.::what have she done?::.

~*for all the smiles and laughter that she brought*~
~*i still dont know her*~

she changed.. who changed her? we all know the answer...

she is just no longer the one that i think i used to know...

yes i dont really know her that well even to begin with.. but now she is even more alien-ated than before.. there... going away... and further away into her own world...

how to tell her... it is ok to cry... if it helps and if it makes you feel better..

no point telling you to not cry when tears still continue to flow down...

i cant help... or rather i dont know how to...

i admire her... the front that she put up... how much courage and effort and energy one needs to do that... even i cant...

i rather you let everything out like that than keeping everything inside... i know that feels alot better... that is just what i have been doing recently...

maybe sometime crying yourself to bed helps.. but just make sure you cry and sleep early and not be like me... cry until god-knows what time before i actually sleep...

who to be blamed for whatever that is happening now? no one... all and all.. things come and go dont they? we all know that... just whether we can accept it or not...

come to think of it... i will not know how to handle it if i were her... i mean... losing something so precious..

i dont wish to imagine and i dont wish to think... all the more, i dont wish to try...

i feel like crying now... at least i know.. if i cry now, i will have no tears tomorrow... then i will not get weird looks on bus like those that i got today...

it is time... the time is coming... and please wake her up from her slumber... she cant remain in this sleep... when will she realise that things will be ok soon? learn to accept... what else can she do?

YES...that is just the toughest part...

ya... maybe all of us should just continue to put on this act, as though everything is ok... cause you just never know how much your mood affects others...

i think she knows.. that is why she seems ok... that is why i am even more shocked to know the truth...

`there will just be time when you realise it is not necessary to mask yourself up...
`to protect?
`to show the world that you are ok?
`to not get sympathy?
`when you learn to accept
`you will realise
`all the masking up did not really help at all
`people still knows

~*dont force yourself to smile*~
~*cry it all out*~
~*you have your rights*~