.::200th entry::.

~*delicated to who?*~
~*do i really have to say it out?*~
~*things are turning into a joke*~

things are turning into a joke without even me knowing how... there are just alot of things better left unsaid... left unknown to everyone out there...

the conclusion that i made...girls are just senstitive creature... only the clever ones will be able to see this entry...

people are all sensitive creature... like it or not... believe it or not... it is the same horoscope again... as the person... maybe i should just step back?

i mean...no one will know... no one will notice... no one will care... just step back and i will feel better...

was talking to jeremy...then i realise how difficult it is to manage and maintain a relationship... it is something so beyond imagination when you have to do it alone... i mean.. if the other party dont care... you will have to do it alone...

not that i am going through all those now...

anyway...back to what i am thinking... things are turning into a joke... sorry...dont blame me.. i know i played a part in making things the way they are now.. i mean.. a joke... cause i am a coward... that is a total of 8 times for all these while... i am sensitive to numbers also...

maybe there is a reason why you are doing what you are doing.. but i dont know what that reason is.. maybe to make my sunday a better one? i dont know...

i keep thinking that i am hearing the wrong things.. yes.. that is me... i never believe in myself.. that is why i think i am a coward...

i regretted things i do... maybe things should not be like the way they are now? i mean.. slowly... not at this pace... dont know... this seem to be too exothermic... if you know what i mean...

i think i know what i need... i think i can trust... i think maybe i should just trust my tarots this time round... but what can i say? the keys are no longer with me

`ni na me leng jing`hu yuan you hu jing

sorry...i failed to do that... but come to think of it..i did not promise myself anything...

i mean.. i choose not to control...

if you are clever you will be able to see this entry... if you are too clever you will be thinking that this entry is delicated to you...oh whatever

a coward typed this...remember??oh whatever...maybe i will regret that i typed in this entry after it is up... i am like that la... i think you know... i hope you know...

all the time..i want to tell you... 'i hope you know i did'... but... there is always a 'but'...

there are somethings better to be left unknown to everyone out there... C=

including what i am thinking now... dont assume you know what i am thinking now.. dont try to sense... dont expect me to sense... cause my senses are switched off since... hmm... nevermind...

~*i will smile*~
~*when you see me quiet*~
~*you should know what i am doing*~
~*yes*~