.::I have to be ok::.

~*i realise and i think i know*~

there is nothing i can do except wait now right? so ya...that is just what i am going to do... there is nothing that i can do...

i have a mother who kept finding every opportunity to force me to shed this thing off my shoulder...but NO!!! i think i have to handle this...

i seriously have the urge to tell him... i am now the only one near the party... i fear that by the time something happened and i choose to tell him, it will be way too late... but i know i cannot tell him...anyway...tell him also no use right?

so..yah...wait lor... what else can i do?

dont ask me whether i am ok or not...i dont dare to go online now... so here i am posting and back to work...homework and my chemistry test tomorrow... i hope everything will be ok...

i am praying every morning though i dont really believe in God but i know God is somehow another source for me to find a peace of mind...besides cooping myself up and hidding in my own shell...

today is suppose to be an ok day...until... then got some clever people called me...ask me how to nagvigate the blog...so clever right?

then...yah...things happened... and...

Thank You for being there...i know you dont know what to say... that is normal...cause there is no solution to this thing...

i hope time pass faster... i need an answer now... i have no idea how things are going on and being processed by her...

i almost broke down and cry when i was cutting up the vegetables for dinner... but i know things will be ok... soon... it will be...

can i tell him? haiz...i know i cant...who am i to decide for him to know? so...her choice to let him know or not...

i seriously need to go out... i am thinking of a place... maybe that is just where i will go tomorrow? but it seems abit too far...yishun...there is this nice place to study... maybe can get free drinks also?... i think i need to go out...before silly things get into my brain again...

so anyone want to go out? rarr...

and PLEASE!!! DARYL CHAN XIANG XING... stop telling me silly stuff before the next time i call you a xing xing... cause i am starting to think that you look like one... muahaha

haix...

~*i can only be ok*~
~*so that is just what i will be*~
~* C= *~