.::i hate myself::.

~*ya*~
~*nothing done*~
~*no achievement*~

i am crying now... everytime i cry and i want to talk to someone... i realise i got no one to turn to... i dont like this... i hate this... wrong time...

that is my life... that is what she said... ya...nothing done... sitting in front of the computer is a waste of time...

ya...maybe i really should not have come online today...

if i did not come online, i would not be thinking of stupid things and i will not get scolded...

i hate this... i really should not have come online...

maybe today is really a bad day...

i bite myself... this time is to hold back the tears... i dont want her to see me cry...

i really should not have come online today... tomorrow also.. forever...

i should just blame myself for whatever that has happened... this is the only thing that i am in control now... my studies... whatever...

i hope my finger will be ok... i bite it... teeth marks...

how does it feels when the whole family is against you? when your sisters just keep saying bad things... and yet next moment they are being nice to you cause they want chocolates?

how to be nice to this kind of sisters? i am tired of treating them good.. and the next thing i get is their bad temper... especially her...

i think chuenyong is speechless now... thanks for trying to make me feel better...

i will be ok tomorrow... i hope... crying will make me feel better...

two days le... crying two days in a row and when i need someone to talk to, i cannot find anyone to turn to...

i am in no position to do anything now... in no position to feel anything...

why are things the way they are now? if only i can turn back time... if only there is backspace in life... there will be so many things that i will not do and so many things that i will do...

~*thats all*~
~*conclusion*~
~*cry myself to bed?*~
~*dont know*~
~*i feel like picking up my phone now*~