.::what a weird person i am::.

~*i am a weird person...*~
~*i think la*~

whatever... somethings happened today... i shall talk one by one... but one of the 2big things that is bugging me today is always on my mind...even when i am lying there sleeping... today... yes... i sleep again... oops...

as he walked beside me, i realise that he is no longer the one that i know...i think things have been like that since the start of the year...after giving him that thing... i swear i will never make anymore...

the thing is... i let him into my life again at that point of time...although it is no longer that intense or he is no longer that major part in my life, but still he came back in... i remembered how i cried that time...

then come to the thing now... i think i should just stop... i think it is pointless... if he choose to tell me, i will be there to listen, if not then whatelse can i do?

then come the second thing which is like on my mind all the time... i realise i am scare... afraid... scare that history will repeat itself... i can say that my mood changed at that time...but still i dont think anyone know... i think i just dont know how to react bah...

i am always thinking... maybe...

i realise something also... i am a freako... everytime when i am alone, i will think about things that i had done that day and the way that i had reacted to things that day...

i came to know that i cried today because i felt helpless... alone, squashed, tickle... what can i do? i asked them to stop but they didnt...

i did the test... some general things about myself... the true me...

careful, high standards, need clear cut boundaries for relationships, will give in rather than argue, prefers not to verbalize feelings, fear criticism...

listener, team player, possessive, predictable, understanding, friendly, reliable, patient, takes long time to adjust to changes, resist changes, senstitive to criticism, fear loss of security....

they all seems negative... ok.. majority seems negative.. haas.. i think that is me... so do you think it is true?

where is my gui ji? rarr... haas...

oh no... sianz... the top song on my list... C=

the lyrics... C=

thats all...

~*smiles*~
~*thats what i want to see on your face*~
~* C= *~