.::what a day?::.

~*what kind of day did you have when you dont know what is really going on?*~

i am feeling lost...somehow... picking up signs here and there for whatever that is in my life... like it or not i got no other choice... i can pick up signs if no one choose to tell me anything...

i think the majo topic of the day is him... i really dont know what to say... not that i want to have something in return... just that i really cannot stand it... i am quite determined to get him out of my life now...

`if only i have that courage to make that decision for other things... but seriously it takes time

back to topic... this took me 3 years? or maybe 2... i dont know... i never wanted much in return...maybe just him in my life... but for so long and so many occasion, he came and he go...i really dont know what to say about that... i should have know that all the while... he is like that...

for him, i put up with things that i can never put up with in my life... the moment i heard about it, the first thought that came to my mind is not anger... just thinking of how to protect him.. maybe thats why... but will he even know if i leave his life?

he likes it... i buy it... no he dont care... teng lai gan ma?

i also dont know what i am thinking now... i am like thinking about other people's stuff more than i think of mine... but maybe that is a good thing... i dont know... but seriously... even if i think of my stuff, what can i do? as if i can decide...

i wanted to tell you something but i forgot and i am still trying to remember now lor... stupid me...

i swear i am going to go crazy tomorrow... but what time will i wake up tomorrow? hmm... look at the time... 2am? nothing to say...

maybe i should not sound so happy afterall...cause i am not happy... there is so many burning questions within me... can i just not think?

if your ever see me stoning, please stop me... cause when i stone, i am thinking... and when i think, nothing good comes out or nothing comes out... so maybe it is better to not think... cause think le de jie guo is only i sad...

come to think of it... i realise something very qiao... not i want to say..but it is really.. hmm...i cant continue... WAIT... is i am not suppose to continue... haas... oops... d=

maybe for everyone that comes into my life, i have to be prepared for that person to leave... prepare myself for that day to come... i am preparing and i think i am prepared...

oh...i remember what i want to tell you le... omg... short term memory... slow... omg...

i think i got to go and sleep... should i dream? better not... see how lah... random...

shucks... i am missing someone and i dont like it...cause i still think that it is not right to do that... or rather that should not be something that i am doing...

i dont know whether i had a good day caus emy mood went up and down....

~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~
~*i hope you will be ok*~
~*i know you will*~
~* C= *~