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~*so many things to talk about*~

today... woke up... suddenly dont feel like going school again but i am a good girl so i went... super tired can? oh my... i think i deserve it... cause i slept late last night... i hope i dont take a nap later...

reached school... as usual... crapped in the morning and went for lesson... Biology... i didnt sleep ok... haas...i am wide awake through out the whole thing... then went off to chemistry tutorial... oh my god... 6/20... dont ask me why... i dont know... but consider the amount of time i spent on studies this month, i think that is something alright le bah... then heard from that XXX that my section c also fail... alright then...what can i say? i didnt expect to pass anyone paper right from the start... ok.. i am going to mug from now on...

during biology, i think the thing that kept me awake was my stomach cause i was super hungry cause i did not take breakfast... also that bloody taste in my mouth and throat... and i literally means bloody taste.. i can taste the iron... then i start to wonder is it my throat that or my gums that is bleeding.. the new toothbrush is giving me problems and i still haven got time to go buy another one...

then i think my conclusion is my throat that is bleeding.. but why huh? my sore throat is not that bad...

and oh no... the bad thing now is my temperature is climbing and climbing.. consider the fact that i am feeling quite cool in my room with my aircon on at 24 degree to counter the warmth from the modem, a temperature of 37.0 for me is wrong... no wonder i feel giddy and my face seems weird, or rather warm now...my normal temperature is 36.5.. oh no.. d=my body is just that sensitive to temperature change of my body...

then sleep one period cause free period mah... then went to AVA for movie... Shattered Glass... it is nice... ok... abit draggy though...

then went off for lunch and we crapped alot again... the few of us seem to have isolated ourselves from the class... that seems bad... erm..but... erm...

then went for maths lecture... omg...tired lor... super tired and i really mean tired!!! the mp3 in my ear i also cant stay awake...

then end le... and walked out with samantha and sms and talked on the phone and to the bank and back from the bank and here i am after buying puppy food from lot1 on my way home...

then what now? ok... to the topic... haas... SCANDAL... what a sensitive word ok...

recently so many huh.. going on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on... ok.. i should stop... d=

lunch time, we talked about scandals in the class... erm... dont what-sa-what-man-what-tha and dont know what-i-what-saac...haas... name their children pong ping and ping pong for them by my sisters, i mean suyin the cow and cheryl... haas...

then that cow dont know scandal with who la... erm.. so many days not in school le...

then the father of pong ping and ping pong dont know with that whoever XXX teacher huh... erm dontkn0ow what teacher la.. hate it ok... rarr...i mean... it is ok to put XXX with isaac but HELLO!!! with me? *slaps* please people, if i ever have the chance to show your the photo... i seriously have no idea how he can be a teacher... -.-

then we played around with words and all the scandal stuff... good thing... my friends in school know when to stop... C=

then come to this stupid thing... which is so WHATEVER... just because i tried to help and thats what i got? rarr... getting on my nerves too... someone hear le also not very happy huh... d= but how to shut them up huh? rarr

this thing about scandal.. it can be just so deadly... spread around like no body business... i mean.. just to see people's reaction? i laugh do not mean i am ok with it.. i mean.. i cant control laughter or tears or things like that de...

laugh cause i know it is a joke... but sometimes maybe it is better to get angry? but that seem stupid...i mean unreasonable... whatever lah... why am i so bothered by it?

headache headache... dont even know how i managed to get home...

oh my... i think i really have to sleep early tonight.. i hope i can... C=

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`she used time`in hope for promises`she got promises`but she ended up with nothing ultimately`what is the ending?`why is she alone?`she dont deserve this?`the promises gave her hope`she hoped`she choose the path`she end up where she started off`just that she is now alone`no one there`people promise to be there for her`but do you think she can place her hope on those promises again?`will she dare?`maybe she should have listen to her mother`maybe she should not have choose this path`but what now?`how to tell her she is ok`everyone is concerned`everyone wants to help`she is not alone`she is not back at the same point`how to tell her that?`will i write the same ending in the end?`you know my fears?