studies... whatever...
i hope my finger will be ok... i bite it... teeth marks...
how does it feels when the whole family is against you? when your sisters just keep saying bad things... and yet next moment they are being nice to you cause they want chocolates?
how to be nice to this kind of sisters? i am tired of treating them good.. and the next thing i get is their bad temper... especially her...
i think chuenyong is speechless now... thanks for trying to make me feel better...
i will be ok tomorrow... i hope... crying will make me feel better...
two days le... crying two days in a row and when i need someone to talk to, i cannot find anyone to turn to...
i am in no position to do anything now... in no position to feel anything...
why are things the way they are now? if only i can turn back time... if only there is backspace in life... there will be so many things that i will not do and so many things that i will do...
~*thats all*~
~*conclusion*~
~*cry myself to bed?*~
~*dont know*~
~*i feel like picking up my phone now*~
.::when you dont know what to do::.
~*when i dont know what to do*~
the title is abit random cause i dont know what to put as title...
ok... quite chaotic outside... baby just finished bathing and she is running around... carrot is running around with her sister... my mother screaming at baby trying to calm her down...
ok...then both darlings having dinner together now... that is the worst time of all... have to monitor them both cause baby just cannot tahan anyone touching her food and her belongings...
i realise there is something similar between me and baby... maybe that is what you mean the dog is like the owner...
i took her on a long walk yesterday... she is so unsure... not knowing where to go... but she still move along... cause there is me there to guide her...
my life also like that... i cant stand it when i am doing new things or taking up a new routine... i need someone there to guide me... maybe that isthe reason why i cant be a good leader...
so i shall stop thinking of being one... i mean... i never thought of being one actually... not that i dont like responsibility just that i am afraid of doing the wrong things...
anyway... i took baby on a long walk... and i realise that i like to take long walks whenever i am feeling down.. i am happy today!!! C=
i realise time is the answer to everything... that thing happened a nong nong time ago le... and he is still holding on to it... coming to me to talk about it... you have tried to get her back and nothing work out so maybe your are just not destinated to be together...
things are like that... weird... or am i the one who is weird... whatever... i am not making sense again.. haas.. so.. drop that topic...
it is nice to have 2 dogs at home... haas...
my dry fit shirt spoil le.. not as bad as weihong's but mine is more expensive... xin tong... sobs... 38 buckS!!!
not i rich ok.. it is a class tee shirt...
bought 2 bibs for some people.. haas.. i will be out again on thursday.. oh no...
~*thats all*~
the title is abit random cause i dont know what to put as title...
ok... quite chaotic outside... baby just finished bathing and she is running around... carrot is running around with her sister... my mother screaming at baby trying to calm her down...
ok...then both darlings having dinner together now... that is the worst time of all... have to monitor them both cause baby just cannot tahan anyone touching her food and her belongings...
i realise there is something similar between me and baby... maybe that is what you mean the dog is like the owner...
i took her on a long walk yesterday... she is so unsure... not knowing where to go... but she still move along... cause there is me there to guide her...
my life also like that... i cant stand it when i am doing new things or taking up a new routine... i need someone there to guide me... maybe that isthe reason why i cant be a good leader...
so i shall stop thinking of being one... i mean... i never thought of being one actually... not that i dont like responsibility just that i am afraid of doing the wrong things...
anyway... i took baby on a long walk... and i realise that i like to take long walks whenever i am feeling down.. i am happy today!!! C=
i realise time is the answer to everything... that thing happened a nong nong time ago le... and he is still holding on to it... coming to me to talk about it... you have tried to get her back and nothing work out so maybe your are just not destinated to be together...
things are like that... weird... or am i the one who is weird... whatever... i am not making sense again.. haas.. so.. drop that topic...
it is nice to have 2 dogs at home... haas...
my dry fit shirt spoil le.. not as bad as weihong's but mine is more expensive... xin tong... sobs... 38 buckS!!!
not i rich ok.. it is a class tee shirt...
bought 2 bibs for some people.. haas.. i will be out again on thursday.. oh no...
~*thats all*~
.::continue::.
ok..i think i should continue...
i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?
whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...
that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...
i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com
omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...
i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...
ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...
but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...
weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...
anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...
anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=
ok... here is the end... i am tired...
i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?
whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...
that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...
i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com
omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...
i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...
ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...
but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...
weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...
anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...
anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=
ok... here is the end... i am tired...
.::continue::.
ok..i think i should continue...
i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?
whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...
that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...
i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com
omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...
i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...
ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...
but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...
weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...
anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...
anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=
ok... here is the end... i am tired...
i had another argument with my sister and she really make me cry this time... gave me a reason to cry...maybe i should thank her?
whatever la... sorry... i think i sounded like i dont want to talk today... but actually i think i am just tired la...
that is the aftermath of being too hyper... it is like that when you go out with kaisiang...
i just read his blog... www.chococho.blogspot.com
omg... i keep telling people to try ad get their ex back...that is what i am doing to zirui now...
i just think that since breaking up is giving so much problem... so much trouble, why not get her back? maybe get her back, patch and try again... if it dont work out again... then it is destinated to end...and if it is destinated to end, then just learn to let go...
ok... fine... i am not making sense here... cause i know when i am typing those, there is this voice within me that keep saying NO.. but happy is the most important thing...
but whatever la... i only know... whenever i cry... and i want to find somone to talk to, no one is there... haizz...
weirdo... weird... someone got limited vocab... rarr...
anyway... haix... baby and carrot are getting along much better now... dont know what the 2 of them are doing outside now... haas...
anyway.. i did not want to eat up the chocolate but i was really left with no food at home and i know leaving it at home will only let it end up in others stomach...might as well i eat it myself... d=
ok... here is the end... i am tired...
Monday, June 05, 2006
.::i dont know::.
~*i dont know*~
i am just feeling plain down... i dont know why...
maybe i know why.. just that i dont know how to say...
i think it is the aftermath from being too hyper today...
went out with kaisiang and zirui... kaisiang still as bitchy... zirui still as kiddo and yes, attractive?more attractive?
i am not treating them as guys and they not treating me as girl... ok... no them, just kaisiang alone... he is still just like my sister...
had lunch and i am broke so the 2 guys paid for my meal...THANKYOU!!!
then we talked about alot of stuff...all the past that the 3 of us had...
kaisiang and someone... i was the matchmaker...that was in the past...
zirui huh... only know how to run away from girls... kaisiang knows what i mean... but i still cannot believe what he had done... omg!!! 2 weeks... but at least this had a proper and decent ending... at least there is a proper ending to this thing
ok fine..i cant continue le...
stupid argument... i dont feel like talking... this give me a reason to cry... hais... whatever... alone... i dont like this...
i am just feeling plain down... i dont know why...
maybe i know why.. just that i dont know how to say...
i think it is the aftermath from being too hyper today...
went out with kaisiang and zirui... kaisiang still as bitchy... zirui still as kiddo and yes, attractive?more attractive?
i am not treating them as guys and they not treating me as girl... ok... no them, just kaisiang alone... he is still just like my sister...
had lunch and i am broke so the 2 guys paid for my meal...THANKYOU!!!
then we talked about alot of stuff...all the past that the 3 of us had...
kaisiang and someone... i was the matchmaker...that was in the past...
zirui huh... only know how to run away from girls... kaisiang knows what i mean... but i still cannot believe what he had done... omg!!! 2 weeks... but at least this had a proper and decent ending... at least there is a proper ending to this thing
ok fine..i cant continue le...
stupid argument... i dont feel like talking... this give me a reason to cry... hais... whatever... alone... i dont like this...
.::i cant sleep~~!::.
~*more blogging*~
hmm... i think i am supposed to be sleeping now.. but promises are meant to be broken? haas... dont care... after this entry and maybe after i manage to find out how to do some stupid things to this blog...
ok..yesterday there is this performance at tao payoh and i intented to blog about it yeaterday but i was way too tired and did not have the chance to use the computer... i only manage to get that small entry up...
anyway... yesterday performance was ok... but i got stupid comments today...my poor filming skills... i am not going to do it again.. rarr...
then today... i woke up real late... oh no... ya.. nagging and more nagging...
then went to pa... wanted to get bubble tea for lunch but i did not in the end cause i was kind of lazy and i am left with only 2 bucks so... leave it for dinner...
then went with an empty stomach... clever me forget to bring the Ego biscuit... and yah...also the CHINA SWEETS... rarr...
sorry lah.. aiyo... where is my browniese? kidding.. haas.. thanks for the chocolate...
anyway... after dance went to hawker... got some clever people say she might have left her wallet in PA... i called someone for her but before the person picks up, she say she found le... then ok lor.. but that person called back la... haas...
then that person called again... ask for delivery... rarr.. slap you ah... give you chance to come over also dont want... oops.. haas... i think got people want to kill me le... haas
then went 7-eleven...seems like that is a routine le... did not buy chocolate cause i no money.. but got nice people give me... haas... got plot.. i knew it... clever me.. haas...
went home... on 985... cold... i want jacket but dont have...
if i have a choice, i would choose cold over hot... i can tolerate low temperatures but my fingers just cant move and i will get purple nails and i will have trouble smsing...
ok... i feel like sleeping.. but Carrot is making alot of noise.!!!
Baby=Baby? haaas.. not very funny huh.. oops...
everytime ask me what i want to say... say liao then say i not sincere.. rarr... no more...~!!!
tomorrow going out with KaiSiang and Zirui... please stop mentioning that zirui and engagement thing HANNBIN!!! before i slap you... haas... kidding...
~*thats all*~
~*haas*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
hmm... i think i am supposed to be sleeping now.. but promises are meant to be broken? haas... dont care... after this entry and maybe after i manage to find out how to do some stupid things to this blog...
ok..yesterday there is this performance at tao payoh and i intented to blog about it yeaterday but i was way too tired and did not have the chance to use the computer... i only manage to get that small entry up...
anyway... yesterday performance was ok... but i got stupid comments today...my poor filming skills... i am not going to do it again.. rarr...
then today... i woke up real late... oh no... ya.. nagging and more nagging...
then went to pa... wanted to get bubble tea for lunch but i did not in the end cause i was kind of lazy and i am left with only 2 bucks so... leave it for dinner...
then went with an empty stomach... clever me forget to bring the Ego biscuit... and yah...also the CHINA SWEETS... rarr...
sorry lah.. aiyo... where is my browniese? kidding.. haas.. thanks for the chocolate...
anyway... after dance went to hawker... got some clever people say she might have left her wallet in PA... i called someone for her but before the person picks up, she say she found le... then ok lor.. but that person called back la... haas...
then that person called again... ask for delivery... rarr.. slap you ah... give you chance to come over also dont want... oops.. haas... i think got people want to kill me le... haas
then went 7-eleven...seems like that is a routine le... did not buy chocolate cause i no money.. but got nice people give me... haas... got plot.. i knew it... clever me.. haas...
went home... on 985... cold... i want jacket but dont have...
if i have a choice, i would choose cold over hot... i can tolerate low temperatures but my fingers just cant move and i will get purple nails and i will have trouble smsing...
ok... i feel like sleeping.. but Carrot is making alot of noise.!!!
Baby=Baby? haaas.. not very funny huh.. oops...
everytime ask me what i want to say... say liao then say i not sincere.. rarr... no more...~!!!
tomorrow going out with KaiSiang and Zirui... please stop mentioning that zirui and engagement thing HANNBIN!!! before i slap you... haas... kidding...
~*thats all*~
~*haas*~
~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
Sunday, June 04, 2006
.::something tat happened::.
i think i should explain... now that i am tinking more normally...
firstly i am sorry for wad i did... my hp was wif me all the while.. i turned my house fone to silent mode... i appeared offline on msn...
things are ok now but i still think i shd explain...
i said tat i shd not be selfish and be the onli one happy... tat is the reason i wonder whether i shd let go.. but when i was on my way back frm nanhua, i realise i cant decide and i realise i cant let go so tat is the reason why i smsed you and i picked up ur call..
fine... i am feeling stupid now.. haas...
so yah... we dont know whether we are doing the rite ting now... let time tell the answer and let tings continue cause that is the oli way to find answer right?
i only know i kept tinking about u, what happened and what is happening...
i dont care and i dont mind about fair or not... but i dont want to be caught by surprise...so let me know if u cant talk to me cause u r talking to her, met up wif her, patched, etc...
and...haas... u better tell me what u r tinking and feeling huh... stop telling me to do tings tat u r not doing lor... haas...
and what happened tat nite will never happen again... I PROMISED.. C=
so stop being xiao qi... obviously it is you le rite?
whatever... lol
demanding me... haas... DONT CARE!!!
tired... rarr... injuries... poor leg... hmm... ok...both legs...
got some clever people... when i about to call, then tell mi he going sleep le... rarr...
but anyway... did i say tat Baby and Carrot rocks my world...?~~~! haas... they do~~~
~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
firstly i am sorry for wad i did... my hp was wif me all the while.. i turned my house fone to silent mode... i appeared offline on msn...
things are ok now but i still think i shd explain...
i said tat i shd not be selfish and be the onli one happy... tat is the reason i wonder whether i shd let go.. but when i was on my way back frm nanhua, i realise i cant decide and i realise i cant let go so tat is the reason why i smsed you and i picked up ur call..
fine... i am feeling stupid now.. haas...
so yah... we dont know whether we are doing the rite ting now... let time tell the answer and let tings continue cause that is the oli way to find answer right?
i only know i kept tinking about u, what happened and what is happening...
i dont care and i dont mind about fair or not... but i dont want to be caught by surprise...so let me know if u cant talk to me cause u r talking to her, met up wif her, patched, etc...
and...haas... u better tell me what u r tinking and feeling huh... stop telling me to do tings tat u r not doing lor... haas...
and what happened tat nite will never happen again... I PROMISED.. C=
so stop being xiao qi... obviously it is you le rite?
whatever... lol
demanding me... haas... DONT CARE!!!
tired... rarr... injuries... poor leg... hmm... ok...both legs...
got some clever people... when i about to call, then tell mi he going sleep le... rarr...
but anyway... did i say tat Baby and Carrot rocks my world...?~~~! haas... they do~~~
~*smile*~
~*thats what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
Friday, June 02, 2006
.::okok... what a day::.
~*i am tired!!!*~
fine.. i really dont know what to blog.. i think i am just too tired to think... maybe too hungry too...
not many people are readin anyway... well here goes...
today went to chung cheng... omg... i didnt know teaching can be so so tiring one... i am really tired after all these days...
then got people ask me go suntec... i have to go for art fest opening so cannot make it... but this clever person here got short term memory... so dont blame him for not remembering that i going for art fest...
after chung cheng, went home... then my sisters tell me they going to pick carrot from the pet shop.. so now carrot is home... heard that baby not interested to play with her but she is not agressive towards carrot...that is a good thing... baby and carrot are both asleep now...
i am tired and hungry... i want to bite people liao...
then got clever people dont reply... then when finally call hor, sound so dead...
i think i really should stop nagging le lah... i try... i really swear i will try...
haiz... i am feeling so many feeling now... i think i will really miss carrot and baby tomorrow... d=
Mr Low always say... learn to take care of YOURSELF, take care of others and be a nian qing ren...
well... random...
oh ya.. no reception in the theatre cause the theatre is a good one... not i dont want to pick up the phone huh...
i never switch off my handphone one lor... ok...hardly...
hmmm... did put make up today ok...only abit la.. but whatever la...
my eyes pain again... NOW... rarr.. i think i really need to sleep le... haiz...
~*is it me?*~
~*haas*~
~*hate you*~
fine.. i really dont know what to blog.. i think i am just too tired to think... maybe too hungry too...
not many people are readin anyway... well here goes...
today went to chung cheng... omg... i didnt know teaching can be so so tiring one... i am really tired after all these days...
then got people ask me go suntec... i have to go for art fest opening so cannot make it... but this clever person here got short term memory... so dont blame him for not remembering that i going for art fest...
after chung cheng, went home... then my sisters tell me they going to pick carrot from the pet shop.. so now carrot is home... heard that baby not interested to play with her but she is not agressive towards carrot...that is a good thing... baby and carrot are both asleep now...
i am tired and hungry... i want to bite people liao...
then got clever people dont reply... then when finally call hor, sound so dead...
i think i really should stop nagging le lah... i try... i really swear i will try...
haiz... i am feeling so many feeling now... i think i will really miss carrot and baby tomorrow... d=
Mr Low always say... learn to take care of YOURSELF, take care of others and be a nian qing ren...
well... random...
oh ya.. no reception in the theatre cause the theatre is a good one... not i dont want to pick up the phone huh...
i never switch off my handphone one lor... ok...hardly...
hmmm... did put make up today ok...only abit la.. but whatever la...
my eyes pain again... NOW... rarr.. i think i really need to sleep le... haiz...
~*is it me?*~
~*haas*~
~*hate you*~
Thursday, June 01, 2006
.::haix::.
~*hmm*~
~*is it me?*~
rarr... i am having this rarr rarr element in my brain, heart, body and soul again at this stupid moment... all thanks to those clever people around me huh... rarr...
i am now living in a world where communication is only possible if i take the first step...
HELLO can they grow up? she has tonnes to say... cant she just tell him herself... ?? cant he just grow up and stop being a kiddo? rarr...
i seriously dont like this and i seriously dont like being the messenger at home...
i talked to her about it... she told me to go and talk to him... WHAT is this??? rarr...
but i think today is considered quite a happy day other than the fact that i am abit too clever and i hurt my ankle abit again.. it is pain now... haix...
and i think i seriously need to get more rest... i didnt know taking a lesson can be so tired... i am super tired now.. but i came online to read some blogs...
rarr... stupid... i want to bite some people liao... i really hate this lah...
i think i need to talk to someone if not i will really go rarr... i am starting to think of alot of stupid things again hor... rarr...
haiz... hmmm... is it me? haas...
ok..today the happy things...? hmm... the war that i predicted didnt not happen and we went CHUNG CHENG high.. not zhong zheng primary... haas... d=
ok fine... nothing to say le lah...
ok... i miss... hmm... the PUPPY... ok... i miss carrot.. i didnt go and see her today... too tired...
and i seriously dont like the idea of seeing weihong and yongxuan EVERYDAY!!! rarr...
oh by the way... for all the bad and stupid things that yongxuan had done to me to disturb me and cause disruption to my life, here is one great thing that happened to him recently...
his pants splitted in Nan Chiau Primary... haas... and mind you... it is not a small split.. haas...
~*smiles*~
~*that is what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
`take care
~*is it me?*~
rarr... i am having this rarr rarr element in my brain, heart, body and soul again at this stupid moment... all thanks to those clever people around me huh... rarr...
i am now living in a world where communication is only possible if i take the first step...
HELLO can they grow up? she has tonnes to say... cant she just tell him herself... ?? cant he just grow up and stop being a kiddo? rarr...
i seriously dont like this and i seriously dont like being the messenger at home...
i talked to her about it... she told me to go and talk to him... WHAT is this??? rarr...
but i think today is considered quite a happy day other than the fact that i am abit too clever and i hurt my ankle abit again.. it is pain now... haix...
and i think i seriously need to get more rest... i didnt know taking a lesson can be so tired... i am super tired now.. but i came online to read some blogs...
rarr... stupid... i want to bite some people liao... i really hate this lah...
i think i need to talk to someone if not i will really go rarr... i am starting to think of alot of stupid things again hor... rarr...
haiz... hmmm... is it me? haas...
ok..today the happy things...? hmm... the war that i predicted didnt not happen and we went CHUNG CHENG high.. not zhong zheng primary... haas... d=
ok fine... nothing to say le lah...
ok... i miss... hmm... the PUPPY... ok... i miss carrot.. i didnt go and see her today... too tired...
and i seriously dont like the idea of seeing weihong and yongxuan EVERYDAY!!! rarr...
oh by the way... for all the bad and stupid things that yongxuan had done to me to disturb me and cause disruption to my life, here is one great thing that happened to him recently...
his pants splitted in Nan Chiau Primary... haas... and mind you... it is not a small split.. haas...
~*smiles*~
~*that is what i want to see on our faces*~
~* C= *~
`take care
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