.::when you feel nothing at all::.

~*when you feel nothing at all*~
~*that is when everything will start anew*~

i went to Choa Chu Kang Community Centre MacDonald to study ALONE... i tried to study and i think i did managed to study... but through out the whole time there, i think the only thing that i know was cold and nothing else...

my flow of thoughts was constantly being cut off by something or somehow by someone that just walk pass... hmmm...

No, it is not the handphone's fault, it is mine fault... Although the phone have vibration every now and then to notify me of incoming messages, it is always not what i want to see...

now to the topic...

is it better to be with someone that you love/like or with someone that love/like you? hmm...i think i talked about this topic before le... hmmm...

complicated? NO!! it is not...not complicated at all.. just that it is difficult to come to a decision and even if a decision is made, it is just difficult to put what you decide into action...you will come to realise that it is unfair to one party...

come to think of it... maybe it is my mp3 fault.. all the songs.. not a single one is happy...

ok..since when are things fair? that is the reason why i dont mind and dont care whether it is fair or not...

so when the other party dont mind, then maybe it is ok to be with someone who love/like you. trust me. you will be happy... cause there will be someone there who dotes on you...but even me, cant bear to make such a decision. you will just feel so bad towards that other party, who is the innocent party who just stupidly fall for you...

so that is the reason why this topic or rather this question is something so difficult to decide...

so maybe when you are in this situation, it will be wise to run away?but if only it really seem so easy...

so maybe it is ok for you to just turn to her... but nevermind.. you will never know i am refering to you cause you are always living in your own world...

things in our life are just so...hmm...how you say? oh. ya...thats the phrase... easier said then done...

i realised something..i am turning evil.. oh no..haas... nevermind..

hmm...do i still have the right to hope? haas... whatever la...