.::my nails.is it more than just my nails?::.

~*Things dont seem right*~
~*but i know i am still standing in the rain*~
~*with whatever that may come along*~

i have rather weak nails andstill i enjoyed doing funny things to them, adding colours, keeping them long

what do i get in the end besides weaker nails and chipped ones?

the more i am polishing them, the more i am prepared for chipped nails in the end... i think i am just enjoying the joy that last only

for a wjile when my nails still look nice with those colours on...

i realise i lead my life the same way too... though i know i will most probably suffer in the end, i still seek that joy or happiness that i once felt in my life..

but come to think of it, who don't?

maybe i am more extremed... that maybe the reason why my life seems to be in a mess now... all screwed up and feeling stupid...

i made decision and i change my minds most of the time after that... but in know i would not regret it this time round, provided hat i find the sources of courage to hold on...

i only wanted PEACE... i dont know when i will explode...

when you realise that you are the only one holding on while the others dont seem to care, you will start to wonder whether it is worth it all.. you can get real tired at times...

i know... i think i know the ultimate answer...

as if he will change... all my life... i bet i should not be thinking of changing... instead i should be learning to get used to them...

yet, i know i am still doing things that i know i will not get the answer in the end...

the irony... I AM STILL HOLDING ON.. hoping that tinge of happiness and peace at home... yet wondering when things will finally come to an end or rather, come to a good and happy end...

if this is all that you think it is, then maybe you are so so wrong.. i hope that prayers works... but i come to realise sometimes they dont...

i hope to know that tarots are for real.. but when they are contradictory, you will start to wonder...

there are just so many things that i am wondering now...

i need to wonder how to finish my english comprehension by monday... 2 comprehension.. ok... fine.. it is not alot... but when you dont have your mind with you, it is really quite alot...

北极雪

用心好好感觉
然后你才能够看得见 快乐伤悲
也许我的眼泪 我的笑脸
只是完美的表演

~*So it is more than just my nails*~
~*smiles*~
~*that is what i want to see on our faces*~