.::a BIG word::.

~*a BIG word*~
~*it is not that BIG afterall*~

TRUST

any idea what that word means?

Assured resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship, or other sound principle, of another person; confidence; reliance; reliance. ``O ever-failing trust in mortal strength!'' --Milton.

got that from www.dictionary.net

it is just one of the many definitions..

it is just such a simple five lettered word... yet have anyone wondered, how difficult it is to deliever whatever that is trusted...

should i say i am gullible or should i say i am stupid, or should i just simply say that he is clever... he made me trusted him so much... i never once doubt him... i dont know why.. maybe the matters involved are nothing big... but yet when the whole world come crashing down and you realise that things dont seem to be that glamourous, i start to wonder why...

he is just someone in my life.. i never once doubt him, i think it is because of the fact that he is not someone of importance to me... and the things are just little things that dont really matter at all...

yet, how does it really feel when you nothing is delievered? i mean.. not like i expected something from him, but i just did not expect lies...

many things in my life... i never expect much in return but at the same time, i never expected something bad in return... nor did i expect my trust to be betrayed...

for the dont know how many time, someone that i never once doubt and has always trusted turn and stirred up some silly thing in my life...

but then, it makes me realise that.. if i ever doubt you, that will mean that you are important to me...

it i difficult to deliver... all the what ifs in life is the big counter parts to the word trust...

both are just as heavy and bulky and difficult to handle...

i realise another thing.. i lose the ability to think for the worst.. is that a good thing? now that i am living in a happy world, i really dont know how to prepare myself for the worst... i mean, my instinct are not working.. i dont know... maybe that is a good thing...

i trust but yet, what if?

mugging and more to come... oh... tomorrow... growth curve test!!! lecture test!!! rarr... haas... mug...

what will tomorrow be like? confused actually.. but i am ok... C=

~*smile*~
~*you are with me*~
~*aren't you?*~
~* C= *~