.::I am not regreting, just trying to find solution::.

~*please*~
~*i dont regret*~
~*but please find solutions for me*~

i made one conclusion today... i really cannot blame anyone... maybe i should have stick to my choice that i made long ago... i have the choice... i can just stay there and not be where i am now...

not to say i hate whatever that i am facing and handling now but the poor fact that my future is so going to suffer... so i have no one to blame except myself and so i would not regret...

why did i even chose to get into SAJC? i seriously dont remember... i just think that it will be a school with a better culture than acjc... true to be... but now my future... who can assure it? i did play a part but how to excel when the whole school is being restricted by the word so-called integrity?

our PW result suffered and that could just be due to the fact that out teacher are just strictly following the guide lines given by MOE... why are everything done according to book?

then now come the Biology SPA which is tomorrow... we have a serious discussion today.. we made not much conclusion... the whole biology department are just people who are so up right and so bound by the word that they choose to keep their mouth shut... no one leak a single word about what may be coming out until recently... after much pleading from us... you dare say that students from other colleges only know about the question when they sawthe question paper? i doubt that...

i dont blame them for having this upright and correct mindset... i agree to it.. i mean.. it is really correct.. but can the teacher at least agree on somethings? what a choice we were given... 'class choose between the 2 experiments, counting of number of air bubbles or collection of gas using displacement of water'... we did our choice... we choose displacement initially but we were then hinted to use counting number of air bubbles...

everything is so pointless now... cause whatever that we write will only give us a level 6 at most out of level8...

so maybe i should drop this topic...

i am feeling stupid and dumb recently... and i dont really like this kind of feeling... what food should i bring this sunday? hmmm... nothing... chocolate maybe?

i hate this

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somethings do change...

we lead our lives like water, going more or less in one direction until we splash into something that forces us to find a new course...

what is my new course now?

oops... so many outings during june holidays... nevermind.. i am going to mug late into the nights...

i manage to stop someone... muahaha... sorry.. i am evil... but i dont care..

getting from bad to worse le recently... i mean me... i was talking to my friends today and then a guy infront turned as though he heard something astonishing... and the moment he turned back... the next thing i said was 'why he so kpo?'

another thing... before lecture... when the jc1 were clearing out of the cultural centre... they are really taking a long long time... and my friends started 'reprimanding' me for getting to the wrong row... then i started saying.. 'not my fault.. why they so slow lor...' and it is obvious i am refering to the jc1s.. oops...

i am getting more and more bad... sorry...haha.. but i had a happy breakfaat today... and tomorrow will be happy breakfast too... cause i will have the whole bag of raisin chocolate...

haha... tomorrow... i will have to write like mad... so please wish me lots of luck.. cause i dont really write very fast huh... rarr... english and biology spa...

~*thats all*~
~*yawnz*~
~*i think i need a nap*~
~* d= *~