.::between those lines::.

~*story*~
~*a SHE in our life*~

She wonders whether she will need someone to lead her there.

Heaven becomes her ultimate destination in her life. Her life on Earth still means
something to her. She should be someone who can decide for herself, some who can
lead the kind of life that she really wants, someone who can decide when to go to
the Heaven that she is longing for.

However, the World, the society and the place that she is living in, left her wth
no choice. Tired, sad, anger, confusion and contradiction is what she is going
through. She still have to live her life on Earth. The only thing that she believe
in, someone will bring her to Heaven.

Though she never knows who the person is, what will the person do, when will the
person come, where will the person be, how will the person come. Her life went on.
Only hope is for the right person to come.

One day, she felt that maybe the time for her to get to Heaven has come.

Someone, someone who never know of her existance came to realise her presence. No
one knows it is by chance or because of fate.

She placed half of her heart on that person, knowing that she cannot give in all
she have. Not that the person do not deserve it, just that she is trying to protect
herself. She know she will be hurt. There is just someone else next to that person.
That person gave her hope. He showed her the door to Heaven but he did not open the
door for her.

To prove that she is ok, she claimed that she dont need to get to Heaven. She lied.
The disappointment sent her to hell. With the person still in her life, she still
choose not tolet go of her belief. She need alot of reasons to convince herself to
let go, but she dont need one to hold on.

She is now in hell. The door way to Heaven seems to be opening up. But she no
longer dares to infer. Not that she choose to stay in hell. Just that she cannot
convince herself that this time round, things are for real. Though she longs to get
to Heaven.

She is confused by whatever that is happening around her. Not knowing whether they
are real, jokes or just a dream. She no longer dres to hope, as she is afraid of
disappointment.

If it is a dream, she will choose not to wake up.

End of story... i think that is the typical story that most girls go through?

anyway...back to my life... everything is still in a mess...

I didnt believe him... i dont know why he changed his nickname... until today... i
knew the truth... yes...i may not like his character, but i still hope that he find
back the real him. hope that what he said in his nickname is just what he is going
to do.

so many unbelieveable things happened recently... alot...and there are just so many
things that i can only think about them myself...

i realised something... time can no longer tell me the answer.. it is whatever that
i do. i no longer have the courage to pickup the tarots at this moment... i dont
dare to think, dont dare to know, dont dare to hope, dont dare to feel, dont dare
to say... lying maybe the only way out...

~*Fluctuations*~
~*MESSY!!!*~
~*will things be ok?*~
~*what will you put in an empty tin?*~
~*i will try to stuff all my memories and feelings in*~